The hand-wrung out laundry was still full of water. A drop of water fell to the floor at the right time, waking up the room to silence.

Lin Yushan sat on the sofa, his breathing completely messed up.

Is it really divorced?

Did the dark fantasies she had practiced countless times in the corners of her heart come true?

Xu Mengzhou's chest sank, he took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket and prepared to smoke one, paused for a moment and stuffed it back and threw it on the coffee table. He sat down a meter away from her, leaned back on the couch and let out a sigh of relief.

After a while, he straightened up, rubbed his right hand back and forth on his forehead, and said in a low voice: "Come, take the medicine first." ”

Xu Mengzhou looked as usual, reached out and unscrewed a bottle of medical alcohol, and put a cotton swab into the bottle to dip a little.

"Turn around."

His voice was soft and steady, like a gently flowing lake.

Lin Yushan listened to his words and turned to meet his seemingly bright gaze.

"I know you don't like Huang Ying, I can see it." She whispered.

This sentence was something she had never dared to think of before, and she was already ashamed to blurt it out.

But so what, now she is no longer in the control of intelligence.

Her throat rolled, and the corners of her lips unconsciously raised into a shallow smile. For fear of being discovered by him, he had to lower his head and forcibly press down the corners of his lips.

I heard the sound of glass bottles colliding.

Xu Mengzhou put the medical alcohol back on the coffee table, still holding the wet cotton swab between his knuckles.

He raised his hand and handed the cotton swab to Lin Yushan, his expression was uncertain, "It's okay to wipe it yourself, I'll go find a mirror." "Then you have to get up.

The heart has been stirred up by that stone. She reached for it, unwilling to let it sink silently to the bottom of the water again.

She subconsciously pulled Xu Mengzhou's wrist.

The figure on the other side froze, and the room was eerily silent.

Her fingertips could even feel the pulse in his wrist beating through Xu Mengzhou's skin, and her own heartbeat gradually coincided.

The man sat back on the couch as if he couldn't do anything about her.

Xu Mengzhou slowly broke away from her hand, "Now wipe the medicine first, don't say anything else." You calm down first, and then we'll have a good conversation. ”

Lin Yushan took a step closer, "As long as you are willing to face it." I'm calm now, and I know what I'm talking about. ”

Xu Mengzhou looked down at her, and his long-suppressed emotions instantly surged: "Do you really know what you're talking about?" You were wronged at school and were beaten like this, if it wasn't for the counselor who called me in time, when were you going to tell me? Do you feel like no one cares about you in this world anymore? ”

"I will be responsible for you when I bring you back to Jingzhou. Why don't you come to me if you have an accident? You're obviously not strong enough to solve problems on your own, so if you suffer like this, will things get better, do you think I'll feel good about you like this? ”

"The most important thing now is to heal your injuries first, change dormitories and go back to school to do what you need to do. What's the point of you now worrying about me and asking about such an inconsequential thing as whether I am divorced or not? ”

Lin Yushan was stunned.

The corners of her lips twitched, and a string of questions was raised.

"How can I find you? Am I related to you by blood? What kind of reason do I have to use to make sense for you? ”

"You're above board, of course you don't think it's anything. But I'm the one who is sorry... Every time I talk to you on the phone, I feel like I can't see anyone, and you won't understand that. ”

"When I was fifteen, I found myself in love with you. During that time, I panicked every day and felt that I was not normal. Because I know that you are older than me and married, I don't even dare to think about it, for fear that one day you will find out. ”

"Even if the school is not far away, I must go to the dormitory, because then I won't see you and Huang Ying every day. Did you know that every night spent in your house was an ordeal for me? ”

She muttered, "I finally waited until I was admitted to the university and finally left your house." I thought it would be good to go, but I would never think about it again when I left. Before my junior year, I didn't even dare to call you, hearing your voice would only sink me deeper and deeper, so I didn't dare to contact you. But just because my feelings are buried in my heart doesn't mean they don't exist..."

"You called me back. The moment I saw you, I knew that all my previous efforts had been in vain. It's been three years since I moved out of your house, so why do you care about me? I'll admit that I shouldn't have done that kind of transgressive thing before, it was my impulse, I was wrong. But why did you call me for my birthday later? I don't believe you don't know what I'm thinking, why don't you push me away firmly? I know you're soft-hearted, but do you understand the consequences of being soft-hearted? The consequence is that I am stuck in it alone and can't get out......"

"Why do you want to run away, why don't you just not respond to me head-on? I really... I'd rather you reject me than pop up every time I'm about to give up, what the hell is that? ”

"Xu Mengzhou, I don't know what to do, can you teach me!"

The speed of speech is too fast. By the time she said the last sentence, she was already deprived of oxygen.

Lin Yushan wanted to pour out all the words in his heart, but now he couldn't cry when he said the tip of the iceberg.

She said enough.

Continuing until you get a response from a man will only turn yourself into a clown with no dignity.

Xu Mengzhou's eyebrows moved slightly, and there was light and shadow in his eyes.

He only thinks that the day in the underground garage is the throbbing of a girl's youth. Although I don't know where this throbbing comes from, I feel her seriousness from that kiss.

She's too serious.

If it weren't for the instant rush of reason to his brain, he almost forgot to push her away.

Her love has grown wildly in her neglect and evasion again and again, and has become more and more stubborn, and even time and space cannot be consumed.

The debt owed to her seems to be getting more and more.

A vicious circle, entangled to death.

