For as long as I can remember, whether it's a holiday or a holiday; My aunt and aunt would always make some of our more special snacks and invite my mother and me to try them together. But every time I come to their house; A table of sumptuous dishes has been prepared, and snacks are also placed on the table. Actually, they just don't want us to bother at home; Licking two more pairs of chopsticks is more lively. Among these snacks, my favorites are the oil cakes and croquettes in the middle of July; The aunt was the closest person to her grandmother's craft, after her grandmother left; She is the only one who can make such a traditional taste. I haven't asked about the ingredients of the oil cake, but I can probably feel it after eating it for so many years. The raw materials should be soybean mill and flour together, add green onion foam, chili foam, salt and oil, knead into the shape of a cake, put it in the oil pan and fry it repeatedly, only the surface is golden. Eat crispy on the outside and tender on the inside; After the green onion foam is fried in the cake; The fragrance is getting stronger. I finally didn't guess the ingredients and method of croquettes, but the texture of the croquettes was fried hemp seed cake.

It is precisely because of such close contacts; Let me establish a friendship with Jian Jian and Lu Yun, and also make me the king of children in this group of children. The exclusion and bullying they received in school can only be reversed in this way. As the "leader" in a small group, he is naturally a character who prospers with me and perishes with me. I also enjoy the feeling of being approved and admired for what I say; This is completely absent from anywhere else. Since I was a child, I have been a person who eats soft and fears hard, and my arrogance is limited to this row of houses. I've tried to be aggressive with the new members; But it was quickly retributed. The boy was my aunt's nephew; His parents have been working abroad for a long time, and he has lived with his grandparents since he was a child, perhaps because he is doing farm work and cannot often supplement his nutrition. His emaciated figure was even more effeminate under his swarthy complexion, and I had not asked his name at all; It's just that it just so happens that his nickname is also Jianjian. I remember that it was around the time of planting mangos, and his grandparents were busy planting rice in the field; arranged for him to stay with his aunt for a while. We are both people who don't like to take the initiative to talk, so we didn't cross paths at first; Then it was in the frolic with his uncle's children Niuniu and Wei Ji that he gradually became acquainted with him. On the other hand, he was also a smash hit, when a boss on the mountain behind his aunt's house contracted a mountain of tea, and when the tea sprouted, he would summon people to pick tea. You only need to step on the bud in the middle; The wage is forty yuan a catty. At that time, there were not many jobs that could make money for both men and women, and soon attracted a large group of villagers to run up the mountain to pick tea leaves in the morning. I also went there once in the mood to join in the fun; At the beginning, I was full of energy, but halfway through, I didn't put it on picking tea. Come all afternoon; The moment I poured the few poor tea leaves on the scale, the paid man looked at the barely moving hands on the scale; With a very contemptuous tone, he said with a smile: "Maotou's tea, six cents!" Immediately the people in the hall burst into laughter, and I haven't stepped on tea ever since.

Ke Jianjian's status is the opposite of mine, he is one of the best tea pickers in the village; At the end of the day, you can pick more than 100 pieces. But what is the same is that I am as impressive as Jianjian. There will always be people who ask, "Jianjian is here to pick tea today?" "Maotou came to pick tea today?" It's just a different tone. It is said that he bought a mobile phone with the money from picking tea; And I used the money I earned to buy myself a bottle of soda for five cents. to build such a sensible and calm character; I finally couldn't learn. There are new members joining the group; The best way to maintain dominance is to duel. To put it bluntly, it is two children wrestling; The comparison is who puts down who first. In fact, when I was young, although my face looked fleshy; But he didn't have any real flesh on him, and he was very short. But Jianjian is weaker than me; When wrestling, he reached out and touched the skin and bones that could only be felt, like a slender tree trunk that fell down in a short time. Perhaps, when he is unwilling to be competitive, he deliberately shows weakness; Just want to fit in with the group quickly. But I was the kind of person who took advantage and kicked my nose in the face; Since winning the duel, I've become more and more arrogant about him. If anything does not go my way, I will threaten him with wild words; and even slumping him down; During this period, there was an incident that made me reflect on it and still haunt it. I was going to school that day; My mother stopped me before I went out; said that my aunt's family killed a pig today and invited us to a pig killing feast; I was asked to go directly to my aunt's house after school at noon. As long as there is good food and drink; Naturally, I would like to go to anyone's house.

looked at the dining table, except for two greens; The rest of the meat dishes correspond to various parts of the pig's body; I couldn't wait to have a full meal. We children ate very quickly, threw away the dishes and chopsticks and went off the table to play. In the process of frolicking, the excitement of chasing made me quickly lose track of time. If it weren't for the mother's reminder; I didn't even realize that it was almost time for class. Look at the turning pointer on the wall; My aunt's house is also quite far from the school, and it is impossible to get to the school by walking alone; The bicycle that my uncle gave me a long time ago has long since been scrapped. In a panic, I instinctively shuttled in front of several relatives, looking for other means of transportation. saw Jianjian's purple slightly old bicycle parked in front of his uncle's house, thinking that they were all friends playing in a bunch anyway; I'm the "boss" again, so it shouldn't be a problem to borrow a car; So without hesitation, I got on the car and was about to ride away. It just so happened that he came out of the house and saw that he immediately stepped forward and grabbed the parking space; Questioned, "Where are you riding my bike?" In order to save time and ask him to lend me the car, I pulled down my face and prayed anxiously, "I'm almost late for class, you can ride the car for me; I'll ride you back from school in the afternoon. "No, I'm going to take my brother home from school in the afternoon; Can't wait for you to drop me off. "I'll be down as soon as school is out." Seeing that he still disagreed, I had no choice but to be soft and hard. forcibly riding away; He also tugged on the rear of the car harder. In such a stalemate, my anxiety suddenly turned into anger; Get out of the car and fall to the side, and when you get up, you will fall for him; also released cruel words: "You wait, I'll find someone from your school to beat you later." With that, he waved his hand and walked away. He didn't pay any attention to me; Just push the cart and go back the way you came.

