4. Tianning County

It was slowly getting dark, and the city began to change from its busy life to a city that never sleeps.

Also, this city has always had the reputation of a city that never sleeps, with neon flashes, bright lights, drunken dreams and death... Looking at the people coming and going outside the car, I sighed, it stands to reason that college should not be a time to be confused, but I didn't do well in the exam, even if I studied hard in college, although I was desperately trying to improve myself, but, I still can't see the future...

Full of confidence in the future of the country, full of confusion about their own future... It's our generation...

The car is still bumping, and the people in front of the car are walking around, up and down, but slowly, the car is still full, and the people in front are crowding around, but from behind, it seems to be out of the world, just like me now, or a student, after graduation?! What about the future? And also... I... Should... Or rather, what can I do?!

I always have a feeling of powerlessness from time to time, it is the exhaustion of my heart... Our generation, the last generation at the end of the twentieth century, is very lacking in a belief, in the gap between the new era and the old era, the pressure of society, the collapse of the three views, the disorderly view of money, the supremacy of money, everything is money, the exhaustion of life, the body that has fallen down can be recovered, but what about the heart? ?

So I'm annoyed!! My heart has always been empty, what am I for?? In order to... Reduce the pressure on the family, I think, my family's conditions are not good, yes, what about the supremacy of money? Still have to compromise. Because, there are also family difficulties, pressure... Hey, what's the cranky thinking??! Looking out the window at the busy traffic and the bright lights, I thought far away again!! Until I felt something on my left shoulder...

It dawned on me that there was someone else beside me. Maybe I'm still too sick, just look out the window to get better, after all, the smell of the car is heavy and bumpy... Also, I've always been alone, and I'm not used to having people around me...

It's that girl, I turned my head sideways, it was a burst of fragrance, which made me always smell the leather in the car and feel sick to my stomach, I seemed to jump into the peach blossom paradise, I suddenly smiled bitterly again, alas, so what?! Or, someone else's girl...

The car jolted, and she slowly fell asleep. She seemed to have a slight smile on her face, and she sat more towards me, and the middle seat that came and went seemed to be far away from us... Even though I tried to hide against the window, she leaned over, her arm touched mine, and her head rested on my left shoulder... Even though we're all wearing light coats, ... I can seem to feel her heartbeat...

And my...

Slowly, I also leaned against the window and fell asleep...

This bus is too far, from the east station through the city, around the west station, the whole bus has a total of 42 stations, normally a one-way run, it takes one and a half to two hours...

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The time passed quickly when I fell asleep... When I opened my eyes, there was no one in the dim car, the car arrived at the last few stations in front of the West Station, and the route here was also deserted, there were no people, so the driver didn't stop much all the way, and even the lights in the car were turned off, anyway, no one stood at the door, which proved that the remaining few got off at the West Station...

But I woke up in a trance for a while, as if I had a long dream, but I can't remember what I dreamed of... But then, I sensed something was wrong... In my hands... What's there

I looked down and realized that I didn't know when, I actually took her right hand with my left hand and held her hand tightly in my hand... Her hands were a little cold and a little warm, very soft and ...... I quickly looked up, only to find that she was actually looking sideways at me, with a strange smile on her face!

So she's awake?! I didn't know how to sand when I fell asleep, I actually reached out and pulled her hand to hold it, and she didn't struggle?! Just let me hold this way?! What about me?! It's embarrassing to hold the grass...

"Ahem... Ha... Haha, I'm sorry..."I had to snort in embarrassment as I let go of her right hand, which was held a little red...

"It's okay!" She didn't smile, looked ahead, and just said lightly, "You can hold it whenever you want next time." ”

"I didn't say anything, what?! What is this?! Can you shake her hand at any time?! What is this? Have you issued a pass?! Wife girlfriend handshake pass?! I suddenly wanted to ask her if she had a boyfriend... If not, mind having a...

But... I don't dare, I... I'm afraid that as soon as I ask, all this, like a phantom, will be shattered... Like a bubble... Disappear...

I don't understand! I've never been in a relationship again!! I... I... It's true... Didn't understand anything...

On the contrary, the girl seems more mature, calm, and generous...

"It's here," she whispered. Yes, the bus turned into the West Railway Station Daping, and then drove into the 168 waiting line at the hub of the bus building... The driver opened the door, and we, the scattered people, got out of the car...

After getting off the bus, I asked her if she was hungry and wanted to eat, I had a treat, she said no, but I said that the bus had only run forty or fifty kilometers, and there were still more than thirty or forty kilometers left, and she thought about it or passed the remaining roast wheat and water in my hand, "That's it." She said. I could tell she looked like she had been hungry all day... It's okay, do you want to invite her home for dinner when you arrive in Tianning County?! I swallowed again, feeling nervous and unable to open my mouth.

Thinking about it, I took her around and around, and finally got on the city and county 809 yellow bus that was waiting for passengers on the bus Daping Road, the bus was from Wanli City West Station to Tianning County South Station, the whole journey was actually 46 kilometers, and the ticket price was 10 yuan per person... I took her to the car, and I still chose to sit at the last window, anyway, at the terminal...

