When Chen Yuanzhi woke up the next morning, he found a new message about the melt nugget.

She sat up sleepily and clicked in.

"Ripple" retracted a message.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the phone screen: "? ”

Chen Yuan didn't know that the other party was not online, but she was really a little confused, so she tentatively sent a sentence of "what's wrong".

She thought it was too early, and Lian might not have woken up yet, but she didn't expect to be replied to quickly.

Lian: "It's okay. ”

Lian: "I accidentally pressed the wrong button last night. ”

Chen Yuanzhi got up and went to the bathroom, she read the news and didn't suspect it at all.

Kiyoyuki: "Oh. ”

After Chen Yuanzhi replied, he put down his mobile phone, washed and ate as usual and went to school.

The day soon came to an end, and before the evening self-study, Wu Mingxu walked in and opened the multimedia without squinting.

Chen Yuanzhi didn't notice him at first, until Li Yulian grabbed her and said nervously: "Yuanzhi! It's time to change seats! ”

Chen Yuanzhi was stunned for a moment: "Is it today?" ”

Li Yulian: "I estimate that it is eighty percent, Jiaxin told me that she went to ask him questions for self-study last night, and he was making up seats!" ”

Chen Yuanzhi: "That's it. ”

She didn't really feel real about changing seats.

Chen Yuan knows that he has few friends, and he will not take the initiative to make friends with the front and back tables. Most of the people in the class were the same for her.

…… As long as you don't sit next to someone who is noisy.

The projector flashed twice, and a new seating chart came into view. The seats changed drastically, and many people exclaimed.

Wu Mingxu held the mouse and shouted: "Hurry up, everyone, hurry up and finish moving, don't affect the self-study last night!" ”

Li Yulian was pleasantly surprised: "Fate knows! We're still at the same table! And we're in the front row of the fourth group! ”

Voices. Chen Yuanzhi looked at the projection screen and was suddenly stunned.

In the penultimate row of the first group, the two names she was most familiar with were written side by side.

- Sun Luo and Jiang weaving.

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly turned his head to look at Jiang Zhixu, but found that Jiang Zhixu also happened to be looking at her.

In the chaotic push and pull of tables and chairs and the shuttle of people, Chen Yuanzhi saw Jiang Zhixu smiling slightly at her, it was a little helpless smile, with some apologies.

But there are no regrets.

……

After a busy day of study and returning home in the evening, Chen Yuanzhi lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling, the exhaustion in his mind mixed with the muscle soreness in his shoulder blades and arms.

Chen Yuanzhi couldn't help but reach out and press the corner of his forehead, and closed his eyes.

In her mind, she thought of what she asked herself when she was walking back from self-study with Jiang Zhixu in the evening.

What she asked was-"Xiaoxu, why didn't the teacher separate you from Sun Luo?" ”

Jiang Zhixu lowered his eyes at that time and sighed lightly.

"Because I didn't go to him."

The atmosphere was quiet for a second.

Chen Yuanzhi didn't understand.

"Why?"

Obviously, she said it, but Sun Luo had already affected her.

Jiang Zhixu raised her eyes to look over, and those eyes were still as gentle and clear as when she first saw them. She whispered, "I did want to be separated from her before. ”

"But after the midterm exam results came out, a lot of things changed. I found that I couldn't get to the top of the class again, I was very disappointed and helpless, and this gap made it difficult for me to contain the endless bad emotions in my heart when I saw his ranking. ”

"As soon as I got back to the dormitory that day, I started to cry uncontrollably, and I kept wearing my mask to cover my eyes to cover my embarrassment in front of passers-by."

"I didn't dare to go into the dormitory, I was afraid that people would find out about my abnormality and come to care about me, and I would cry even more. I hid at the corner of the stairs, thinking that it would be good to wait until I was done crying alone. ”

"But at that time, Sun Luo was passing by, and she saw me at a glance."

"Xiaozhi, do you know that people are really contradictory sometimes. I said I didn't want to be comforted, but I felt sad again when I watched people I knew walk past me and didn't notice me at all. When Sun Luo walked towards me, I actually felt relieved. ”

"Then she hugged me and comforted me for a long time. That day, I remember that when I finally came to my senses, the lights had long since been turned off, and she was the only one sitting with me in the darkness on the stairs. ”

"I was looking out the window at the top of the staircase, and I thought it would be hard for me to forget the dark and blue night sky."

After Jiang Zhixu finished speaking, he reached out and grabbed Chen Yuanzhi's hand, looked at her and said earnestly:

"Xiaozhi, Sun Luo has paid me the sincerity of a friend, if she treats me with sincerity, I can't live up to her."

Chen Yuanzhi looked at her eyes, under the street lamp, Jiang Zhixu's eyes were bright and pure, shining brightly; And Chen Yuanzhi's eyes were as black as dumb beads, and there was only a little subdued light under his eyes.