Ben said the intention of that sentence; Just to scare and scare him, he happened to meet the child of a relative on his father's side halfway through, who happened to be a senior student in the same school as Jianjian. Just met with them; Thinking about the picture just now, I was instantly angry and dizzy. I asked them to teach him a lesson, and they readily agreed. But I think they don't know me very well; Won't really help me because of my words. What happened in the end, I don't know; It wasn't until much later that an incident occurred that not only confirmed the result, but also self-inflicted retribution. It was about the weekend when I was in fifth grade; A year has passed since my misdeeds against Jianjian. under the influence of conceit; I didn't take it to heart for a long time. Because it's too boring at home; After saying hello to his mother, he got on the newly bought bicycle and drove all the way to his aunt's house, trying to find some playmates to relieve his fatigue. A few years ago; My aunt's family has never gone out since they returned from Fujian to work, and the family started rice noodle production at home; Our village has always had a soft spot for rice noodles. can't help but be a frequent guest at breakfast, even who hosts a wine banquet; It's always indispensable. Originally, there were two other rice noodle supply points in our village; But because the amount of rice noodles used by my aunt's family is real, the price is also relatively affordable. In the past few years, the reputation has been getting better and better, and in the end, there is only one place for rice noodles in the whole village. Although the daily income is indeed quite a lot, it is quite tiring. In order to produce fresh rice noodles for the villagers' breakfast; My aunt and my husband had to get up at 2 a.m. to make the rice noodles before 5 a.m. During the day, they need to make puree for the next day's rice noodles, so Jian Jian and Lu Yun naturally have to do something related to it. Seeing that they are all busy, I can't bother them. Slightly disappointed, he walked out the door, not knowing what to do for a while, just shaking his head and looking around. It wasn't until the appearance of Ah Pu and her sister next door that I suddenly caught my attention, and I saw them chatting happily about something and were about to go out; Out of curiosity, I caught up with him and inquired. learned that they were going to the street to buy plasticine; I've forgotten what to do now. It just so happened that I was very bored because I had nothing to do, and I thought that I could not only help them, but also go out into the streets; And it's naturally much more convenient to get around with my bicycle; So he offered to do it for them.

Driving on the cement bridge connecting the market at the entrance of the village, it has not paid attention to maintenance due to many years of use; Countless cracks and potholes have already appeared on the bridge deck. I don't know if the guardrail next to it has been hit by a car, it is all broken and very dangerous. Look at the gurgling water dyed yellow by the afterglow; The sound of conversation with the crowd that staggered around me, though I didn't notice what they were saying; But the warmth brought by the ordinary has soothed me many times. But such a pleasant scene will always kill some uninvited guests. As I reached the middle of the bridge on my bicycle, I bumped into two imp cubs of my age who were also riding bicycles. Seeing that they locked on me with extremely obscene eyes, they seemed to be prepared, but I did not know them before I had never met them; I didn't care about their gaze either. As the three cars got closer and closer, suddenly the boy, who looked a little older, turned sharply and stopped my car; Then two cars surrounded me. Just as I was overwhelmed by their actions; When he looked at them with a puzzled face. The boy who took the lead said in an extremely arrogant tone: "Are you from the upper village? "Seeing them so scorching; I don't dare to think about it; Just nodded honestly. He continued to ask, "What grade are you in?" What are you doing down there? I didn't dare to say anything more, but I just said, "Fifth grade." Directly ignoring the latter question, he secretly teased in his heart: What do I do when I come down and do you care? As soon as he heard that I was a fifth-grade elementary school student, he was even more inched; I hit my car with the front wheel and said, "Fifth grade? Do you know what grade Lao Tzu is? Lao Tzu's first day of junior high school! He's in the sixth grade. Seeing that I was silent, he said even more arrogantly: "Last time, you found someone to build and build?" I think you want to be beaten? "Listening to his repeated remarks, I was even more in the rain; There was no reaction to which building he was talking about. In fact, both of them looked tall, and their body shape and skin color were similar to Jianjian's, but because I had never encountered such a scene, the sense of fear instantly flooded my whole body; Always silent. Looking at my stunned appearance, the leader suddenly roared: "Say! The people in the village above are the lackeys of the people in the village below! Hearing his sudden intensification of tone, I and his attendants trembled; But no matter how scared I was; Naturally, this kind of thing will not be spoken. After they were still persecuted by you and me, the leader discussed and accompanied one of them to give me a punch. I also realized that I couldn't hide from this lesson today; He was also ready to take two punches.

