5. Fate

The tricycle drove for nearly half an hour, or more than ten or twenty minutes, and finally drove into a small road, bypassed the fish pond, went up the small hill, went down the small hill, turned a sharp corner, and arrived at the village where our family was renting.

The rented house is an old building of more than 20 years, with two floors, the whole building is still made of mud bricks, the exterior wall is coated with sand, but over the years, it has also grown moss, anyway, the overall house looks very old, but it was originally an old house. It's still rented, so it's okay to make do with it.

But my parents still cleaned the old house very clean, the tricycle turned a corner, passed the side of the house, and arrived at the front of the house, I jumped out of the car first, and then reached back, she looked at my actions and actually smiled, I wanted to jump down, but I didn't jump. Instead, she stepped on the back of the tricycle and let me take her hand and help me down.

"Thank you." She smiled and whispered.

"It's okay, it's okay, give", I handed her the fruit, because of the evening special, I bought a big bag of fruit, a little heavy, but it was also a piece of her heart. She took it, and my mom was already shouting inside...

My dad and uncle have already walked in and sat down, my aunt, aunt and aunt are all there, my mom has prepared the meal before and is waiting for us, and my 9-year-old fat brother is still helping to eat...

Seeing me come in with a tall, beautiful girl, they don't know what they're laughing at?! My face suddenly turned red, but I quickly introduced everyone to her, and she shouted along with her, and then handed the fruit to my mother. After sitting down, I also introduced her to everyone, of course, I didn't say much, just said that she was a fellow countryman, a classmate, called Yang Xue.

Then everyone eats and eats, and the dishes are basically my mother, my aunt, and my aunt are picking up vegetables for Xiaoxue, and she also copes with it freely, I suddenly found that she has a maturity that is not easy to be noticed...

Eating, coming and going anyway, everyone was talking and laughing, and Xiaoxue continued from time to time, but I didn't say a word... In a sudden trance, I seemed to think that if she was really brought back... Girlfriend, how nice it would be...

But am I worthy of her? Doesn't she have a boyfriend? She didn't say either, and I'm... I don't dare to ask, I'm afraid to ask, all this will disappear from my life like a phantom...

I don't know what to say or what to do... After eating, we chatted for a while, my mother looked at the time and said it was only 9 o'clock, said that she wanted to make tea, Xiaoxue immediately stood up and said that she wanted to break white corn. My mom laughed so hard that she said yes...

I've never seen my parents look so happy today, I feel that they may have misunderstood something, but I didn't dare to say, in my ordinary life, my parents are hard worked, I can't bear to see it, so I can come back, I want to help, I also found a part-time job in school, anyway, how to reduce family pressure, how to come... But I still make too little money, so maybe that's why I'm anxious, after all, I'm still studying... But some of them can't learn to read... Dead learning also... Alas, stress, pressure, I woke up suddenly, too, I seemed to think too much, so much so that countless pressures pressed on me, so I was anxious all day long, and I rarely laughed... Every time I come back to help, it may put pressure on my parents to work harder to make money... Of course, I also have a younger brother who goes to a private aristocratic primary school, 4-50,000 a year, and there is no way that the public school is full and not recruited... yes, everyone's under pressure... They rarely laugh... Maybe this way, the pressure will only get deeper ...

It's not that I don't help and don't do things, but I have to go on with life, I have to laugh more, and the pressure can't be too expressed, at least, I, can't...

With a wry smile, I also ran up, sat on the edge of the snow and began to break corn... She picked up the corn leaves but had little strength to break the corn, so she asked me to help, I couldn't break some tender corn without nails, so I let her go...

For so many years, I was alone in junior high school, high school, and college in other places, and for the first time, I felt... Feel... Around, if there was someone to accompany you, a girl you like, how nice it would be...

In high school and junior high school, I lived alone, and after staying alone for a long time, I was very uncomfortable and lonely at first, but slowly, I learned not to think about that, or rather, I learned to divert my attention, think crankily, and be wild... Learned, how to go, take the initiative to forget about those... Something that makes people feel lonely.

That's how I've come over all these years... But now, when there is a temporary appearance around me, someone who I can't distract myself from at all, at that moment, I seem to see it again, that called, the abyss of loneliness, that, the black hole...

