Love is fascinating, but it is faintly painful

"Comrade, I'll buy wine." The man came to the shop and said to the salesman with his back to him.

"Loose or bottled?" The woman asked.

"Whatever, whatever." The man replied.

The woman turned around slowly, and for a moment, the woman slipped off the wine bottle in her hand in surprise, and she panicked and didn't know what to do, because the man in front of her was her high school classmate, and the man never expected that in this poor and remote mountain village, he would meet his high school crush.

The man asked, "You, Cheng Liwen?" ”

The woman said, "Guan Yubo? ”

Yubo told Liwen that after graduating from college, he was assigned to the county seat, and now he is being sent here to work on a temporary basis.

Yu Bo asked Liwen: "Why didn't you repeat the college entrance examination that year?" ”

Liwen seemed reluctant to talk about the topic, and instead turned around to help Yuba get a drink.

The woman came back and said, "One catty, five dollars five." ”

After the man finished paying, Yubo wanted to say something more, but Liwen kept his back to him, casually wiping the table.

Yubo was helpless, so he had to say goodbye reluctantly: "That, that, I'll go first." ”

"Hmm." When Woo Bo left, Liwen couldn't help but sneak a glance back at Woo Bon's back.

When I was in high school, Yuami and Riwen used to be classmates at the same table, and in the 70s, boys and girls were at the same table without talking, and they would draw rivers as boundaries, as if they were an insurmountable barrier.

And every time Liwen passed by, Yubo would always smell the fragrance of Pechoin, and the erratic smell of the blue sky remembered Yubo's youthful ignorance, and was deeply imprinted in the depths of his memory.

After the college entrance examination, Yubo became the only college student in the school, and Liwen, who had better grades than him and had talent, missed out on Yu University because of a difference of one point.

After graduating from university, Yubo was sent to a remote official house to work and exercise, and after arriving in the mountain village, he began to become depressed and unhappy, always feeling that he had no talent, and life was not rushing.

He thinks about borrowing wine to drown his sorrows every day, so he goes to the supply and marketing cooperatives in the village to buy wine, and then he meets the girl he has never forgotten since high school.

He would carry the wine bottle to Liwen's supply and marketing cooperatives every day to drink, but Liwen never said a few more words to him, she was as solemn and arrogant as ever, and Yu Bo hurt again, but Yu Bo was unwilling to lose this rare fate, he continued to take care of Liwen's supply and marketing cooperatives every day.

Finally, on this day, Liwen confiscated his wine bottle and refused to sell him anymore. Under the pleading of Yu Bo's dead face, Liwen agreed to use his own tea jar to make him a glass of wine, but when Yu Bo took it and took a sip, he found that the wine was mixed with water.

Woo said, "Why are you doing this to me? I know you all over the street, and I think about you every day, do you do that? ”

Liwen said, "I mixed this wine with water. ”

Yubo said: "Mixed with water? You're selling fake wine. ”

Liwen said: "What's wrong with selling you alone?" ”

Yubo said, "Why? ”

Liwen said: "I just don't want to see you look like you have never met a pearl, how amazing, I feel like I like to drink when I go to college." The more Liwen spoke, the more angry he became, so he simply swept Yubo out of the house.

Yubo stood at the door and begged Riwen to let him in, but no matter how he knocked on the door, Liwen never opened the door, and he really had no choice but to play a scoundrel in public.

"Folks, folks, here are ...... for sale"

I have to say that the dead skin and face seem to be useful for every girl. Liwen had no choice but to open the door and let Yubo in.

Coming to the room, Liwen poured a cup of hot tea for Yubo, and Yubo teased: "The wine just now was mixed with water, and this tea will not be mixed with the bar?" ”

Liwen smiled knowingly and said, "What you think is quite beautiful." ”

Yuami picked up the Tagore anthology on the table and said: "I also liked Tagore's poems when I was in college, his poems are very quiet and feel very beautiful, just like you." ”

Liwen said: "Hmph, it's a metaphor. Liwen knitted a sweater while chatting with Yubo.

