That day, he said that he was going to come to see me, and subconsciously looked outside, the scorching sun was shining in the sky, and the crowd on the ground was helplessly hiding under the sun umbrella.

The sun was so big, and it was so hot, just to see me, I took a car from so far away. I can't do anything like that anyway. So, I guess he just made me happy, so I continued my work, and continued to talk to some netizens without a word, to be honest, for a long time, I have been living so boring in every way, like boiled water, no pursuit, no taste, no ideals, no passion. Most of the time at work is online, and I can spend half an hour or even 10 minutes a day doing the work that needs to be done. Even the manager of the sales department wrote in the reason for asking for a salary increase, "I work so hard, in the end it is better to calculate the income of the cashier, rather than this, I don't need to be a manager, let me be the cashier......" The letter was placed on the boss's desk, and I saw the whole content without much effort, but the boss did not give him any salary increase, nor did he change my job because of her. I laughed alone, and I don't know if I laughed at myself or for that reason. Thinking about this, I secretly felt proud, in fact, I knew that the boss trusted me too much, so even if the required time was only half an hour and 10 minutes, I would definitely do my best to complete it with 120,000 points.

Continuing my boring online chat, the boss sat on the desk across from me writing something...... At 12:40, my phone rang, and the caller ID saw that it was his number, and I picked it up and listened to him say that he was going downstairs to my company. At this moment, I suddenly became very nervous, and if my boss was not there, I could leave my desk casually. But at this time, the boss only comes once a week, so I feel very bad about asking for leave, but everyone else is coming, is it such a hot day, let him stand there alone and be disappointed, and then leave dejectedly? No, I started trying to figure out how to sneak out.

There was a cash check in the drawer, which was written by the boss for my salary. I began to slowly collect the things on the desk, and I was embarrassed to say, "Mr. Yang, can I go to the bank to withdraw money?" "In fact, after saying that, I regret it, the bank is 1:30 before the official opening, now it is only 12 o'clock, and this time is what I specially told Mr. Yang, but now I want to go to the bank at this time, if the boss who is more attentive, he must know that I have something to sneak out. But the boss only said, "The bank hasn't gone to work yet, go later, here's an agreement to help me do it." "Oh," I whispered. Weak and lost, he walked back to his original position, but his eyes always appeared in his mind as he stood in the sun and waited. No, I'm going to go out anyway, even if it's just a glance like he said. My colleague here was writing a report, and I whispered to him that a friend was downstairs, and I would go out for a while, and if the boss called me, remember to call my phone, and the colleague nodded in agreement. Actually, I don't use such an explanation, just go straight down, even if you go to the toilet, there is no rule that you have to come back after a long time. Alas, it's so stupid that my colleagues know it. As soon as I stepped out of the door, the aunt who delivered the Chinese food came over, and I had to sign and confirm the Chinese food every day, and I didn't settle the bill until the end of the month, so I casually said, "I'll go to the toilet, and I'll come back and sign it later." "I said this sentence actually intentionally louder to the boss, she said it doesn't matter, I'm waiting for you here, I walked a few steps and thought something wrong, I'm going down on a date, people don't need to wait like this, and the boss found that there is such a person, isn't the goal bigger? So I came back, found a pen and signed my name, and left quickly, in fact, it was only a few minutes of time, but I felt that every second was so long, and even the air conditioner, which usually feels a little cold, could not stop the sweat oozing from the corners of my forehead. Today, alas, I don't even know if the boss noticed my abnormality.

The damn elevator was several times slower than usual, and the palm of the hand holding the phone couldn't help but sweat...... One walked into the elevator quickly, walked to the lobby, and began to think about what he was wearing today, hehe. What will it look like? When I got to the edge of the station, it was empty, and I turned around and saw him, still smart, standing under the shade of a tree and reading the newspaper, I don't know why my face turned red all of a sudden, but fortunately it was sunburned. My mood is complicated, I know very well why he wants to come to see me, I also know very well that I can't give him any reason to let him come to see me again, the steps are a little chaotic, as I am feeling, but I don't want him to find out, I don't want him to disappoint, I don't want her to come so far to see a messy face. I took a breath of hot air, stabilized my mood, and greeted him, still facing me with a big smile, a "damn" smile that made me can't help but beat violently. God, I knew I couldn't escape, and the first time I saw him I knew I was going to melt in his eyes, and maybe it didn't take a word to make me limp.

