Two days have passed, and your acceptance letter has never arrived.

Haihe under dark clouds is like a silent old man. The gloomy river is no longer as vibrant as it used to be. From time to time, a fishing boat would quietly paddle across the river, and in the blink of an eye, it would disappear into the vastness. The two of us looked at the gloomy Haihe River by the railing, and both of us were very depressed.

I try my best to comfort you: "Wait a little longer! Maybe as soon as he opens his eyes tomorrow, the postman Da Feng will come to the door and shout - Ou Xiaoya takes a poke! You knew that I was trying to make you happy, so you smiled sadly and said the words that were suppressed in the bottom of your heart: "Don't make me happy! I have inquired, and all those who have been admitted to the conservatory have been notified. I'm off the list again! "I don't believe it's true, how can it be? You did so well in the exam. You sighed and said, "To be honest, my professional exam is really good, and I played very well on the spot, which is what the teacher in the examination room said." I don't dare to say how good I did in the cultural class, but I definitely passed the score line of the art school. Baozi, did someone go through the back door and hit me, or is there another reason. I laughed at you at the beginning, but it turned out that I was beating my mouth, and I really wanted to find a crack in the ground to get into! ”

I was so sad to see your depressed look, how I wish it was you and not me who would be admitted to college! However, the harsh reality before us left me at a loss. I always have a bad feeling, could it be because of your bad background? However, I don't dare to say this, for fear that you won't be able to bear it.

At this time, Wu Jingyuan suddenly appeared with a shout.

I looked at Wu Jingyuan coldly, and I was bored with it, so I asked him sarcastically: "Wu Jingyuan, why didn't we see you in the examination room?" Wu Jingyuan looked very embarrassed, but then put on a very indignant look and said: "I'm reining in the precipice!" I don't lie to you, I'm really pulling back from the precipice! Nowadays, when I am admitted to university, I don't rely on real talent, but on good or bad background. I'm a capitalist young master, even if I get a flower in the exam, I have to stand aside. The current universities recruit the children of workers, peasants and soldiers, and do not train bourgeois dogs. Don't you believe me? My cousin is from the Education Bureau, can he be wrong in what he said? ”

My heart shook, and sure enough, I guessed it.

You shouted at Wu Jingyuan angrily, your cousin is a stinky head, and ran away in a hurry. I caught up with you, grabbed your hand and said, "How can you believe Wu Jingyuan's words?" With his two brushes, he didn't even dare to enter the examination room, and he deserved to make irresponsible remarks? Besides, his grandfather opened a tofu house, and his father was a broker, so he was also a capitalist? Xiaoya, if you want to open some, isn't it just a bullshit academy? What's the big deal! You threw fire on me at once, and said angrily: "Anyway, you are admitted, so you prevaricate me with these boundless words!" The music industry admires the academic school, do you understand? I can't get a diploma, no matter how good I play the piano, who will admit it? If I don't do well in the exam, I can try harder. If I had a bad background, my life's ideals would have been shattered forever. Why do they only focus on their backgrounds and don't look at their grades? Is not my blood red? I can't answer your question, so I can only try to comfort you by saying, "Sensei is so pessimistic. If you really fall off the list, I won't go to Nankai University. When you hear this, you almost shout: "Nonsense! I finally got in, why don't you go? ”

I was speechless for a moment, not knowing what to say to appease you. Seeing that your tears of grief finally fell uncontrollably, he held your hand and shook it gently, and said helplessly: "Cry, cry out and feel happy!" No one can accept that it falls on anyone's head. Instead, you took out your handkerchief and wiped the tears from your face, saying, "What's the use of crying?" Let's go, go home! ”

We left Haihe, and no one was willing to speak along the way. The streets are still the same, but they seem so long. Seeing that I had walked to the old place where I usually broke up, I couldn't help but stand still. You look at me and say to me very calmly, "It doesn't matter. Mourning is greater than dying. Let's go back in one piece! ”

To be honest, I am very happy and grateful that you are no longer taboo to walk into Yijing with me. But you coldly came up with a sentence of "mourning, nothing is greater than heart death", but it made me so entangled. At that time, my brain was a mess and I had almost lost my normal thinking. So, I nodded subconsciously and walked slowly towards Yijingli as you walked slowly.

The two of us walked into Yijingli, and when we were about to break up at your doorstep, I asked you, "Are you still waiting for you at the old place tomorrow morning?" "You didn't seem to hear my question, and walked away without saying a word. As you walked, you suddenly turned around and told me: "Baozi, you must go to college, that is a bridge to your ideals, do you hear?" I mumbled in a sullen voice. Xiaohime, at the moment we parted, do you know how sad I felt in my heart? I don't know what you're thinking or what you're going to do when you get hit like this? I'm really afraid that you will lose control of your emotions for a while and do something stupid.