Yuami asked, "Who is the sweater for?" ”

Liwen smiled and said, "It's blindly knitted." ”

This is the first time that Yu Bo has seen a smile on Liwen's face, and Yu Bo finally discovered that in fact, Liwen's seemingly cold face has always contained the gentleness and kindness of talent, and he suddenly felt the comfort and tranquility of this remote wilderness, and the original impetuous mood slowly calmed down, and slowly began to embrace all kinds of hopes.

In the days that followed, Yubo always followed behind Liwen, and in getting along day by day, Liwen gradually opened her heart.

In the chat, Yubo learned that Liwen's father was originally a bridge engineer, and once came to work in Gongmuzhai, and accidentally met his mother, who was working in the supply and marketing cooperative, and the two fell in love at first sight.

Later, his father chose love to stay, because his mother's brother was working abroad, some people suspected him of being a spy at that time, and his father only helped his mother explain a few words, and he was beaten as a rightist, and then he was sent here to carry out labor reform.

After the death of her mother, Liwen relieved her mother's job in the supply and marketing cooperative, due to the family background, plus she had to take care of her father, which is the reason why Liwen failed the college entrance examination that year and did not choose to repeat.

After listening to this story, Yubo admired Liwen's bravery and strength very much, and at the same time deeply admired his desperate father, he decided to visit the old man another day.

The next day, Liwen took Yubo up the mountain to visit his father, and a group of children saw that there were guests coming, so they all gathered at the door to watch the excitement.

"Comrade Liwen, is that your lover?"

Liwen said: "Dad, that's a township cadre. ”

The third uncle said, "Little girl, I think you are quite a good match." ”

Liwen said: "If you talk nonsense, I won't care about you." In fact, his father could see that Liwen also loved the man in front of him deeply.

At the dinner table, his father mentioned Yubo's work, and praised him for his deep attainments in literature, and said that he looked at Liwen with a sad face, and said to Yubo: "I dragged her down, she can't go out, and the farther she goes, the better." ”

Liwen said, "Dad, I'm guarding you and not going anywhere." ”

Yubo said to Liwen, "Actually, I think it's pretty good. I still want to stay. ”

In the face of Ubo's naked hints, Liwen didn't dare to open her heart, because she didn't want Ubo to bury her good future for herself, let alone follow in her mother's footsteps again.

As the days passed, the relationship between Yubo and Riwen gradually became closer.

On this day, Liwen was sitting by the river listening to music, and Yubo came to the river to wash his face, looking at his funny expression, Liwen was amused to laugh.

Yubo asked, "What are you laughing at?" ”

Liwen said: "It's okay if you don't wash your face, but it will take you all the time to wash it." ”

Yubo said: "The conditions here are so bad, I haven't taken a shower for several days, and you, as an old classmate, don't help me." ”

Liwen said: "Then it's still early, before the villagers go to the street, go to my place and wash well." ”

Yubo was stunned for a moment, he didn't expect happiness to come so suddenly. Saying that, Liwen also laughed at Yu Bo's stinky body, which stinked the river water.

Yubo said, "Who stinks? You stink. After speaking, he poured water on Liwen.

Liwen dodged away and continued: "Stink, oops, stink, stink!" ”

In order to prevent Yubo from becoming a stinky man again, Liwen specially boiled a large pot of boiling water, and after setting up the bath water, she stood at the door and only picked up her sweater.

In the room, Yu Bo was comfortably rubbing the bath, but when he looked up, he saw that Liwen's photo was hanging next to him, and he was stared at by a beautiful big girl, and Yu Bo suddenly lowered his head shyly.

Woo said, "It's so comfortable. ”

Liwen said, "Really? ”

Yubo said: "Oh, I'm really sorry, there is too much mud, and it stains your basin and towels." ”

Liwen said: "Then you will accompany me in the future." ”

Yubo said: "Okay, I can accompany you for the rest of my life." ”

In the face of Yuami's naked confession, Liwen was silent.

