In modern times, after her mother gave birth to her, she didn't take care of her, and then her mother divorced, remarried, and had more children, and her mother only remembered her subsequent children, only as their mother, and didn't remember that she also had an eldest daughter named Xu Jinning.

And her father gave her money, material, love and companionship.

Why did he give her property and company, it was only because she was his only bloodline.

Xu Jinning knows that his father has been working hard to create a second child and a son over the years, in addition to his stepmother, he also has other lovers, not only normal childbirth, but even test tubes, but none of them have failed.

Xu Jinning clearly knows that if his father really has a son, then she, Xu Jinning, is still the abandoned chess piece.

Xu Jinning is an optimist and has strong obtuseness.

But how can a child who has a bad original family and an unhappy childhood be born optimistic?

In the past, she was also a sensitive, insecure, longing and companion child.

But her thirst was not accepted, her efforts were only in exchange for harm, and what she cared about didn't care about her, and even abandoned her.

The more I have been hurt, the more numb I have.

The tears that have been shed, if there are more, will not be shed again.

So, Xu Jinning slowly learned not to care, not to care, not to have expectations, as long as he doesn't care, he won't force it, it doesn't matter if he gains or losses, as long as there is no expectation, there will be no disappointment and harm.

That's what she told herself, and that's what she did.

Slowly, she also became indifferent and no longer cared about many people and relationships.

Slowly, she began to become happy every day, no matter what happened to her, in what kind of environment, she could be at ease with the encounter, gain or lose at will, and then go with the flow and calmly accept the arrangement of fate.

She has slowly become sensible and emotionally stable from that sensitive child who is prone to emotional ups and downs.

But people are not robots, how can they be emotionally stable all the time? It's just that you learn to control and learn to care less about it.

Therefore, even in the face of the situation of crossing, she was only stunned and confused at first, but she quickly accepted it, and did not complain at all, nor did she dwell on why.

It's just that in the corner of his eye, a tear slipped quietly.

Xu Jinning stretched out his hand and wiped away his tears.

Thinking about the changes in the Xu family in the past two days, Xu Jinning felt that the Xu family, such as Xu Aiguo, Zhang Ailian, Xu Xiangdong, and Xu Fanghua, were awakening, because they had done something completely different from the plot.

But how did they get awakened by her?

Xu Jinning still doesn't know what this opportunity is.

However, now that she already knows that this can be changed, then maybe she should make some changes.

Let's try it first.

Comparing hearts to hearts, if the Xu family really awakens and gives her love and companionship, then she will also give back.

At this time, Xu Jinning, like a little squirrel looking at the entrance of the cave, leaned out his little feet, his eyes were looking out, and he was looking nervously with anticipation.

If she really encounters love and care, then she will step out of her safe zone and let go of her defenses.

But if not, then, the little feet that poked out will be withdrawn in an instant, and then the door of the heart that has opened a crack will be closed heavily, and no one will knock on the door from now on.

Perhaps, a child who has been injured and numbed by the injury, that's it.

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The next day, Xu Aiguo, Zhang Ailian, Xu Fanghua, and Xu Xiangdong could clearly feel that Xu Jinning's attitude towards them seemed to have changed.

In fact, they are all people who are very sensitive to people's emotional perception, before today, they recalled Xu Jinning's attitude towards them, it seemed that there was a response to every sentence and an action in everything, but their emotions were relatively indifferent, and it seemed that their existence was dispensable.

This attitude made them a little sad, but they also knew that it was their previous bad attitude that caused the little girl to be disappointed in them.

And now......

They could clearly feel that the little girl was a little more enthusiastic about them, although it was only some, but it was enough.

It shows that their efforts to make up for it are still useful.

Then let's work harder from then on.

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Xu Fanghua still needs to go to the commune primary school today.

Because she is a temporary worker, the class time is not fixed, and she will go to whichever class lacks teachers.

The commune primary school and the county seat are not in the same direction, but in the opposite direction, which is why Xu Fanghua asked Wei Rou to help send the letter before.

It's a long way to go.

Fortunately, she only needs to go to class in the afternoon today, and she needs to go to the county seat in the morning, which is more than enough.

So after breakfast, she got into the back seat of her father Xu Aiguo's car and went to the county seat together.

When she arrived at the county seat, her father drove her to the post office before riding his bicycle to the textile factory.

In the morning at the post office, there are not many people, these days, if you want a contact, in addition to making phone calls, telegrams, is to write letters.

But whether it's a phone call or a telegram, it's too expensive, and ordinary people won't use them at all if they don't have something urgent.

The most common is to write letters.

Xu Fanghua wanted to call or telegraph Song Yi, but unfortunately she didn't know the phone number to contact Song Yi.

The reason why she knew Song Yi's address was that Song Yi was recruited to be a military doctor, and when she was leaving, Song Yi specially asked for the address to be given to her.

After that, she never received any letters from Song Yi, or rather, those letters of hers were taken by Wei Rou, so she didn't even know what Song Yi's phone number was, so naturally she couldn't contact them.

But Xu Fanghua believes that if Song Yi really wrote to her, he would definitely tell her her phone number.

This is also the reason why Xu Fanghua did not tear up his face with Wei Rou for the time being, and planned to find an opportunity to get the letter back from Wei Rou first.

She wanted Song Yi's phone number.

If Wei Rou tore her face when she tore up the letters, Wei Rou would definitely not admit that the letters were taken away by her, and even burned them afterwards, and it was not necessary to destroy the evidence.

Therefore, Xu Fanghua has to wait.

In the past three years, this is not the first time Xu Fanghua has stepped into the post office, although she did not come to send letters before, but in the first few months, she came to ask if there was a letter sent to her by Song Yi.

But every time I got a negative answer.

She was disappointed again and again, and Wei Rou's provocative words, she didn't come to the post office again.

It's just that when Wei Rou helped her send a letter, she asked Wei Rou to help ask if there was a letter from Song Yi, but the answer every time was no.

Over time, Xu Fanghua believed Wei Rou's words, and wondered in her heart whether Song Yi had forgotten their agreement and really liked the beautiful girl in the art troupe.

After thinking about it, the person in front had already left, Xu Fanghua hurriedly stepped forward and said, "Hello, comrade, I will send a letter." ”

"Okay."

(End of chapter)