At this critical moment, my mother suddenly drove from the bridge on a motorcycle; Seeing the life-saving straw, I subconsciously called my mother. The two "warriors" heard of their mother's arrival; Instantly frightened, like a rat crossing the street, I immediately turned around and followed my mother back to my aunt's house. I just parked the car and looked at my mother's face; The grievances in my heart gushed out like a torrent. took out the money that was going to buy plasticine for Pu before; It was like a catharsis and threw it on the ground; immediately sobbed, and kept wiping tears with his hands to go to the living room of his aunt's house. Seeing this, my mother didn't know what I was doing, so she caught up with me and asked why. Listening to my mother's warm voice, my tears became more and more unstoppable; Wow wow cried, no matter how my mother asked me, I didn't speak; Listening to my cry, my mother was even more distressed, but she didn't continue to ask; Just help me wipe away my tears. After a while; When my emotions gradually calmed down, I told the whole story, and my mother thought that the two boys who stopped me were my friends. In fact, before this incident, I heard from those students who like to come to the Internet café in the village to surf the Internet that the people in the village always like to stop us people in the village to beat us. Today's events have finally been seen. But it was I who reaped the consequences, if I hadn't been so conceited; Trouble won't come to your door. For so many years, I have always been sorry for what happened at the beginning; In fact, I met him once a year ago this year, but I didn't communicate because I was shy. I heard that he had been studying in sports school before; I guess I've graduated from college now, and I hope he's doing well. If only he had a chance to see it; Please accept my sincere apologies, although I do not expect his understanding, but only to put an end to what I have done back then. I hope to meet again, but you can't stop talking.

Speaking of the grievances and hatreds between the children of the two villages, I don't know the source of it; It's just that once the children in the upper village go to the lower village and don't find out, they will be surrounded and beaten. And our children in the village are much worse than them in size and size. Even if they are in the sixth grade; But it's like a silverback gorilla playing with a skinny monkey. So much so that they came around our school several times to provoke; Most of the students in the class were helpless because of their timidity. The only one in the entire class who could take the shot was Chen Shengjin; Since I was a child, I have been climbing and rolling with bamboo in the mountains, and I have developed a body of tendon meat. It should be easy to suppress their leaders, but there are many people on the other side; It's also a lot of luck to really start. Once they came up as usual to provoke; asked Yaoqi, who is the most capable player in our class except Chen Shengjin, to come out and talk, although Yaoqi is powerful in our village; But the body is also too thin; And our competition was really just wrestling. In the face of a strong upper body, the so-called one-strength ten-level will definitely suffer a big loss. But I don't know what his plan is, since he really came out, they went to the vegetable field next to the school with their shoulders around him. The condition offered by their leader was to let Yaoqi choose one random person from among them to fight alone; As long as the fight is won, the people in the lower village will not come to look for trouble. Yaoqi's size in the class can be regarded as upstream; But the gang was at least half a head taller than him. Just when Yaoqi picked out one of them and pulled out the posture and prepared to start; Fortunately, a junior student ran to the security room in advance and called for help. Under the reprimand of the security guard; When a group of people in the lower village saw the adults, they let out a sigh of contempt before returning the same way.

Yaoqi was left alone and stood in place for a long time; The first thing he said when he turned around and came back was, "Who's calling the security guard?" I want to thank him well. "Listening to my classmates make contributions to the sixth-grade boss; The junior students hurriedly pushed the hero out. Unexpectedly, Yaoqi suddenly raised his hand and wanted to hit him; Seeing this, the hero was full of doubts, and ran away regardless of the reason. Yaoqi didn't intend to chase him; just complained: "I really want to thank you, one of them has fought with me before; I haven't won yet, I have won; Why do you call the security guards? "Listening to Yaoqi's words so confident; I didn't refute anything, but in my heart I was glad for him. It also reminds me of a quote from Zoro in "One Piece": "Have you ever seen a beast that promises not to bite?" "It also made me realize that disputes do not exist only between national governments; Not even two villages can coexist.

Fortunately, compare the experiences of several of their more famous students; I am not outstanding on campus, except for the only bridgehead incident; The whole elementary school time was basically peaceful. But there will always be an end of good days, with the graduation of the sixth grade; Due to the unsatisfactory results, except for some private schools in the county with expensive tuition fees, only one public middle school in the entire township can be enrolled. There is no middle school in Uemura, so if they want to stay in the countryside and study, the students have no choice. This is both a sheep and a tiger for the students in the upper village; I'm one of them. During the years when we were at Shimomura Middle School, the management in the school was very poor; Brawls, blackmail, and even public beatings of teachers are countless. I have forgotten the reason for the incident, but I remember that my mother went to work in the city where my brother lived. So they took me to my aunt's house to take care of me. On the day of enrollment; It just so happened that he was in the same class as Min Qiang, and he was a relative of my sister-in-law. My mother had taken me to his house to help out. Because we both love to play Crossfire, we quickly had a common topic. So he took me to an Internet café near the village to play computer games for the night; That's how we got acquainted. In the first few days of the class, because he was a student from another village besides the upper and lower villages; Except for me; Basically, I don't know him very well. As a result, our relationship is getting better and better; Even in order to accompany him to class and school, I moved to my aunt's place to live with him at that time. Min Qiang is also very interesting, knowing that I have an honest personality; I bumped into someone trying to bully me; He would always stop it, and those students in the village actually gave him a lot of face. But in the end, our personalities are different, after he gets to know the students of Shimomura more and more; They became more and more estranged from me, and they were nowhere to be seen in several classes; After that, he didn't care about my affairs, and this became the first foreshadowing on the road of my nightmare.