Chen Yuanzhi shook his head, "But you obviously value your grades very much, you?" Knowing that this is wrong, do you still plan to continue like this with your feelings? ”

Jiang Zhixu hurriedly said: "Xiaozhi, it's not like that. ”

Sun Luo didn't want to do this either, she said that she couldn't focus on doing this, she had no interest in learning, but she didn't want to give up, she also wanted to get better! She said that she hoped that I could be the one who pulled her away, and that I wanted to be my proud tablemate. ”

"I thought if she thought so, why couldn't I help her? Maybe she could get better, too. ”

Chen Yuanzhi interrupted Jiang Zhixu's words at that time: "But weaving, Sun Luo is the first-to-last." ”

In Chen Yuanzhi's point of view, she felt that if a person hadn't learned anything for several months, it would be impossible for him to get a score like Sun Luo. And Chen Yuanzhi's observation of Sun Luo is not small.

She didn't think Sun Luo would make changes so easily.

People can be great and kind, but they can't be blind.

Jiang Zhixu understood Chen Yuanzhi's words, and she understood that although Chen Yuanzhi did not say it directly, every word she said actually meant disapproval.

Jiang Zhixu said slowly: "But Xiaozhi, if I go and tell the teacher about this, what will happen to Sun Luo?" ”

In the eyes of the teacher, Sun Luo is a downright bad boy. Most of the people in the class already have good friends and regular tablemates, and only one girl, that is, Cao Lingxi, sits alone. ”

"If I go and talk to the teacher, the teacher will definitely transfer me away and sit with Cao Lingxi, and Sun Luo will be divided into a separate set of tables and chairs, and then slowly become an island in the class."

"If I do this, how sad she should be, she is different from Cao Lingxi, Cao Lingxi is willing to sit alone, but Sun Luo is forced, what will the people around her think of her?"

"Xiaozhi, how unfair this is. Sun Luo wanted to get better, but the head teacher was so eccentric and stubborn, and he looked at her with prejudices. Sun Luo wants to change in her heart, how can she change if he does this? Maybe the people who wanted to get better will be depressed again because of the loss of opportunities. ”

"I want to help her."

Chen Yuanzhi: "But how much can you help her?" Do you think you can really take someone out of the quagmire? How can you be sure that you won't fall into the mud because of this? You're even taking care of yourself now. ”

Jiang Zhixu stopped her pace, she looked at Chen Yuanzhi, and said softly: "Xiaozhi, you still can't understand what I do." ”

"I just don't think I can be so cold-blooded, I ...... when I think of what happened to Sun Luo and how good she used to be to me."

Chen Yuanzhi chuckled, the emotions surging in her heart could no longer be restrained, she said self-deprecating and jokingly:

"It's unfortunate that I'm such a cold-blooded person."

She didn't understand and didn't want to.

Jiang Zhixu looked at Chen Yuanzhi in a daze, and then lowered his head for a while: "...... I didn't mean that. ”

She was silent for a long time before whispering "Forget it."

Until they parted under the lamp at the corner of the intersection, the two did not say a word again.

At the end of the memory, Chen Yuanzhi lay on the bed, looked at the ceiling, and slowly raised his head to cover his eyes.

…… After all, I couldn't hold back my temper.

This was the first time she had been angry with Jiang Weaving. She once thought that with her and Jiang Zhixu's personalities, the two of them would always get along peacefully and would always have a good heart.

Chen Yuanzhi couldn't even imagine what they would quarrel about.

The first time they disagreed and became silent, it was because of Sun Luo.

Chen Yuanzhi knew that no matter what, it was Jiang Zhixu's choice and her freedom.

But Chen Yuanzhi couldn't understand such sensibility. She looked into her heart and found that it was a feeling of hatred that made iron but not steel.

She subconsciously felt that Jiang Zhixu's dedication to Sun Luo was very likely to be in vain, but Jiang Zhixu seemed to have planned to go his own way, and Chen Yuanzhi felt worthless because of this.

…… Or possibly, she was panicking.

She was afraid that the best friend she had met so far would be snatched away.

……

This incident seemed to be just a small episode, and when they met the next day, both of them greeted and talked to each other as if nothing had happened, and in the evening they continued to study together as usual.

But Chen Yuanzhi knew that something had changed.

She made her attitude clear - she didn't like Sun Luo.

Since then, Jiang Zhixu has never taken the initiative to mention Sun Luo's matter, invisibly, Sun Luo's existence seems to have become a secret pain between the two people, neither of them dared to touch the thorn, and there was no way to completely pull it out, so they simply kept silent.

Time passed day by day, less than a month before the final exam, Chen Yuanzhi temporarily put aside the leisure of observing the people and things around her, she sat at the desk every day, used the time between classes to memorize words, and used the whole section to learn mathematics in the evening self-study.

She struggled to learn. With her long-term study experience, she has to admit that she just lacks the most basic mathematical logical thinking.

She can read the answers to most common questions, and even if she can't understand some of them, she can almost understand them after being taught.

