I tried my best, I ran out of the door as fast as I could, but my belly was so big, my baby was about to be born, how could I still have the strength, how could I still have speed.

How can you do this to me, how can you do this to me.

Juanyu grabbed my hand, he tried to hold me, I struggled to break free from him, and we tugged at the door of the peninsula.

But how could I forget that there was a flight of stairs in front of the Peninsula Gate, and I was still holding on to the handrail when I came up just now.

I struggled to break free, Zhuoyu hugged me tightly, I bit his hand, and I ran away as soon as he gave him his hand. If I hadn't run away, if I hadn't been in a hurry to go down, how could I have fallen, how could I have rolled down the stairs.

When I rolled down, I heard Xu Wei's scream and heard Zhuo Yu's cry of pain.

I rolled all the way down, the hard stairs hit my stomach one by one, and I tried to protect my baby and my belly, but it was so sudden, so terrible, that I finally rolled to the bottom, and when I stopped rolling, I really felt the pain. There was a burst of warmth in the lower body, a trickle of warmth like a gentle touch, I watched the two of them run down like crazy, I also saw Xu Wei's tears when I fainted, and I also saw that Lianyu was as nervous as ever.

Mom, if love had a providential will, what do you think I should do now? Mom, I'm really hurt, I'm so hurt that I can't find anyone to talk to, I'm so hurt that people all over the world can no longer trust and rely on, Mom, I really miss you. I really want to go to you.

I was in a dream in which I saw my mother. I seem to be very small, I just think my mother is very young, she carries me through the crowd, I don't know what she is going to do. Mom, she gasped slightly, carrying me with her luggage, as if she was going to run away from something quickly, and I could feel my mother's nervousness and depression in my dreams.

After a while, there was another scene, I was holding a child with my mother, the child was crying so badly, we didn't know how to coax him, he cried so much that his little hands and feet kicked around, and my heart was broken when I cried. I wanted to touch the child, to hum something to coax him not to cry, but I couldn't make a sound as if I was gagged.

In the blink of an eye, my mother took the children and left, they slowly walked away, slowly disappeared, I couldn't catch up, no matter how I shouted they didn't look back.

Mom, where are you going, where are you going with your children?

In my dreams I was alone, no one appeared, no one helped me, I felt like I was in an environment, a place I didn't know what it was, I ran back and forth but couldn't get out.

I woke up in the hospital, with white walls, white ceilings, and the sound of medical equipment.

I don't seem to feel any more pain, maybe I'm dead, maybe I'm too numb from the pain.

"Xingzhu, you're awake."

Juanyu sat on the edge of the bed, he grabbed my hand tightly, his hand was so cold, still trembling, his eyes were red and swollen and bloodshot, he shed tears as soon as he spoke, how could he have so many tears?

Xu Wei sat in the corner, her hair was disheveled, she looked very haggard and embarrassed, she looked like she had just come back to life.

Dad sat on the other side of the bed, and as soon as he saw me wake up, he hurried over and touched my head, and when he did this, he shed a string of tears, Dad, how could I make you so sad.

There were just a few of us in the room, and they were all crying, but I wasn't crying, and I struggled to sit up, I wanted to stand up, I wanted to go out, I wanted to go and see.

"What about my child, what about my child?" I was hysterical, I came to hug me, I pushed him away with all my strength, my stomach was empty, I no longer said I was tired, I no longer felt inconvenient, I could no longer feel him kicking me, "You get out, get out." ”

I was almost crazy, biting and scratching at Zhuoyu, I scratched his face out of blood, I bit the back of his hand hard and didn't let go, I bit down hard, a piercing sensation, and a fishy sweet smell gushed out of my mouth. Zhuoyu, how can you hurt me so deeply, how can you be like this.

"You all go, all of you let me go," I was pulled away by my father, I was held in his arms by my father and couldn't move anymore, how could he be an old man with more strength than me, "Dad, my child is gone, Dad." "I cried like a child, my dad hugged me tightly, he was like my mom, his arms were as warm as my mom, I was quiet in his arms and stopped shouting.

"Good boy, good boy, Xingzhu is a good boy, don't cry. Daddy is here, Daddy is here. "Daddy's voice seemed to come from the clouds, as gentle as when my mother called me in a dream.

"Daddy, save me." The drowning feeling in the dream came again, I couldn't grasp anything, just groping around, but as soon as my father hugged me, I was suddenly saved, I grabbed this life-saving hand hard, I want to live, I want to live. "Dad, I want to live, I don't want to die."

Xu Wei was standing behind her father, she cried into tears, she seemed to be thinner and haggard than a few days ago, and her face was thin and pointed.

Xu Wei said that she was pregnant, the child was my husband's, I was her sister, but she was pregnant with my husband's child.

All of them were crying, and I forgot that I should cry too, and I was the one who should cry the most.

"Dad, I want to see the child." I touched my empty, soft belly, which should have been full, what should have been heavy and kicking, "I want to see the child." ”

"Xingzhu, you are good, Dad is by your side, are you okay to listen to Dad, let's lie down and rest, okay?" Dad tried to let me lie down, but he gently held my head and let me lie down.

"I don't," I screamed, pushing his hand away, I'm going to see the kid, I'm going to see what's wrong with him, "I'm going to see, I'm going to see my kid go, Daddy, take me there." ”

As I spoke, I lifted the quilt and got out of bed, and the other two people in the room, they looked at each other.

One is my husband my husband, and the other is my friend my sister, they are two of my dearest and trusted people.

"Xingzhu, don't you want this, don't do this, okay?" Juanyu came over to hug me, his hands were still bleeding, and the back of his hands was red and bright. When he spoke, he was almost incomplete because of his choked throat.

"What do I not want?" I smiled, I couldn't break free of his embrace, I let him hold me tightly and didn't let go, "Your hand must be very painful, right?" ”

Zhuo Yu didn't speak, his stubble was dense like a weed, and I felt disgusted when I saw him.

"Your hands are bleeding, you must be in pain, right?" I was still chattering, and I looked at him and smiled at him, "You know, I'm in pain too, I'm bleeding a lot, I'm in a lot of pain, I'm 10,000 times more in pain than you." ”

"Xingzhu, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Chuan Yu cried and said that he tried his best to get close to me and hug me, so I tried my best to break free from him, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry." ”

"You're not sorry for me, you're sorry for your children, you're sorry for yourself."

We were in a stalemate, one hugging the other, as if we were still joking a thousand times before, but we could never go back to the past.

"I'm going to see the child, I'm going to take one last look, if you have the heart, take me to see the last look, otherwise I won't be at ease when I die." I was almost threatening him, I squeezed his bleeding hand fiercely, "You can see how much I hurt, how much I hate you, if you don't take me to see the child, I will never let you see me again in my life." ”

I looked at Xu Wei again, she cried into tears, the same as when I refused to see my father before. She's still my friend, my sister, but I'll never go back to her.

I stumbled forward, I held on to the drip rack, step by step to find my child, who had been quietly in his mother's womb yesterday waiting for birth, and today he had gone to another place. Baby, mom is sorry for you in this life.