I said to her without a head: "Chu Ying's children have nothing to do with me. ”

I promised only this one, and I never broke it.

Jiang Qingyue was stunned for a moment, and smiled a little embarrassed.

"However, this matter has nothing to do with me."

I lowered my eyes and said to myself, "She had an affair with a person from the forbidden army and was pregnant with a child. It happened that the courtiers were pressing me, and I thought that you should not want to see Chu Ying have something, so I simply admitted it. ”

In the harem, the eldest son of the emperor born to Chu Ying and a princess born to Meng Zhen are not mine.

My only child, who doesn't have my surname, takes his mother's surname Jiang.

Jiang Qingyue smiled even more embarrassedly: "You're still weird." ”

I shook my head: "Where am I good, I asked you to take care of the children alone for so many years, and I didn't even come to see you." ”

Before, I was afraid that I would meet Qin Gu when I came, but then I didn't dare to face her.

In just a moment, Zongzi is already twelve years old.

As soon as she heard this, the smile on her face disappeared, and she quickened her pace to walk past me.

I grabbed her wrist.

"Zongzi is like me, when you see him, do you think of me sometimes."

She stopped and sighed.

"The older he gets, the more he looks like you, so I don't feel a little distressed when I fight."

I pursed the corners of my lips.

"He's so well-behaved, you can't bear to beat him?"

"My children don't worry about you."

"Mine too."

She laughed and said, "I've been raising it for twelve years, and you say it's your child?" No, Zong'er is my own child. ”

I know I have to be better, I'm here to give in.

I reasoned with her softly: "You deliberately hid it from me, if you don't hide it from me, I will definitely raise him, how can I miss the joy of father and son for twelve years?" Qingyue, you have to make up for my ......"

Jiang Qingyue also reasoned with me:

"Did I force you to forget that? You forgot it, and I never deliberately hid it from you. In that case, I just didn't come to ask you why you didn't take responsibility? What am I sorry for you, and how can I make amends? ”

Fallacies are clearly fallacies.

I was a little aggrieved: "You know, I will forget everything I do when I drink, you know I will forget." ”

Jiang Qingyue sighed: "I know, so what? It's none of my business if you forgot it yourself. ”

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked feebly.

She stood beside me, looked at me, and asked me the same thing, "What about you, why didn't you tell me?" ”

"What?"

I vaguely understood what she was talking about, and opened my mouth, but I was speechless.

Jiang Qingyue smiled: "Forget it, we have been like this for twelve years, we are not doing well, so there is no need to ......"

"It's not good," I said, "I'm not having a good time." ”

Pile after pile of excerpts, in addition to some really important state affairs, there are countless open and secret battles written between the lines, which is a headache to watch.

is idle, but there is no one to speak, and the people around him are all following the rules and lowering their eyebrows, which is extremely boring.

I often miss the days of a long time ago, when there was a person to look forward to, and a marriage to look forward to, unlike today, which is boring and lonely day after day.

Jiang Qingyue said: "You are indeed not easy. ”

Her tone was light, she couldn't hear any waves, and there was some perfunctory meaning.

I was speechless for a moment, and after a silence, I asked her, "At the beginning, Qin Gu said that your good things were about to happen, why didn't it happen later?" ”

Jiang Qingyue thought for a while and said, "I don't know." ”

"Don't know?"

She nodded: "Very suddenly, he said that we didn't get married, I thought fortunately I didn't tell the widespread, forget it." ”

I didn't expect it to be Qin Guti.

But isn't he quite persistent, why did he give up?

Jiang Qingyue said: "If it's okay, I'm going back." ”

I hurriedly picked out the key points and said: "I have read the article on the Zong's Kindergarten Examination, which is very good, since he wants to gain fame in the examination, he is determined to make meritorious contributions, if you are willing to ......"

"No," she interrupted me, and said calmly, "you also know that you are not happy, and do not do to others what you do not want to be done to you." ”

She turned to leave.

I said with some sadness in my heart: "Jiang Qingyue, sometimes I feel that you have never loved me, even back then. ”

She paused: "Really? It was so far away that I don't remember. ”

With that, she walked away without looking back.

-

When I returned to Jinling City, I plunged headlong into state affairs and did not let myself have a trace of leisure.

The imperial sister came to ask me how my trip to Yangzhou was.

I said wearily, "You should have told me that she really wanted to marry someone else, so that I wouldn't go to her again." ”

The imperial sister was puzzled: "Do you really want to marry?" Who? ”

"Qin Gu," I said, "it was Qin Gu who inexplicably gave up this marriage, and it is estimated that she will have regrets in her heart." ”

"Inexplicable?" The imperial sister shook her head, "It's clear that there is a reason for this, how can it be inexplicable?" ”

I was a little interested, but I didn't want to ask, I just watched the imperial sister silently, waiting for her to tell what happened back then.

The imperial sister let out a long sigh and said helplessly:

"Because when she was sick and confused, she called your name. Qin Gu was a little uncomfortable, but he felt that there was no reason to mess with her for a name he called when he was sick, so he angrily proposed to cancel the marriage, but he didn't expect her to agree. Qin Gu said that he was actually just looking for a sense of existence, but whenever she asked why and coaxed him, he would obediently bow his head. ”

I sat in front of the imperial sister with a dull expression like a pile of wood.

I've heard her call my name in confusion.

It was on Jiuming Mountain, and the consciousness of both her and I gradually dissipated during the aphrodisiac attack.

It was her painful and lingering Shen Xiao who called my consciousness back.

Later, I didn't think much about it, I thought, with me, it was my name that was called, and it didn't mean anything.

She really doesn't care about me anymore.

The imperial sister continued: "Qin Gu has lived in the Jiang family for more than half a year, admitting his mistakes and apologizing and redeeming them, Jiang Qingyue told him forget it, it is better to be friends." ”

From beginning to end, Jiang Qingyue didn't ask Qin Gu to explain.

So she really didn't know why Qin Gu didn't marry her.

The imperial sister looked at me deeply and sighed helplessly: "You two look quite rational, but in fact, you are both dead-headed. ”

I shook my head.

"For more than ten years, she has always been cold to me since the cancellation of the marriage contract, and never gave the slightest response."

I've seen the way she loves me.

She is the only one who is green in front of me.

She would blush and secretly kiss me while I was napping.

will quarrel with others like thunder because of what others say about my rights and wrongs.

I would cry because I was injured and sick.

She had given me all her tenderness.

Therefore, her coldness, my life and death, my pain, her attitude that she didn't care, I felt clearly.

The royal sister said: "What does she mind, don't you know?" ”

I probably knew that she wanted to be free, and she didn't want to be in all this deceitful situation anymore.

I Mosuo the turquoise bamboo jade around my waist.

Images of the past come to mind.

It was in the peach blossom forest in Jiangfu, and we were sitting on the grass, with her back to me.

That day, she looked at me and said softly: "They are fighting for the throne, it is a group of crazy people, you must not participate." ”

I played with her fingers and asked her, "Are you afraid of something wrong with me?" ”

She said, "If you have something, how sad Shuning is." ”

I asked, "What about you, are you sad?" ”