(a)

You and I are so far away, we face each other on a certain street in this city, a stone's throw away, but they are strangers to each other, one to the east and the other to the west. In our hearts, we have been trying to change for many years, but the result of the distance is that we feel farther and farther away......

The world is big, it's a big world, just like you who joined hands yesterday, today you can't be sure where you are? Whether I've traveled far or waited somewhere, I don't know. Spring goes to winter year after year, I don't know if you are disappointed in waiting, or I am worn out in waiting, after the fireworks shine, only the ethereal spirit is left, and the heart is infinitely released, but I find that there is no one to master. The world is really big! Because of the disappearance of you in each other's hearts!

This world is very small, and you who were completely strangers yesterday have walked in my life today, whether it is because of the call of emotions or because of the guidance in the dark, you are not sure. Summer and autumn solstice day by day, we can be so close to each other without a little distance, years of waiting for loneliness to the end before came to each other's cherished beauty, suddenly found that the days that have been waiting are actually very short, as short as the world is actually very small, just because of your appearance!

(b)

Sometimes it's tempting to determine the meaning of a word, and that's "beginning." The beginning of life is the first thing we can't determine, and then we can't be sure of more and more, when to learn the first words, when to learn the first steps, when to start the first song, when to start the first love...... We can't be sure, or even when we feel like our first heartbeat! Many times the beginning is always at the end of the discovery of certainty or indeterminacy, so there is no way to know when to do what to do, what can be done? What can be done and what can be done!? I was confused, confused, and even desperate, and I could never find the exact meaning, because the beginning was no longer so important for the end.

(c)

Suddenly, a word surged up in my heart - "small". In human life, we are like gravel, we will be carried to an unknown place by a gust of wind and waves at any time, and then even if it is vigorous or flashy in the world, in the end it will slowly precipitate and turn into dust, this is the result. We can feel the results, including our lives, and we can foresee the moment when the soul drifts away from the body, but we can't grasp the time of the beginning. Whether lonely or satisfied, we have become accustomed to the presentation of results, forgetting the process, forgetting the beginning. We can't escape the influence of the result, because in the long process, we are too easy to care about the imperfections in the process, and at the same time look at all the imperfections around us with an almost harsh eye, it is easy to ignore our own imperfections. From study to work, from life to emotion, from giving to gaining, I always forget myself while asking. The uncertainty of life and the uncertainty of life, many times in the wide space we are at a loss, even afraid of the emptiness, rather stay in the small bedroom, very compact to feel their own existence, feel the breath of life. Fear of suddenly starting again, and the most terrible thing is not knowing when it will start, the only thing you can feel is the result. Can you escape that fear? At least I can't, because I don't know when it's going to be another start, and I can only feel part of the result, because the result is clearly displayed in front of my eyes or in my heart.

(iv)

Just like my messy words, just like our uncertain life, like a smoky casino, we shake our arms, shout hoarsely about our bets, and watch the development of the game with red eyes, gambling is actually everywhere, and gambling never has a winner, so we are always the result of losing. I just don't know what it is to lose, maybe it's life; Youth, perhaps; Maybe it's money; Maybe it's time; Maybe it's an emotion, or maybe it's something about the future that we don't even know.

(5)

Optimism is a compulsory course taught to us in all philosophy of life, but if we blindly choose to give up pessimism, can we still be optimistic? We don't even know where our grief lies! Numb chooses optimism, numbly tells yourself that it doesn't hurt, numb accepts everything that the result brings, where does optimism come from! God will not give it to you because you are your own God; The Buddha will not give it to you, because the Buddha is in your own heart; God will not give it to you, because God only lives in your imagination, and the only certainty is optimism because you understand pessimism and choose a way to comfort yourself.