Twelve times of trying to fall asleep, Yijun didn't fall asleep, I heard Yang Yang's breathing sound next to him, but he couldn't hear whether the breathing sound was asleep or not, because there was too much uncertainty, so Yijun also felt that there was nothing to say, so he had to quietly try to control his emotions, but in fact, his heart was really very nervous, and he felt that many feelings in his heart were wrong, and it was precisely because of this that he felt that a lot of breathing was particularly difficult.

Why is he so nervous, Yijun himself doesn't know why, or he hasn't slept in the same bed with Yang Yang for a long time, this kind of thing is the first time after the two of them grew up, Yang Yang or didn't sleep, he should be as nervous as himself, and said: "I think a lot of things have become bad when I grow up!" ”

Yijun said: "Why do you say this? ”

Yang Yang said: "You know what I mean, I'm very nervous, I think the two of us are really not as comfortable as before." ”

Yijun smiled and closed his eyes: "Of course, we are becoming more and more restrained, more and more restrained, this is not the first time that such a relationship is not the first time, what else is there to care about, I think this is actually the inevitability of development, that is, this is the reason, too many times I actually want to ask you, why did you say you back then, just leave?" ”

It seems that Yang Yang asked about the thing that Yang Yang didn't want to say the most, Yang Yang didn't want to speak, he didn't want to explain this matter, and he felt that there was really nothing to say, but Yang Yang felt that it had come to this point now, why didn't he say it, if he didn't say it again, would he have no chance, could it be that in Yang Yang's heart, these things would have to be endured, he was not convinced!

Yang Yang said: "Actually, I left completely for you back then, because Cheng Cheng told me that if I didn't leave you, she said that if I didn't leave you before the college entrance examination, she said that she was going to break up with you, I was afraid that you would not play well because of being broken up, so I had no choice I really had no way so I could only say goodbye to you, I was afraid that she would really threaten you, and at that time I also felt that you really loved her!" ”

Yijun heard the truth, and was very surprised in his heart, and said: "What, what did you say, why did you only tell me now, why did you only tell me now?" ”

Yang Yang smiled and said, "There is really nothing to say about this matter, how else can I tell you, in fact, I can bear everything by myself, in fact, if you don't ask me this time, I won't tell you." ”

Yijun was suddenly really distressed, and he didn't know what else to say, so he said anxiously, "I understand what you mean, but you really shouldn't bear everything by yourself, you can really tell me, but why are you doing this to yourself, I really don't want to see you wronged like this, this is not the ending I want to see!" ”

Yang Yang smiled and said, "We have no way to do a lot of things to solve, and it's not the first time you know, why are you still making such a fuss This is not your character, Yijun's past affairs let it pass, because even if it doesn't pass, nothing can be recovered, in this case, what are we still insisting on." ”

Yijun took a deep breath, turned around and hugged Yang Yang with his hand, Yang Yang did not break free, Yijun said: "Yang Yang, I only say these words once, I will only say this time, I have never felt that you are a bad person, and I have only now found out that the person I like is when you were young, we always can't see our hearts." ”

Yang Yang didn't speak, because there was really nothing to say, looking at Yijun's figure, in fact, there were countless words in his heart that could not be expressed, time has passed, in fact, many things have never been before, or rather, no matter how long he was looking forward to, in the dark, Yang Yang knew that what had happened was indeed not going to start again no matter what, and it was indeed a little difficult to understand this matter? Yang Yang said: "Actually, you really don't know, I really didn't want to go out to study at that time, I was only a junior in high school at that time, I was only 16 years old, my age can obviously be my little princess at home, why should I go outside and be bullied, in fact, I have always asked myself this question in my heart, but I have never found the answer, I don't know why, you say, am I really a wretch." ”

Yijun's heart is going to hurt to death now, he didn't know that there was such a story at all, it seems that he has been misunderstanding all along, if he can really do it again, how will he treat Yang Yang?

