6. The light of heaven and the shadow of the earth

Turn left out of the mountain road and go north to the mountain, there is no road, but then I heard that the mountain is digging and repairing the road, anyway, the mountain is dug, the ground is sparsely dug, the road is still no shadow, and then I heard that the former county magistrate was greedy w was arrested, and the contractor also ran away, and everything ran away. Although it is unfinished, there are not many people living there anyway, so it doesn't make a difference.

We chatted in a mess, as the bicycle turned right into the country road, this section is mainly downhill, there are many street lights, I just lightly braked, slowly, she in the back seat did not speak, I can feel her head gently leaning on my back, asleep??

In fact, September is not too cold, the breeze is blowing, yes, I don't know what I heard there, the best and best thing in life is that the closest person lives by your side, and the person you love the most sits in the back... Haha, I smiled sweetly, in the silent night, it seemed that only the rustle of rubber tires rolling rapidly on the ground was left, and the light and faint girl behind her, the sound of breathing...

How often do I hope... Time can pass a little slower, I've reduced the speed of the car, what, how, can't it be slowed down, like the running water in my hand, time, flies...

It's there, it's in front, I look at the school gate in front, on the slope, it's just, it's there, it's verifying the middle school... I had mixed feelings in my heart, the speed of the car slowly decreased, she seemed to feel something, woke up, raised her head and looked around, the car slowly stopped at the school gate, she jumped out of the car, walked two steps, turned around, looked at me, her faint face, filled with an indescribable smile, "Now, today, thank you very much." Xiaoxue said.

"It's fine." I scratched my head with my hand, a little, not knowing what to say.

Yang Xue looked at me, the faint smile on her face turned into a helpless wry smile, "Seriously, today, is the happiest day I have in the past ten years, on this day, I am very happy to meet you, and I am also very happy to meet uncles and aunts, uncles, aunts, aunts." Sometimes, I would always be in a trance for a while, and it felt like I had a nightmare for ten years, but my parents were not lost... I also have a home, a loving father, a gentle mother, a naughty younger sibling, and, love me... Husband... However, after the night, the dream will eventually wake up, when I wash the dishes, the cold water has a biting cold, but my hand, the ice to my heart, I know, I should wake up, the moment I wake up, this world, or that cruel cold and bitter cold world... I hate the world..."

As she spoke, her eyes looked straight into my eyes, and I looked at those starry eyes, deep, like an abyss, and in those eyes, I even, saw fear, darkness, death, hatred, everything... I had to avoid those eyes, not to look at them, not to dare... Look directly at it... She paused, then continued, "But... Today, I seem to have a little bit of a different view of the world... Because, I met you, I am today, really, very happy!! ”

Yang Xue looked at me, and didn't speak for a while, I didn't know, what to say, I could only say stupidly, "I'm also very happy to meet you... I, I feel that I may have exhausted the luck of my life to meet you...", I feel that I am still stupid, still immersed in her words, stupid and I don't know what to say...

"Haha," she suddenly laughed again, "fool... Don't say that, actually... I know everything, it's just... It's just—" She said, as she spoke, but something that always seemed difficult to speak...

"It's just... Alas, if I were a normal girl who hadn't experienced those, I really, really, will..., I really would, be your girl, be your girlfriend, even, be your wife... But, but I can't, you're not me, you won't understand my sorrow, of course, I can't let you understand, I can't burden you..."She said as she spoke, and by the end of the sentence, I felt my pupils already dilated, and every word, like a nail, pierced into my heart...

She's still saying..."So, Ah Xian, forget me, forget today... Forget all this...", she walked up and hugged me, "I know everything, I... I promise you, if there is an afterlife, if there is an afterlife, I am willing, I am willing to be your wife, I don't care what your family background is, no matter how you treat me, I like you, I am willing, I am willing to stay with you forever, stay by your side... However, I'm also sorry, I can't give it to you in this life, I have my business, I have my sorrow, promise me... Forget about me... All right?! ”

I sat stupidly, sitting on a chair on the front lawn outside the gate, stupidly looking at the starry sky overhead, I don't know how I got back, I don't remember what I said or did in the end...

… The last memory I have is of her hugging me and saying, if there is an afterlife, I will... Be your wife, if there is an afterlife...

Why, there is an afterlife?! Why...

Why, I, again... What can I do, I...

I... And what can I... I... Again... Can for her... Do what...