I don't know what's wrong with me, but it's just a little trance from time to time once in a while... She's busy coming and going like her own home... I feel embarrassed again, after all, I know that she didn't mean to come to your house to be your daughter-in-law...

I had to follow her, she went to wash the dishes, I washed and cleaned twice, she wiped the table, I went to clean up the table first... But... It seems to have made his misunderstanding deeper...

Soon, the water boils, and the tea is ready to be made out of the pot, this kind of drink with ginger, tea, mung beans, chestnuts, corn, white rice, etc., is considered our specialty here, and it also has the effect of repelling cold and dampness.

Soon, the tea came out, my mother poured this into the fight, and began to give everyone a bowl, Xiaoxue took the initiative to be a waiter, helping to send the tea to others, she was holding it with both hands... This kind of polite detail makes her add points in everyone's hearts.

Time flickered, and soon it was more than ten o'clock in the evening, after everyone drank tea, they talked a lot, and chatted, and talked about a lot of village ghost stories, or strange stories, to my consternation, Xiaoxue was obviously very interested in these, she also told a few stories, what, faceless man, dead goat, corpse deer, evil god, snake shadow, what mess, I don't know what she heard, anyway, everyone was bluffed.

But after all, it's late at night, and it's going to end. My aunt and a few of them also rode back to the city on an electric car, they are all rich people who have a few apartments in the city, incomparable, my uncle and they also had motorcycles parked here before, they originally came in and rode bicycles, they left one after another, I looked back, looking at the back of the girl who was washing the dishes in the dark old kitchen under the dim incandescent light... I have an inexplicable feeling in my heart...

I want to leave her down to rest, anyway, there is a room on the second floor, although this building is more broken, the second floor is also a small sun-dried valley and two small rooms, a small room is also deserted and there is no door to put sundries, but the other room can still sleep people, I come back to sleep there, there are two beds on it, because sometimes my brother also sleeps in that room with me, but he will not sleep well and always kick the quilt, so one person a bed...

But I feel like I open my mouth casually, I always feel that it's a little weird, and in addition, I also have a strange feeling in my heart, this girl is not simple, at least... There are many... Lots of stories... However, I still want to believe, and I believe unconditionally, believe in her, believe in this girl, believe that this girl must be her girl, this, nothing else, it feels so, and, if there is a chance, I am willing, protect her to... Forever!! Forever!!

I washed the dishes, I also helped to collect the dishes, swept the floor, she didn't speak, I didn't speak, sometimes, I really hate myself, think too much, worry too much, and then open my eyes, look at one by one, miss in front of me one by one...

But some things, missed, are forever.

I admire some people, who say whatever they think and speak quickly, this kind of person will live more easily and happily than a person like me who thinks twice and acts prudently...

Finally, when the sweeping was done, my parents were still feeding the chickens, and there were still some piglets in the shanty built by the hill behind the house, so I poured some water, took a new towel, and asked her if she wanted to wash her hands.

She looked at me and smiled, "Okay." The basin was on the ground, she was half-squatting, washing, wringing out, wiping her face, wiping her hands again... In the dim light of the main room, I saw her white, reflective face, and I realized that she didn't wear any makeup at all, those relatively long eyelashes, and the pink, natural polish on her face...

"Well... Beautiful..."I subconsciously spoke, she was still washing her hands, and when she heard what I said, she was stunned and looked up at me. It seems to be thinking about something, still.

At this time, my mother came out of the back room, was taking off her long overalls, watched her wash her hands at the door of the main house, and said, "Xiaoxue, it's too far to go back to my hometown at night, and I don't have a car yet." Is there a place to rest at night, there is a vacant room on the second floor of my aunt's house, do you want to rest here at night? It's not safe for a girl at night. ”

I was stunned, Mom, you said what I wanted to say, I even got up at 6 o'clock tomorrow morning and rode out to buy breakfast rice noodles, I have thought about what to do for breakfast, add a few fried eggs, what milk to buy...

"Thank you, Auntie, I'll go to my sister's, my sister is studying at Tianning County Yanshi Middle School, and she rented a house there." Xiaoxue said, looked at me again, and stopped talking.

My mother reacted quickly, "Xiaoxue, it's a real middle school, I'll ask my uncle to send you down, Liu Xian, you go with me," my mother said.

