"Thank you, Mom." After she finished obediently, she said, "I will arrange my own well in the future." ”

"How were your monthly exams last Friday?" Sure enough, sit here and wait.

"I'm sorry." An Ran lowered his head, "I didn't do well in the exam this time." ”

"What happens if you don't do well in the exam? Second? Third? There was pressure in Mrs. Ann's gaze.

An Ran's voice was like a mosquito, and his face turned red with shame, "The last one." ”

There was a moment of silence in the living room.

Aunt Chen, who originally came over with juice, was shocked and stood in place for a while, not knowing whether this cup of juice should be sent to An Ran.

Everyone in the family knows that Madame has a bad temper and will throw things if she doesn't agree with her, what if she gets angry later, spills the juice, or can't help but throw this glass of juice at the lady?

She glanced at An Ran in embarrassment, and An Ran shook her head slightly.

Aunt Chen turned around and went back to the kitchen with the juice.

"Why are the grades so bad?"

Hearing the adoptive mother's cold voice, An Ran replied calmly, "I was preparing for the competition some time ago, and I didn't have time to review after class. ”

"I don't think you're studying hard." Mrs. An's voice was filled with anger, "Others can do everything well, why can't you?" If you really want to learn, is it a problem that you don't have time? ”

An Ran knew that Mrs. An was a person who would put pressure on the child once she behaved badly.

Therefore, in the past, she was always working hard, always afraid that she would not be able to do well in the exam, study badly, and do not do well, because once she did not do well, studied badly, and did not do well in the exam, her adoptive mother would be very angry, and she was also afraid.

Therefore, later in high school, her grades declined, in addition to factors such as her crush on Hua Zhan and her identity being exposed, her own lack of internal motivation was also a reason.

The more you don't do well, the more nervous you are, the more nervous you are, the more you can't do well, and gradually you develop the psychology of "learned helplessness".

However, now that she is facing the anger of her adoptive mother, although she chooses not to say anything, she will not feel wronged.

The living room of An's house was filled with low pressure, and Mrs. An suppressed her anger and questioned An Ran one by one:

"First from the bottom, I've never seen such a bad result."

"I think you're just lazy, and you'd rather play than study well when you have time."

"You think you can sit back and relax if you win a prize, right?"

"If you don't work hard and make excuses, how can you have the face to live?!"

“……”

This is Mrs. Ann's habitual expression of her, either counting, criticizing, and intimidating.

In the previous life, she almost ran out of vitality because of Mrs. An's constant denial, and she always thought that she really didn't do well, and her selfless efforts only found out in the end that the truth of reality was not.

Mrs. Ann scolded her and denied her, but only because she didn't love her.

Because I don't love her.

She can always indifferently emphasize her dedication to herself.

Because I don't love her.

Therefore, she has never felt true love in them.

The most she feels is love.

You come and go, and you need to repay the love.

This is why later, adoptive parents can so justifiably ask for themselves through the word "love".

They always repeatedly emphasized: "How much money has been spent on you since childhood, how much care has been bothered, how should you be to me?" ”

Because I know that I don't kiss, I don't love.

Because they don't love, they are reluctant to do everything for her.

As soon as she couldn't satisfy them in the slightest, they would scold her, blame her, spur her, and look at her unpleasantly.

even, very indifferently, said: "Enron, you are not worthy!" "Fundamentally denying the value of being born as a human being.

She has spent her whole life verifying that being their adopted daughter is a disaster.

"Are you in the water in your brain, why are you so stupid?" Mrs. Ann was still scolding.

But Enron is no longer the child who will imprint every ugly word she says, let alone let her words pierce her heart like a knife, leaving scars that are difficult to heal.

She took the penultimate exam, what does it have to do with whether she has the face to live in the world?

This is Mrs. Ann's emotional episode, and the brain circuits are not normal.

"Mom, I didn't do well in the exam this time and I didn't mean to, I really didn't have time to review." An Ran spoke coldly.

"You're still quibbling!" Mrs. Ann was even angrier.

"I'm not quibbling, I'm telling the truth, before going to the competition, I practice the piano every day in addition to classes, you calculate that I get up at 5:30 every morning, practice for an hour and a half, and then eat breakfast and go to school, and come back in the afternoon to practice until more than ten o'clock, in which I have to dance, do homework, and sometimes accompany you to parties, I am not a god, there are no 48 hours a day."

"You!" Mrs. An was dumbfounded, and after a moment of silence, she said, "Mrs. Wei's son is only thirteen years old, and he knows that he gets up at half past three in the morning, and you can also get up a little earlier. ”

An Ran said, "Mom, can you get up at half past three?" ”

Mrs. Ann was silent.

Of course she couldn't, she went to bed at eleven o'clock every night and often slept until ninety in the morning.

"If you can't do it yourself, why are you asking me to do it?" An Ran said calmly and clearly, "You usually rarely ask about my studies, and you only care about it every time you take the big exam all year round, ask about my grades, to put it bluntly, you never care about the process, you just want to get the results you want, but if you don't even have time for me to plant trees, how can I have fruit to pick for you?" ”

"Are you complaining to me? Enron. Mrs. Ann asked coldly.

"I'm not complaining." An Ran shook his head, "I'm just stating the facts to you, if you don't want to see the facts, I'm sorry, I can't be responsible for everything you want." ”

"You're saying I'm self-righteous and irresponsible?" Mrs. An sneered, "What qualifications do you have to say that about me? ”

Here it is -

An Ran smiled lightly, "Yes, I'm not qualified, I don't even have the qualifications to make a name for myself, everything you said is right." ”

"You're laughing at me?" Ann gritted her teeth, and the anger in her eyes was rising.

"Don't dare, don't dare. I just think it's unfair to ask me to do something you can't do yourself, Mom. An Ran shook his head, his voice was as crisp as a jade stone, with a cold texture, "Or as a mother, you really hope that I am good, I hope that I will improve, and you must try your best to help me improve my grades, such as helping me find good teachers and find me good learning institutions." ”

"You deserve it too!" Mrs. An sneered, "You are so powerful, so capable? Why don't you go to your friends to help with tuition, or study on your own? ”

"You don't support it, I don't have to figure it out on my own?" An Ran hooked his lips and smiled very lightly. 1314 (End of chapter)