The first time I witnessed a brawl in middle school, the subject was Chen Shengjin and the leader who had provoked us before. Chen Shengjin and I are in the same third class, and although the head is in the second class, he comes to the third class from time to time. The two of them can be described as enemies who are very red when they meet, and they don't like each other as soon as they look at each other; You provoke each other one by one; But it was lost because the class bell rang. And who didn't calm down, I didn't see it all. By the time I got back to the classroom door after peeing, they were already scuffling together; The onlookers were like a protective rope in the boxing ring, locking them in a limited confinement. Obviously, Chen Shengjin is more violent; It didn't take two moves to suppress the head. The head realized that he was going to suffer, so he hurriedly called the junior high school students downstairs to come up and help; Six or seven people punched Chen Shengjin at him, and he had to greet his mother to cheer him on; Even if Chen Shengjin is brave, his fists are invincible with four hands. Me and Que Fukang, the people who went to the village; It's just that I'm scared just by looking at it, and I don't have the courage to help no matter how deep my feelings are. Even Chen Shengjin's own brother, who is also in the third year of junior high school, wanted to help his younger brother vent his evil anger after going upstairs and confirming that his younger brother was beaten by the group, but he was also suppressed and beaten by a group of people who caught up. Later, I learned that the head of the head of the brother was the boss of the last junior high school; Before leaving, he told them to cover his brother. The so-called beautiful campus life only exists in the warm pictures in TV dramas; In reality, the campus is always so realistic, you have the right to bear but you don't have the capital to resist.

At first, in order to protect myself, I could only serve the bullies. They are, after all, a small group; If you offend anyone, you will not have good fruit to eat. The classroom in the first year of junior high school is far away from the campus commissary; When they're lazy, they'll occasionally call me to do errands. As time goes by, more and more people will come to me to do the work for me; Running errands for free seemed to have become my full-time job. To refuse is to dare not at all; Even female classmates still have a group of bullies who support me, and those bullies stand in front of me, who are only more than one meter and three meters tall; It's like the difference between an adult and a first-grade elementary school student. Actually, these things are for me; Once you get used to it, you accept it. It's just that something completely unexpected happens after something happens; But you have to suffer all the consequences that you shouldn't have suffered.

Look at the sun completely buried in the mountain; In the evening, the sky faded to gray. As students return to school; The cacophony that came with it intensified. Not long after I walked to the classroom; I received my first errand, and I finally forgot the name of the bully; I only remember that he just came out of the Internet café and didn't even bother to eat dinner, saying that he was hungry; After confirming the purchase list, I was asked to buy it for me as soon as possible. Snacks for a total of ten dollars; With my skillful business skills, I can't go wrong. I vividly remember that there were two packs of spicy fish and a bottle of iced Coke. It didn't take long for his stomach to start churning, a class of evening self-study; The hideous face never relaxed, and finally couldn't help but vomit on the ground. When you feel unjust about spending money and suffering sins and can't find an outlet; Because the distance between our seats was not too far, he didn't care about the class time; It's a hard kick in my ass. Seeing me turn my head with a blank expression, he felt even more that it was me; whispered, "You want to die, don't you?" Buy expired things for Lao Tzu to eat. "Expired? I didn't dare to refute it, but thinking that the business of the commissary is so hot, and the few things you picked are still relatively popular snacks, why do you have to say that they have expired? But I don't dare to say for sure. "Wait for death after class!" After saying cruel words to me, he lay on the desk and covered his head with his hands to feel the river and sea. The fear and anxiety that left me also reached a climax at the moment when the bell rang for the end of class; But he didn't come to me at the first time; Instead, he rushed to the toilet and squirted. When he returned to the door of the classroom with a strange expression covering his stomach, he felt more and more that he had been framed; Push my diminutive body against the wall of the hallway. After holding me in place by the neck; Without saying a word, I slapped me in the face, and then my right ear was completely occupied by a humming sound. He shouted first: "I don't know if I look at the production date when I buy something?" Do you know how much pain Lao Tzu's stomach has? Grass your ma's. "Seeing that half of my cheeks are still intact; It immediately added some color to me. "Next time I'm buying like this, I'll beat you to death, mom." After a few pushes, he turned and left. After going to the commissary to confirm the expiration date and production date one by one; Prove that it is not because of your own negligence that caused the tragedy. was full of grievances and helplessness for a moment, but he couldn't vent like them; The saplings are as innocent as I am, but I can't be in the same boat.

Complex emotions constantly destroy my spirit, and I am helpless; I could only find the teacher who told me how the whole thing happened, but it was going to be the most wrong decision I made in my first year of junior high school. After learning what happened; Tell me to send a message to the bully to the office. The people around me looked at me with some confusion like bullies; After the bully walked away, he asked me curiously. Even if they knew that it wasn't me, they still teased and said, "Huh! You are so bold that you dare to sue the teacher; Won't he kill you when he comes back? "yes, let him hit him twice and he'll be fine; You're looking for something to do. Their teasing was confirmed as the bell rang for class, and the bully's angry eyes were confirmed as he walked back into the hallway. With an expression of cannibalism, he roared: "Don't leave at night!" I'll bury you! Your mother's dare to sue the teacher! "Now I finally realized that a catastrophe was coming. I didn't dare to look back for a whole night of self-study; The creepy fear sent chills down my back.

In order to be able to walk out of school in one piece; The moment the bell rang, I rushed out of the classroom. In those days, my mother had to stay at home for a few days because she had to come back to do some errands. So before school, I had to wait for me at the school gate on a motorcycle, and I had only one thought in my head. Hurry to find your mother. I don't know what day it was, but there was a group of troupes setting up the stage not far from the school gate. Mother was standing in the outermost row; It's easy to find her back; The tight strings in my heart were loosened in an instant. Just as I was about to step forward and grab a life-saving straw; Suddenly, two bikes came out from behind me and got in front of me. It was the bully I had provoked and his accomplices; Seeing that I wanted to turn around, I immediately blocked my way with the front of the car. said arrogantly: "Where do you want to go?" Think you ran away? Lao Tzu said that if you want to bury you, you will be buried. "And the accomplice next to me seemed to have seen my mother come and take me, and he also had some impression of my mother's appearance; reminded in a whisper: "His mother is in the back." When the bully heard this, his eyes suddenly drifted a little; The voice was much weaker than just now, but he still had the courage to say, "I'm going to be horrified?" Choose one of the two, or bring ten dollars tomorrow; Either wait to be buried tomorrow. "Under persecution; I finally chose to borrow money to fight the disaster. Ten dollars is a snack for a bully, but for me it's a day's worth of food. Even if my mother is within ten meters of me; But I didn't dare call her. Mother's barrier can only help me to keep out the wind and waves for a while, but then it will attract more ferocious tides. After getting the answer they wanted, the bully and his accomplice left satisfied, smiling and pretending nothing had happened when I came to my mother's side.

