At the end of Xia Ning's second year abroad, the streets of Country C were covered with a thick layer of snow, and traffic was paralyzed.

Xia Ning called the psychiatrist with an apologetic tone: "I can't come over on time today, the snowplow is clearing snow outside, and I need a little time to go out." ”

The doctor comforted Xia Ning and said that it doesn't matter, you can come back later, it's nothing.

But Xia Ning was still on the phone, whispering sorry.

She seems to have formed a stress reaction, probably out of self-preservation, and is afraid of bothering others.

The doctor smiled and said, "Miss Xia, you are really the cutest patient I have ever seen." ”

The cutest patient?

But the patient, how can it be cute.

Xia Ning looked at the snow scene outside the window in a daze, and for a long time, she blinked blankly.

There was a foreign child in a heavy little dress, bouncing up and down behind his father in overalls.

The father was directing the workers to shovel snow, and the child followed with a smile and a smile, looking very happy.

Xia Ning looked at the child with a look similar to envy in his eyes.

This is a foreign street, a depressed and sad oriental woman, looking at a child full of vitality with mist, damp eyes.

The child's father noticed Xia Ning's eyes, walked towards her with kindness, and asked her in the local dialect of Country C, did everyone's snow shoveling work disturb her?

Xia Ning shook his head, raised his hand and pointed at the child who was following the man, "Your child is very cute. ”

"His mother, like you, is an Oriental woman." The man's smile was stained with infinite tenderness, and he said, "I am forever grateful to God for sending her to me." ”

Xia Ning smiled and said sincerely: "You love her very much, she is a happy woman." ”

"Sister, you are so good-looking, you will be very happy!" The child suddenly popped up and said excitedly.

Xia Ning couldn't help but smile for a while, she looked at the lively and lovely child in front of her and said thank you.

Xia Ning stood in place, watching the people of the first side leave.

Her life has always been like this, and during her two years in country C, she didn't know anyone except Derek, a psychiatrist.

Xia Ning closed the window, thinking that it would probably take a while to go out, so he set the alarm clock for 2 hours later, and then lay down again.

She hadn't dreamed for a long time, and this time she dreamed, she still dreamed of Meng Yanxi.

In that basement, the gentle man stood in front of him, kissing the back of his hand, infinitely tender.

He lowered his eyes, his expression was very reverent, and he said words like 'love' word by word.

But the woman in the dream just whispered: "Meng Yanxi, there will be no result, you let me go." ”

They all know that they are at the end of their rope.

Xia Ning never liked to fall twice in a pit.

Meng Yanxi in the dream is still so personable, gentle as jade, his skin is too harmless, and he is so gentle, who would have thought that he is a madman who can lock up his wife?

Xia Ning looked at him, and seeing that he didn't speak, the pleading in his eyes became stronger and stronger: "I won't tell anyone, you keep me here, Meng Yanxi, you let me go." ”

The man pinched the fingers of her hand and used force, Xia Ning felt a slight pain, and the next moment, a tear was splashed on the back of her hand.

She looked at the crumbling tears and woke up from her sleep, in a cold sweat.

I glanced at the alarm clock at the head of the bed, and it was exactly two hours.

Xia Ning thought that she should go to her doctor.

The psychiatrist's clinic was very close to where Xia Ning lived, and when she went out, Xia Ning received a call from her mother.

Her mother asked her if she had been happy to be alone abroad lately.

Xia Ning said, happy.

"Ningning." The mother sighed lightly and said, "Then when do you plan to return to China?" You've been alone abroad for a long time. ”

Xia Ning took the bag for a moment, and then slowly put the bag on her shoulder, and she said, "Mom, I'll be back in a while." ”

Her mental state has stabilized a lot compared to two years ago, and after the last course of treatment, if nothing goes wrong, she can actually go home.