My worries are not unfounded, you go back to your room, grab your textbook and tear it up desperately. Tearing and tearing, the tears rolled down. You finally couldn't hold back your grief and anger, and you burst into tears. Torn textbooks were also scattered all over the ground. Your mother heard your cry, pushed the door in a panic and ran in and asked, "Xiaoya, what's wrong?" You threw yourself into your mother's arms and cried out loudly, "Mom! What is my dad bad for, why does he have to be a capitalist? ”

My mother explained with tears in her eyes: "Your father is a national capitalist, and he also contributed to the War of Resistance and the fight against Lao Jiang. Five or six years of public-private partnerships, he was the first to stand up and respond positively. Patriotic national capitalists belong to the people and still occupy the position of a star on the national flag! You burst into tears, choked up, and said, "In that case, why aren't the children of the capitalists allowed to go to college?" Mother was stunned, but she immediately understood that you had fallen off the list again. She wiped her tears for you and said, "You have worked hard to get into college, which is good!" As for whether you can be admitted or not, what does it matter? As soon as you were born, you were branded as a class, and Mom and Dad are sorry for you! You said to your mother, "You gave me life and gave me a comfortable and warm home, but you still have to say sorry to me, is there any reason in heaven?" Mom, I don't blame you. I just want to be quiet for a while, okay? ”

Your mom nodded and walked out of the room in silence.

The overcast sky, with dark clouds obscuring the sun, was pregnant with a storm. At night, it rained heavily, washing the beautiful city of Tianjin. The weather that was originally a little hot has become so cool and fresh. However, the dark clouds that hung over our hearts did not dispel.

I remember that night, I saw that the lights in your room were not turned off, and I guess you must still be struggling with whether you were admitted to the conservatory. As a result, I also pondered it, and it was late and late before I fell asleep. I didn't expect this sleep, so I overslept. As soon as my eyes opened, it was not far from the time of my appointment with you, so I hurriedly got up to wash my face and brush my teeth. I combed my hair in front of the small mirror, and combed and combed, and there was a handful of hair on the top of my head that was always up to the sky, and I couldn't hold it down. I spat in my palm, rubbed it on the handful of hair, and pressed it down with my comb. Unexpectedly, this action happened to be seen by my mother when she walked in. She slapped me on the back of the skull and said, "Wipe anything good on my head!" I smiled and said, "The hair on the monkey's butt has grown to my head, and I can't press it." My mother cleaned the room for me and said, "What's the use of a bare head?" Make the house look like a kennel, and no one's daughter will be your daughter-in-law. Go ahead, your dad called you! ”

I said yes, wiped my hair in the small mirror, and walked out of the room. I jumped down the stairs two or three steps to the door of the big house, and saw my dad sitting on a chair tuning the huqin, so he asked loudly, "Dad, is there something wrong with me?" My dad asked me, "How did you practice the "Zhao's Orphan" you just learned?" I stood in the doorway and absentmindedly said, "Ah...... Well...... You alright! My dad played the huqin twice, set the tone and said, "Tell me two sentences." I looked at the wall clock on the wall, and when I saw that it was time to date you, I said anxiously, "Dad, people still have something!" My dad's brows furrowed: "If you don't go to work, what's the matter?" If you practice the copper hammer face well, maybe you will be able to make a difference! ”

As my dad spoke, he beat the gong and drum in his mouth, shook his head and pulled up the door of Xipi. I took advantage of the opportunity for him to listen to the strings with his ears sideways, and ran away. I jumped and jumped down the stairs, and I heard my dad shout angrily: "Jianming! Jianming! You little bunny! Then I heard my mother say, "The child has a date, why do you keep pestering him?" My dad yelled at my mom, "This little bastard, it's a pity that he has a good voice!" My mother didn't show weakness: "What did you do earlier, only then did you remember to ask him to learn to sing!" ”

Speaking of which, my old man is also from a large family. Since childhood, he has studied private school, not only has a good foundation in Chinese, but also writes well with a brush. Especially the fly-headed Xiaokai, that's really a must. When he opened his mouth and closed his mouth, he said, "Half of the Analects of the Analects of the Analects of the world of the world, and half of the Analects of the Analects of the world." Under his influence, I also fell in love with poetry and songs, and I also read "Guwen Guan Zhi" very well. At that time, my grandfather really expected my father to become a pillar, but he was obsessed with the pear orchard and played the huqin well. When the railway was dry, it was already a famous ticket in Tianjin. Now that he has resigned from public office, it is logical to go to the sea. He hears that I have a good voice, and I am a material for singing copper hammer flowers. Unfortunately, I wanted to be a writer and had no interest in Peking Opera, which made him feel sorry for me.

Sweating profusely, I rushed to the old place where we were dating, waiting for you, but I never saw you. For a long, long time, I figured that you wouldn't come, so I returned to Yijing in a big way. The empty alley was as silent as death, and there was not even a single figure. It was so quiet, so lonely, that I felt extremely lonely.

