Ding dong.

The elevator stopped on the fourth floor.

Footsteps sounded in the corridor, as if pacing, as if with a kind of hesitation.

Knock knock.

The visitor stopped, stretched out his hand and knocked on the door.

A gentle voice soon came from inside: "Please come in." ”

The visitor subconsciously straightened his waist, exhaled deeply, and pushed open the simple wooden door.

Squeak.

As the wooden door slowly opened, the visitor subconsciously looked up.

The blue and white design style, the retro copper-plated tables and chairs, the bookshelf is full of case files, there is an ink painting hanging on the wall, and there is a faint woody fragrance in the room.

Just like the man sitting at the table and looking down at a book, the people and things in the whole room have a gentle and comfortable feeling, which makes the pent-up tension in the hearts of the visitors dissipate a little invisibly.

"Here we are, Q."

The man raised his head and lifted his glasses, looking at the visitor with a soft smile: "How are you feeling lately?" ”

The caller, called Q, sat down on the couch at his desk, exhaled as long as before, and whispered, "I feel better, sir." ”

With that, Q's hand reached into his pocket, and he subconsciously wanted to pull out something.

But looking at the neat clinic, and the man in the white coat sitting in the leather seat, he still timidly gave up.

"Q, don't be so reserved, aren't we friends?"

The man saw Q's predicament, but smiled gently, stood up, and took out another pack of soft-box cigarettes.

"People often say that the world is hard, and the world is indeed sad."

The man's fingers touched the smooth tabletop, walked around the table behind Q, put one hand on the chair Q was sitting on, and handed the thin cigarette to Q.

"So, why don't you have fun in time, Q?"

Q hesitated for a moment, but took the cigarette he handed him and said politely, "Thank you, sir." ”

The man also took a cigarette from the cigarette case, patted his pocket, and fumbled again.

"Borrow a fire, Q." The man smiled.

Q was stunned, and after reacting, he hurriedly took out his lighter.

Call~

Take a deep breath of smoke through your lungs, hold your breath, and finally exhale the white mist.

Standing behind Q, the man lowered his eyes slightly, and the white mist slowly rose.

Under the light of the openwork chandelier, the white mist gradually turned pale blue.

"Ahem! Cough! Q coughed for a long time, but he breathed a sigh of relief.

"What to drink?" The man walked over to the water cooler, "Tea?" Or coffee? ”

"Coffee bar." Q said subconsciously.

"Let's still warm water." The man took out the paper cup, lowered his head and smiled, "I hope you can sleep well when you go back." ”

“…… Oh. Q was stunned at first, and responded obediently.

"Be careful, it's a little hot." The man handed over the hot water, then sat back in his chair and asked with a smile, "Have you finished reading those books I asked you to read?" ”

Q held the warm water cup in both hands, felt the heat rush into his body, shook his head and said apologetically, "Sorry, sir, I haven't read it all yet." ”

With that, he put down his bag and pulled out a few books.

"Micro-Expressions", "Psychogenic Mental Disorder", and "The study on......" Q stumbled as he pulled out the book.

"The study on agoraphobia."

The man picked up the ballpoint pen on the table, pressed the button at the end of the pen with some inexplicable frequency, and asked with a smile: "How do you feel, can you understand?" ”

Q nodded and shook his head again: "I've finished reading "Micro Expressions", I feel very interesting, and "Psychogenic Mental Disorder" is almost the same, but this ...... "Research on Phobia" hasn't had time to watch it yet." ”

"It's okay, it's normal, and for you, these books are indeed a little deeper."

The man's tone was gentle and steady, the ballpoint pen fluttered between his fingers, and he smiled slightly: "Fear of absenteeism, simply put, is a person's fear of any situation that can make him helpless and afraid. ”

Fear of scarcity, originally referring specifically to the fear of open places, is also known as "fear of going out".

However, in the book recommended by the gentleman, the scope of the illness has been expanded to refer to the patient's fear of any situation that can cause him to feel helpless and panicked.

"Hmm." Hearing this, Q thought for a moment and muttered, "For example, fear of heights? Do I count like this? ”

"Pretty much." The man smiled and did not correct.

