Xu Mengzhou entered the door and put his shoes in the shoe cabinet and put them away, the first thing he did was to quickly put the hypothermic food in the microwave oven for two minutes, and he went to the bathroom to plan to put his face first, the street was very dusty, and it was a little cold at night, so he turned the water temperature higher.

The warm water washed over his skin, and Xu Mengzhou raised his head to look at his face with water droplets in the mirror, as if he had forgotten something important but couldn't remember it.

"Ding—"

Along with the sound wafted the smell of food. Xu Mengzhou took off the towel next to him, wiped his hands, and walked out of the bathroom.

The time was set for a long time, and Xu Mengzhou didn't have time to put the heat insulation pad on the table with two dishes. When you open the lid, you can see the sweet and sour honey aroma of sweet and sour pork ribs, as well as the fragrance of garlic lettuce.

He broke open his chopsticks and picked up a piece of ribs and put it in his mouth. In his mind, he still recalled the scene of Xin Zhi's departure.

He wanted to help Xin Zhi, but when he offered to withdraw the money, Xin Zhi's reaction didn't look any better. It can be seen that I have not really helped him today.

So, what exactly are you trying to help him for? Or rather, how can you really help him?

Ever since the incident with Professor Lin, or more precisely since he became a teacher, the burden in his heart has become heavier and heavier.

Every student has a little bit of his own problem, and every family has a scripture that is difficult to read. He has good intentions and wants to do everything, but unfortunately the reality is cruel, he is just an ordinary teacher, and the most he can do is to take care of every student as much as possible in the school, but he rarely thinks about the necessity and correctness of his actions.

He hopes that his help will be truly used by others, and not just touched by useless efforts.

Xu Mengzhou thought of Lin Yushan again.

Just last month, she called herself for the first time and said in a calm tone that she was lonely. He was touched.

He had never heard her say that before.

And some time ago, that unexpected kiss in the underground garage.

I don't know if he is in a kind of escape mentality, at that time he took it for granted that Lin Yushan made this kind of behavior because she was in adolescence.

Then immediately make a conclusion about this matter in the tone of an adult or a senior - as if it had never happened.

In retrospect, this sentence not only fooled her, but also fooled herself.

In fact, if you think about it carefully, you can understand that she has watched Lin Yushan for five years, she is not a very impulsive person, and her behavior that day may really represent the true thoughts in her heart.

So......

Xu Mengzhou didn't dare to think further.

Everything is a conclusion that I take for granted. Whether it is Xin Zhi or Lin Yushan, he has always been like a rescuer standing on a high place, ignoring their real needs.

From this point of view, Xu Mengzhou feels that his thinking mode is still in a stereotypical "rich" stage, and even has some points in common with his unkind father. If you want to talk about strengths, it may just be a little more empathy than them.

Xu Mengzhou then remembered that he hadn't been in contact with Lin Yushan for a whole week.

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Lin Yushan went to open the hourly room again.

In the small bathroom, the wet mist evaporates upwards and condenses into droplets of water that hang on the glass, accumulating more and more.

She raised her hand to wipe the droplets of water before she could see her expression reflected in the glass.

After getting dressed and coming out of the bathroom, she still felt cold. Turn on the air conditioner to 30 degrees, turn on all the lights in the room, close the curtains, turn on the TV and turn the volume up to the maximum, and make sure that the door is equipped with an anti-leech chain.

After everything was done, Lin Yushan slumped down in his chair.

On the table was a large bag of snacks she had just bought at the convenience store downstairs of the hotel. There were potato chips, spicy gluten in small packets, spicy fish fillets, etc., and I bought two cans of beer.

All of them were heavy snacks that she hadn't touched before.

She looked at the huge plastic bag coldly, took a bag of spicy fish fillets from it casually, tore open the bag, took out a slice and put it in her mouth.

The red oil dipped his hand and ran down his fingers into his fingers. After taking a bite, the salty and bitter taste of the spicy fish fillet instantly burst in her mouth, and the strong cheap and spicy taste made her brain rush, and her eyes turned red.

"Hmm—" she snorted, and a pain came from her tongue, as if it had been pricked by a tiny needle. Lin Yushan put down the bag and ran to the bathroom mirror to look, opened her mouth, and there was a blood-colored dot on her tongue, and she confirmed that she was pierced by a fish bone that was not cleaned.

Fish bones are made, and the smell of various food additives and industrial flavors in the mouth fights with each other. Lin Yushan looked at the big bag of snacks in front of her that she didn't like to eat, and felt bored. Seeing that there was a can of beer at hand, she copied it and took a sip regardless of the three-seven-twenty-one.

The air pressure in the tank was too high, and the foam rushed up instantly. Lin Yushan was caught off guard, choked and coughed repeatedly, coughing caused his body to tremble, and beer foam was everywhere on his face and clothes.

After a few seconds, the bubble faded, leaving only a mess.

She tossed the few remaining beer cans into the trash, looked down at her yellowed clothes, and laughed and cried.

This bath is considered for nothing.