Because the house in the upper village is a long distance away from the middle school in the lower village, it is extremely inconvenient to go back and forth; Every morning, ten yuan will be placed on the coffee table as a day's food expenses. Not far from the entrance of the school, a canteen converted from a residential house, three yuan and five cents a piece; The portion size is also enough to fill up. But on this day, my mother told me to buy good food today and asked me to come home for dinner at noon. After my repeated pleading, my mother finally gave me five dollars. Looking at my mother's somewhat impatient expression, I realized that if I continued to make trouble; It may backfire, and he hurriedly runs downstairs with five dollars in his pocket. Looking at the crumpled banknotes in his hand, he just thought about how to pay when he returned to school; How can you still care about having breakfast?

Arriving at the school with a nervous mood, he reluctantly walked to the bully's seat. Look at me with a look of anticipation; Perhaps he had expected that something would be gained today. I gestured to the corner behind him, and he quickly realized that I was going to take a step to speak. Unwillingly, he took out the banknote from his pocket and whispered: "You take these five yuan first, my mother gave me five yuan in the morning; The rest of the money will be given to you next time, if someone asks you; You said I didn't give you any money, and you beat me up. "Looking at the rabbit meat that I had to do without any effort, the bully's eyes were locked straight in my hands; As for whether he paid attention to it, I don't know, but I nodded vigorously in agreement.

I thought that borrowing money to eliminate the disaster would slowly subside, but I didn't expect that the speed of transmission was like a gale. During the middle of the lesson, another bully came up to me again and asked, "You didn't give him any money to get beaten?" "That expression was so distorted that it made my mind go blank. blurted out: "No! I gave the money. After the bully got the answer he wanted, he immediately found the bully who had already gained it and debunked his statement. I regretted it for a moment, I wanted to use the minimum price to be safe and sound, but because of my weakness, I lost everything. But now that I think about it, even if I answer it differently; Will the results really change? Will he really hide it for my sake? Disasters are repeated, and they don't wait to enjoy a moment of tranquility; But I was going to be forced in a wave.

At the end of each month, the school has a monthly exam, and the students in the three classes are assigned to different classes according to their grades. My grades weren't good, so naturally I sat with those bullies. Although the bully didn't know anything about the questions on the test paper, he didn't have a pretentious pen. After the exam all morning, the water that brought the three pens was basically intact. As soon as he got out of school, he found me and told me to help him hide his pen; I was giving it to him during the afternoon exam, and if I dropped one, I would compensate according to the price. In order not to get into unnecessary trouble, I repeatedly and tactfully postponed; It is recommended that he hide it in his pocket and it will definitely not fall. Listening to my excuse, he said impatiently: "How can I hide the hole in my pocket?" And put it on me, make a loud noise, tell you to hide, hide it, and beat you to death by saying these! "In desperation, I had to take his pen and put it in my pocket and grab it with my hands, for fear that I would lose one. At that time, my mother had returned to other provinces to work, and I was also arranged to stay at my aunt's house; Usually there is basically no pocket money, let alone the ability to compensate him. Even if I returned the pen to him intact, he insisted that he had given me four pens, and now I lost one. If you want me to pay three yuan in compensation, how can I have any money to accompany him; Usually when I was really hungry, I didn't even let go of the raw seaweed that my aunt put on the table, and I ate it all with my eldest nephew in two or three clicks; I can also fully understand the feeling of hunger and food.

The bully couldn't control it, so he put down the cruel words: "Either lose money today, or wait for death." "In order to avoid the pain of flesh and skin, I can only ask for help from the classmates who are more familiar with me one by one. After repeated searches, I finally got the life talisman from a distant relative, although I repeatedly promised to return the money; But after that, there was no news about the repayment of the money. Even if she took the initiative to urge several times, she repeatedly refused because she was really unable to repay; Until now, for the sake of going their separate ways, it has not been successful. I happened to see her at a birthday party a while ago, and I heard her chatting with her friends that she was playing games recently; The income is not high, but it is free. She said that she wanted to go to Tibet with her friends this year, hoping that she could realize her plan. I finally didn't come up to talk because I was unsociable, if she could see it; I don't think I need those three dollars anymore, and I hope she will forgive me for the trouble my weakness has caused her; If you can, I hope to have a glass with him.

From the moment the three dollars were handed over, I didn't enjoy breakfast for a long time. On the grounds that the school asked to go early; Every day, when I get two yuan from my aunt, I have to go to school to pay tribute. Some people say why don't you resist? How many times have I not wanted to? Even if you fight back with all your might, you'll be facing a dozen people pouring out their fists every day. In the days when the students in the village are struggling to protect themselves, don't expect someone to help you. The bullies didn't take two extra steps or hide a few pens, and they only used their inexhaustible strength when they beat me.