"Sir, you are really good, you know so much." Q took a deep breath and lowered his head and said, "If I could be as knowledgeable as you, I guess I could see myself clearly." ”

"Healers can't heal themselves, and people can't heal themselves, so it's good to have a basic understanding of their own illness." The man pressed the button of the ballpoint pen and said softly, "By the way, how about the method I taught you last time, is it effective?" ”

“…… OK. ”

"Really? But your face isn't good. The man pointed to his face and smiled a little helplessly, "Is it still because of that?" The one you're scared of? ”

“…… Well, yes. Listening to the flickering click in his ears, Q nodded hesitantly.

"So, can you tell me what you're afraid of?"

Q was stunned for a moment, looked down at the flaming smoke in his hand, and fell silent.

After a while, he said in a low tone, "Sir, I was wondering, can you increase the amount of my medicine?" ”

The man slowly exhaled the white mist, shook his head, and said, "Q, you are already taking five different psychotropic drugs. ”

"But it's useless!" Q's tone suddenly became rapid, but he paused again, "Sorry, I mean...... They only worked for a few days, and that time it was no longer working. ”

“……”

Silence, long silence

All that was left of the room was the sound of breathing and heartbeat, as well as the subtle sound of cigarettes burning.

"Q, look me in the eye."

The man's gentle tone was a little tougher, which also made Q subconsciously raise his head.

I saw those blue eyes as deep as the night sky.

"I want to help you." The man stared into Q's eyes, his expression became serious, and his voice was low but still gentle, "So, I hope you can trust me and look me in the eye like this." ”

Hearing this, Q's gray eyes shone a little more.

Do you really want to help me?

Mr. seems to be different from the guy who can only talk empty words, but he can be a rotten thing who comes to cheat money after taking the psychological counseling test.

"I actually ......" Q exhaled deeply, whispered his fears, and lowered his head again.

"Is that so?" The man's ballpoint pen turned in his hand and he muttered, "I once knew a person who didn't dare to go out alone. ”

"Later, it developed to the point that she couldn't do it alone at home, and she needed someone to accompany her."

“…… Why? Q was stunned for a moment, and his face showed doubt, "Is this also a type of phobia?" ”

"Yes, it's also a manifestation of phobia."

The man bowed slightly, and said with a smile: "This person has been pampered since she was a child, and someone arranged everything for her, and she has developed an arrogant and strong character like a princess, and she is also dependent on her parents and friends when she grows up, because she subconsciously has a childlike attachment need." ”

"But on a conscious level, she still refuses to admit this childish need, so she relies on the horror of 'phobia' to impose the obligation that others must accompany her."

Q nodded as if he didn't understand, and subconsciously asked, "Did she get cured later?" ”

"Of course." The man nodded without hesitation, and said in a firm tone, "Medication combined with behavioral therapy, she was cured quickly." ”

"Oh." Q's eyes flickered, and he muttered quietly, "It doesn't seem like it's hopeless." ”

"Of course." The man smiled dumbly, as if he felt that the other party's worries were a little fussed, and then pressed his palm slightly, "Lie on the sofa, let you relax." ”

Q lay down as usual, leaning on the pillow facing east, staring at the openwork chandelier on the ceiling.

After a few moments, the gentle music sounded, and I felt a pair of hands pressed lightly on my temples.

Q's expression became tired, his eyelids closed slightly, and his slightly tense body gradually relaxed.

"You just think you're resting, and do as I say."

The man's flat voice came and said, "First, adjust your body to the most comfortable position, then relax your body and slowly take deep breaths. ”

"Is that so?" Q's breathing fluctuates gradually.

"yes, good, exhale slowly, um, do it again, inhale deeply, exhale, what kind of environment do you like?"

“…… Seaside. Q's lips opened and closed slightly, and his answer became sluggish.

"Okay, now imagine yourself lying on the beach, the sea breeze is cool and comfortable, and the waves are rhythmically lapping against the reef, swish, swish, and sound."

"Can you feel your heart? Feel every part of your body with your mind. ”

Q felt that the sound in his ears was getting softer and gentler, and the waves were generally near and far.

The gently rubbed head gradually relaxed.

Chest, back, abdomen, arms, legs......

The whole body became more and more relaxed, relaxed as if floating in the clouds.

