As soon as the son came home, he found that his mother was locked up by his eldest brother, and the iron door and iron lock were in bed like a prison. Seeing that the youngest son came back, the mother packed up her things and was about to leave.

At lunchtime, my mother moved a little too much. The eldest brother said, "Be quiet. ”

Mom stood up and wanted to go home again, but the eldest brother was very impatient, "Sit down, I told you to sit down!" After my mother sat down, the eldest brother said, "Do you remember living in this house for five years?" ”

In the evening, the eldest brother and the mother quarreled again, "What are you doing?!" Why don't you wipe pee on me! The eldest brother impatiently pulled his mother into the bathroom, and the white face of the chicken was a shower.

The eldest brother abused his mother so much, and the younger brother couldn't stand it anymore and stepped forward to stop him. Since the two brothers fought, my mother came to persuade me again: "Have you made enough trouble?" The eldest brother snatched the shower and was angry. My brother hasn't come back for so many years, but my mother has always lived with them.

Maybe his mother was homesick, and the youngest son decided to obey his mother's last wish and take her back to his hometown by the grassland lake.

The car drives in the beautiful wilderness, the sky is blue, the forest is green, the cattle and sheep are herds, and the small house next to the grassland gecko is the home in memory.

Mom looked at the picture on the wall, "This is my youngest son, skinny, like a monkey." ”

The youngest son was sad for a while, and his mother recognized himself when he was a child, but he didn't recognize himself now.

I remember a few days ago, he had been chasing his music dream in Beijing, and suddenly received a call from his mother, but after the youngest son said his name, his mother said, "Who?" ”

Arus realized that his mother's Alzheimer's disease was worse, and he immediately got on the train and returned to his hometown. Over the years, my mother has been taken care of by the eldest brother's family, and she can only be locked in the house because she is afraid of running away.

Arus can also understand the difficulty of the eldest brother's family, I remember that before leaving, the eldest brother caught up and hugged his mother tightly, and the mother seemed to come back to her senses for a short time, saying, "My good son, are you tired?" ”

But back in the grassland, my mother still didn't worry at all, and I went missing on the first night, whoa, Arus looked for it with a flashlight in the middle of the night, but fortunately, a girl named Nata helped find her mother and called the police.

Nata rode her motorcycle through the blue-green of the prairie morning. At dawn, Arus finally saw his mother. On the way home for the police, my mother began to be confused again, saying, "My house is not here, you are going the wrong way!" ”

Arus was speechless, they had returned to the grassland, but her mother was still talking about going home, and when it got dark, she was distracted. Keep saying, "It's getting dark, I have to go home." ”

That night, the moon hung high and threw herself into the middle of the lake, and her mother squatted in the corner to feed the ants, and Arus immediately set fire to a piece of paper to burn the ants. The mother was so shocked that she quickly stepped on the fire and shouted, "This is their home, don't you have one?" Arus wondered where her mother's home was.

After tossing all night, Arus had colorful feet on his face, and he didn't know when he was scratched. Thankfully, Tana was there yesterday, and she was the daughter of a nearby electrician. The two chatted for a while.

After Tana left, Arus watched his mother sleep peacefully while another ant climbed from his mother's hand onto Arus's hand, and Aru lowered her back to the ground. Maybe he's looking for his own home like his mother.

The next day, Arus took his mother into the city to do some shopping, and went to see his eldest brother by the way. But as soon as I got to the door, I heard my sister-in-law say, "Arus, you should stay here and take care of your mother with us." Arus knew that his eldest brother and sister-in-law were overwhelmed and that he should stay behind to share the responsibility of taking care of his mother.

Arus took his mother to a clothing store, and his mother fell in love with a Mongolian robe at a glance, and he didn't want to take it off when he put it on, but the boss made it for his mother, and he didn't want to sell it to others, so Anrus asked her to take it off, and her mother played hide and seek with him, and the proprietress saw this and decided to give him the clothes, saying, "It's okay, wear it away." ”

Arus said, "My mother has become like a child, and I can't help you." ”

In the blink of an eye, my mother was gone again. Arus chased him to a theater, and his mother looked at the empty stage.

