Xu Mengzhou was still in Yangshou Mountain in the morning, and flew back to Jingzhou Airport at 6 p.m., and then returned to school to deal with the work that he had left impulsively and stopped.

It was already ten o'clock in the evening when he rushed back to the hospital from school. After a busy day, it seems that there is not even a chance to breathe.

As soon as he entered the hospital gate, the man remembered something, and then quickly turned back to the door of a 24-hour flower shop next door.

Xu Mengzhou pursed his lips and stepped into the flower shop, intending to buy a bouquet of flowers.

The man is dressed as a standard outdoor worker. However, to those who don't know, it seems a little unkempt.

He was wearing the slightly old-fashioned dark green outdoor jacket he wore when he went into the mountains with the police in the morning, a pair of windproof jeans, and outdoor mountain shoes on his feet.

The flower shop proprietress yawned, rubbed her eyes and stood up, "Big brother, what flowers to buy?" ”

"For the patient..."Xu Mengzhou thought for a moment: "For my girlfriend, she was hospitalized." In general, what flowers are more suitable to buy in this situation? ”

"Lily, it's appropriate to send your girlfriend to visit the patient." The proprietress chose a few good pairings for him, wrapped them and handed them to him.

The man paid and went out with the bouquet very unskillfully.

The proprietress thought in her heart that the current migrant worker brother is quite emotional.

……

Xu Mengzhou carefully carried a bouquet of lilies into the inpatient department, and quickened his pace in the direction of Lin Yushan's ward.

He calculated the time, Lin Yushan should wake up at this point.

He has never sent flowers to girls, and Xu Mengzhou is a little embarrassed. But he didn't know what to do to make her happy, so he had to buy it.

Walking to the door of the ward, the door was closed. Xu Mengzhou took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

The door squeaked open, and it was Yao Qing who opened the door.

Yao Qing's eyes blinked, and she almost didn't recognize Xu Mengzhou at the door.

"Shhhhhh With a solemn face, she put the bouquet of lilies in Xu Mengzhou's hand on the bedside table, and took him to the small sofa next to her to sit down.

Xu Mengzhou's eyes were only staring at Lin Yushan on the hospital bed from beginning to end.

Lin Yushan wore his hair loose, his head tilted to the opposite side of him, and he didn't say a word.

Her face was bloodless, and her eyes were half-open. Obviously awake, but the pupils seemed to lose focus, and the whole person seemed to have been drained of all strength, only the chest was still rising and falling because of breathing.

Seeing her lying there helplessly, Xu Mengzhou felt depressed in his heart. He stood up and wanted to go to her bedside to take a look, but Yao Qing held his hand down.

"Depression has flare-up again, I just took a tranquilizer..."Yao Qing pulled Xu Mengzhou to sit down, her eyes dimmed and said: "Yushan has been taking medicine on time, and he has been fine during this time." But when I went back to school to help her get something, a stranger suddenly came to the ward and talked to her for a while, and she was like that when I came back. ”

Xu Mengzhou frowned, and his mind quickly searched for suspicious candidates.

"I feel that there are some things that Yushan still doesn't want to tell me... Alas, forget it, don't talk about that. Yao Qing continued: "I don't know what the relationship between that stranger and Yushan is, I only know that it is a woman." The doctor said that after the woman left, Yushan began to get sick. She looked for medicine in her bag to eat, trying to suppress the symptoms of somatization......"

Yao Qing glanced at Lin Yushan worriedly and sighed, "But this time she took too much medicine, which is an overdose." When the nurse was doing rounds, she found that she had tachycardia, so she had to be sent to the gastroenterology department for gastric lavage and sedatives, which eased up. ”

Every time Yao Qing said a word, Xu Mengzhou was shocked. The green tendons at the temples were faintly visible, and the fists were unconsciously clenched tighter and tighter.

Enough is enough, really enough.

First I went to school to make trouble, and now I come to the hospital to make trouble. What exactly does Huang Ying want to do?!

Xu Mengzhou got up angrily, took out his mobile phone, clicked on the call interface to find Huang Ying's number.

"Qingqing..."

The man's hand stopped.

"Hey, I'm here!"

Not far away, Lin Yushan called weakly. Yao Qing immediately stepped forward and bowed down, leaning her ears in front of her and listening carefully.

"Okay..."Yao Qing nodded silently. After a while, she walked up to Xu Mengzhou and said, "Yushan wants to talk to you for a while, so I'll go back first." ”

"Thank you, you've worked hard these days." Xu Mengzhou cast a grateful glance at her.

After seeing Yao Qing leave the ward, Xu Mengzhou moved the chair to Lin Yushan and sat in front of the bed.

She still had her back to herself.

If it weren't for seeing a small piece of wrist outside her sleeve, Xu Mengzhou really couldn't imagine what kind of bony body was wrapped in that white hospital gown.

She was thinner than the day she was rescued from the mountain, and Xu Mengzhou's heart ached.

Lin Yushan suddenly turned his head, his eyes looked at the man blankly, but he didn't say a word, with some scrutiny, and he couldn't see any other emotions other than that.

Her eyes were already cold, and such eyes were more unpredictable than ordinary people, and the man looked at her with more pity.

"It's okay... It's okay......" He took the girl's hand, rubbing his thumb against the back of her hand and muttered.