At this moment, there was a knock on the door, and both of them were frightened, it turned out that the villagers came to the supply and marketing cooperatives to sell things, and Liwen lied that it had not yet opened, which fooled the villagers.

After the villagers left, Yubo hurriedly put on his clothes and ran out, and the two looked at each other, both amused by the sudden episode.

Yubo said, "Laugh, I was scared to death just now." ”

Liwen said, "What are you afraid of?" ”

Yubo said: "I, of course I'm not afraid, what I'm afraid of is that you are afraid." ”

After that, Yu Bo accompanied Liwen to the river to fish, watching Liwen stir the river, Yu Bo was fascinated, the so-called Yi people are on the water side, but the wilderness at this moment has the comfort and beach of paradise.

In the evening, the two sat together by the fire to roast the fire, they talked a lot, a lot of things about high school, and the atmosphere slowly became ambiguous with the temperature of the fire.

At this moment, a flash of lightning flashed, and the electric lights in the room suddenly stopped, and under the light of the fire, the two fluttering hearts became more and more hot and restless.

Yubo asked Liwen if he had put a letter in his schoolbag when he graduated, had he read it? Liwen said that too much time had passed, and she couldn't remember it anymore.

Umami said, "Do you want to listen to the contents of that letter now?" ”

But Liwen refused: "It's been so long, it's okay not to mention it." After three autumns of water, some words were broken like a dream, and only fragments remained. ”

Yubo knows that Liwen obviously loves him deeply, but why is he unwilling to accept his confession?

Liwen lowered her head and said, "It's late at night, and the rain doesn't stop." ”

Yubo said, "Then I'll go." ”

Yubo thought that Liwen would keep him, but he didn't expect Liwen to say, "There is an umbrella by the door." ”

With that said, Yubo had no choice but to leave here in displeasure.

In this way, the two who were in love with each other missed each other's fate like this.

A few days later, the Mid-Autumn Festival arrived, and Yubo accompanied Liwen and his father to have a happy Mid-Autumn Festival. Before leaving, Liwen talked to Yubo about her family: "My mother used to tell me that she ruined my father's life. ”

Uhami said, "How can you say that? ”

Liwen said: "If it weren't for loving my mother to stay in the mountains? How can a bridge engineer be reduced to an old man who weaves a hat? ”

Woo said, "There's nothing wrong with staying together for the rest of your life. ”

Liwen said: "Even if you understand my father's sacrifice, do you understand my mother's apology? ”

Looking at Liwen's eyes, Yubo finally found the reason why Liwen was reluctant to accept him. Liwen can't do without his father, so Yuami must stay here.

Liwen didn't want Yubo to be as ambitious and useless as his father, and he didn't want to be guilty and regretful like his mother. If someone has to pay for this, she will bear it alone, and she can't pull Yubo into the water because of her children's affection, so she has no choice but to be well.

Time flies quickly, and in the blink of an eye, Yubo's internship expires, and the county is ready to transfer him back. Yubo found Liwen and told her the news: "Liwen, I'm leaving. ”

Liwen was stunned for a moment after hearing this, she didn't expect this day to come so quickly, and after a moment of emotional stability, she pretended to be relaxed again, "It's so good, time flies so fast." It's time for you to go, too. ”

Yubo once again expressed his desire to stay, his love for Liwen was so sincere and hot, as long as she said a word, he dared to stay in the mountain for her.

But Liwen refused again, she knew that Yubo did not belong to this small mountain village, if she left him at this moment, in addition to a momentary heartbeat, she would leave a lifelong regret, and she did not want the tragedy of her father and mother to repeat itself in them.

The night before leaving, Liwen came to give Yubo money, and the atmosphere at the dinner table was a little solemn, "In the future, no matter how far you go, this mountain will always be your hometown, and if you are tired, come back to rest." ”

Liwen gave the sweater she had knitted for half a year to Yubo, in fact, this sweater was knitted for him when Yubo first arrived in this small mountain village.