But she just couldn't think about it according to the logic of the answer.

Every time she listens to the analysis of a difficult problem, she can clearly feel that although she understands it now, she still can't do it if she is given a similar question to do, or the next time she encounters a similar problem.

Mathematical logical thinking, like language and literary literacy, is something that is difficult to achieve quickly, language literacy requires years of persistent reading, while mathematical thinking relies on a large number of questions, and it must be summarized after completion.

This is what many ordinary students will find on the Internet, and the learning method of the top students. But even if the most effective method is in front of them, if they actually try to do it, they will find that it is very difficult to do.

For example, Chen Yuanzhi now may only be able to complete and correct four or five math problems in one night, less than a page of workbooks, such a speed may not even be able to complete the homework assigned by the teacher that day, let alone study and review the previous content in more depth.

But she wants to improve the speed of doing questions, and she can only keep taking time to understand and review to do problems, but the problem comes again, and she is very slow to do the questions. And if she finds time to read a book, she will have less time to do the questions, and in the end, she may not even be able to complete the amount of exercises assigned to herself that day.

It's like an endless loop.

The wind in mid-December blew to the coastal cities in the south, and the temperature had already begun to become cold, and Chen Yuanzhi also heard the classmates around him saying that it would cool down greatly tomorrow.

Halfway through the evening self-study, Chen Yuanzhi looked at the red marks on the page, feeling a little depressed and irritable, she stared at the workbook for a long time, stood up and walked out of the classroom.

She lay on the balcony on the third floor, looking at the classroom in the middle floor from a distance, trying to ease her boredom with learning.

The light was not dazzling, the windows were side by side, and the eternal brightness escaped in the night.

The corridor of the evening self-study was so quiet that the pins could be heard, except for the footsteps of students asking questions passing by and the whispers of students on the edge of the balcony.

Chen Yuanzhi looked at the light, she could only give herself a moment to relax, and in another minute, she would have to go back to the classroom and continue to do the problems and exercises she had not completed.

I don't know when she found herself out of the right place to take a short break.

She used to love to look at the sky, and at a very young age, she could look at the clouds in the sky and tell if they were cumulus or stratus.

But now she couldn't even give herself an extra minute to see the night sky, because she was afraid that she had wasted her time needlessly, and even though the night was peaceful and quiet, she was full of restlessness.

Growing up itself is like an exploitation. She was exploited for her indomitable courage, frequently calculating vested interests and risks to be taken; She has been exploited for naïve qualifications, and it is difficult for her to treat a person or a thing purely, because reality always seems to slap her hard.

Having been denied the right to stop, she finds it hard to spend the whole day sitting in front of the TV watching her favorite TV series and laughing or bursting into tears, as she did when she was a child.

It's not that she can't do it, it's that she can't have that mood anymore.

It's so carefree, you don't have to think about any meaningful mood.

If it feels like a sin to even stop to rest, then how can you find a moment of peace to breathe?

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly realized that this piece of light may be eternal. Each of them will dissipate, but the people in these windows will continue to change, and the old will be gone and the new will be ushered in, and from this point of view, this bright light seems to never go out.

Chen Yuanzhi let his chaotic thoughts fill his brain and briefly empty himself.

A minute was fast coming, she lowered her eyes and glanced at the watch on her wrist, and it was also this time that she lowered her head, and two figures flickered in her vision, and she saw the person who surprised her.

Jiang Xinyu and Shu Jinze.

The two of them stood side by side on the edge of the corridor on the second floor, Jiang Xinyu was wearing a school uniform jacket, and the wide sleeves of the jacket covered half of her palms, not knowing what Shu Jinze said, she raised her hand to cover her lips, and her eyes were crooked with a smile.

"-Chen Yuanzhi?"

Chen Yuanzhi pulled away suddenly, she turned around, and standing behind her was a somewhat familiar boy, looking at her.

Chen Yuanzhi: "? You are? ”

The boy drooped his eyelids, not wearing a school uniform jacket but a black sweatshirt, looking a little lazy, looking at her with dark eyes, "Xu Linmiao didn't tell you about me?" ”

Chen Yuanzhi: "Well, actually, ......" She and Xu Linmiao are not very familiar.

"Forget it, you will know that he is like this." The boy waved his hand and introduced himself, "I'm Zhang Jing from the MBTI Club, one year older than you, and I was also in the classroom at that time. ”

Zhang Jing handed her a postcard, "I'm here to deliver a notice, the club is going to start the first activity, remember to arrive on time, there is a welcome gift." ”

"Friday afternoon, are you free?"

Chen Yuanzhi thought for a while, "It should be free." ”

She took it and asked casually, "Are there many people going?" ”

Zhang Jing said lazily: "Not much, there are only two new students, you and Xu Linhao." ”

Chen Yuanzhi suddenly raised his head: "?????? ”

So in the end, it was really only two people who were recruited?