In the small courtyard of the inpatient department, on the branches of the old locust tree, two small birds were chirping. The melodious cry brought joy to people. I heard that the small and brightly colored bird is called the yellow-rumped willow warbler, also known as the willow string or the locust string, and it feeds on honey worms. Because it is difficult to raise, many birders forget about it, so it seems mysterious. However, the Yellow-rumped Warbler has a very strong desire to survive, and they seem to be calling you to wake up quickly. Yes, maybe it was the cry of the yellow-rumped willow warbler that woke you up.

In the haze, you slowly open your eyes. When you see the silent white world, I stand by your side. I grabbed your hand tightly, tears of excitement welling up in my eyes. You didn't understand for a while, where are you lying? How can I stay by your side? When you look around blankly, you realize that this is a hospital.

Gradually, you regain your mind and your memory.

You told me that you had a very strange dream that you were wearing a loose white dress, listening to the chirping of birds, and walking with great ease on a grassy field. You seem to really feel that you have come to a world full of spring. Under a hibiscus tree with small pink flowers, you see a graceful and luxurious woman, Tingting Yu. The familiar figure seemed to have been seen somewhere, but I couldn't remember it for a while. I saw her smile at you, and you suddenly felt a tacit understanding with each other and a heart-to-heart connection. So, you walked towards her with joy, and then you recognized that it was the beautiful Bodhisattva in the Dunhuang murals. It is at this time that you hear the melodious, tactful, and ethereal sound of Heaven - "Green Tara's Mantra". You only feel that your body is floating, flying with the beauty bodhisattva. In front of your eyes, the mysterious snowy plateau is revealed, and the purest sacred lake - Namtso. The beauty bodhisattva holds your hand gently, and you fly together in this fantasy land far away from the hustle and bustle, flying with the breeze over Namtso. The verdant pastures are grazed with cattle and sheep, the blue lake is sparkling, and the towering Nianqing Tanggula Mountain is covered with snow. At this point, you suddenly realize that your soul has left your body. You feel like an elegant white cloud, seeing through the deceit of the world, tired of the exhausting struggle, away from the vulgar impetuousness and luxury, with a normal heart intoxicated in the fairyland fluttering with five-colored scarves.

You say, you ask the beauty bodhisattva, where are you going to take you? She said, "I want to take you away from the world of samsara and go to a place where there are no troubles and no sorrows." Listening to her words, your heart sank, as if something was worrying you. The beautiful bodhisattva seems to see what is on your mind, so he kindly says to you, "You don't want to go to Elysium?" It is full of happiness and happiness, and it is the place where Amitabha Buddha lived. You have used my name to show that you are related to me. Since you are tired of the world, I have come to surpass you. You hurriedly say, no, although there are many troubles and sorrows in the world, I am willing to stay in the world. I can't leave my parents, and I can't leave Bao Jianming, they will be sad. I will never dare to offend your name again! The beauty Bodhisattva smiled and said, beauty is like jade, and Bodhisattva is like a flower. It is not a sin to call those who love you in my name. However, the person who is loved by such an idiot is precisely the sorrow of being a woman. Okay, then I'll give you back to Bao Jianming!

Suddenly, the wind is loud, your eyes are dark, and your heart is suddenly filled with fear. It was as if your foot had tripped over something, and you fell out of the house, as if you had fallen from the house to the outside, and you saw the wasteland and the sunshine. When you look back again, you see the withered yellow artemisia grass on the grave, swaying in the wind. You ask yourself in fear, was it just in the grave? At this time, the bright sun is so bright that you can't open your eyes. An angelic maiden, shrouded in a beautiful aura, is extending a pair of gentle hands to you. At this time, it seems that someone in your ear is saying, okay, okay, she woke up!

You vaguely remember that you were lying silently on Simmons' bed, already asleep. The rough singing voice comes through your window, making you flicker into consciousness. You slowly open your eyes, trying to discern where the song is coming from? When you suddenly realize that it was me singing, you struggle desperately to get up, stumble to the outhouse, and pounce on the window. When you reluctantly lift the curtains, you only feel that it is dark in front of you, and you faint all of a sudden. The pale blue curtain was also torn off by you. You say it seems like something that just happened, but it feels very far away.

I grabbed your hand tightly and said, "Xiaoya, we'll almost never see each other again!" Tears rolled out of the corners of your eyes, and you apologized to me and said, "I'm sorry, I value the luxury and vanity of the world too much, so what does it matter if I can't get into college?" I wiped the tears from the corners of your eyes and said sincerely: "I will accompany you to take the exam again next year!" You shook your head sadly and said, "No, no test!" It's so easy to get a life back, and I don't want to lose it again. I said, "If you don't take the test, you won't take the test, you won't go to college, and you will still be a person." ”

You smile and nodded.