Arus took the yellowed ticket in his mother's hand, and then realized that in his mother's memory, there was a solo performance of the horse-head fiddle, accompanied by the melody in his head, and his mother said to herself: "Arus was so red when he was born, I always left the two of them alone in the city, but fortunately there was music with him." ”

The next day, Tana helped Arus's family connect to electricity, and Arus made a funny piece of music for Tana on the spot, he collected the sound of the motorcycle's engine and horn, and after a simple production, there was a very characteristic music. "Any sound can be made into music," Arus said. Tana thought it was funny and said, "If you stay here, there are so many voices in the grassland." Can you turn all these sounds into music? ”

This sentence woke Arus to the fact that he could stay in the grassland and collect the sounds of the grassland while taking care of his mother.

Mom pulled out a radio out of nowhere, and with the music, Mom seemed to find a new pleasure. But in a blink of an eye, my mother wandered to the lake. Arus quickly took the rope and tied him to his mother, and the rope was tied between him and his mother in the future, like an umbilical cord, representing the bond and belonging.

My mother couldn't be idle, so she had to cook butter tea, but because of her poor memory, the salt was put again and again. After drinking the tea she had brewed, her mother frowned and said, "Who made this tea?" ”

When washing his mother's hair, the eldest brother came to the door to see his mother who was in a much better state, and he was very relieved. Arus told his eldest brother about his decision, he will not go back to Beijing, he can do music anywhere, and if there is a performance in the future, you will help take care of it for a few days. The eldest brother drank the butter tea boiled by his mother in one go. My mother saw my eldest brother go out and said, "My little birds, have all flown away." ”

The color of the lake in the evening is as transparent as jasper, the mother and son sit by the lake, the sunset melts in the blue sky, the "umbilical cord" emits a golden light, and they just quietly look at the sparkling firelight. In the silvery blue sky, a plane brushed shoulders with the crescent moon, and Arus felt calmer than ever.

That night, while Arus was sleeping, a drunken driver crashed into the wall of his house, and when he woke up, the driver left a cart of lambs as collateral and made an appointment to bring someone to repair the wall two days later. As for the hole, I can only cover it with plastic sheeting.

Arus felt unlucky, but her mother was very happy, and she deliberately moved the table to the hole during the meal, and the outside world loomed, and the house looked like a placenta. Aru asked helplessly, "Where is the home you want to go back to?" Tell me who is in the family? Mom thought about it, pointing to a photo. He said, "They are them, and the tree is my home." ”

Arus saw the photograph and the tree was easily recognizable, because it was a tree of life and death, half alive, half dead, half alive, half withered. Only then did Arus know that the home that his mother was going to return to was the home of his mother's parents ——— deeper in the grassland.

That year, there was a sandstorm, and my grandfather went out to look for sheep and never came back. Grandma also left that year, because it was too sudden, and this incident has always been a hidden pain in my mother's heart. Now she has Alzheimer's and doesn't remember anything, but she only remembers it.

It turned out that what my mother wanted to go back to was the home of her childhood, and my mother also wanted to find her mother, at this moment, my mother was like a homeless child, and the umbilical cord connecting him was broken, so she was lost.

Usually Arus is tied to his mother, and when he goes out, he ties his mother to the corner of the bed, but this day he came back late, and his mother was anxious and wanted to go to the toilet. Luckily, Tana arrived in time, cut the rope, and asked Arus, "Will tying her up solve the problem?" Don't you even respect your mother? Arus was a little helpless, "The most important thing for my mother is to be safe, without this rope there is no way to ensure his safety, and she doesn't know who I am." ”

Since their house was damaged and the weather was getting colder, Tana asked them to move in with her own house first. Tana's family was very welcoming to them, and Tana's grandfather quipped, "Is this the grandson-in-law that his granddaughter brought back?" ”

After three rounds of drinking, Tana's father saw the picture and said to Arus, "There are not many good boys like you, you have to find that tree, I saw it when I was a child, go in that direction, ask all the way, and you will find it." ”

Arus decides to take his mother to the tree and take him where he wants to go. That night, Mom suddenly heard a burst of singing, singing, Mom seemed to see his father, Mom heard the lullaby of childhood, Mom wanted to follow the umbilical cord, but was tied by the umbilical cord behind her.

The next day, Arus rode on three wheels, pulled on the yurt, and took his mother on the journey home.

In the evening, Arus set up a small stove by the river, and the two of them drank mutton soup while watching the sunset. The red sun shines on the dead trees, the sky and the earth are connected, the twilight is gradually formed, and the sky is a deep blue.