The base of Xu Mengzhou's eyelashes was dyed red. He closed his eyes and held back tears, tilted his head, and his Adam's apple rolled up and down uncontrollably.

After many days of hard work, only at the moment when I saw her true peace, I could get comfort.

With mixed feelings in his heart, Xu Mengzhou even had an urge to laugh, as if he wanted to declare to the obsession that had plagued him for many years: This time, he protected her.

He finally didn't let her freeze to death alone in the icy mountains and forests like her father.

"Don't think about anything now, take care of your injuries, everything is with me." Xu Mengzhou's voice was hoarse, and he stroked Lin Yushan's wind-blown cold hair again and again.

Lin Yushan quietly looked at the man in front of him, his lips slightly opened.

"Mr. Xu, this medicine is really good. I'm not sad at all now......"

The effects of the tranquilizers are still there. She listened to the tone of her own voice, which was unexpectedly calm.

A few hours ago, she thought she was going to die here because she couldn't stop being so excited. Unexpectedly, after this injection, the body and consciousness were magically calmed down.

She sighed that she was still grateful for this needle, and now she can talk to Xu Mengzhou "calmly".

Lin Yushan carefully observed the man in front of him, and slowly stretched out his hand to touch his face.

His eyeballs were a little cloudy, bloodshot inside, and his eyes were seriously bruised, so he probably didn't sleep well; His fingers slid down his cheek and stinged a little, touching the thick stubble that he had time to trim. Even the clothes on his body seemed to be dirty.

It's like a different person.

Lin Yushan heard him repeat sorry in a low voice, and held his hand with both hands.

"Why do you want to say you're sorry...?" She stared distractedly at the man's whitening knuckles, demanding an answer.

She asked him to say it himself.

"I didn't protect you, I..."

"What else?" She interrupted.

Lin Yushan's breath was sour, but his tone was still affected by the drug, and he seemed extremely calm, "... Someone told me that if I died in the mountains that day, I would die exactly like my father, right? ”

Xu Mengzhou was stunned, and his pupils suddenly dilated.

"The man also said, you lied to me for years......" She withdrew her hand, breathing shallowly.

Her eyelids trembled, and her elbows pushed herself up close to the man's face, trying to see through him, but she couldn't, "You left my father in the mountains and escaped alone, right?" ”

Xu Mengzhou subconsciously retreated for half a minute, and the hand holding her unconsciously let go, trembling slightly.

He felt as if he had been burned by her breathing.

How so......

How would she have known?

He had clearly made up his mind to tell her the truth in person after she graduated from college.

He had rehearsed countless confession scenes in his heart, but he never thought that it would be this moment.

Why?

The wound that had been sealed for many years was torn open abruptly and without warning. Xu Mengzhou's scalp was numb for a while, his mind was like a crash and he couldn't find any solution, he wanted to say something weakly, but he couldn't even pronounce a syllable.

"Xiaoyu, listen to me......" Xu Mengzhou's voice was hoarse and he got up suddenly.

Lin Yushan laughed sadly. She felt that this feeling of powerlessness that was suppressed by drugs and had nowhere to vent was really embarrassing.

"Looks like she's telling the truth."

"Why should someone else come and tell me that you lied to me for so many years?" She couldn't support her hands anymore, and leaned on the edge of the railing, "I wish you had said to me in person just now, at least... At least I won't be as sad as I am now. ”

"You liar... No, you're not just a liar, you're a coward. ”

"Xu Mengzhou, listen up, you are a coward."

Lin Yushan crouched on the railing and laughed lowly, but the tears in his eyes were like broken threads, slapping on the cold floor tiles one by one.

She lowered her head, her arms dangling over the railing, and choked up in a nasal voice, "You hide me like a fool, I will like you...... It's ridiculous. ”

"But then, when I finally mustered up the courage to tell you that I liked you...... What's on your mind? ”

"I'm so stupid, I thought you liked me..."She covered her face in despair, tears spilling from her fingers, "Over the years, you have helped me and taken care of me, it turns out that it is all because of this, it turns out that I will be wrong......"

Xu Mengzhou's eyes were scarlet, her brows trembled uncontrollably, and every word of her pierced her internal organs like a sharp sword.

He squatted down, held Lin Yushan's face in distress, and looked up at her. Fingertips wiped the tears from her face in a panic, but they couldn't wipe them away.

"Xiaoyu, listen to me, things are not as ...... as you imagined!"

Lin Yushan's tearful eyes stared straight into the man's eyes, breaking his fingers one by one.

Xu Mengzhou could feel it, she trembled and broke her hand, and she had already used all the strength of her body.

Late.

She struggled to sit up and looked at the dew-stained lilies on the bedside table.

This is the first time Xu Mengzhou has given her flowers.

If nothing happens today, will they have more firsts in the future?

The white petals are pure and flawless, but they are also fragile. Fragile enough to tolerate even a little filth.

It is better to be broken than to be complete.

This person, who warmed her entire girlhood, had to come to naught from this moment on.

Lin Yushan slowly raised his hand and threw the bouquet of lilies towards Xu Mengzhou.

The warm moonlight sprinkled on Xu Mengzhou through the window, and the white petals spread out in the air, like a short flower rain.

The moon is like practice, and the length is thousands of miles.

Sorry?

Bemoan.

There is only regret left.