It's really hard to feel like a friend is drifting apart. What others think, in fact, is really not very important, it doesn't matter to me whether he is optimistic or not, I have to be myself.

Only two people know best about the affairs of two people, so the uncomfortable thing is not that we can't contradict each other, but that we all have our own new friends. It's tiring to maintain a friendship, so tired that I don't want to talk, so tired that I feel like it's torture when I walk. I don't want to meet new people, and I don't like to call people. Even, answering the phone I think it's a kind of noise, sometimes I really envy those rich second generations, as long as you have the money, you can go directly to nightclubs, play sports cars, and take beautiful women.

Whether I work a few hours during the day or write a few hours at night, I'm the kind of person who is a maverick. Maybe I've met too many people I shouldn't know before, so I'm afraid to meet new people now, and I'm worried that they will leave without a trace. I'm a very nostalgic person, so when those old friends leave, the more familiar they are, the more painful my heart becomes.

I still remember when my grandmother died, the pain affected me for a long time. And when my grandfather died, I felt that I couldn't be heartbroken anymore. So, during those seven days of vigil, I didn't shed a single tear. Maybe my relatives at home think I'm not filial, but it's only because I'm used to other people's departures that I have no tears to shed.

Lonely and lonely, now my friend. In the past, I would call those brothers to go out to play together, but now, looking at those phone numbers, I don't know who to find to press the road with. I don't have any entertainment, I don't want to go to my girlfriend anymore, I just want to walk alone in the same lonely city streets. There are no good people in this society, so I don't want to be a good person either.

I don't want to mess with anyone, and I don't participate in any activities, and I don't even go to a friend who I haven't seen for a long time and asks me to go to the hotel for dinner and meet a beautiful girl by the way. Because, I have experienced the same story and am familiar with all the routines in it, so I simply locked myself in my own world, not letting others in, and others not being able to enter. I don't know how long this will last. Perhaps, it will always be like this in the future. Even if there is a possibility of holding a book signing in the future, I do not intend to see readers in real terms. It's not that I disrespect my own readers, it's just that I'm too sensitive and worried about being too hilarious, and I won't know what to say. Always worried that my kindness would be taken advantage of by strangers. Therefore, I had no choice but to ignore them and close my own life.

I can live as long as I can, and there is nothing happy at the moment, and I am very sad, so let's be blind like this.

The most important decision in life is to write, but now I can't make ends meet; Love freedom, but it is difficult to be happy; Get used to the breeze and the moon, but you have to pay a price.

Growing up, if you are not happy, then I want to go back in time. I'm not a smart person, I haven't seen many people, and I've experienced too little. A typical representative of three days of fishing and two days of drying nets, what I remember at the time, I will definitely remember at that time, but I will forget it immediately after a day, and I will not hold grudges. They say I'm a careless person, a boring person. They don't know that I only deal with people I have good relationships with, and I only talk to people who are close to me.

Sister Ting said that I am suitable to be a hermit between mountains and rivers, and I agree with her statement. I have such a breezy and moonlit personality, and I am indeed very unaccustomed to the hustle and bustle of the city. If, in the future, it is possible, I will consider taking Sun Meng (on the condition that I find her) and our children to return to the mountains and forests and be a hermit who has no quarrel with the world. I've never been in the world of accidents, I think life is about being true to yourself! Otherwise, you will regret not being yourself when you get old.

In my opinion, no matter how bad life is, it is just a stepping stone on the road of life. I don't like to use money to bind freedom, money is used to consume and earn, it is just a tool for buying and selling, it does not mean anything. I have no desires, the pain in life is insignificant to me, and complaining is just a catharsis of the emotions of the moment. When I become famous, I must leave this vulgar city life and return to the mountains and forests as Sister Ting said. With a different worldview, they are destined to not be able to live in peace with this world.

Once the fame and economy have reached a degree that I am satisfied with, then I will no longer care about the affairs of this world, and it will be good to live a dull life.

I hope that one day my friends will ask me, "Where do you live?" I can say plainly, "I don't live anywhere, the whole island is my home."

I hope that one day my friend will ask me, "What kind of car do you drive?" I could casually point to the parking lot of an 18-story high-rise building and say, "All of them, from the cheapest to the most expensive, and the cars that money may not be able to buy, are all my cars."

I hope that one day my friend will attend my wedding, it will be in Bali. The wife next to me is the girl I have always loved, dedicated and affectionate to feelings, one is one, two is two, what I like I love is a person.

All of these goals will be achieved when I am 30 years old! For the rest of my life, I want to travel the world, hand over the company to the people who know me best, and finally choose an isolated place to spend the rest of my life. Talking about business can only prove that you are a businessman; I really don't know how to talk about business, and I don't know how to please them when I talk to customers, I am very arrogant in my bones, and I don't want to beg grandpa and kneel grandma. But my friends and family around me know that I value feelings, I have few friends, but two or three confidants. No matter what happened to my friend, as long as I knew about it, I secretly helped him finish all the things I was able to do, and I didn't want to reciprocate.

Externally, they all say, "I don't like anyone." "Desires still have to be had, and it doesn't matter if they don't come true, just some unattainable dreams when you were young.

As a person who has been before, I always tell my friends, "It doesn't matter who you are, who your friends are." Actually, even I don't know, do my friends really matter?

The past few years have been a mess, and I don't know what the meaning of hard work is when I have no goals. From this month onwards, it's time to work hard. In order to earn her money for an apple fork, to build a makeup table that she likes, and to have a Hummer for myself next year, I will do my best! I don't talk much, it's not that I don't like to talk. I only have ten friends, and it's not that I'm not easy to get along with. I only say useful things about social relationships, I only report good news but not bad news to my family, and I talk nonsense about my beloved wife forever, like an old Chinese medicine doctor nagging non-stop. As for friends, I believe in fate! Why should you care about passers-by who don't have a chance? Having interests is a real friend, so those ten friends are also teachers and friends, maybe we are not friends in one place, but with them, I can learn knowledge, and they can also learn from me how to maintain a good relationship.

After stepping into the society, Sister Ting told me on the first day, "It's a wolf who eats meat wherever he goes, and a blind wanderer who gets beaten wherever he goes", so I take it as my morality in the world. Although I no longer live a happy life of righteousness in the rivers and lakes, the basic creed of the rivers and lakes is in my heart, then I am taking the road of justice and awe-inspiring!

After stepping into the society, friends are really getting fewer and fewer, and those who have sent messages and made calls tonight should be considered very good friends in the past, I don't know if there will be a chance to pay New Year's greetings next year, but this year I think it's them (she).

Recently, I just watched a short video saying that don't be friends with artists, maybe people like this person's work but don't like them as a person. I don't think there's anything wrong with it, whether it's with me or not, because I've been through too many things abandoned by my friends, so I want to bring them real friendship, even if it's just to accompany them for a while, I think at least we've been sincere with each other.

I called Mr. Yang today, and he gave me a lot of advice, but I still feel that I need to build my own brand.

Even if I have to lose, I have no regrets, because some of the characters in the novel were once my best friends, and in reality we were separated, so we reunited in the novel, faced evil together, and fought together until the last moment.

Come on Xia Xuanyu, come on the Ability Bureau, come on my great future thinking.