In fact, this kind of thought has always been buried in the bottom of my heart, and every time in the dead of night, this thought will be stronger. In this way, I will stand by the window alone, looking at the silence around me, looking at the bustling world, feeling the world that has become particularly quiet, and when I feel a sadness in my heart, I want to step through the window and fall directly out of the world.

Tonight, I felt especially strong, I came to the window with a glass of water, took a small sip, put it down, and then lay on the balcony, letting the cold breeze of early spring not fade the cold wind of winter to blow this green silk like seaweed.

The long black hair passed past his ears, went to his lips, and covered his eyes, and the fragrance of roses on them fluttered between his noses, fluttering and scattering around, light as butterflies.

Faint, and faint, the slightest hint of infiltrating his heart like ashes.

"Little Rain~~"

In my ear, someone called me, and the familiar voice in my bones made my heart tremble, and when a heart was beating wildly, the atrium ached.

Unconsciously turned his head to look around, wanting to respond, but found that there was no trace of him at all except for the milky white bay window shaking.

He pursed his lips vigorously, clasped his hands, and poked his nails into the delicate palms, hard, hard.

Does it hurt?!

It doesn't hurt at all!

This kind of flesh and skin pain is far less than the pain that goes straight to the soul in the depths of the heart.

Xu is the Chinese New Year, there are not many people in the community, especially in the middle of the night, everywhere is empty, very lonely. At this moment when the loneliness swelled into my heart, my head unconsciously poked out of the balcony, and in the cold wind, there was a fragrance like cedar nuts lingering in my nose, this breath was so familiar, so familiar that the more I breathed, the more my heart hurt, and gradually when I became a ball, I seemed to be in a closed and narrow space, and with the passage of time, even breathing became difficult.

My heart is starting to cramp again!

People have also become extremely vulnerable, always feeling that they are in hell now, and there are all evil spirits in front of them, and their eyes are fierce, and they are approaching me little by little, and their red eyes are eager to devour me.

A little scared, and a little helpless, when the pain was very bad, I couldn't help but moan out with "ah~~", my whole body was weak, and the whole person slid down little by little along the railing of the balcony.

"Whew~~", his forehead was cold, and he realized that he didn't know when his forehead was covered with fine beads of sweat, slid down his pale face, and then fell on his neck.

It really hurts, it hurts every inch of my skin as if someone is desperately tearing it, and it wants to tear my skin.

"Jingle Bell~~Jingle Bell~~~"

In the living room, the mobile phone on the coffee table rang wildly.

Looking at it, I don't know why, my lips were full of weak smiles, and all that came to my mind was the picture of Luo Jue lying in a pool of blood.

"I'm sorry~~ Luo Jue..... I'm really sorry....."

kept muttering in his mouth, kept apologizing, I'm really sorry Luo Jue, he went before me, leaving me to live in this noisy world, leaving him alone.

I can't wait to go with him.....

"I'm really sorry, I'm really sorry..... I should have followed you, Luo Jue.... But, Luo Jue, I went with you, what should my parents and grandparents do? I'm the only one of them..... Luo Jue....."

At this time, my back was cold and sweaty, and after a while, the clothes on my body were already soaked, sticking to my back, and it was extremely uncomfortable.

My heart sank to the bottom, and no matter how sorry I was, I still felt pale.

Until now, I feel so sorry that I have been living in this world.....

Pursed his lips hard, pounded his atrium hard, and hit the cold and hard railing behind him with his head.

So uncomfortable, yet so powerless and helpless.

I hate myself, I hate it to death.....

The phone was still ringing, over and over again, just watching, watching as it turned off and lit up.

Slowly, pale, slender fingers grasped the balcony railing. I saw dried blood stains between my fingers, a thin line around my fingers, like a ring representing mourning.

"Hehe~~~"

There was a sneer on his lips, and he pounded the colicy atrium hard, and sighed heavily.

"Ding Dong~~~Ding Dong~~~"

Outside the door, someone rang the doorbell.

I don't know who it is, and I don't have the strength to open the door, so I just watch quietly, as if all this has nothing to do with me.

Eh.....

I feel as if my life has once again fallen into a situation from which I will never recover, and when I think that I have passed the threshold in my heart and officially accepted the reality, I suddenly find that everything is back to square one.

Really ironic!

"Anyone? Anyone? Xiao He.... Are you at home? ”

Outside, there was a knock on the door, and a thin voice came through the thick door and into my ears.

I listened, watched, leaned the railing, and tried to get up, but found that a pair of legs were weak, even the hands, and my brain seemed to be short-circuited, and I didn't listen to the call at all.

"Don't have a key? Doesn't the property have a spare key? ”

There is a rough voice coming into the ears, and the voice is anxious and impatient.

It was Ma Ning'an, and only his voice was so rough, like a bandit, roaring urgently.

"There are people inside, it should be fine, Ma Lu, this little girl is very well-behaved, it will be fine, you must have just looked away."

I don't know who it is, I'm explaining to Ma Ning'an, his voice is very soft, respectful, and with fear, weak mosquitoes and flies.

"I told you before, and now you are here, go get it!"

Ma Ning'an was unhappy.

"Okay, I've told the pony to fetch it, and I'll be there soon."

"You've never been good at this property, you've already learned a lesson before, and you want to do it once, don't you? I can see it very clearly here. ”

"I know, I'm sorry, Ma Lu, I won't be next time."

"There's ..... next time"

Ma Ning'an seems to be really angry, otherwise, with his humble temperament of only losing his temper in front of me and being humble in front of outsiders, he would not have spoken so loudly.

"He Fatty~~He Fatty~~Open the door~~ Are you okay? He Fatty.... Didn't I just say two words to you today? You don't answer the phone, so stingy! ”

At this time, Ma Ning'an began to call me again, this time louder, even through the thick door panel.

This Ma Ning'an.....

I'm a little speechless, this person has always been self-righteous, self-assertive, and has always been this annoying.

Really old-fashioned, and a little irritable, he reached out to cover his ears and isolated himself from the outside world.

I don't want to have anything to do with this man!

I'm thinking about it....

"Smack~~~", the door was opened.....

Ma Ning'an came in!!