Yang Yang sat up directly and said: "I left home, in fact, I didn't have a good life, and the living expenses were not enough at all in the magic capital, but I didn't dare to ask my parents for money, because I knew that they were arguing all the time now, and I couldn't do anything, but what I could only tell them all was that I was really idle now, and I didn't have anything." I am very happy! ”

The clock was ticking, Yijun silently held back his tears, Yang Yang continued: "Later, I still waited for the day, when I was finally admitted to college, they divorced, I don't blame anyone, and even feel a little relieved, really relieved, because I no longer have to care about the feelings of the two of them, this kind of life is actually very good, I think that at that time I was actually a person who fed the whole family and was not hungry, I enjoyed the life at that time, but I also felt, I was like a lonely child without a home! ”

Yijun stretched out his hand, but stopped in mid-air because he was not qualified to comfort Yang Yang, what was he for, in fact, he was the real person who had been living up to Yang Yang all along.

Yang Yang said: "At that time, I really missed you, I was thinking about when I didn't need to worry about anything, when I could enjoy my own life happily, in fact, I knew that you were in the capital, but I didn't dare to go, I didn't dare to see you, I didn't know what to say when I saw you, so why did I want to see you, I didn't know what I was facing, I didn't know anything, but I really had to face all this, Yijun, do you know, I really think I'm so tired and tired! ”

Yijun finally couldn't help it, sat up and hugged Yang Yang into his arms, "I'm sorry I don't know I haven't known all along, I don't know that you have endured so much for me, and I don't know that you have a hidden secret when you leave, if I knew, I would go to the magic capital to find you after the college entrance examination, but I don't dare, because I don't know if you are tired of me, when I am not sure of anything, I can only see you sometimes in my dreams......"

Yijun is quiet, now all you can hear in this room is the sound of the clock ticking, it's really quite rhythmic, Yijun and Yang Yang instantly understood at that time, their own and their own miss is actually the ruthless passage of time, now even if the two of them really meet again, in fact, many things can never go back to the past, Yijun really understands very well, Yijun looked at Yang Yang, who had been thinking about him, close at hand, but couldn't say anything, this feeling is really terrible!

Yang Yang turned around and said: "I know that many things can't go back, we can no longer go back to that time when I was wronged, and when you were lonely to comfort each other, but we still have now, we are together now, why don't we hold each other's hands, fight for the days to come, and stop obsessing about the future past, okay?" Yijun gently stroked Yang Yang's hair and said, "Of course, I don't care, as long as you don't care, it's just that I feel that I'm so sorry for you and didn't protect you, Yang Yang." ”

The two hugged each other, looking at each other, Yijun slowly helped Yang Yang to fall, and what suddenly appeared in his mind was when he cried Yang Yang angrily when he was a child, when the two children were only six years old.

"You, what are you crying about, it's annoying! Crybaby! Xiao Yijun said.

"Why can't I cry, you used up all my plasticine, can't I cry yet, I'll cry, I'll cry, I'm uncomfortable!" Xiao Yangyang's plasticine was used by Yijun, and the next day in the kindergarten we had to use it to make a game together, but there was no chance. Yijun said: "Okay, my plasticine doesn't have as many bright colors as yours, so I use yours, okay, when I grow up and have money, I'll buy you a plasticine house, and a plasticine car, we use plasticine for everything!" ”

Yang Yang said with tears in his eyes at that time: "But the plasticine thing is too small, I'm afraid I won't have enough!" Yijun waved his little hand impatiently and said, "Eh, what do you want, of course you buy the biggest plasticine to make it, don't worry about this, I will buy you all the things you want in the future, just like your father is so good to you!" Xiao Yang Yang smiled, and said after a while: "But my mother said that I was going to marry sooner or later, so I can't play with you." ”

Yijun waved his hand again and said: "Okay, my mother also told me about this matter, you are going to marry me in the future, my mother said that we grew up together since childhood, and the relationship between the two families is so good, I have to marry you!" Although I am really reluctant, but you are not a big problem, so I will reluctantly agree! ”