[The champion is Sakura Koji, a student from Class A in Year 2, congratulations to her!] 】

The beating of my heart was noisy, the sound of the wind was mixed in my ears, and the cheers and applause of the crowd were heard, perhaps more than half of the applause was given to me.

Sayaka and Emi were clapping their hands with red faces, really, all the fuss, I had already said that I was going to dominate the sports festival.

My legs trembled a little, and the calf muscles trembled tightly, but they didn't fall down, and what reverberated in my heart was the familiar feeling of exaltation.

I was so desperate for that feeling, racing again and again, stopping my breath and pumping my heart up, just to stand on the podium one step above anyone else.

But today was different, and the reason why I was standing on the podium was because I wanted him to look at me and just look at me from start to finish.

But more and more people gathered around me, applauding and shouting, as if they were my family and friends, but many of them, I couldn't name them at all.

Come to think of it, their applause was not for me, but for their respective youth.

Overwhelmed by the crowd and overwhelmed, the beating of the heart gradually subsided, and the body began to fatigue.

I still haven't been able to see him.

On the weekend after the festival, my whole body ached, as if a jackal had gnawed at my body, and the bloody mouth went straight into my calf.

Fortunately, Yue is not an ungrateful guy, and she massaged me for an hour.

Although it made me make a fool of myself in front of my mother and Aunt Yuko, I was actually happy to say it from the bottom of my heart.

Moon is gradually changing back to the one I know, he no longer hooks up with girls, although he has a negative personality, not as sunny and cheerful as he used to be, but I can definitely feel the changes that have happened to him.

Whatever the reason and the reason is, as long as he can turn back to my moon, I don't care about the reason.

Well...... This kind of talk is nothing but a lie to deceive oneself, and it is recklessness.

That's why I couldn't see the photo and secretly deleted it.

Whether they were holding hands or hugging, I had already made up my mind not to be jealous.

I've even seen the scene of their kissing.

But it doesn't matter, I can live with it.

Because I understand that I am his first time, anything.

But the only thing I couldn't stand was that he could laugh so easily and heartily.

When he was with me, his eyes were always distant and lonely, and he always treated me with care, as if I was just a precious glass product.

I suddenly understood.

Am I unknowingly becoming a source of his pain?

It's not me who changed him, but someone else, but if I can turn him back into my childhood sweetheart, back to the boy I first loved, I'm not dissatisfied, but full of gratitude.

And from the bottom of my heart, I don't want to hate that person.

In other words, I really look forward to such awe-inspiring and frank women.

Probably, Sakura Koji Sakura can't be a girl like that.

I deified that person in my heart, trying to put her on a level that did not belong to me, in order to console my own inaction, but I had no choice but to do it.

However, she said that it was inexplicable for me to tell me something about her and a month ago.

It was only then that I realized that Hoshino Mori-senpai was just an ordinary girl.

I had forgotten even such a simple truth.

Then I can't make him smile easily and calmly, I can't expel the loneliness in him, and I can't find an excuse anymore.

Just when I was about to find it difficult to stay by his side any longer, he took the initiative to squeeze my hand as if he had sensed it.

[Can you go out on a date with me this weekend?] 】

What a bad guy.

I knew I couldn't refuse him.

……

……

In a state of mind that can't be said to be excited or apprehensive, the weekend came unhurriedly.

It's a cloudless sunny day, and although it's very romantic to date on a rainy day, I really want to walk under the sun with him, and if I can hold hands, it would be a happy thing.

I put on my favorite dress, tied my ponytail with the cutest headband, and even spun around in front of the mirror with joy, and before I left, my mother laughed at me and said something that made me a little shy.

"Yue and I won't do that kind of thing!"

"Roar...... Really? In short, high school students should spare their mothers when they are pregnant, and pay attention to safety.

"Well, stay safe."

"No need to say it twice!" I couldn't stand my mother's temperament and left the house with a red face.

However, because I cared too much about what my mother said, on the way to the station, I couldn't help but think of the troubles of my junior high school days, and my heart beat faster and faster.

So much so that when I walked to the station, I didn't find him at the first time, until he put the back of his hand on my cheek and asked me if I was sick, and I suddenly came back to my senses.

"What's wrong with you?"

“…… It's okay. ”

I replied calmly, but I really didn't have the face to say that I remembered something about my first experience, which is probably one of the most stains in our short lives.

I asked him where he was going, and my eyes kept on his hand, hoping that he would suddenly hold my hand as he did after school that day.

As it turned out, I was thinking a little too much.

Yue's attitude is still the same as usual, and she is dressed in the most ordinary sweatshirt and trousers, only that face looks luxurious and high-end.

On the contrary, I put on a white dress that didn't suit me, and the back was cut out to show the sun marks that made me feel shy.

I understand that this kind of skirt must be worn by fair-skinned girls to look good.

Yes, it's like a senior sister.

But even I'm not so nervous that I go out in a sweatshirt and date the guy I like.

Last night, I carefully groomed my hair, cleaned the fluff on my arms and thighs, applied lipstick as soon as possible, and sprayed my mother's perfume on my neck.

However, he didn't say anything about my dress, and I felt like I was running to the finish line in one go, and when I was about to cross the line, the track under my feet suddenly disappeared.

"Let's go." He said.

"Oh."

……

The train swayed all the way, and I sat quietly beside him, my thighs rubbing against the fabric of his pants from time to time, and I looked at him cautiously, and I could only see that he was preoccupied.

From Jiyugaoka Station, take the Shibuya line, change to the Fukutoshin Line, pass through Hokodorome, Shinjuku, Nishi-Waseda, and Sajiya to Ikebukuro.

I don't come to Ikebukuro very often, and the main place for activities with my friends after school is Harajuku, and a little further away is Shinjuku, and Ikebukuro is so far away that you basically need to plan and do something in advance before you decide where to go.

