For the next two days, I was like a turtle with a shrunken head, hiding in a dimly lit room. I didn't dare to open the window, for fear that the terrible sunlight outside the window would evaporate me in an instant. Even the annoying mosquitoes that bited on my hands, I was powerless to repel them, and let them draw blood wantonly, and finally caused the mosquitoes to poop in a big belly, and even stumble in front of my eyes, and they were almost unable to fly.

At that time, I felt that everything had lost its meaning, and even thought about martyrdom for love. But when I think of those classic martyrdom stories, like Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, Romeo and Juliet, they all love each other, and I am just poor unrequited love. Due to the vastly different natures of the two, if you "martyr" on this, it will be cheaper than boiled water.

Ah Yi saw that I didn't go to class all day on Monday, so he came to the dormitory to look for me in the evening.

As soon as he entered the door, he saw that I looked lost and dejected, and he asked uneasily, "Ah Song, what happened?" What is wrong with you? ”

I shook my head weakly and said in a weak voice, "No! ”

Ah Yi continued to ask: "Then why didn't you go to class today?" ”

Seeing that I was silent, Ah Yi patted me on the shoulder worriedly and said, "What's wrong?" You can say it, so that my brother can share your worries for you! ”

At the darkest moment of my life, Ah Yi's heartwarming words were like a timely rain, which made my eyes moisten involuntarily. At that time, the sourness and despair in my heart were gushing out like magma from a volcanic eruption, and I couldn't suppress it.

Ah Yi, who has always been smart, knew that something big must have happened, and he was patient, asked me repeatedly, and finally wanted to take a pair of pliers and pry open my iron mouth.

Under Ah Yi's soft grinding and hard bubbles, I thought that he was the only one around me who treated me sincerely, and finally relaxed my guard in my heart, and said to him in a choked voice: "Ah Mei already has a boyfriend!" ”

Ah Yi asked puzzledly, "Isn't that you?" Why are you still so sad? ”

Holding back tears, I said intermittently, "Her boyfriend is not ...... Not me! Be...... It's someone else! ”

Ah Yi couldn't understand: "How is it possible? Didn't you say before that your relationship was on the right track? Why is her boyfriend now a different person? ”

I said sadly, "The truth is ...... It is...... Such! ”

After saying that, I finally burst into tears, tears rolling down like beads of broken thread.

Ah Yi asked with concern: "Did you ask her what the hell is going on?" ”

"She said the man, it was her...... It's her...... She met during her internship last summer, a month before she met me. ”

"In that case, then why didn't she make it clear to you earlier, it's really too much!" Ah Yi was indignant for me.

"So what do I do now?" I was stunned, my eyes glazed over.

"Don't worry, let's think calmly about why she did this. She didn't tell you about this until now, either because she has a problem with her character, or because she has other troubles! ”

"So what do I do now?" I repeat it again and again, and my mood is like a stagnant water.

"Is she kidding you? Is this possible, you say? ”

"No way, she's told me explicitly!"

"In that case, let's draw a line with her, long pain is better than short pain!"

"I can't do it!" I admit my weakness.

At this time, Ah Yi held my hand, and a warm force made me feel great comfort.

He pondered for a moment, and suddenly said to me meaningfully: "Ah Song, you have been poisoned too deeply!" ”

I shook my head listlessly in denial.

Ah Yi suddenly smiled and said, "As a person who has come over, I have experience...... If there is any water of forgetfulness at this moment, I will immediately open your mouth and pour the water down. ”

I cried and laughed and said, "It's useless to forget the water, how can I forget her?" ”

Ah Yi is really a master of love, or because it is not his own business, he is so open-minded and open-minded, he comforted me and said: "There is no grass in the world, why bother to love a flower?!" ”

I said gloomily: "Brother, you don't understand! ”

He smiled: "It's that you are really poisoned too deeply, it's not that I don't understand!" ”

Seeing that I didn't respond, Ah Yi continued: "Your pure white paper, suddenly someone drew on it, and suddenly lost your mind. Did you know that some people draw with a brush and some people use a pencil? If it's drawn with a pencil, you don't have to care so much at all, just erase it with an eraser! ”

"Brother, you don't understand!"

Ah Yi saw that I was stubborn, and said a little excitedly: "Ah Song, you are trapped in it, blinded, and you don't know how to distinguish between color and black and white, sooner or later you will be hurt emotionally...... Hey, but a wound is also conducive to personal growth! ”

I still couldn't listen to him, and lamented to him, "Brother, what did I do wrong? I really mean this to her, why would she do this to me? ”

Seeing that I was stubborn, Ah Yi continued: "Since she treats you like this, then you still don't decisively cut the grass and eradicate the roots? You know, you haven't lost everything, I'll help you find a better girl another day! ”

"Don't! I think she's the best! ”

"Hey! You're so stubborn, since you think she's the best, talk to her again, see what she thinks and her attitude, so that you can die of this heart. ”

Ah Yi saw that he was talking badly, like playing the piano to a cow, so in the end he could only shake his head and leave alone.

I stood there in a daze, lamenting the injustice of fate. It was already "raining heavily", but now it is a "house leak" - love and friendship, is it really like this?