I went back to my cabin, and with some trepidation raised my binoculars and looked out of your window. However, the pale blue curtains hung from the window, and it was impossible to see the scene inside the house.

At this time, a hand suddenly snatched the telescope from my hand, and I turned my head to see that it was Wu Jingyuan again. I was so angry that I almost shouted, "What are you doing again?" Wu Jingyuan didn't answer, and raised his binoculars to spy on your window with a smile on his face. I snatched the binoculars and shouted, "Get out!" Get out! Wu Jingyuan sat down and said, "Why are you so fierce?" I said angrily, "You made a lot of nonsense in front of Ou Xiaoya, and you wanted to harm her, didn't you?" Wu Jingyuan said reasonably: "Regarding the university entrance examination, I just told a few big truths, why do you blame me?" Is it wrong to tell her to understand the truth of the matter, to stop being whimsical, and to tell her to be a man in peace? I almost yelled, "Are you at peace?" You know that Ou Xiaoya hates you, but you try to get close, isn't that whimsical? Wu Jingyuan sneered and said: "Infatuated with someone, that's my power, you can't interfere with this." As soon as I dragged Wu Jingyuan up, I moved out of the house and pushed: "This is my home!" Get out! Get out! Get lost! ”

Wu Jingyuan's face couldn't be hung up, red as a purple eggplant. He saw that I was really angry, and he was afraid that I would be rude, so he left angrily. I blasted Wu Jingyuan away, and picked up the binoculars to spy on your window. I seem to have an ominous premonition, I always think that something is going to happen to you, so I threw away the telescope at once, opened my loud voice at your window, and sang desperately: The mountains and rivers are beautiful and the sun is high, so good and the wind is fluttering/I am thinking about you, you, I think about it sincerely/For the sweetheart, I can't sleep/I'm just afraid that I can't find it, so how good am I. Singing and singing, the voice became more and more out of tune. Where is this singing, it has simply become a hoarse requiem. Just as I was pulling my neck and singing more and more anxiously, I suddenly saw you appear at the window, and then I saw you tugging at the curtain and suddenly falling down. I shouted, and ran out of my hut in a frenzy.

I rushed out of the courtyard door, ran to the door of your house in three steps and two steps, and pushed the door vigorously, but the inside was locked and not opened. At this time, the lame man limped over and shouted at me, what is the matter? I didn't care about the lame, so I desperately climbed over the wall.

I rushed through the door, ran up the stairs, slammed open your door, and saw you lying under the window. I threw myself over and lifted you up, shouting, "Xiaoya! Shinoa! What's wrong with you? You speak! "However, you lay in my arms and there was no reaction. Suddenly, I found the bottle of sleeping pills on the ground, and I immediately understood. I picked you up on my back, rushed out of the room, down the stairs, and out of the courtyard door of your house. The ghostly lame man saw me running along the alley with you on his back, limping and shouting, "What's wrong?" What's wrong? ”

Later, I heard from Aunt Wang that the lame man chased him to the mouth of the alley, and when he saw me holding you and getting into a tricycle, he limped straight to the police station. The police station acted very quickly, and soon found out that I sent you to the nearest public security hospital, and found out that you committed suicide. Police officer Xiao Huang immediately came to the office of the neighborhood committee and held an emergency public security meeting to investigate your situation. The cripple has found something to do, and he has elevated your suicide to a serious political issue. He went online and talked about it, and the more he talked about it, the more he lost his boundary. Xiao Huang, a steady policeman, just silently made notes.

The cripple said, your father is a big capitalist, and your mother is also a famous lady from a famous family in the old society. Since the launch of the "Four Cleans", your parents have been the focus of scrutiny. What else to say, children from such families must be dissatisfied with socialism. The policeman Xiao Huang asked the lame man to tell him about your specific performance, and he said openly that before you committed suicide, you would play the piano all day long. The ones that are played are all some of the glamorous sounds that promote the cultivation of Feng Zixiu, and he can't name foreign tunes, so he knows a "Liang Zhu". He went so far as to say nonsense, knowing that you can't fight against the dictatorship of the proletariat, you fantasize about turning into a butterfly and escaping from all kinds of clarity. The lame man also said that the great leader Chairman Mao pointed out a long time ago that the reactionary class has never voluntarily withdrawn from the stage of history. If you don't fight anything reactionary, it won't fall. This is also the same as sweeping the floor, the broom is not reached, and the dust does not run away on its own as usual. As long as you firmly grasp the fox's tail, no matter how deeply hidden the class enemy will not be able to escape.

The policeman Xiao Huang closed the notebook and said to the lame man steadily: "If the situation you report is true, Ou Xiaoya must be a social discontentee. However, most of the crimes you just talked about are your conjectures, so how can this be evidence? "The lame man made a big fuss, but he was not convinced. He hoped that the policeman Xiao Huang would support his views, but he just didn't express his position. My God, with such a mourning star, can we be quiet?