Lin Luo really didn't expect that a dignified emperor would look like this when he cried.

I thought it was the kind of silent tears, biting my lip and pretending to be strong; No matter how bad it is, it's the kind of sobbing and choking, and your shoulders are shaking.

However, it was lying on top of him, woo-wow, and with rhythm, a bit like a fire truck, and children didn't cry like this.

Lin Luo didn't know how to comfort him, so he could only gently pat Jiang Li's back with his hand, but with this beat, her aggrieved emotions seemed to explode completely, and she was more like a fire truck.

Gao Leng's character has completely collapsed since this moment, and he has become a fool who loves to cry.

But it's also true. The mood has been tense for too long, not a day or two, but a few years or more than ten years, in a more literary and artistic way, this crying girl usually shows people with a cold face, but her heart is already full of holes.

If what happened to her was put on anyone, suicide was normal.

One day, your father called you over and said that I was going to kill your mother, what do you think?

You said I'll call the police if you're like this?

It's useless, your father's identity is too high, high like a god, no one in the whole world can control him, at this time all you can do is persuasion, persuasion, your father still doesn't say anything, kill or not necessarily, you go back and wait for the notice.

Then you go back and can't sleep all night, worrying, suffering from that inner torment all the time, wanting to probe your father's mouth again, and being stopped from seeing you.

You have been suffering for two months in this tormented despair, you think that it has been so long, it seems that your father should not be killed, but just as you are relaxing a little, the bad news comes, your mother is dead.

Emperor Xuanzong of Great Qi Xiaozhao, no, Jiang Qing, who are you, you are a living king when you step on a horse!

Satan has to tattoo you, and he has to close his eyes, he can't open his eyes, and he can't bear it when he opens his eyes.

And the more desperate part is.

If this old man is just a pure beast, he will simply not do anything, and deliberately make her frightened for a while, so that Jiang Li will at least have a hateful person, and he can appeal to hatred.

But in fact, she can't hate it if she wants to, because Lao Deng's starting point for doing all this is still for her.

In order for her to remember the torment of these days, and to remember the despair of fate manipulating the hands of others and not being at her own disposal.

Sitting back on the golden dragon chair in this way, in order to firmly hold on to the authority, so as to control his own destiny. can only deal with the government every day, and ask about all major and minor matters, and dare not relax or slack off for a day.

In this way, the power will not be lost, and the society will become more and more stable.

And the fact is also according to the development of Lao Qideng, Jiang Li has been in power for many years, and the country is becoming more and more prosperous, whether it is the ministers or the people, they all praise this is a prosperous era that has not been seen in a thousand years, it stands to reason that there will always be some slackness at this time, even those historical holy lords and monarchs are inevitable, but she has never been.

From beginning to end, I didn't dare to relax the slightest, day by day, I got up earlier than the chicken, slept later than the dog, the country was well organized, and I was tired at the age of thirty.

Lin Luo used to think that this was because she had a strong sense of responsibility, a career brain, and a workaholic.

But now it seems that these reasons may exist, but more often than not, those days left her with indelible psychological scars.

She resisted the despair that her fate was out of her control, and she was afraid of the uncertainty of not knowing the future, but waiting for it.

One day, will it be like coming inexplicably, and then going back inexplicably.

Is this kind of thing a fate that is not in your control, and is it a kind of uncertainty that you are waiting for?

It's self-counting.

So in order to minimize this sense of despair, she subconsciously made a choice, that is, not to decorate the so-called house, not to buy those furniture.

That way I don't have to worry about whether I'll go back or not, because it doesn't matter.

Otherwise, you will experience the tormenting sense of despair at the beginning, the only difference is:

At the beginning, the face was whether the father and the emperor would kill the mother concubine; And then the question is: Will I go back suddenly?

No, now she has begun to face this situation, wanting to deceive herself, shrinking her head into her shell like a turtle, not thinking about it, but in the end she has not deceived her heart.

So now I'm very confused and hesitant.

It's really pitiful, it's distressing.

Reaching out and patting Jiang Li's back gently, Lin Luo silently sorted out her thoughts in her heart, if it weren't for the wine that poured her in place today, making her confide in her heart, she really didn't know that there were so many twisted places in her heart.

I don't know how long it took, Jiang Li's crying gradually became quieter, only whimpering and sobbing, and his shoulders kept shrinking, Lin Luo asked out loud: "Actually. You don't want to go back, do you? ”

"Hmm."

Seeing her admit it, Lin Luo was not surprised, when he returned to Daqi, he was just cautious everywhere, and he couldn't even sleep well at night, worried that his daughter would be spied on.

In addition, he has to deal with the government diligently every day, like a tool man, even if he controls the supreme authority, but what is the meaning of such a life.

