I don't know.

Although it was only a short three words, it gave Lin Luo a dry silence again, if you can do it with one bite, then I still feel better, at least your mouth is hard enough, and your heart is ruthless enough.

But you don't know a word here

Seems better?

At least it shows that she is confused, hesitating, and can't make up her mind at this time.

Jiang Li really couldn't make up her mind, she had never worried about going back before, or she had never worried about going back

In other words, she had always thought that she would not have too deep feelings with this person, after all, she had been with Daqi for more than ten years, but it was just a slightly closer friendship between monarchs and ministers.

Even at the moment of his death, although he had grief in his heart, the grief was not just personal feelings, but more because he felt that the country was missing a pillar and she was missing a minister.

There was even a faint sense of rejoicing, a sense of relief, he was dead, and there was no one in this world who knew my secret.

She thinks that getting along in modern times will be like this, how about eating and living together? What do you think about it? How about holding hands with you?

I am glorious and clear, and everything is guided by you, I have never had that kind of thought, and I will never have the idea of having a child's affection.

Even if one day I came to the modern age inexplicably, I will go back inexplicably.

Maybe I'll be mindful of this, but it won't be long before I'll be able to come out quickly, and I'll still be the emperor without joy or sorrow, and I won't be trapped by the experience of these days.

But now she's finding out otherwise.

On that night more than ten days ago, he babbled a lot of things, what was the early love, what was the good feeling, and pressed her step by step to admit it.

Jiang Li thinks this is ridiculous and ridiculous, why should I admit it? Why do I admit it?

But after so many days, she turned her head to look back at that night, only to find that it was not.

These days, he is so taciturn, and he doesn't even say a word to himself, and she will feel lost, irritable, and angry when she gets along like that.

He said a lot of things last night, he said that he didn't get positive emotional feedback, and when he said that he was going to give up, she would feel angry, unconvinced, reluctant, and even feel guilty.

"I don't know what went wrong, but it's only been half a year, and I should be glad and relaxed. I checked it on my phone for a long time last night, but Baidu said that. I wondered, did I really think about that? But I can't understand why you have such a mind for me, even out of revenge, not even liking? ”

Jiang Li is obviously the type who talks a lot when he drinks too much, and he is cold and elegant on weekdays, but at this time, he talks to himself for a long time.

In the end, it became a little incoherent, and even claiming to be mine for a while.

Those eyes were also full of confusion, and they looked at Lin Luo so fixedly.

In this regard, Lin Luo just said: "Actually, I don't know if I like you or not."

"Oh, even you don't know that I still have such a thing."

"But you should be clear."

“.” Jiang Li got stuck, and immediately wanted to ask him, you don't know yourself, how can I be clear?

But there is a voice in my heart that seems to say: You should be clear.

If you can't even notice what attitude and perception he has towards you, wouldn't it be self-deception?

And whether this person likes it or not, she can feel it, indeed. Yes.

At least in many moments, it can be perceived, the care in life, and the daily relationship. Even a look, a subtle gesture.

It's just that he has a preconceived idea, and he always feels that he has a purpose, and he has a certain calculation in making these things.

That's right.

Thinking about this, Jiang Li should have felt comfortable and thoughtful, after all, it can be determined that it is not that she is willing to be cheap and has a good impression of a person who wants to take revenge on her, but getting along bit by bit, accumulating together, which eventually led to all this.

It is conceivable that there is not much comfort in the heart, but it is even more dull.

She was silent for a while, and then said, "You're right, I'm really clear, but after that's clear, it's. I."

Jiang Li didn't seem to know what to say, interrupted several times, and finally lowered his head, "This feeling reminds me of the time when my mother died, not only parting, but also when the emperor wanted to kill my mother, in fact, I knew in advance, that night the emperor called me to the front of the collapse, saying that I was carrying too much responsibility, and wanted to secretly execute all those who knew my identity, including my mother." But he hesitated, and hereby ordered me to come and ask me what I mean."

"I was shocked at the time, but I couldn't help but be glad that since my father called me here, it means that he actually didn't want to kill, otherwise why would he ask such a question? He wants me to persuade him, I just need to persuade him, just persuade him."

"Yes"

Speaking of this, Jiang Li couldn't say any more, she lowered her head a little deeper, and her voice became even lower, "That night, I knelt in front of my father's collapse and persuaded for a long time, but my father never said anything, until Tianming asked me to go back, he just asked me to go back and rest. At that time, I secretly speculated that my father should have received murderous thoughts, but I did not get a positive answer, and I felt inexplicably panicked in my heart, and I had more than two months of sleep and food, even if I wanted to ask my father again, but I was stopped by the palace people outside my father's bedroom and not allowed to enter.

Seeing that two months had passed, I secretly thought in my heart that my father had really accepted the murderous intent, but just as I was about to relax, the news of my mother's death came again."

“.”

"I always wondered if I didn't persuade well, if I was clumsy, if I could explain the pros and cons, if I swore at the time, if I broke into my father's palace in those days. Wouldn't it be different? Is it that the mother concubine will not die? ”

"Actually."

"Actually, no matter what, the mother will die, right?"

"Hmm."

"Then since his killing intent has been decided, why did he tell me in advance?"

Lin Luo could only be silent when he heard this, and he couldn't think clearly for a while.

Jiang Li hugged his shoulders with his arms, curled up on the sofa on his knees, and buried his head in his knees, "Actually, I couldn't figure it out for a long time, but then I figured it out." My father wanted me to remember that I couldn't be the master at that time, and I couldn't control one thing by myself, so I could only toss and turn and couldn't sleep, and I felt deeply uneasy and desperate all the time.

Only by remembering will I hold on to the authority in the future, and I will not dare to slack off for a moment. As an emperor and a daughter, once you lose power, once you can't be the master, once you don't control things, there will only be more desperate things than this. ”

"But he, but he's like this, I can't even hate him."

Speaking of this, Jiang Li's voice was already a little choked, and then he stopped stiffly, didn't continue, just buried his head low, knocked his shoulders on the left and right sides with his two hands, his fingers were inverted, and he used great force, his hands and arms were trembling slightly, as if he was desperately suppressing the urge to cry.

If you want to cry, cry out, it will be better."

"I didn't want to cry."

“.”

"Woo, what are you doing, presumptuous!"

Lin Luo didn't do anything, just got up and walked over to sit next to him, forcefully pulled her two hands that were knocking on her shoulders, and then stretched out his arms to hold her, so that her head could rest on his shoulder, and then said in a calm tone: "Don't do anything, I just want you to cry." It's okay, cry, there's nothing to be ashamed of, I'll lend you a shoulder to lean on. ”

Lose face!

It's a shame! I am the Son of Heaven and the Emperor, how can I cry when I say I cry!

Jiang Li wanted to shout these words out loud, but as soon as she raised her head, tears filled her eyes, and then they slid down her cheeks, and then she seemed to give up on herself, plunged into Lin Luo's chest, fell on him and cried.

Lin Luo: "enmmmmmmmmm"

It's a shame for you to cry like that.

(End of chapter)