As for the retribution that I said about our improper actions in retrieving the little dragon; It doesn't sound worthy of sympathy, but it's interesting. Ever since my mother left to work, no one has been able to restrain my movements. The aunt's self-built house has just been completed, and it has been simply decorated to meet the most basic living conditions. On weekends, I couldn't find any other way to play poker with my nephews and nieces. In order to kill the boring time, from time to time I will go to the Internet café in the village, even if I don't have the money to surf the Internet, I can enjoy watching other people's operation screens. The size of the Internet café is not large, because most of the customers are minors, and in order to conceal the entrance, they are covered with black plastic sheets, and the distance from the entrance to the cash register is nothing more than two empty rooms. The computers are arranged in a row inward, and the two computers in each row are placed back to back in order to save space. On the morning of the early winter weekend, I finished the noodles made by my aunt in two or three times; As always, I ran to the Internet café. Because the weather is relatively cold, most of the seats in the Internet café are empty in the morning; Sitting is nothing more than some hairy children who stayed up all night yesterday or are quite addicted to the Internet. poked his head out and walked around, and finally only a computer in the corner of the outer hall was playing Crossfire. Looking at his slightly lame operation, no matter how you look at it, it looks like a novice who has just played it. The technique is excellent and the fun is very good, which will make me habitually turn my head to look at the operator.

At first glance, I was a little surprised and coincidental, wasn't this the little owner of the family that took in Xiaolong a few years ago? I didn't expect him to be so far away from Shimomura, and he was willing to come to the Internet. I briefly reminisced with him, and soon he remembered me. Since everyone knows each other, I am not pretending to be silent; Using my half-baked technique, I started to teach him how to adapt to the game. And when he was constantly acting in a dull way, I couldn't wait to grab his computer and let me perform. After a long period of extremely uncomfortable viewing experience, I couldn't help but come forward; cheekily wanted to borrow some money from him to get by. Tomorrow I can get two yuan from my aunt for breakfast, and instead of giving it to those bullies, I should let myself enjoy it. I've been carried away by the game, and I can't care about it so much, but our relationship is not very familiar, and he refused as soon as he opened his mouth, but fortunately, I was so good that I repeatedly promised, and finally hesitated to take out two coins from my pocket. At that time, the Internet fee was three dollars an hour, although I couldn't play a few games; But for me, as long as I can enjoy it, I am satisfied.

Excitedly open the temporary card to log in to the machine, ready to enjoy a short good time. But God just wanted to tease me, and just entered the interface of the computer system, before I could open Crossfire; The head of the fight with Chen Shengjin didn't know what wind was blowing, and arrogantly shook his body and walked to us. Maybe like me, I think that guy's skills are really good, or maybe it's because more and more people come to the Internet and the seats are almost full, and they are all regulars of Internet cafes. As soon as a few people were ready to have a self-built room to compete, some people called out to join the army. It stands to reason that the head is one of the richest families in the village, and no matter how depressed he is, he will not borrow money to go online. But he still borrowed two dollars from the guy and added two dollars to my computer without saying hello. The guy's attitude towards the head was naturally much more docile, and he didn't expect the head to return it to him. As I looked at the prompt in the lower left corner of the screen, I was a little puzzled, and the head walked up behind me quickly. Pushing my shoulders, he said arrogantly: "There are no machines in these rows, I want to play with them, I will add money to your machine; You get up and let me play two games first, and then I'll play the extra time for you. "In the face of the domineering of the leader, even if I am a hundred unwilling; can only do it obediently, not to mention how many of his friends are in the Internet café; Even if I am talking to him alone, the chances of winning alone are extremely small.

The computer was beaten by us village children, as if it had fallen into an evil spirit. The moment you hold the mouse, don't think about getting rid of it easily. Watching the minutes and seconds pass, the despair in my heart turned into a cold air that froze me in place. One after another self-built house games, during which he also called me to add an Internet fee. The incense from nearby houses is also carefully entered into the Internet café through the curtain. Finally, I got off the machine one after another in the surrounding machines, and the top of the screen prompted that the balance of the temporary card was insufficient; The head was content to go home for dinner. When I took over those last few minutes of online time, grievances became a habit and became frustrated. Although I basically didn't enjoy the thrill of the game, I borrowed the money after all; I took the initiative to find him early the next morning to return the money. Seeing that I was so faithful to my promise, the guy changed his previous attitude and accepted the money in a kind voice. I thought it was just a matter of thinking that I was unlucky, but I didn't expect that the guy would bring someone to find me again just after school in the afternoon. In my kind attitude before the change, I insisted that I promised him that I would return it to him twice. But even if I'm stupid, I won't use such a high-interest loan, right? Eighty percent of them can't ask the gangsters for money, and they see that I want to stop the loss from me so consciously. But no matter how much I try to reason with him, I can't argue with him, and it may be the usual method for a weak person like me. If I don't pay for it tomorrow, he will call someone to beat me. As the lowest figure in the school, who can I offend? Now it seems that this may be the punishment of Lord Qingtian for my mistakes. I'm also a poor person, so the other two dollars will be used as compensation for Xiaolong's stealing of your chicken legs.

