"Now I understand a little bit how you felt at that time, how lonely and painful it was to be alone and with no one on my side in the world. So here, you will laugh happily and do what you want, and I know in my heart that I should indeed bless you silently. ”

It's not that Shi Yan doesn't understand, but he can't let go.

"I can't let go, I'm nothing without you. I'm sorry to drive you here, I'm sorry, I'll wait for you. ”

When Shi Yan said this, he didn't want to open the door of the room or respond.

After waiting for a while, he stood up and walked slowly downstairs.

Ying Kexin could hear him leaving, but turned around and leaned against the door.

The next day.

The sun shone in through the window, and when I woke up, I found that it was already past nine o'clock.

"Knock knock!"

A few knocks on the door.

"It's me."

The voice of the landlord.

Ying Kexin opened the door with confidence.

The landlord has a plate in his hand and a smile on his lips.

"You overslept today, you can't be hungry, it's breakfast, it's still hot, eat it early."

"Thank you."

Ying Kexin took it politely.

"Yesterday's man, is that your boyfriend? Did you quarrel? ”

"It's not."

"He wanted to spend the night outside yesterday, but it was too cold, so I called him into the house and went out early in the morning."

"Where to go?"

"Well, I didn't ask, it's not good. You have a good rest, don't get too tired. ”

"Thank you."

Seeing the figure of the landlord turning around and going downstairs, Ying Kexin closed the door.

Wake up, where is he going and what does it matter to her?

Although what I said yesterday was sincere, even if it was sincere, it couldn't solve the knots in my heart.

Right now, I hope I don't think about anything, I won't notice anything, I just live an ordinary life, alone, there is nothing bad.

Walking out of the room, Shi Yan was indeed not downstairs, and she didn't think much about it and walked out.

As soon as he walked to the street, he saw Shi Yan leaning against the wall alone, holding a cigarette in his mouth, as usual, unlit.

He smoked, but now that he was pregnant, he started to think about quitting.

"Where are you going?"

Ying Kexin didn't answer anything, and passed directly by his side.

Shi Yan didn't continue to ask, just followed her all the time, a distance of about ten meters.

Where are you going to follow? He was a big burden behind him, and life here was a mess in a day.

Came to the cake shop and wanted to buy dessert.

Shi Yan reached out and paid the money, and took the cake she bought.

He had been quiet like a ghost, but suddenly he did it.

"What are you doing?"

Ying Ke asked unhappily.

"Finally willing to talk to me."

As he spoke, he handed the cake to Ying Kexin.

Ying Kexin frowned, took the cake, and said, "I want to stay alone, don't disturb me." ”

Knowing that it would be this attitude, Shi Yan would not be angry, and followed behind Ying Kexin.

Along the way, she stopped and stopped, looked here and there.

Finally, when I wanted to go back, I stopped at the fruit stand.

Didn't particularly want to eat, but picked up some simple ones.

Suddenly, I felt a wave of dizziness, and there was a moment of darkness in front of me, and I fell behind me without warning.

Fortunately, Shi Yan kept watching her not far away, paying attention to her strange appearance, and hurriedly supported Ying Kexin, who was about to fall.

"Are you alright?"

Shi Yan asked worriedly.

Ying Kexin pushed him away, held on to the table of the stall, and shook his head.

"It doesn't seem like so, let's go back."

Ying Kexin didn't say anything, so she bought some fruit, although she didn't say anything, but Shi Yan volunteered to take the fruit in her hand and followed her back to the house.

Because it was a sudden interruption, but I didn't want Ying Kexin to be here alone.

It's like when you buy fruit, and you suddenly fall straight down, and there is no one around.

So, he decided to live here too, even if it's just a small living room, no private space, and it doesn't matter if he sleeps on the sofa.

In order to avoid inconvenience to the landlord, he gave the landlord a wad of money, which could allow Ying Kexin to live here for a year.

At night.

The landlord cooked the meal and brought it to Ying Kexin's room, she didn't even move, and after it was cold, the landlord brought it out.

"You're boyfriend and girlfriend?"

In the living room, the landlord asked.

"Our relationship is complicated, but I like her and want her to stay with me for the rest of my life."

"Upset her?"

"Hmm."

From the beginning, their encounter was not bloody, and if he didn't show so frivolity, maybe it would have been different.

Or, if Grandpa had told him to go back to the old house that day, maybe it would have been even different.

Or, when he knew that Ying Kexin was in a situation and wanted to escape, he could give her a sense of security, and it would be different.

All of this, when it comes together, becomes the situation it is now.

Why is it so difficult to like someone and want to be with her.

"I can see that you like Ying Kexin very much."

"I like it." Shi Yan nodded. "I've never liked someone so much, I can give up everything for her, as long as I'm with her, nothing else matters."

"Envy, you young couples have this kind of perseverance."

Shi Yan lowered his head and couldn't answer.

To be honest, there is no faith.

I can't be sure that he can really make Ying Kexin change his mind.

But there is one thing that will not change, that is, I like Ying Kexin, I will never change, and I will not give up.

"Ying Kexin, do you like you?"

"Really?"

"She's very concerned, and this morning, she asked where you were going?"

"Really."

"Come on, I'm optimistic about you."

The landlord raised his fist to cheer him on.

Shi Yan took a deep breath and nodded definitely.

Ying Kexin was alone in the room, never came out, did not eat breakfast, until nine o'clock in the evening.

Shi Yan looked at the time and felt that a long time had passed, in fact, it was less than ten minutes.

He finally couldn't help but get up.

Washed the apples and took them upstairs.

I want to hug it as if nothing happened.

I want to take care of her closer.

There are all sorts of ideas in my head.

He took the washed fruit and came to the door of Ying Kexin's room.

"Knock knock!"

There were a few knocks on the door.

There was no response inside, but the light was on, so it should have been no sleep.

"It's me, Ying Kexin, you didn't eat dinner, if you don't have an appetite, eat a little fruit." After saying this, I waited for a reply, but no, nothing. "I'm sorry, I'm coming in."

Shi Yan pushed open the door and just walked in, and the whole person was stunned.

Ying Kexin lay on the bed in pain, with blood under him, and the white sheets had been stained red.