I said fortunately: "The doctor said that if you come half an hour late, even if Bian Que is reincarnated, he can only watch you walk into Fengdu City." You said affectionately, "Baozi, you saved me, thank you!" With tears in my eyes, I kissed your hand and said, "No, it is not my credit, it is God's favor for you." ”

At this time, the door of the ward opened, and two policemen with serious faces walked in, one of whom was Xiao Huang, a police officer in our Yijing, who asked me to stay away. I hesitated to my feet and walked out of the room. At this time, I just think that the police station came down to investigate the cause of your suicide, it was their normal work, and there was no fuss. Without realizing that your suicidal behavior can turn into a political issue.

For parents, their daughter's troubles are like five thunderbolts. At that time, the Four Qing Movement was getting deeper and deeper, and the class struggle was emphasized in everything. Even being late for work is a political issue. A hat against the "Four Clean-up Movement", once buckled on the head, can crush people to death. You once said to me, "Your mother wrote five thought reports and failed to pass, and your father's thought pressure is even greater." "In the past, your mother didn't show up at the Association for the whole month, and no one asked. Nowadays, "wash your hands and take a bath" every day, you can't go for a day, it's a special period! They don't dare to ask for leave at work, so they can only wait in front of your bed at night. The torment of the mind and body can be imagined. To their relief, the sleeping pills you inhaled have not yet reached a lethal dose due to timely rescue.

Soon after, you were discharged from the hospital.

You who have done something wrong sit obediently in front of your parents. You are glad that you didn't walk up the Nai He Bridge, didn't drink the Meng Po soup, and walked back from the Huangquan Road. You have done such a ridiculous thing that you have despised your life, and you are deeply repentant. There are all kinds of roads in life, all roads lead to Rome, so why hang yourself from a tree? If you don't find it in time, then you really "haven't collected the beautiful bones in the bag, and covered the romance with a pure land".

Your dad said earnestly, "This is something that shouldn't have happened." A person's life not only belongs to himself, but also to his family who loves him deeply. The road of life is long, long, with sunshine and wind and rain. How can you easily give up your life when you encounter a setback? You are still very young and lack life experience, you must learn to hone yourself! You nod and say, "Dad, I know it's wrong!" Your father asks you again, "I heard that the young man who saved you was not only your classmate, but also your good friend?" Your mother said with some contempt: "That boy's name is Bao Jianming, he is a child of our neighbor's family, and his father is a huqin player." I once took him to visit Dunhuang, even if it was his reward for me! ”

You pout, and you can't hear my mother talk about me in such a tone, and you say, "What's wrong with playing the huqin?" His parents were literate people! His father used to be a railway worker, and in five or seven years, the cadres were transferred and asked him to be a road construction worker. His father refused and resigned. Dad, Bao Jianming's father's calligraphy is amazing! Your father asked, "His father was a rightist?" You reply in the affirmative, "No!" However, your mother said: "In five or seven years, the cadres were delegated in order to overcome bureaucracy and strengthen the relationship between the party and the masses and between the cadres and the masses. Bao Jianming's father resisted the decentralization of cadres, and there must have been ideological problems. You are a little unhappy, and you say with a straight face: "Mom! What are you talking about? Your father also sensed that there was something wrong with your mother's attitude, so he changed the topic and said, "Xiaoya, you have to promise us that you will never do such a stupid thing again in the future." You bow your head in embarrassment and say, "I promise!" ”

Your dad smiled gently. After all, he is a high-level intellectual, and he understands things very well. You have deeply repented of your mistakes, and the words of persuasion should be done in moderation, and you can't go on and on, don't you say? Your mother is a beautiful girl, and naturally she knows not to hurt her daughter's self-esteem. The parents' admonition is just right, which gives you face.

You suddenly raised your eyes, looked at your father with burning eyes, and asked, "Dad, can I have a relationship with Bao Jianming?" Can I invite him to my house? Your father's answer was very satisfying to you – of course. You happily threw your arms around your father's neck and shouted, "Thank you, Dad!" ”

Although your mother is against you associating with me in her heart, I saved your life after all, and she can't show it openly because of her feelings. Besides, you have just gotten rid of the shadow of death, and she doesn't dare to push you too hard. And she said that she had taken me to visit the Mogao Grottoes in Dunhuang, and I should repay her for those words, and she knew that there was some reason, so she was embarrassed to mention it again. Originally! She took me to Dunhuang and asked me to be a follower, why did she ask me to repay her? However, I will tell you this secretly, and you must not talk nonsense in front of her. Why? She's your mother!