I couldn't laugh anymore, rubbed my hands back and forth uneasily, and said with restraint: "Actually, it's okay, after all, I'm still alive and healthy!" ”

In the breeze, I thought of those decadent days at home......

At that time, I was not in the mood to do anything, and I resigned from the company, but when I used up the balance in my card, I realized that I had resigned too hastily.

Poor! So poor that he can only pick up other people's cigarette butts to smoke, so poor that he can't even afford to eat a boxed lunch for a few yuan, and so poor that he feels panicked when he thinks of going out.

In the end, I bought a lot of noodles, locked myself at home, and didn't go out for a whole month.

The phone also stopped, so I threw it aside, and I didn't bother to charge it.

I even lived a life without day and night, and when I was hungry, I would get up and cook a bowl of noodles, and just put a little salt and vinegar to eat it.

Later, I didn't dare to go out, thinking that if I went out, I would embark on the road of crime.

At that time, whenever someone ate meat in front of me, I wanted to knock them unconscious with a stick and then steal their food.

But what sanity left told me I couldn't do something so tasteless.

I don't want to be ridiculed and say: this idiot, robbing for a few pieces of braised pork.

I was so hungry that I forced myself to sleep, sometimes even sleeping directly on the floor.

That's when I realized that sometimes people can live like animals, and they can survive by instinct alone.

It was at that time that Tian Jie began to intervene in my life, and I had been lazy to live, so she made up the story of the three letters.

"Your current girlfriend is quite rich, isn't she?" He Huan suddenly asked again.

I really didn't know how to answer this question, I swallowed bitterly, after all, I didn't tell the story of the three years of hard work and going to Lhasa to find her.

It was no longer necessary, and then fell into silence, wanting to vent but extremely calm: "When I fell in love with you, did you ever plan to climb the high branches of your house?" You don't need to speculate on other people, because we've been separated for a long time. ”

"You know I didn't mean that." There seemed to be tears flashing in He Huan's eyes, but I couldn't see it really.

He Huan looked at me, so I finally saw her face clearly.

Her face still hasn't changed, and I have an urge to hug her, regardless of whether she's changed now.

But the answer I got was: "I'm fine, although I'm still single, but I'm going to live abroad in the future, and my current work unit is also abroad, and this time I came back just to go through some formalities." ”

"Well, that's good."

I didn't say much, but the emotions were stuck in those days again.

Seeing himself full of holes, even if he desperately let go, he didn't want to think of his past with her.

But the memories were surging with the gusts of wind, and suddenly there was a feeling of warmth in the corners of my eyes, because I felt her indifference.

After the silence, I was a little tired, and I felt that this emotion should not spread.

But the two of them fell into silence again, and this silence seemed to be a satire of the past where we used to talk about everything, and I was a little uncomfortable, but I didn't know what to say.

He Huan seemed to be in the same mood as me, she finally got up and said to me, "It's too late, you go back early to rest." ”

"Hmm."

He Huan looked at me again, his mouth was half open, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't open his mouth after all.

I stood up, didn't say a word, and walked to the door.

"Gao Chang!"

He Huan suddenly called out to me and said, "I hope you don't hate me anymore, your life is very good now, your girlfriend is also beautiful, your life is getting better and better, you must be happy." ”

I turned to look at her, smiled heartlessly, and said, "Don't you think it's boring to say that?" ”

"I don't mean anything else, I just want you to be well, and ...... in the future Don't look for me again. ”

Her words were like ice cubes in a cold day, and although I was relieved, it still hurt my heart.

I nodded with a smile on my face and turned to leave her house.

After entering the elevator, I saw my embarrassed self through the mirror in the elevator.

I've been looking for her for so many years, and now when I see her again, it's a stranger, and my heart hurts.

I looked at my face and suddenly laughed, laughing at myself for playing the role of a clown for so many years.

If she had said these things to me three years ago, I would have been so angry that I would have smashed the mirror in front of me with a fist.

But now, I'm much calmer, and that's just an impotent rage.

Downstairs, I sat back in the car and finally lit a cigarette.

I snorted blankly, thinking about it for a long time, but I still couldn't understand why she would see me again since this was the case?

We met with great difficulty, but we spoke very little, and spent most of our time in silence.

The silence made the night seem somewhat thin and meaningless.

Or does she want to officially part ways with me?

That's all I can say.

Well, from today, I really say goodbye to the past.

I want to drink, especially to get drunk.

It's not because I'm sad, but because I'm saying goodbye to my past self.

But suddenly I found that I had no one to look for.

In the past, as long as I wanted to drink, I would go to Tang Jian's small bar to get drunk at any time, or I would go to Tian Jie.

But now that they are not around, Xie Dongqing is even more impossible.

Who else?

I suddenly remembered a person, a friend I had just met, Zhuang Zimo.

After the phone call was connected, Zhuang Zimo immediately asked me, "Brother, what's the matter?" ”

"Are you free now? Come out and drink. ”

"Okay!" He said briskly, "Where?" ”

"I'll send it to you on WeChat."

"Well, I'll be right here."

I found a random barbecue stall nearby, then sent the location to Zhuang Zimo, ordered some skewers and waited.

About 30 minutes later, Zhuang Zimo drove his Audi R8 and parked on the side of the road next to the barbecue stand.

The roar of the R8's huge engine quickly attracted the attention of many people around, and it is still rare to see a supercar of this level in such an ordinary residential area.

However, Zhuang Zimo seemed to have become accustomed to this kind of envious gaze, and he locked the car door and ran straight towards me.

I beckoned him to sit down, handed him a bottle of wine, and said, "Why did you drive the car when you came to drink?" ”

"It's okay, I'll just call a substitute driver later."

"Okay, then drink, how much do you drink?"

"Okay."

He laughed, and we touched it, and we blew it directly into the bottle.

This guy is quite a buyer, I originally thought that a person with status like him would disdain to come to this kind of roadside stall.

But he didn't have that sense of rejection at all, and he took off his coat, and that posture was bound to have a big fight with me!