On the train, he never accosted me, looking at his phone alone, as if between me and him was just a stranger sitting relatively close.

After leaving the station, he walked briskly again, completely ignoring my cranky thoughts behind me, absent-minded, and almost swept away by the crowd.

I was really wronged, obviously he took the initiative to ask me, how could I be even more indifferent than usual.

Because of the fact that he and his senior sister borrowed things to race at the sports festival, I am not in the mood to joke now, and he had better not provoke me and make me angry.

However, the next moment, I hit his back in a daze, his nose hurt, and he just took my hand as if nothing happened.

"There are a lot of people, don't get separated."

It would be better if this sentence was not added.

Even so, the anger I had accumulated along the way with the bumps of the train disappeared in an instant, which shows how easy I am to fool a girl.

“…… Month. ”

"Huh? Why, do you want to go to the toilet? Hold it for a while. ”

"Not really! Can't you just say something nice? ”

"Yes, yes, later."

He led me to ZA, almost with a run, just in time for the opening of the movie.

No wonder he walked in such a hurry and kept looking at his phone.

"By the way, why a movie?" I asked.

Tsuki didn't answer me, put her finger in front of her lips and "shh

He's weird today.

Speaking from the heart, the movie is quite interesting, it is said to be a manga adaptation, but I don't know much about it.

Or maybe my mood is not on the movie at all.

Who told me to sit in the theater for two hours, and he didn't let go of my hand the whole time.

Up to now, holding hands with him is just the most common thing, but we can suck each other's fingers before we can speak.

I remembered the first time I went out to the movies with him in junior high school.

It seemed to be our first date after we officially dated, and when I think about it, I feel that the memories were so bad that I immediately cut myself off from the past.

"Whoa, ...... the moon"

He just looked at me in silence, I don't know if it was my delusion, his eyes were exceptionally clear today, without the loneliness that I was used to seeing on weekdays, and he held my hand very strongly, which was enough for me to shake off.

I just realized that compared to three years ago, his height, voice, and palms have changed amazingly.

Or rather, it's become more boy-like.

This seemed like a strange thing to me, because the gender of the character of Jingu Terakitsuki didn't matter until I realized that we were two different individuals.

Even if he is a girl, I will not hesitate to stage a forbidden lily play.

"Yarn silos."

"Huh?"

"What do you think?"

"Movies? Not...... To be honest, I don't know much about that, at least it's not boring. ”

He bowed his head and groaned, squeezed my hand, and dragged him somewhere else.

I'm not used to it.

I'm not used to being so active and tough Jingu Terakitsuki, but "not getting used to it" is by no means "disliking", I'm just unfamiliar with his changes, or rather in a state of confusion about the current situation.

But it doesn't matter.

Importantly, we still haven't let go of each other's hands.

I began to stop thinking, and to empty my brain, like a vine wrapped around him, followed him closely, not parting from him for a moment.

After the movie theater is the aquarium, and when it comes to the aquarium in Ikebukuro, it must be the Sunshine Aquarium, and this is my third visit.

The first time was supposed to be in the upper grades of elementary school, and the accompanying objects were parents and a family of four at Jinguji.

Well, at that time, Sister Ruri had just come to Jinguji House, and she found me who was lost in the aquarium.

The second time was after dating Yue.,A junior high school couple mixed among adults.,At the time, I thought it was a mature adult.,Now in retrospect, although naïve.,But it's also full of joy.。

Suddenly I thought of something, and looked up at the moon beside me, who was staring at the garden eel.

"Oh, Yue, you are ......"

"Shh

This time he didn't put his finger on his lips, but on mine.

At this moment, he should be looking at me alone, and I tried to find the loneliness and loneliness in his eyes that made me sad.

But in his eyes, I only found Sakura Koji Sakura.

The heart, which had been running smoothly all morning, entered high-frequency mode without warning.

He didn't even say a sweet word, but I felt as if I was soaked in honey, and there was a campfire in the distance, baking marshmallows that were taller than people.

After leaving the aquarium, we started hanging out in the uncooked Ikebukuro, and he bought me crepes, matcha strawberry doubles, and a chocolate sauce on top.

I should have controlled my diet during this time because I wanted to maintain my weight, but because he bought it for me, I didn't care about it.

"Let me taste it."

"It's okay, don't you need to buy another one?"

Without saying a word, he took a bite out of the crust on the edge and two slices of strawberries.

"It's too sweet."

I was slightly stunned, looked at him for a long time, and finally understood what he was doing, and this sudden epiphany made me tremble a little, and I almost couldn't stand still, and I wanted to fall into his arms so softly.

On that day three years ago, we had our first date as junior high school students.

In order to save pocket money, he bought the earliest movie tickets and went to the aquarium to see penguins, but he imitated it at all.

With his small pocket money, he bought me crepes, but he only tasted one bite, saying it was too sweet, and pushed it to me with a disgusted face.

"What, what do you mean? Could it be that you have been pursuing the methods that girls have learned all these years? I said with some shyness, even with a slight thorn in my tone.

It's just that I'm too shy.

But he seemed to be able to see through my shyness and understand my true intentions, and his squeezing of my hand at this time was the best evidence.

Gradually, I was able to face myself and the past in peace.

"Month remember...... What happened that day. I whispered.

"If you can't forget it, you can't forget it."

"Yes."

My inaudible voice sounded like a mosquito.

In my mind, there are many fragments, maybe this experience is to be called a stain, but if I had to start all over again, I will still choose this stain as an unforgettable memory of my life.

What my mother said to me in the morning rang in my ears, and it became more and more difficult for me to look directly into his dark eyes.

Just because that day three years ago was the last stop of our original and final date.

…… It's a love hotel.

(End of chapter)