I hid under the covers like a dead heart, wanting to get away from the harsh reality immediately. Unfortunately, the quilt was too short, so I had to curl up to pull it over my head and completely enclose myself in the dark. However, because the quilt was stretched too tightly, after a while, I felt that the air in the quilt became thinner and thinner, and I seemed to have lost the strength to breathe.

Twenty minutes later, I suddenly heard a knock on the door, and I was at a loss for what to do, afraid to make a sound. Seeing that I didn't respond for a long time, a familiar voice finally came from outside the door: "It's me!" Open the door! ”

Like a little grass in a long drought and rain, I quickly woke up from my malaise and hurriedly got up and opened the door. I saw Ah Yi standing outside the door with a smile on his face, still carrying a bag of things in his hand.

He looked me up and down, then went into the room, put things on the table as if nothing had happened, and said to me, "Man, let's have a little drink!" ”

We looked at each other and smiled.

Tacit understanding is a kind of magical thing. As usual, we "drank the mountains and flowers to each other, cup after cup", but this time, because I put all my emotions into the wine, it caused it to rush into my throat in the cold moonlight, and the proportion of this speed became "Ah Yi has two glasses of one cup and two glasses".

Ah Yi saw that I was very drunk, so he hurriedly stopped: "Ah Song, you take it easy, or you will vomit after a while, I don't care about you!" ”

My eyes were a little wandering, and I smiled bitterly at him, "No!" No, it won't! ”

In fact, Ah Yi knew that this was the stamina of being trapped by love, and in order to "ferry" me, he told the story of his first love.

At that time, in order to attract my attention, he shook his glass in front of my wandering eyes, and then said solemnly: "You know, when I first fell in love, there was also a time when I was quite sad. ”

Seeing me looking at him quietly with empathetic eyes, Ah Yi opened the conversation: "She is my tablemate in the second year of junior high school, named Huang Xinru. Xinru has a delicate goose egg face, fair and delicate skin, under the curved eyebrows, a pair of big eyes that can speak, and when she laughs, her eyes are curved like a crescent moon, as if the spirit rhyme has also overflowed; Her long jet-black hair, cascading down like a black waterfall, exudes a simple and natural charm. ”

Hearing this, the image of a picturesque girl came to my mind, and Ah Yi continued: "Her home is also in Fengze Street in Quanzhou City, although it is not in the same neighborhood as my home, but every morning I will wait for her at the door of the coffee shop on Tumen Street, go to school together, and after school in the evening, we also go home together." ”

It was as if I had been brought into the romantic time of this first love. Ah Yi continued: "At that time, because we were all young, for fear of being discovered by adults, I didn't dare to take her home, but often held hands with her, came to the Temple of Literature together, sat on the stone bench and said sweet words, and waited until the moon came out, or the stars dated, and then we reluctantly parted and went home separately!" ”

"And then?" I asked with interest.

"After the end of the second year of junior high school, because his parents were going to Guangzhou to do business, she transferred to Guangzhou!"

"What a pity! Didn't you get in touch afterwards? I asked curiously.

Ah Yi sighed and said, "In the beginning, I would call her every day, then it became once a week, and then ...... Due to the separation, our relationship gradually faded. ”

"Time and distance can really dilute everything!" I concluded helplessly.

"Although we were all young at that time and didn't know what love was, our feelings were really innocent...... I remember the day before she was leaving, the last time we met at the Temple of Literature, when she cried and red-eyed, hugged my waist tightly, and refused to let go for a long time. I stroked her hair gently, trying to remember the scent of her hair, and let the tears roll in my eyes...... However, I never dared to kiss her, especially at the moment of parting, and I felt that if I kissed her, it would be irresponsible...... However, she kissed me gently, and this kiss is unforgettable to this day! ”

After telling this story, Ah Yi's face actually flushed, and even after drinking, he couldn't get through the existing protective color. Unexpectedly, as a master of pickling girls, he was also so innocent.

I gave him an approving look and continued to ask, "Then how did you get out of this relationship?" ”

Ah Yi said with a smile: "The way I got out of my emotional wound was to have a new girlfriend in the first semester of the third year of junior high school!" ”

I couldn't help but say with disdain: "Didn't you say that your relationship with Xinru is slowly fading?" But this sounds like an obvious blink of an eye! ”

Ah Yi replied proudly: "That's why I advise you, 'There is no grass in the world, why bother to love a flower'!" ”

I didn't refute it, and I didn't intend to refute it, but listening to "Yi" still made me pause.

So, I suddenly had an idea and decided to make it clear to Ah Mei again, so that I could completely "give up", or figure out where the "dead end" of this relationship is.

Perhaps, in this world, apart from psychologists, only those who can drink with us and listen to our pain can really heal our hearts.

Ah Yi used wine, more attentively, and "ferried" for me overnight. That night, the spark of friendship continued to bloom in the small room, he recounted his innocent experience, and I poured out my feelings for Amei. With Ah Yi's patient company, I finally released my emotions and vented my inner pain, as if after a violent storm, I finally saw the rare sunshine in the sky.

When I woke up the next day, my head still ached, and the bucket next to my bed still had the scraps of food I had vomited last night in my bedside - it was the mental garbage of the past, but I felt much more relaxed.

After cleaning up, Ah Yi and I walked to the classroom together in the morning light to prepare for class......