Why... Unwilling... Tell me about it...

I've been waiting for you for twenty years, and it's finally here, and it's coming for a day... Again, always... Lost?

The next day, the sun was shining, leaning against the wall, lying on my side on the bed, I felt very uncomfortable in the corners of my eyes, I touched it... Eye dirt, and, dry face, I went downstairs, walked to the mirror, and looked at me in the mirror... On the dry face, there are two... Tears... I don't remember when I slept... I don't know... Looking at the hall of the main house downstairs, everything is neatly arranged, and I feel... Dream-like...

It's like... Huang Liang has a dream, or, the snail girl... Or... It's still a dream...

I shook my head, and at this time, my parents came out from the back room after feeding the chicks and piglets, and saw me waking up stupidly standing by the mirror in front of the main house door, so they hurriedly said, "Go to just breakfast, the breakfast powder is placed on the table, covered with a bowl, and the girl last night is very good, still tall, you have to cherish people!" Don't be half-hearted..."

…

"Last night... Target... Girl... I repeated this sentence stupidly, washing, eating breakfast, everyone is wooden and stupid.

"What's wrong with you kid?!" My mom was busy going around, and finally noticed that something was wrong with me, "Why is it as dull as a wooden fish?" ”

"I... Wooden fish... Dull", I repeated, my mom frowned, and at this moment, my dad was carrying a large backfence of plants from the small slope below the front lawn... The pigs weed up, and there were two people in that column, and my dad carried it alone...

My gray pupils suddenly became clear, yes, yes, my life is more than love, I also have a home!! What's wrong with love again?! Less influence on me, what am I afraid of, isn't it love, do it, be hard!! Is it hard? It has to be hard enough!!

Hard or not, I'll talk about it later, and the only thing on my mind now is to help my dad carry that big back pen pigweed!! How can he have a height of 181, and the little pigweed dares to be presumptuous! Do it!!

I immediately stood up, rushed over, ran behind my dad who had just gone uphill, and dragged the back bar with my hand, "I'm coming, I'm coming!" ”

"No, no, it's all up!!" My dad shouted, "Don't help! ”

"Then put it down, I'll carry it!" I said out loud, "I'm an adult!!" ”

"Mo Duo hands, it's at the door of the house, don't help!!" My dad was still yelling, and I thought about it too, so I had to drag the back railing, "Then let's go, I'll drag!!" My dad had no choice but to walk on his back, and after I dragged it behind, the weight on him was reduced by 80%, and when it fell to the pigweed machine in front of the front lawn, my dad shook his hand and said, "This kind of thing, I don't want you to help, you take good care of it, just accompany the girl." I think it's very accurate, that girl must be good..."

Listening to what my parents said, my heart sank, and I had no choice but to respond. But think about it in my heart, too, I have to go to the real school to see if I have time... But... Last night, what exactly happened...

Why don't I remember at all...?!

…

But in my heart, I don't know why, I'm always a little panicked, although some don't remember, but some still remember, in the words of remember... I'm sorry..., she said I'm sorry... Later words...

She rejected me... Before I could speak... Just rejected me... Yes, yes, such a beautiful girl, she must have a boyfriend, and she has had a lot of boyfriends, what kind of scum am I?? Why should people like you! You scum... I'm... Scum, yes, I'm a scumbag, actually, delusional love... Amusing...

Sad, ridiculous... I refused, okay, okay, that's it, I didn't say anything, that's it, what my parents said about this girl and that girl, I didn't talk, and then fell into a wooden fish state...

Airplane Mode...

At this time, an electric car turned around and came in, stopped on the front lawn, it was my aunt oh and my sister-in-law my dad recruited Lang, and my brother, I saw my 9-year-old brother jump off the electric car, and ran over with a schoolbag, "Brother, where is my roasted wheat?!" ”

"Burn... Roasted wheat...?! And two... It's cold, why don't you go to eat?! I... I'm in for a treat... Ah, don't you eat... Oooh... And two... It's all cold... Oh oh well... And water, do you want it? "I'm stupid and talking to myself...

My brother stood stupidly, all stunned, blurted out, and said, "What the hell is a wooden fish..."