When Lin Yushan came out of the bathroom again, he had already rubbed the clothes that had just been soiled and dried them again, and after wiping off the beer spilled on the ground, he hid in the bed.

The hotel quilt was a pungent smell of disinfectant water, and she breathed hard, clutching the quilt and wrapping herself tightly.

Odd. Obviously, the air conditioner is turned on at 30 degrees, but why does it still feel cold to the bone?

The TV was playing pictures of social news, and she just stared blankly at the TV, her eyes slowly focused, and she didn't hear a word.

The only thing that kept coming to mind was the screenshot of the phone that Takahara handed her to show her in the afternoon at the library.

Jingzhou University's post bar opened a public post about this year's national scholarship.

The screenshot of the plateau is the reply of one of the floors of this post. Several of the people in the conversation are tourists, and they have not logged in to their Tieba accounts, and their identities are unknown.

[Angry, this year's national scholarship for geology was finally won by that pretending girl.] ]

[You kid is too careless, let you soak girls outside every day.] Although they are quite forced, they are quite powerful, okay. ]

[strength of fart!] She cheated, and I have the proof. ]

[Alas, really?] Did she really cheat? This woman has been silent at school, and she hasn't recruited you to provoke you, as for saying that? ]

[I don't have any evidence to dare to talk nonsense?] I am most annoyed by this kind of woman, thinking that she is very tall, and relying on her good looks, she puts on a look of ignoring everyone. ]

[Yo?] You don't like her before! If people ignore you, you will hate because of love? ]

[Go, go, who likes this kind of woman who pretends to be tall, in private, she is going to die.] ]

[I've heard of this, haha.] ]

[Private chat.] ]

The conversation came to an abrupt end.

Gao Yuan saw that she didn't speak for a long time, took back her mobile phone and said worriedly: "... You okay? ”

"I said, have you offended anyone?" Gao Yuan moved his ass, "Do you know who this man is?" ”

Lin Yushan wanted to laugh a little, but she couldn't laugh at all now.

The words spoken by the poster seem to be justified and well-founded, and others will believe it, but how many people have seen this post now?

She finally understands now that she has been feeling strange eyes around her recently, and it is not just her own delusion.

But even if she scratched her head, she couldn't understand how the other party came to the conclusion that she "cheated" and "wasted to death in private".

Saying that she cheated, there is also "evidence". Lin Yushan smiled angrily. She herself began to wonder what this so-called "evidence" was.

And, she obviously barely had more than chat contact with any boys at school, and even the WeChat of the male classmates in the class only added a few to each other at the beginning of school, and there was no chat at all.

So why is this person spreading rumors!

Lin Yushan's heart suddenly moved. remembered that on the day he asked Xu Mengzhou to come out, he happened to meet Guo Zi in the same class in a western restaurant in a shopping mall.

Could it be that on that day, Guo Zi saw the two of them eating together, so he misunderstood what improper relationship there was between her and Xu Mengzhou?

Could the poster be Guo Zi?

But what is he trying to do? Is it good for him to spread rumors about her?

And who is the person who replied?

Unable to digest too much information for a while, Lin Yushan felt that his head was about to explode.

Lin Yushan had forgotten how she walked out of the library at that time, she couldn't read the book at that time, and the dense words on the notes seemed to have turned into small insects drilling into her brain, and she only vaguely remembered what Gao Yuan said when she sent herself out of the library.

"If you need help, you can send me WeChat."

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In the hotel room, Lin Yushan turned her head and looked at the mobile phone she threw in the corner of the TV cabinet.

Since she entered the hotel room, she has barely looked at her phone. As long as she remembered that the screenshot of the conversation was still in her phone, she felt terrified for no reason.

This was the first time that Lin Yushan knew what the people around her thought of her, and she was exposed in front of her abruptly, naked, and without any embellishment.

Once upon a time, she simply thought that she had just chosen a way of life that was different from others. In this mode, she is neither restrained nor disturbed by others, as long as she does her own thing.

But the facts are in front of her, even if she hasn't bothered anyone, there will still be people who don't like her.

Lin Yushan remembered that when he was in high school, he once saw a subject teacher whom he respected very much, who was abusing a student with the lowest grades in his class with very dirty words. And this student has always been quiet and well-behaved, so is poor grades a sin worthy of swearing?

Later, she told Xu Mengzhou about this incident as a trivial matter after school, but she didn't expect Xu Mengzhou's face to change, and she said seriously: "There is more than one side of people's hearts, just like the teacher you respected very much before, he may have another side that no one knows, and you will see it today." ”

Also, not all people are born perfect, and no one can meet everyone's requirements. It's like your classmate just didn't meet the standards of a good student set by that teacher, and he wasn't wrong, he just didn't live up to the expectations of others. ”

"Yushan, don't care about other people's evaluations, do your best. Always be respectful and vigilant about the complexities of human nature. This is what I expect from you. ”

Many years later, this sentence is still ringing in my ears. She suddenly remembered Xu Mengzhou's voice, as if she hadn't heard it for a long time.