She also followed me, I looked back at her, thinking that it would be better for her to sit inside, the time was very fast, slowly, the car was full of people, I still remember when I came back from the holiday for the New Year, when the car was crowded to death, but it was still squeezed up... I just couldn't stand up straight, so I leaned against the door and squeezed home...

I didn't think about it, the girl seemed to be sleepy, slowly, I lowered my head, she leaned against the window, slowly, all fell asleep...

This city and county bus is not like the city bus stop-and-go, after all, the distance is far away, out of the city of Wanli, is a long section of the national highway and provincial highway, the car is fast, bumpy, I feel that I have a dream, alas, in fact, I don't know why, I dream very often, the days without dreaming are only a handful, and sometimes, in one night, can have four or five dreams... Moreover, those dreams are very real...

It's just me... Every time I wake up, the dream memories are shattered...

I was woken up by the driver, I opened my eyes, it was dark outside, and it was dark inside the car, the driver's uncle pushed me in front of the station and said to the station, got off, he wanted to close the door... I hurriedly wiped my eyes, looked around and looked inside, Yang Xue was still leaning against the window and falling asleep quietly... Don't know why... I'm a little, I don't want to wake her up...

When we arrived in Tianning County, we... Let's separate... separated, and, forever... Me, should I call her home for dinner?!

But... My home environment is not good... After all, in a mountain village... Compared to her Changsha boyfriend, I may not even be hairy...

… I...

I woke her up anyway. Lead her. After getting off the bus, standing in the bus Daping of Tianning County South Railway Station, my heart was skipping a beat, do you want to open your mouth, open your mouth to ask?! I...

"Thank you!" She said, "Thank you very much, now, if you can meet again in the future, if you need any help, you can come to me... I'll pay you back after I've earned the money, I'm sorry, I've worked hard for you..."She paused and added, "Then I... Let's go first."

Saying that, she looked at me, turned around and wanted to leave, but she hadn't taken two steps, and she didn't know that I had the courage to reach out and take her hand... Her body seemed to stiffen, and she turned around, "It's okay, it's okay, that's... Do you want to go, go to my house for a meal, anyway, it's so late..."

She seemed stunned, but she didn't hesitate, "Okay." She smiled and said, only for a moment her expression faded again, "It's just... I don't have the money to send anything..."

"No need, what to send, I just said to take my classmates home for dinner" I said with a smile, and I didn't let go of her hand, so she let me hold it like this and went out of the station...

I've been a single dog for 20 years, and today, there's a kind of real TM!! I thought to myself, hahaha! The first time I've been so proactive, the first time... Encountered... That girl...

Perhaps, just like a lonely person, there is always another lonely person waiting

You wait alone, but some people have waited all their lives, and she didn't come...

I waited for twenty years, and here she came...

I suddenly smiled in my heart, and it was dark...

"It's a bit far." I turned around and said.

"It's okay, I can go!" She smiled and said, I have a special feeling in my heart, like, she is always smiling next to me. It's so sweet!

"Oh, yes, you let go," she said suddenly.

I stopped and quickly let go of my hand, and my heart sank again, but I didn't say it, only replied, "Okay".

"Hmm", she mumbled, but she didn't stop, I trotted up to stand beside her, walking together, I saw her take out a black hair cover from her wrist, bite it with her small mouth, and tie her hair with her hand on the back of her head, and people were looking left and right, soon, she tied her hair into a ponytail, long black hair and slender white neck, looking very capable, I felt in a trance for a moment, like following a white-collar female manager or female secretary, and like a female doctor and female doctor...

Soon, she tied up her hair, as if she had found something, turned around and pulled me away... I just stupidly followed... Follow her to the street of the South Railway Station Night Market, in front of a fruit stall, she asked the price, the night special, and then she picked some oranges and some apples, and made up ten yuan, and then she quietly pulled me to the side, saying to lend me 10 yuan, I did not hesitate, I was very proud of being needed by girls, especially girls who like it! She smiled and said she owed me 22 yuan and a few buns.

I didn't go far after paying, and my dad called and said that he was coming home for dinner to pick me up, and I swallowed my saliva and replied okay. But... My dad can only ride a tricycle, and the water is a little dirty, this girl won't dislike it... Or, a call for the past? But I... Less fighting?!

Looking at the girl, she noticed that I was looking at her, turned to look at me again, smiled and said, "What's the matter, is there anything on your face?" ”

"No... Not... Face ,... Just a good-looking girl...", I whispered.

"Hey... There's a handsome guy in front of me! She suddenly reached out and touched my face, "It's handsome... Tall and handsome, just... Take good care of it. She said. Pay more attention to hydration and water fixation. ”

"Haha, free... Teach me? I laughed.

"Okay, no problem, when I make money, I'll send you some skin care products to help you maintain your care" She said with a smile, her bangs fluttering, so beautiful, I thought to myself, if... If you can marry such a girl, it will be worth dying...