When Xia Ning's mother heard this, she sighed more in her tone, and she said, "Ning Ning, my mother doesn't persuade you, and she doesn't force you, it's just. It's been two years, and you still don't want to say where you went in the first place. ”

"Mom" Xia Ning was also helpless, she said: "It's been so long, I don't want to mention it, in short, I've returned safely, haven't I?" ”

"But you're Mom's only daughter! Mom even thought you were dead at that time," Xia Mu choked up in a choked tone: "You don't know at all, how did your mother come over during that time, Ning Ning, you tell your mother, who you were kidnapped!" ”

Xia Ning didn't know what to say, so he could only be silent.

"Ning Ning, do you know what it is like for a white-haired person to send a black-haired person? Mom was giving you a funeral! And Hikoshi, you don't even know how sad he is."

"Don't mention him!" Xia Ning interrupted her mother's words irritably, her chest rose and fell violently, probably because she realized that her attitude was too aggressive, she reluctantly eased up, and said helplessly: "Mom, Meng Yanxi and I are both divorced, what do you mean by mentioning him?" ”

"Do you think mom wants to mention it?" Xia Mu was also emotional: "Ning Ning, in this world, there are only a few people who can be good to you with their hearts and lungs, you are unwilling to remarry Yanxi, and run abroad to avoid him, have you ever thought about how sad he will be?" ”

Xia Ning thought that Meng Yanxi was really the most powerful actor in the world.

He can bluff everyone as long as he wants.

"Mom, Meng Yanxi and I have divorced, and the divorce was before my accident, which shows that there was a big problem in the relationship between us at that time, and it was impossible to reconcile." Xia Ning paused and unscrewed the doorknob of the room: "I'm going out now, if you don't have anything else, let's do this first." ”

Seeing Xia Ning's impatient tone, Xia's mother immediately softened, and told her a few words like letting her take good care of herself abroad alone, and then hung up the phone.

Xia Ning opened the door and walked to the psychiatrist's clinic.

Along the way, the ground was still a little slippery.

Xia Ning walked slowly.

On the way, I met the father and son just now, and the child was very happy to see Xia Ning and handed her a maple leaf.

It's surprising that there can be dead leaves on such a snowy day.

"Thank you, it's beautiful!" Xia Ning shook the leaves in his hand and promised, "I will collect it well." ”

"Really?" The child looked at Xia Ning innocently: "Sister, can you come to my house to play?" My mom makes delicious apple pie! ”

Xia Ning shook her head regretfully, she said: "I don't like to go to other people's houses very much, but you are welcome to come to my house to play, it is the small window you saw today!" ”

The child was overjoyed, the curly hair on his head was dangling with happiness, he took his father's hand on the side, his little body was entangled and writhing, and his cheeks were bulging, "Dad, can I go to this sister's house?" ”

My father smiled and said yes.

Xia Ning said goodbye to the two of them before continuing to walk in the direction of the clinic.

It's just that on the way, I remembered for no reason, and the doctor told me that after that miscarriage, I might never have children again.

This thought made Xia Ning's heart ache, and her eyes suddenly reddened a little.

The clinic was still as quiet as ever, Xia Ning pushed the door and walked in, and the nurse on duty at the door said with a smile: "Doctor Derek has been waiting for you inside for a long time." ”

Xia Ning felt an apology in his heart, "Sorry, I'm late today." ”

The nurse said some comforting words, opened the door on the side, and sent Xia Ning in.

In the psychiatrist's office, a man in a mask is sitting behind a desk, looking down and writing something.

Xia Ning sat down in front of him and said uneasily, "Have you waited for a long time?" ”

The man's hair was a very pure color, with a staggered halo after the sun fell, and his bangs were so long that they almost covered his eyes, but his skin tone was cold and white.

"It didn't take long, and I just had some things to deal with today." Derek speaks fluent C Chinese and has a gentle and beautiful voice.

Xia Ning remembered that Derek was also of mixed race, and his mother was also said to be Chinese.

Xia Ning had never seen Derek's face, but through the mask, he could feel that his facial features were very three-dimensional, with a demagogic handsomeness.

"By the way, I met a child on the road today, who is also of mixed race, just like you."

Xia Ning casually talked about what he saw on the road.