"How are you feeling now?"

Only the man's peaceful voice could be heard in the room, and Q's breathing was so slow that it could not disturb the air.

"It's ...... Comfortable, very ...... It is easy and seems to have ...... White light. Q's voice was low and trance-like, like a dream whisper.

"Good." The man's hands slowly withdrew, and there was a faint golden glow in his eyes, "Don't chase the light, moving forward in the dark will only go farther and farther, what you have to do is call." ”

"Call up those things you have forgotten, listen to those voices that you have ignored."

"Can you hear me?"

"Can you smell it?"

"Can you ...... See? ”

As the soft sound came into his ears, Q's eyeballs gradually began to move rapidly under his eyelids.

"I ...... I'm in the room...... You have to finish your homework before you can go out and play...... Dad & Mom ...... ......In the quarrel, Q's blank voice became immature and lively.

"And after that?"

"I ...... Watching the children outside play games...... Q's voice became envious and longing, "There is a boy who is playing tricks...... I don't admit it every time I lose......"

"Well, and then what?"

"They're gone...... Mom is throwing things again...... I put on my headphones ......" Q's tone gradually changed from sad to frightened, "they're so noisy...... It's getting noisier...... What's wrong...... It's so hot! ”

"Speak up." The man squinted, "What do you see?" ”

"Fire! Smoke...... No! Father...... Mom...... Don't ......"

Breathing suddenly became rapid, and the body began to cramp violently.

"Well, that's just a dream, a nightmare." The golden light in the man's eyes gradually dissipated, and his tone became gentle again, and he whispered, "Can you still see the white light?" ”

“…… Yes. Q's convulsive body trembled slightly.

"You'll wake up from that dream when I count from three to zero, okay?"

“…… Good. ”

"Good." The man put his hand on Q's temple and rubbed it gently, "3, 2, 1, 0." ”

At this moment, the refreshing sound of the wind dissipated with the sound of the waves, and Q couldn't help but take a deep breath, and the sea water that lingered on the tip of his nose gradually dissipated, replaced by the scent of sandalwood.

"How does it feel?" The man naturally withdrew his hand and asked in a gentle tone, "Do you feel more relaxed after an hour of deep sleep?" ”

"Hmm~" Q rubbed his eyes and looked at the chandelier blankly, "Sir, did you light any special incense?" I don't know why, but every time I come to you, it will be a little easier. ”

"Exclusive secret recipe, no remarks." The man smiled softly and put down the ballpoint pen in his hand, "Q, have you ever considered getting a cat?" ”

"Cats?" Q's head hasn't turned yet.

"yes, I just thought about it." The man nodded and said slowly, "Animals are good companions, they may not be able to talk to you like humans, but when you are alone in a quiet space, it can make you forget about loneliness for a while." ”

Q's eyes gradually became clearer, and after a moment of silence, he nodded: "I will...... But, sir, can I still get medication? ”

"Although I don't recommend that you increase the dosage of medicine, I still can't bear to make you so painful."

The man sighed helplessly, and took out a wooden box from the drawer: "Don't take the previous medicine anymore, the things in it will be injected once a week until the medicine is used up." ”

Q sat up from the couch, took the wooden box and gently opened it.

Inside the box was a needleless syringe and three curved-neck foldable ampoules.

Q remembers that I have seen this syringe on the Internet before, and it seems that it is used by diabetics to inject insulin.

And that curved-necked easy-to-fold ampoule contained a mellow red liquid.

"May I ask?" Looking at the red liquid, Q felt inexplicable palpitations, "Is this...... What is it? ”

"Don't worry, it's not contraband." Seeing the other party's expression, the man couldn't help but laugh a little, and gently pressed the ballpoint pen, "To solve any problem, you have to find the key, especially heart disease, I have found the source of your fear, so are you willing to believe me, Q?" ”

After a moment, Q nodded slowly.

"Yes, I would like to believe you, so will you help me, sir?"

"Haven't I been helping you?"

"Thank you."

"You're welcome, we're friends, right?" The man smiled and shook his head, "I only have one request, to keep it secret for me, okay?" ”

“…… Good. ”

"Huh." The man whispered appreciatively, "Good boy." ”

(End of chapter)