Xu Mengzhou closed his eyes in resignation.

After a long time, he said slowly: "Okay, I won't run away." ”

Xu Mengzhou went to the water dispenser to pick up water and handed it to her, and said in a deep voice: "You adjust your breathing first, don't be emotional." I originally planned to find a chance to talk to you about this later, but since you must give me an explanation today, then we will spread the conversation out. ”

His Adam's apple moved, "Let's not discuss what your ignorant feelings about me used to be, let's start with you as an adult." ”

Lin Yushan tilted his head to the side and didn't speak.

"You are now an adult, so you naturally know that the relationship should be between you and me. So would you like to hear my thoughts now? ”

She nodded.

He sighed: "Yes, I divorced Huang Ying." But I don't think there's any need to tell you about it, you know? First of all, it's a personal matter, and I need a while to buffer and adjust to my condition. When the time comes, I will naturally tell my family and friends around me, including you. ”

The girl was even more silent, as if she felt that her behavior just now was indeed too impulsive.

Xu Mengzhou pinched the cup and hesitated for a moment before continuing: "To speak deeper, there is no way to force such a thing as feelings." Have you ever thought about why I got divorced, and have you ever imagined what kind of woman I would like? You may think I'm free after the divorce, but have you ever asked me if I have any plans to have another relationship? Maybe I don't want to talk about it anymore? ”

"Yushan, you just said it, you have always understood the gap between the two of us, we are eleven years apart. I used to be a married man, but from now on, even if I am not, what can I do? Will the age gap between us ever disappear? ”

"Age can be the most important or the least important. Even if you can put it aside, maybe I'm not what you think I am at all, maybe you feel like you're blind and like the wrong person. ”

Lin Yushan said unwillingly: "What you said makes sense, but how do you ......know if you don't try?"

Although Xu Mengzhou has always kept himself calm, it is inevitable to reason with a little girl who has not yet left the society.

"Impossible."

Before she could finish speaking, Xu Mengzhou almost blurted out.

Three words, to the point.

"Impossible. I don't have to try, I can't accept it, I feel like I'm sinning. ”

Every word he said was honest, but it was cold like an ice cellar.

"I've watched you grow from the age of thirteen to the present, and that alone I can't accept that we've developed a different relationship. In my eyes, you are my sister, so don't dwell on this issue, please respect my principles, okay? ”

The moment he said that, he immediately regretted it.

He felt he was too cruel. Lin Yushan is now injured all over his body, and he still talks a lot of things without hesitation.

Xu Mengzhou's eyelids closed slightly, and he couldn't bear to look at her.

After listening to the man's words, Lin Yushan lowered his head and couldn't say a word.

Perhaps it is due to the fact that men have been teachers and friends for so many years, plus the eleven-year gap between them. She has always felt that she is a head short in front of Xu Mengzhou.

Now, that feeling is even stronger.

Every word the man said was obviously reasonable, but why couldn't he think about it before?

Taking 10,000 steps back, even if the age difference between himself and him disappears, even if he has never been married, will he have a chance?

Do you know what kind of woman he likes?

obviously doesn't know anything about this man's emotional world, but here he unilaterally and recklessly exports his feelings.

It's ridiculous.

Eleven years old involves not only age, but also experience. It is like a moat that can never be crossed, lying between himself and Xu Mengzhou.

The psychological defense line was about to burst, and Lin Yushan's voice trembled a little.

"Good. I see, but I want to ask you one last question..."

The air was silent for a moment.

"You ask."

The girl burst into tears and muttered, "How did you feel that day, when I kissed you." ”

The man felt himself caught off guard and was pricked by a needle.

It doesn't hurt, but it's panicked.

His lips were open, and his Adam's apple was moving around his neck. I mentioned it in my throat in one breath, but I couldn't say anything.

He was very sure that he had never had any thoughts about Lin Yushan about men and women.

Even now, not at all.

Except that day.

Those few seconds in the car, to be exact.

What should be said? To say that he did hesitate for a few seconds, and that the reason for his hesitation was only because of his male instincts?

He couldn't accept the feeling that a physiological response had taken over his brain and his reason was forced to go offline.

It's too filthy for him to speak.

Can't lose his temper again in front of her, absolutely not.

The corners of Lin Yushan's lips pulled out a wry smile, "Why don't you speak." ”

"Because as I said earlier, we can't develop any other relationship, so I don't need to answer questions about that."

She asked unwillingly: "Then do you hate me, do you get annoyed when you see me?" ”

"Alright." Xu Mengzhou pushed his glasses to make himself look still sensible, "I have already finished what I think I should say, this matter has been pressing on my heart before, just say it now." Let's not have any more estrangements in the future, okay? ”

"Take the medicine yourself, put everything on the coffee table, and follow the steps explained by the doctor." When you're done, go to sleep. I'm going to wash up first, and I'm going to go to your school tomorrow before I finish it. The bed in the room is already made and you can rest early. With that, Xu Mengzhou got up and went back to the bedroom to get a change of clothes.

It wasn't until the sound of water came from the bathroom that Lin Yushan came back from his emotions.

Xu Mengzhou's words made her completely calm down.

She carefully applied the edge of the wound to the mirror with an alcohol swab, and the intense irritation made her gasp.

Back in the guest room, Xu Mengzhou had already laid a whole set of pure white cotton sheets on the bed.

Lin Yushan locked the door and leaned his back lightly on it.

I knew it would be like this, and it should be.

Sleep, I'm really tired today.