… But, what about dreaming... I'm the kind of...

"So... I'm sorry for you in the future, Xiaoxue..."I whispered, trying to maintain a normal feeling of speaking, I felt that I was too nervous sometimes, so nervous that sometimes my hands and feet would be uncoordinated... High school is like this, when a person is eating jelly in the corner of the jelly shop, I don't know that the store is full with my back to the outside, until a sophomore and another girl come in and have no place to sit, so I come over... Sitting across from me, I was nervous, and I recognized at a glance that this was the senior sister of our school, or the girl who often kissed her boyfriend for a long time like no one else when she was waiting for the train at the train station... How long is the car left, they kiss for as long as they want... Two minutes of kissing for two minutes, two hours of kissing together......

There are lovers who eventually become married, and single dogs are eye-catching.

So of course I ate and ate tightly, my hands trembled and shook the cold noodle bowl, fortunately it was a disposable bowl, I picked it up directly and threw it in the trash, but a piece was poured on the table, although there was not much cold powder soup but... In the electric light, I quickly turned around and wiped the table with a cloth, and found that the soup was on the ground, stupidly I squatted on the ground and wiped it, and found that the soup also measured the pink canvas shoes of the senior sister, I actually held her shoes stupidly to wipe them, she didn't speak but looked at me sideways, her expression was a little surprised, I also seemed to react, I touched someone else?! It's still a girl, my face is already red like the sun, so scared that I put down the cloth and run away...

It's embarrassing to think about...

But now that I'm an adult, it's okay, it's not so... Silly, scrambling, what a fool... However, I have never been in contact with girls in my life... As soon as my heart raced, I felt like I was possessed by a stupid god... Silly...

"Hmm—" she just replied lightly, and I didn't know what to say.

"Well, I'll get it for you—" I said, looking at her. She looked at me, nodded, and gave me a bag of fruit.

At this time, the sound of a boom came from behind... That familiar...

I turned around, sure enough, it was my dad's tricycle, my dad rode over, stopped next to me, saw a girl next to me, I felt that my dad was stunned, maybe he didn't think I could take the girl away... It seems that my father is right, I heard that when my father first arrived at my mother's house, everyone was so nervous that he hid by the firewood...

My aunt and uncle are too. My dad's tricycle has a welded canopy, which can shelter from the wind and rain, oh can't shelter from the wind, there is no door, and now my uncle and aunt are sitting on the left and right sides of the tricycle respectively... They were still laughing, and my aunt was still asking me who this girl was, and I could only giggle and say that it was a classmate...

I looked back, my dad tricycle was filled with seven or eight bags of brown rice for pigs, I asked to know that my dad was dragging the pig to eat rice, and then picked up my aunt and uncle to the house, and burned tea at night, my dad told me to get in the car, but I was embarrassed to ask this girl...

I looked back at her, Yang Xue called my dad uncle, I turned around and introduced, this is my uncle, this is my aunt, she shouted politely. My aunt also asked if she wanted to go to dinner together, and said that she was going to get out of the car and let her sit, and I said that I called her. She also hurriedly said Auntie, sit down, she looked at me and said let's sit in the back.

I don't feel embarrassed at all, she took out two pieces of toilet paper from her pocket and stuck them on the railing, after all, the railing has oil, and then she stepped on the rear wheel of the car and turned into the car, and then turned around and reached out to pick me up, I smiled unconsciously, really, the girl didn't dislike it at all... Like, it's like... Tailor-made for me... My goddess...

I held the fruit in one hand and let her pull me up with the other, and I shouted, and my dad and my aunt were still laughing and talking, saying what was wrong with me... The car also started and drove towards the mountain village where we were renting...

She and I sat facing the back of the car on the rice bag, the rice bag was very clean, so it didn't matter, it would take seven or eight kilometers to go back, and we needed time, so we sat side by side...

Leaning together a little, I'd love to pull her hand down again, but... But, in the end, I only looked sideways at her calm, gentle, beautiful face, and we would be in the future... How?!

The car went around left and right, and went up a few big slopes, the place we rented was halfway up a mountain, a little biased, but in fact it was not so biased, because probably more than 1 km parallel to our mountain road, that is, the second ring road of the county, to put it bluntly, this place is just not developed, very wild, actually not partial...

But saying so much, it's still very deserted, only there are occasional people living on both sides, but the less you go inside...

Before the car went up the last slope, it was a small downhill, and we were just half-lying on the rice bag, blowing in the wind, and suddenly she laughed quietly... I looked at her and smiled...

"It's so pleasant," she said suddenly, "to have family... It's so good..."She seemed to be talking to herself, and her voice gradually became quieter...

I heard her voice, and my heart suddenly ached... Also, this girl... She..., she was able to grow to such a big age, she must have suffered a lot of pain and suffering that I can't imagine... Now at this moment, I really want to hug her in my arms... Tell her, it's okay, from now on, you have me... You're no longer alone...

But I gritted my teeth, and I didn't dare to make this step...

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