In order to enjoy the treatment of a normal student, I am not just indifferent to the long-term bullying; Many times he was willing to fall in order to be secured. I don't know if I was oppressed and even wanted to fight my head, or if it was just to satisfy my vanity; It may be all or neither. After class one afternoon, I don't know what Hong Kong drama I was influenced by; Suddenly found me to ask if I wanted to be his little brother, and I was confident that as long as I messed with him, he would take care of everything in or out of school. Isn't this an umbrella that falls from the sky? I blurted out yes. And the condition of the head is that he has to follow him every time he gets out of class, and he is the first to follow. As long as I can avoid it, it's nothing to me. Before evening self-study, in order to better show his eldest brother's style; I don't know where he got a bottle of green hair dye spray gel. After marking myself with a green hair, I was not satisfied, so I insisted on giving it to me and a few of my companions; Get a so-called Green Goblins. Those accomplices, out of the sake of saving face, just meant it simply. For me, who has lost the right to choose, I have become a toy at the mercy of the boss. I can't see how much is poured on the top of my head; But judging from the increasingly energetic expression on the head and the feeling of a turtle shell on top of the head when touched with your hands, the result is naturally self-evident.

Afterwards, the boss asked us to line up and follow him through the streets to make a splash. Before walking through each class; I'll get some teasing compliments from the clown, or complaints about my disappointment. Jiang Peilin said such a sentence, and I am very impressed. "Huh~ Why did you get mixed up with them and become like this?" Be! Why did I become like this? I'd like someone to answer the same question. For me, becoming like this is just to become a normal person like Jiang Peilin; In other words, in order to be like Jiang Peilin, I need to be like this.

I thought that as long as I was under the tent of the head, I would really have the life I wanted, but in reality; There will be no less bullying. The head either pretended not to see it, or bumped into his eyes and waited for a few times of a few eyes to throw him for help before he stopped it. After all, the head and the bullies are friends, and it is impossible to completely tear the face. And in contrast to the security he speaks of, there is much more to endure than that; It even needs to be a tool for profanity when the head is boring. As the school bell rang, the students ended a morning class; Groups of three or three left the school one after another. And because I was under the fence, I had to wait for him at the school gate to come and go back with him. In those days, I was numb to these rules and regulations. But that day, at the fork in the road to go home separately, the interest of the head came from nowhere, and suddenly asked me to accompany him home. Before I could refuse, the head grabbed me by the shoulders and dragged him to his house. Their house is a relatively large restaurant on the street, and they usually do it whether it is a small stir-fry or a banquet; The annual profit is also among the best in the village, so the head does not have to worry about pocket money at all. When I arrived at the door of the restaurant, I thought that I could go home with peace of mind after completing the task; Unexpectedly, the head was just about to walk into the store and turned back and said, "I'll go in first to have a meal, and you'll be waiting at the door to know?" If I don't see you later, then you can do it. No matter how I tried to say it, he would just repeat three words: "I don't care." "I watched him swagger back to the restaurant ready to enjoy the food on the table, while I could only sit on the wooden chair next to the door, hungry and exhausted. When the aroma of lard stir-fry gradually spreads outward from the kitchen of the restaurant, look at the small fried dishes on the tables of the guests in the restaurant; From time to time, my mouth is full of relish. Finally, I don't know how long later, after he had eaten a full meal, he looked at me still standing still, and walked forward with great satisfaction, not forgetting to continue teasing, until he lost all his playfulness; It was only at my begging that he would let me go.

The hunger pushed me to speed up my pace, and the aunt who was guarding the door of the house watched me return late and brought out the dishes that were still warm in the pot; He asked me if I had been left in school because I didn't write my homework. And my aggrieved and helpless lead was also ignited by my aunt's actions and words of similar concern for me. While munching on the meal, tears were already spreading in the sound of sobbing. Seeing that my state was suddenly abnormal, my aunt also became anxious; Repeatedly ask me what happened at school? Was it bullied? Actually, I wasn't going to say it because my mother wasn't at home, except for them; No one cares about my feelings anymore. After I opened my mouth to narrate the whole thing, I was also prepared to be at the mercy of my head and the price. When the aunt learned what happened, she became angry and first called her mother; I asked her how she handled the matter, and then I took my aunt and I to the street to find the head of the mother's house and ask for a result. Toutou's mother saw me standing outside the door all the time, but she thought I was a friend of Toutou; It's to wait for her son to go back to school together. And promised that when his son came back, he would have a good education, and this kind of thing would not happen again. As soon as I got back to school at noon the same day, I found the boss and finished the role-playing game, thinking that he would make things difficult for me even if he didn't do anything to me. But I didn't expect him to answer hastily and let me go. And when I returned to school from home, I don't know if the head of the mother didn't talk about it, or if there was something else; The head didn't bother me. Since then, the two of us have never crossed paths. When you are weak and incompetent, the shelter you crave is nothing more than another injustice.