Early the next morning, a lost lamb broke into the yurt, and his mother held it in her arms and refused to let go, so Arus had to take her mother to find the lamb's home. They walked a long way and finally found a flock of sheep. Arus broke into the sheepfold and grabbed a ewe to feed the lamb. Although the rancher was short-tempered, he still came to help after the misunderstanding was resolved. Watching the lamb find its mother and suck milk happily, the mother sang a song emotionally.

The rancher refueled Arus's motorcycle, and Arus asked him, "Do you know that tree that is half alive and half dead?" The rancher said, "I heard from the older generation, you should look for the north side." ”

Arus rode his motorcycle north, passing a fenced grassland, opened the door and stopped the barged in, only to be stopped by a drone before they had gone far.

Mom hadn't seen the drone, so she just muttered, "Changshengtian opened his mouth to talk to me." ”

Aru had no choice but to leave the meadow and take a detour, as if he had received some kind of inspiration, he was no longer in a hurry, but recorded the sound of his mother stepping on the grass and made it into music, and his mother put on headphones to listen quietly. Since stepping on the way home, Mom seems to have calmed down.

At night, they set up a yurt by the lake, and Tana suddenly found her, and her mother hurriedly covered the wet sheets. Arus comforted: "I used to wet the bed a lot when I was a child, do you remember? As soon as the sun shines, there is nothing. ”

Mom's illness seemed to be getting worse, and Tana cleaned her body. At night, the bonfire reddens Tana's face, and music plays, and the beautiful notes touch the girl's heartstrings. Tana said emotionally: "I like what you are doing now, it shouldn't be just Matouqin and Humai, and we can't live in the past forever. So saying, he kissed him, and Arus greeted him warmly. At that moment, my mother suddenly sat up.

No, it was my mother who took Arus and Tana as her parents. Arus knew that his mother had completely turned into a little child. He put on a Mongolian robe and a headscarf for his mother, and in the unclear sky of the grassland, in a dense and mysterious blue, an umbilical cord connected a pair of mother and child, and walked towards a mysterious place.

On the shores of the lake is a place of worship for the Mongolian people, where a traditional ceremony is taking place. Mom knelt beside a pile of rocks and stretched out her hands to pray to the immortal heavens. When night comes, bonfires are lit and a costumed dance party begins, with people singing and dancing. Bonfires rise, like sparks like starlight, flying in the night sky, like countless fireflies.

Arus played the horse-head harp, and in the melodious sound of the piano was the sorrow of separation, the reluctance of sorrow, the bond of Bosher, and the relief of the bond. At the end of the song, Arus and his mother danced around the campfire, arm in arm. Mom asked him, "Why are you so upset?" Is that girl making you sad? Doesn't she love you? ”

"Love, I'm sure she'll love me forever, but she can't remember," Arus said. Mom said, "It's okay, time will keep moving forward, just like the horse orchid on the grassland, it will not be evergreen, and the flames from the bonfire will reflect the distance." Mom and Dad are here to pick up their daughters. Mom cried out, like childhood depression. With tears in his eyes, Arus took out a knife to cut the umbilical cord and let his mother go home. Mother's back faded away with the flames, slowly turning into a heart in the night sky.

We are all just fragments of the stars, and all partings are short-lived, because one day, we will meet again. Arus continued on his way, finally reaching his home at the end of the journey. The half-alive and half-dead tree stands quietly by the lake, withering and half-glorifying, and the cycle of death and life. Arus sat under the tree, looking up at the sky, as if talking to his mother. After a few moments, he breathed a sigh of relief and set out on a new journey with light steps.

How do we deal with our departing loved ones? This is a question that everyone needs to think about. The umbilical cord contains many metaphors of connection, such as man and nature, man and hometown, man and his own people, all have an invisible umbilical cord. When a mother becomes a young girl and becomes a child, how will her child maintain this spiritual expectation? Sometimes I feel like we've been kids all our lives, and we've been longing for that kind of embrace all our lives. Our mom, she's the same.

Life is a circle, and we will eventually return to the original starting point. We may forget the pain, the love and hate, the time, and even ourselves, but we can't forget the original feeling of home. And that invisible expectation is a home and the strongest bond of a nation.