There was a gentle color in Derek's eyes, he looked at Xia Ning, and his tone was gentle: "I can see that you like this child very much." ”

"Yes, me." The smile on Xia Ning's face faded, but in the face of her psychiatrist, she always knew everything: "I can't have my own children, so I always have an inexplicable sense of closeness to other people's children." ”

After she finished speaking, she probably felt that her behavior was difficult to understand, and she smiled embarrassedly.

But he didn't notice that Derek's hand squeezing the pen tightened again.

"Kid. Also part of your nightmare, I remember you saying it. ”

"Yes, I always wonder if it was because of his willfulness that he lost the right to come to this world."

"It's not your fault." Derek said lightly: "Xia Ning, at any time, don't find a reason in yourself, you are a very good person, you will not be wrong." ”

Xia Ning's smile deepened, and she looked at Derek with a touched face, "Yes, you have said many times, don't find a reason from yourself for anything." ”

"I can see that you're not in a good mood today." The man put down the pen and looked at Xia Ning for a long time, his eyes were covered by hair, and he could only see the deep and beautiful eyes, "Can you tell me why." ”

"I'm today" Xia Ning smiled bitterly, and finally raised his eyes calmly and looked at Derek: "I dreamed of Meng Yanxi." ”

"Your ex-husband." "With our previous treatment process, you shouldn't be dreaming of him anymore," Derek said. ”

"It may be that the appearance of this child reminds me of the child we lost between us." Xia Ning sighed, she didn't have anything to do about her sensitivity and vulnerability: "I think, you probably need to prescribe me a pair of sleeping pills again." ”

"If you take too many of these medicines, it will make your body dependent, and if you can, I hope you can take less." After Derek finished speaking, he lowered his eyes, he seemed to be thinking, and the next moment, he said: "But in view of your unstable mental state now, I will prescribe medicine for you." ”

Xia Ning's eyes were filled with gratitude.

She said, "Thank you." ”

Derek didn't look at Xia Ning, he said gently, but businesslikely: "Then now, let's start the treatment." ”

The two of them, as they had done many times before, began a long talk.

Xia Ning is usually not a person who talks a lot, and after arriving in country C, people are more introverted and unsociable, so they speak less, but in front of Derek, she will be like a child, and she will begin to tell everything about herself.

Xia Ning thought that this was because Derek was a psychiatrist, and the relationship between patients and doctors was naturally easy to establish trust.

By the end of the treatment, it was already dusk.

Xia Ning took the tea that Derek handed her, she took a sip, and the faint fragrance of tea spread between her lips and teeth.

"This tea doesn't taste the same as before."

The man seemed to chuckle lightly, casually, and said lightly: "It seems that I can't neglect you, this can be drunk, indeed, it is not as good as before, the previous one has just been drunk, and there is no time to replenish the stock." ”

"This one is also very good, but the two tastes different." "My father was the principal, and when I was a child, I went to the school to look for him, and he always drank tea in the office. ”

After speaking, Xia Ning stuck out his tongue embarrassedly and said, "I seem to have told you this." ”

Is that more than that? Almost everything, Xia Ning had already told Derek.

The man's eyes were dark, and he looked at Xia Ning, becoming more and more impassive.

"By the end of the last two sessions, our collaboration will come to an end." Derek said, "When the time comes, you can leave country C and walk around. ”

These words made Xia Ning feel uneasy, she lowered her eyes, and her eyelashes trembled: "But. . . I don't know where I'm going, country C seems to be fine. ”

When she said this, she seemed to have made up her mind, raised her eyes, and looked at Derek: "Can I, sign up for another treatment, I don't think I'm completely cured." ”

"Miss Xia Ning." Derek said calmly, "Please don't question my skills and abilities, my treatment for you is enough for you to heal."

"But." Xia Ning put down the water glass, and she said a little more seriously: "But I want to spend money and chat with you more." ”

"You like to talk to me?" Derek paused, and his voice became very soft: "No matter how hateful the face under the mask is, will you want to talk to me more?" ”

Xia Ning didn't understand Derek's metaphor, she clenched the water glass in her hand, said firmly and seriously, word by word: "I'm not Yan Kong, I don't care what you look like." ”

These words made the man chuckle, "Very good, then I don't have to worry about me scaring you." ”