Chapter 15: Heart-to-hearted
"Li Shi, what are you thinking about in your little head today? It's all weird questions. How do you say that you are dead? Zhao Ji walked up to Li Shi and asked puzzledly.
"I expected that I would tell fortunes, and my life was not good, and I would die soon. Will you pity me? ”
"You are living a good life now, don't say these unlucky words." Zhao Ji took Li Shi's hand, looked into her eyes, and kept comforting.
"Really! I'm really going to die! I feel like everyone around me, including you, is saying goodbye to me, you look down on me, I have no place in your heart......"
"How?"
"That's how I feel."
"You're delusional."
"Hmph, delusion, of course not. I think it's more comfortable to die than to live like this sad and painful, there is no pain in heaven......"
Zhao Ji stared at Li Shi affectionately, and became more and more confused about her thoughts.
"Alas! Don't look at me like that, I ...... Really, it's not pretending, otherwise, I'd be afraid of you again. ”
"Have you ever been afraid of me? I don't think you've ever been afraid of me, you've always done your own thing......"
"You see, you misunderstand me, I've never done my own thing, I always watch your expressions...... I'll be happy if you're happy, and I'll be sad when you're sad......"
"yes, I didn't feel it. I think you're a bit weird......"
"If you think I'm weird, you're wrong. If so, then the reason is not me, but you. She said heavily, "Look, I see how serious you are now, and I can't even laugh anymore......
Li Shi said, broke free from Zhao Ji's hand and ran away. Until the evening, she frowned, was in a bad mood, and still looked sullen, preoccupied, and listless.
"What's going on in her mind?"
Zhao Ji didn't understand.
Li Shi's gaze often stayed on Zhao Ji-
Under this incomprehensible gaze, Zhao Ji's heart was quietly tightening, his nervous mood was "plopping, plopping", and his heart was like a rabbit constantly jumping.
From the outside, she is indeed calm, like a lake without any wind, and like a flawless mirror—but in Zhao Ji's opinion, it is not so, but under the calm lake, there is a huge and dangerous whirlpool......
Zhao Ji looked at her and always wanted to approach her and say to her.
"Please don't get too excited......"
But Zhao Ji always didn't seize such an opportunity.
He was quietly observing her, and noticed her pale face, her hesitant, slow movements, though there was a moving charm—
However, for some reason, she thought that Zhao Ji was in a bad mood.
At this time, Li Shi took the initiative to walk over to Zhao Ji.
"Listen to me tell you." She stared at Zhao Ji with a pair of beautiful big eyes, "I feel ......so sad that I die at the thought of you seeing me as a frivolous and, head-scratching woman."
"Why?" Zhao Ji was taken aback.
"You know it in your own heart, don't ask me. You have to always believe what I say to you, but you have to be honest with me. I will always tell you the truth, I promise you......"
"What do you promise me? ......" Hearing the word "guarantee" she said, Zhao Ji couldn't help but take the initiative to laugh.
"Ahem! Don't laugh! Is it that funny? Instead of laughing, she said nimbly, "Otherwise, I would have said to you today what you said to me yesterday: 'Why are you laughing?' ’”
She was silent for a while, then said, "Do you remember what you said yesterday about having wings and wanting to fly?" …… I think my wings have grown up now—but nowhere to fly...... Can you take me flying? ”
"Now? How to fly? Zhao Ji asked, "Do you really need me to take you to fly?" …… But all the roads in front of you lead in all directions, and you have many opportunities to choose......"
Li Shi looked directly into Zhao Ji's eyes, staring intently for a long time.
"What do you say today? I don't think you're right about me, you didn't say that yesterday, why did it happen so quickly? ”
She frowned.
"I ...... To you! Wrong view? I didn't feel it...... Is it? Don't think about it! ”
The two of you say a word, and your words are a little non-speculative.
……
"What's going on with you two today? You can't talk about it together, can you? It doesn't seem to be harmonious, it's all a frustrated look. ”
Li Heng interrupted Zhao Ji's words.
"Do you want to hang out together like you did yesterday? You may be bored in the house, or you may go out for a walk in the park, or you may have a ballroom dance in the house, and your mood may be very different. ”
"Don't, don't!" Li Shi clasped his hands together and waved vigorously, "Absolutely not today!"
"Ashi, I won't force you, don't worry...... Do what you love! ”
"Absolutely not." She said it again with a pale face.
……
"Alright! Case...... It's getting late, I'm going back! Zhao Ji said that he was going to go out.
Li Shi and Li Heng did not keep it, nor did they send it out, and Zhao Ji left on his own.
"Is she really in love with me?" The next day, as soon as Zhao Ji woke up, he asked himself again.
He didn't want to look into his heart.
He felt that her countenance, that of "a girl with an unnatural smile," had been engraved in his heart, and he could not get rid of it for a while.
After breakfast, Zhao Ji went to the homestay where Li Heng lived, and stayed there for a whole day, but he only saw Li Shi once, and never saw her again.
Listening to Li Heng, she was not very comfortable, had a splitting headache, and was lying on the bed.
At this time, she came out of her room, wearing her pajamas, and looked at it for a while.
Zhao Ji saw her, including her forehead, her face was pale, she felt that she had lost a lot of weight, she almost closed her eyes, and her spirit looked a little sluggish.
She looked at Zhao Ji weakly and smiled.
"It's all going to pass, it doesn't matter. Time heals all wounds, and everything passes, doesn't it? ”
Then she walked away, went back to her room, and lay down on the bed.
Zhao Ji began to feel lonely and lost, and then became a little melancholy and empty.
However, he never saw her come out of the room again, and he was too embarrassed to go into her room. In this way, he waited for her to come out, did not want to leave for a long time, and did not return until very late.
That night, in a half-asleep state, Zhao Ji slept not sweetly, and kept thinking about Li Shi's strange actions and thinking about what she said.
After getting up, Zhao Ji wanted to go out for a run, but he couldn't, his legs and feet were so heavy that he couldn't move. He wants to do nothing, he doesn't want anything...... But it can't be done. It doesn't work, it doesn't work either.
He wandered around the town for a while, and when he found it boring, he returned to his lodgings. After drinking tea in the room for a while, I felt bored again, so I went out for a walk again.
At this time, Li Shi sent a text message: "Zhao Ji, I want to see you." ”
"Okay, where can I see you?" Zhao Ji replied.
"You came to the 'Meet' café at four o'clock this afternoon. I did something careless today...... As for what, when you come, I will tell you, and you will know everything......"
"What's the matter? Can't you say it on the phone? ”
"No, I'm going to tell you in person."
……
"What a quirky girl!"
Zhao Ji thought to himself.
He went back to his room at the inn and sat down to think. After reading Li Shi's text messages several times, his heart was beating hard, and he kept guessing what was going on.
He looked at the time, it was morning, and it was not yet twelve o'clock.