He is always so stubborn and enthusiastic, no matter where it is, even if it is on the street, I know that he must be hugging me, but in such an environment, I am really afraid that the people I recognize will see it and explain it clearly, so I gently hid. Forgive me, I seem to be leaning into your arms, but now I have to dodge, and I will be sad for a long time for this avoidance, because you will be disappointed, and although you will not let me see it from your face, I know that you will have it in your heart. Forgive me, okay? I know it's hard for me to give you a visible hope in the future, and I know it's hard for me to give you an understandable love in my present, but even so, if it's in a quiet environment, if it's just you and me, I will gently approach you and snuggle up to you when your arm stretches out to me slightly. Because a person who loves me and I really love him because he hasn't seen him for a few days, how can I bear to refuse in front of me in such a scorching heat, how can I not let you hug me, even if it is a gentle hug.

At the moment, I don't know where my sanity came from, because the only reason I can have is to find a very appropriate reason, "This is on the street" and gently dodge it without a trace. Forgive me, my loved one. This is the only thing I can do now, the only choice and the choice that must be made, I don't want to be melted by you on this street, I don't want to be melted by you in your arms in your eyes, because I don't want to give anyone useless hope, especially you, this is me, the terrible woman who can always calm down in panicked thoughts! Forgive me, my love, it's cruel to me too, you say you want me to be happy, you can bear everything for my pleasure, but I want you to be happy too, not because of my singular happiness that I can't fully grasp.

"What about the streets?" Your words are still so stubborn, so stubborn that they move me and hurt my heart. The stubbornness that comes with loving you, the heartache that comes with loving me. Forgive me, my love! I can only signal for us to leave the station, where people come and go, I still can't refuse to let my hand be held by you, I still can't let my heart beat for it, because of love, or because of love. I still can't refuse to let you be kissed lightly in front of the bank, where there are few people; I still can't refuse to let you be embraced by you in this slightly less crowded place; I can't refuse not to be melted by your eyes...... I can't hide from your eyes; can't hide from your feelings; I couldn't avoid the light kiss in the name of love, the kiss was so short that it was almost impossible to count in seconds had melted me, and I could feel my body floating. My love, you that make my heart ache!

My phone hasn't been ringing, but my palms have been sweating, hot, almost dripping down, and I still feel your warmth, at this moment I wish I was no longer awake. But forgive me, my love, I still gently "pushed you away", you didn't speak, use your body to cooperate with my actions, I know how you feel in your heart, in fact, every time I am hugged by you, I don't want to leave, it's just that I have to leave, you understand so much. This life is the embodiment of the debt that I have always borne in my previous life. But I will continue to carry this debt until I can be gently embraced by you without any care, but my love, forgive me for not being sure whether this time will be this life or another next life.

In five minutes, you finally did as you said, even if you just looked at me and hugged me gently. You're leaving, and I know you're not in such a hurry. It's just that you understand my helplessness; You understand my heartache; You know the reality I'm facing. My love, I'm really sorry!

Your back looks so chic, but after I turn around, I can clearly feel that your eyes are watching me all the way to the corner, I don't know what my back is like in your eyes, but I have been trying to restrain myself, I don't want you to see a little hesitation, I am afraid that after that moment of hesitation, I will not be able to keep myself awake; I'm afraid that after that moment of hesitation I won't be able to hide from your eyes; I'm afraid that after that moment of hesitation, I will never be able to melt away from your embrace; I'm afraid that after that moment of hesitation, I won't be able to help but be seduced by your lips......

My love, you know, the moment I turned the corner, I almost burst into tears. Not for this hot weather, not for this presumptuous light kiss, but for the helplessness and heartache in this gentle hug, and your love! I said to myself in my heart, "You are my love, I really love you!" ”