…

The morning passed quickly, the wooden fish returned to the wooden fish, but when my dad was going out to drag something, because of the messy wooden plank, the firewood was very heavy, my eyes were awake for a moment, sure enough, only labor can make me shine, after helping my dad in the morning, I ate at noon, after eating, I rode a bicycle for more than ten kilometers, and arrived at a car apron selling second-hand tricycles opposite the middle school, hiding in the corner, looking at the school gate... People who come and go... Girls who come and go...

There is none... That figure..., wait to look at the phone, it's two o'clock in the afternoon, I rode back home, in the afternoon my brother washes the dishes, does homework, my mother lights a fire in the small shed in the upper right corner of the front lawn, cooks pig food in a big pot, I go downhill with my dad to the fields below, in the mountains, cut pigweed... Oh yes, under the front of the front lawn, there is also a row of small factories, and inside are big pigs... After we went down the slope, it was in front of the house of Xiaping factory, and we went around the mountain from the side of the house...

It's a busy day, and it's another day... At 7 o'clock in the afternoon, after eating, I asked my brother to wash the dishes, I changed my clothes, and rode a bicycle for more than ten kilometers, to the middle school, and stupidly dodged the second-hand tricycle apron, hiding that looking at the gate of the middle school, and looked at more than 9 o'clock in the evening, and more than two hours passed...

No... Or not... But I... I won't give up, I'll buy some flowers tomorrow, call it a day today, and go home... Take a bath, wash your clothes, dry your clothes, and sleep!

…

The next day... On Sunday, the last day of the holiday, the morning was as busy as ever, sitting on my father's three wheels, walking around the city, and when I passed the real middle school, I also wore a mask, to be honest, I don't care, but I'm afraid she will lose face... No no...

By noon, eat, eat, ride to the South Station, the flower shop, there are many flowers in it, but in short, there are two kinds, one real flower, the period is short, but beautiful and expensive. Another kind of plastic flower, the period is almost permanent, cheap and fragrant, not fragrant, to buy additional perfume ... I hesitated briefly, considering that she probably didn't have a house to live in my sister's... Ah, or... This, I still bought a dozen fake flowers... But it's not good to think about, wait for the girl to think you're picking, but this... It's not,,Thinking about it later,Add ten more real flowers,27 together,Love period,27,Spray perfume on fake flowers,Spray some mountain spring water on real flowers,Paid 76 yuan,Arrange your clothes and hair in front of the window at the door of the flower shop against the glass,Look at the 181 tall, 73 kg teenager inside,Well,It's a bit like a handsome guy.,Hahaha,I asked my parents.,The food cooked last night.,The piglets have four meals in a pot.,Two days.,So there's no need to cook it this afternoon.,Hahaha,I'll take the flowers to the stronghold...

Squat for an afternoon!! But after I used all my life's luck to meet this girl, I spent a lifetime of courage squatting on the side of this pile of old tricycles, holding flowers, holding the tricycle bucket in my hands, and looking into the distance, the gate of the middle school on the side of the road...

But slowly, I felt like there were a lot of people around... A lot of eyes are looking at me, yes, like a weird Shu millet, holding flowers, squatting near the school gate, there are still many girls in and out of the school gate... If you don't call the police, you can afford me... (at least not like the bad guys)

So, I just let go of my hand holding the bucket rail of the tricycle, coughed awkwardly, hid the flower behind my back, straightened my waist, and stood on the side of the road opposite the middle school in a military posture like our respected armed police soldiers... This stop is an afternoon...

…

It's dusk, and the sky is slowly turning into darkness...

But that... The girl who is as beautiful as a flower did not appear, when I raised my hand, the real flowers in my hand, some of them have withered, the petals have withered, and some of the fake flowers are still intact, but the air is permeated, and the smell of inferior perfume ...

"Heh... Alas, haha", I smiled bitterly, looked at my phone, it was 7 o'clock in the evening, I shook it away, pushed the bicycle, and planned to leave, in the crowd of people coming and going, there was my lost dog.

But at this moment, I felt that someone was watching me behind me... So familiar... Don't...

But when I turned around, I didn't see anything, and there was no familiar one in the crowd of people coming and going... Girl's, figure.

After watching it for a few minutes, I smiled wryly, turned around again, put the flowers in a plastic bag, hung them on the handlebars, jumped on the bike, rode on, and walked...

Didn't look back... Naturally, I didn't notice it anymore, that one, hiding behind the school gate post, wearing a black dress and short skirt, covering his face with his hands, as if he was crying, tall, fair and beautiful... Girl.