At that time, Yubo asked Liwen, but he just said that he was playing blindly. Yubo had a lot of thoughts, and he gave the harmonica he carried with him to Liwen as a souvenir of each other.

After dinner, Yubo sent Liwen home, and under the moonlight, the two sat silently without saying a word to each other. Maybe they felt that the street was too short to bear their mutual complaints, or maybe they wanted to say too much, but they didn't know how to speak, and before they knew it, the two had arrived at Liwen's residence.

Yubo turned to Liwen and said, "Then, let's say goodbye to it, maybe it's a long farewell." ”

Liwen lowered her head and said, "Then take care, I'm leaving." ”

Although Liwen was ready to separate from the day Woo first came, when this day came, she still broke her defense.

The two stood inside and outside the door for a long time, and the parting of the two was destined to end their love forever.

In the years since he left the mountain village, Yuami has experienced a lot, studying, going to sea, doing business, making a fortune, and even guaranteeing credit for his friends. While he was imprisoned, Yubo didn't dare to write to Liwen anymore, not wanting her to know how down-and-out she looked.

It wasn't until a high school party years later that they met.

When they met again, in the face of such an uncompetitive self, Yubo felt that he was not worthy of Liwen, so he could only keep pouring wine into his stomach.

Woo got drunk that night, and Liwen sent him to the hotel to wash his clothes and wipe his body.

After a few moments, Woo came to his senses, and he went to the bathroom, only to find that Riwen hadn't eaten all night in order to take care of him.

Feeling guilty and grateful, Woo felt that without Riwen, all the pain he had experienced over the years would have been meaningless.

Yubo hugged Liwen tightly, and that night, they felt each other's temperature for the first and last time.

After last night's contact, Yubo finally mustered up the courage to confess his heart: "Liwen, I have always loved you, from middle school to today, it has never changed, you are the happiness I have longed for in my life." ”

Yubo understands what he wants to pursue, he wants to stay with Liwen, but Liwen disagrees, she even says, "What happened last night may be a mistake, I just want to help you restore a man's self-confidence." ”

Yubo said: "I am now sober and rational, and a person cannot miss his love twice in his life. ”

Liwen said: "In this life, we have been missing it since the 70s. At this point, Yubo was no longer obsessed, and he mistakenly thought that Liwen might look down on his embarrassed self.

However, what he didn't know was that the moment he looked up, a hot tear quietly slipped from the corner of Liwen's eyes.

The next day, Liwen left a letter for Uhami and left. The letter said that rejecting Yubo may be the biggest mistake she has made in her life, but she knows that Yubo is the kind of world-to-world guest who is born for the road, and only by constantly walking, life will become meaningful, in addition, Liwen also left her savings for many years to Yubo, and with Liwen's encouragement, Yubo regained his strength.

No matter how difficult it was, he gritted his teeth and persevered.

Now he has made some achievements in Beijing, but he always feels that the farther he goes, the more lonely he becomes, and the deeper his thoughts about Liwen become.

In order to relieve loneliness and emptiness, Ynami often uses it alone at night in the middle of the night, wandering on the cool water, like floating in the cool stream.

In a trance, he seemed to see Liwen again, and his graceful posture and innocent smile all made Yubo intoxicated.

In the dream, he took Liwen home, walked and walked, and suddenly found that Liwen was gone, Yubo woke up suddenly, and he ran to his hometown desperately like in a dream.

However, the reality has given him that he has already thundered, Liwen has passed away due to cancer, and there is no chance to save this love.

Liwen left him two things before he died, one was the harmonica he gave Liwen at the beginning, and the other was a love letter that he secretly stuffed into Liwen's book bag when he was in high school.

When Yubo asked Liwen if she had read the love letter, Liwen lied that she couldn't remember it clearly, but in fact, she not only read it, but also read it thousands of times in the nights when she missed Yubo, and there were still vague traces of his mottled tears on the letter.

Yubo cried into tears with the love letter, and at this moment, he finally understood.

How deep Liwen's love for him is, because he loves her, so he chooses to fulfill, because he loves him, so she chooses to let go.