"No need, Auntie, I want to walk, I just have enough to eat, and if I want to lose weight, I don't need to trouble my uncle." Xiaoxue said politely, and looked outside, because it was a mountainous area, it was very dark, the panning was fine, the front lawn was under the fields, and the lights of the second ring road could be seen in the distance, but the road out was really dark.

"Okay, Liu Xian, you go and send Xiaoxue, you have to send it to the verification middle school." My mom turned to me again.

I said yes, but my heart sank, and she passed... She doesn't live here... Will there be a chance to meet in the future? Still is... But I didn't have time to think about anything, I went into the house and got a flashlight, and pushed the bicycle out of the clutter next to it, after wiping it with a towel, fixed the flashlight on the front of the car, and took an old book to put on the back seat, I called her, she was still talking to my mother, my mother wanted to stuff a red envelope for her, but she didn't ask for anything, after looking at my side, I said a few words to my mother, and then came over.

"Stay safe!" My mom shouted in the back.

"Okay, Auntie" Xiaoxue responded, I also said yes, and got on the bicycle, she also sat down, I turned on the flashlight, rode the bike, and set off...

It's embarrassing to say, I just rode through the corner, that is, uphill, watching the uphill car speed slow down, I didn't react, she jumped out of the car, actually helped push, and waited for the car to go uphill, and it was downhill on the side of the mountain, she ran two more steps, jumped on the car, sat sideways, and then I didn't know what I thought, haha laughed, there was no lady fan at all, I still saw her laugh like this for the first time, but what I didn't notice was that she was smiling, and a few tears fell from the corners of her eyes...

"I thought of it, what... Things? "I said, I wanted to say that I thought of something happy, but then I thought about it, something was wrong, so I asked, what is the matter. At this moment, I felt like she had really let go of everything, laughing out loud.

"Nope." "But, aunts, uncles, and uncles... And my aunt, my aunt... It's so nice", as if talking to himself, he said, and looked at the night sky, the stars shining in the sky, "The night sky, it's so beautiful." ”

"Well, yes, you can't see these stars in Wanli City." I said, the car is still moving, not fast or slow, to be honest, I don't want to ride too fast, but going to the county town, there are more downhills than uphills...

Soon, the car rode two or three kilometers from this mountain road to the village road. In fact, this mountain road is also good, in the past half a year the village and town transformation, but also installed solar street lights in the mountain road, although not much, not very bright, but there is better than nothing...

After riding from the mountain road to the country road, it is two roads on the left and right, left north and right south, right south is the old road, the road to come, ride two or three kilometers from here, bypass the old labor camp, go down one or two kilometers to the ring road, but to go to the real middle school, you have to go over four kilometers, this is calculated, there are more than ten kilometers, but for the high school can be a person from the hometown that reincarnation village, ride one hundred and twenty-seven kilometers to Wanli City East Station to surf the Internet, these ten kilometers, is really trivial, I still remember the summer vacation, At 9:10 a.m., I was watching TV at home alone, and I was bored and didn't know any friends to play, so my grandma said why not go out to play? As soon as I jumped up, I said okay, go out, take a pump on the spot, tie it to the car, ride a bicycle and run, from Samsara Village, to Guta Town, and to..., to Tianning County, to Wanli City, West Railway Station, Railway Station, East Railway Station, Xingyue Internet Cafe... It's already night, so, all night, log in to the membership, surf the Internet... Drinking hot tea free of charge from the Internet café, playing CS CF alone, listening to the former QQ music alone, listening to Wang Sulong, Xu Liang's songs, listening to the demeanor, there will be no time in the future, no shame girl... I don't know why, at that time, there was a dull pain... Lonely?! Lonely?!

There was a voice inside me questioning itself, but I didn't choose to answer...

I thought, and I opened my mouth again, and talked to her about this... It's the first time, the first time I've been like this with someone, I opened my heart and said, she just listened quietly, and occasionally replied...

Thinking that after an all-nighter, I can ride more than 100 kilometers back to my hometown in the morning, which is really top, although on the national highway back to Tianning County, I can still fall asleep on the side of the road... Come to think of it, I'm, really bored, or rather, for... Escape, it's called, something lonely...