It's better here, at least you can be yourself, don't be scared, don't have to be so tired.

"Since you don't want to go back, I know you're very screwed, but people don't mean that you always have to be pessimistic and think about the bad side, like whether you will go back or not, who can say for sure? This kind of thing can't be predicted, and since it can't be predicted, it's the same as not happening, like."

Lin Luo raised his eyes and thought for a while, and then gave an example: "Just like can you predict the occurrence of accidents?" You may say that a gentleman does not stand under a dangerous wall, as long as he does not go to dangerous places and does not do dangerous things, he can always be safe. But what you are avoiding is only a man-made disaster, not a natural disaster, if there is a sudden earthquake tomorrow, can you avoid it, you can't avoid it. ”

"But have you ever thought about such a thing? Have you ever thought that you might be rocked to death by a landslide tomorrow or the day after tomorrow? ”

“.”

After waiting for a while, seeing that Jiang Li didn't answer, Lin Luo increased his strength and patted her on the back a few times, "Talking to you, have you thought about what I just said?" ”

"Nope."

"Do you think there is a chance that this will happen?"

"Yes."

"Is it certain that something like this will happen when you go back one day, or is it possible?"

"Possibly."

Lin Luo then asked, "Then why are you worried about going back and not worrying about the earthquake?" ”

“.” Jiang Li buried his face in his chest and didn't answer.

"So you're worried about useless things." Lin Luo said: "People, the most important thing is to enjoy the moment, it's useless to think so far." You are a typical person who chokes on food and is afraid of choking to death, so you will never eat, but how can people never eat? ”

"Whether you will go back or not is as unpredictable as whether a person will die one day. And death is bound to happen, but whether you will go back is not certain, you are not worried about death, but worried about such unwarranted things, isn't it a bull's horn? ”

"No one knows if you're going to leave, if only because it's possible. Don't let yourself have too deep feelings with others, so let's not talk about whether this idea is ridiculous, at least it can't be done anyway, just like you will worry about going back now, doesn't it mean that you have already had feelings with me?

Do you think that if I give up, and then you cut off those thoughts, you and I will not think about that aspect of things from then on, and just stay under the same roof for a few years, ten years, or even decades, and you will feel that it doesn't matter when you leave?

No, people are not plants, as long as you get along with people, you will definitely have emotions, unless."

Speaking of this, Lin Luo stopped talking, and then there was no follow-up, Jiang Li couldn't help but ask, "Unless what?" ”

"Unless you move into the deep mountains and old forests, live alone, and don't deal with anyone, so that no matter how long you stay in modern times, you will definitely feel indifferent on the day you leave, and there will be no nostalgic people, how about it, do you want to think about it?"

“.” Jiang Li didn't speak, and she didn't move when she lay there, only because she had been crying for too long, and her shoulders were still trembling slightly to prove that she was still angry.

Lin Luo smiled, "But then again, if you live in the deep mountains and old forests all your life, and you don't go back to the moment you die, you find yourself worried all your life, but you end up alone, will you regret it then?" ”

“.”

Jiang Li was still silent, but Lin Luo knew that this chicken soup was poured in, and he didn't refute it out loud, which means that she agrees with it.

"Therefore, grasping the present is the most important thing, and what happens in the future is a matter for the future. There is wine today, drunk today, and sorrow will come tomorrow. Eh, don't rub your nose on me."

Jiang Li didn t take this stubble, turned his head and wiped his tears on his shoulder, Lin Luo looked at it with disgust, there was a big lump on his shoulder, and his chest was also

Forget it, the little fairy doesn't have snot, she's not a little fairy, she's a fire truck, woo wow woo wow.

"I said so much just to tell you, don't get into the horns, don't fight with yourself, there's no need. At least for now, all I want to do is decorate the house with you and buy some furniture to put in it so that it's no longer an empty shell. ”

Lin Luo raised his paw to help her fix her somewhat messy hair, "Is it okay?" ”

"Hmm."

The time was a little long, and after waiting for a long time, I got a faint light hum, the voice was as soft as a kitten calling, Lin Luo sorted out her hair for a moment, and for a while suspected that it was his own delusion.

"Did you just mumb?"

“.”

Jiang Li ignored him, reached out and pushed his hair forward, letting the hair hang down, covering his face, and then got up from Lin Luo's chest, and walked towards the room with a little sway.

"I was tired and went to sleep."

"Hands up a little bit, the doorknob is not there."

PS: This twisted plot is over here, in fact, the content will be longer according to my expectations, and there are one or two thousand words, but because of some force majeure, it has been reduced a bit, so let's leave it at that.

It can be regarded as explaining the psychology of the heroine clearly.

OK, sleep.

(End of chapter)