Although it didn't work for the boss, I tried to find another way from the bully; Those bullies just like to surf the Internet and smoke. It costs money to bribe them to befriend them, but at least they don't need to be so submissive. By chance, I met a young brother from Guangxi. Later, I learned that he was a relative of the proprietress of the steamed bun shop in the village; Because of the boredom of the school, after dropping out of school, he was arranged by his parents to go to the village bun shop to practice. My brother's favorite place to go is the gambling game machine hall, and the fishing master and birds and animals are his favorites. Although there are more losses and fewer wins, every time you make a small profit from the game hall; He would take me to the Internet café for a night, or give me some loose money for five or ten yuan. Just let me use this pie falling from the sky to make a favor, and after the evening self-study, I invited the bully to the Internet café and invited him to play for a while. Bullies are naturally very happy to hear that there are free online. But because I often went to and from Internet cafes during that time, I may have been recognized by my mother's acquaintances on the street. On the phone, I explained that my aunt was fine, and I went to the Internet café to catch it, but I always coincidentally staggered with my aunt. But the first time I asked a bully to go online; I almost got caught. Luckily, we were just on the game and didn't have headphones, and we happened to be sitting near the door of the Internet café. I heard the exchange between the aunt outside the door and the villagers at the door, saying that they were here to arrest me. Hearing this, the strings in my heart suddenly tightened; My first instinct was to hide under a stool in an Internet café. As my aunt approached, it was as if the air around me was frozen, making it difficult for me to breathe. Fortunately, with the cover of the bully, the aunt didn't take a closer look; Finally escaped. The paralysis of the rest of my life after the catastrophe filled my whole body, and after a little buffering, I transferred all the remaining Internet fees to the bully's machine, and greeted the bully; Seeing that the aunt completely disappeared from view, he hurriedly slipped away and took a shortcut to get home first. Because the number of times the Guangxi brother won gradually decreased, the idea of bribing the bully gradually fell through. My mother learned about the incident between the boss and me, and the fact that I was always in and out of the Internet café and did not do my job. I was so relieved that I quit my job and returned to my hometown to take care of my last two months at Shimomura Middle School. My mother chatted with Sister Qiong on the street in Shangcun and said that a middle school in the county town had started recruiting students ahead of schedule, and the teachers in it were all teachers from a well-known public school in the city. He asked me if I had any intention of going and could get rid of the nightmare of Shimomura; Naturally, I couldn't ask for it. Because my grades were not very good, it took some money to get into the school in this county. Finally, after a year of studying at Shimomura Middle School, he transferred to the county seat. Listening to Que Fukang, the second semester after I left; The school has undergone a certain amount of rectification, and it is no longer so messy. It does help for students in Uemura, but even if I don't transfer; What does this rectification have to do with me?

During the two years of junior high school life in the county, there were not many things that impressed me; I can't even remember the names of most of my classmates. Because the students who come here to study come from all over the countryside, there are naturally a lot less things to do to form gangs. Moreover, our homeroom teacher, Mr. Liu, gives people a sense of oppression when he appears, and when he talks to him, he will naturally avoid his clever eyes, let alone dare to make mistakes. In fact, the county school I attended was also a relatively ordinary private school before. Because a public school in the city was building a new campus, I approached them to talk about renting a campus. In the end, the contract was that the private school would be rented to the public school for ten years, but the public school would need to send some teachers to teach. The private school added a new secondary school in the next few rooms in the primary school, and we were the first students in the second school. Because I transferred here in the second year of junior high school, those students who came here when I was promoted to junior high school; Naturally, it is very familiar. And I'm not a good person to take the initiative to deal with, even if a student wants to come up and pull me into their small group, looking at unfamiliar faces; I didn't know what to say, and I walked away.

I was the most afraid of strangeness, even if I had been in school in the village before; I don't have my parents around, but because I was born and raised here; There's always a sense of intimacy. And when I came here, I had to start from scratch. After two months of being reunited with my mother, I was separated from each other again in this environment, and the more uncomfortable I became. The food in the cafeteria and the environment in the dormitory are the opposite of what I imagined; Many new students who transfer to another school like me are usually used to being pampered, and when they suddenly encounter these hardships, they will find it difficult to accept and secretly wipe their tears. But fortunately, after a period of getting along with each other, the classmates gradually established friendships; I also began to master the rhythm in school. Since returning home from the first grade in the county seat, I haven't been exposed to dormitory life for a long time; The living environment in the dormitory is also not kind to my skin. For a while, the skin will be infected with all kinds of strange diseases, and the itchy will be very provoking and there will be a stinging sensation after you scratch it. But thanks to Sister Qiong; Sister Qiong is a Chinese teacher in the primary school in our school, and she helps to deal with all the difficulties in the school. The temperature is unstable during the change of seasons, and my constitution is as weak as my character; Because I didn't pay attention to keeping warm, I suffered from a cold and fever, and I hung water and took medicine at a nearby clinic for several days, but it still did not improve, but it became more and more serious. Sister Qiong learned that she took me home to a well-known pediatric clinic nearby, and it is said that her daughter was cured of her cold and fever here, and she led me to live at home for a night after hanging up the water and cared about my condition. Think about what the campus life would have been like in the past two years without Sister Qiong's care? But since graduating, I haven't had the opportunity to visit her because I often run around. I heard that he gave birth to another boy in recent years, and I hope that she and her family can be well in the ordinary.

Because our campus is closed, we can't go out on weekends; You can only go home once at the end of the month. And since I arrived in the county, my mother has come with me to work in the county. Every time I go back from monthly leave, my home is empty; My aunt takes care of my three meals a day. Naturally, my aunt didn't love me, and whenever I wanted to go grocery shopping, as long as I came back from vacation, I would only ask me what I wanted to eat; Even Jian Jian and Lu Yun can only follow my favorite dishes. Not only the monthly vacation, but also the winter and summer vacations are as always. Fruits and snacks will only be bought back when I am here, and Jian Jian also said that "you are still good at home, there is something to eat every day." "I didn't know if it was a compliment or a mockery of me. Even if my aunt was so partial to me, Jian Jian and Lu Yun never said a word of complaint again, and they felt that it was good to have me; And I was ashamed of Jian Jian because of weakness once.

In the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school, the knowledge on the tree was under the scorching sun; The anxious cry was even more piercing. Because of my influence, we should have been at home to escape the summer; I always run to the Internet café under the scorching sun. I don't know what channel Jianjian uses, and he can conjure up ten yuan and twenty dollars every day; According to him, it is a reward for helping a rich classmate do housework, anyway, it doesn't matter if you can have money to go online, whether the way of money is like this or not. That summer, the two of us would go to the Internet café for the night almost every afternoon, and go to buy some snacks and spicy noodles to enjoy. For us, it's a joy to live like a family. But the days will not last long, this Internet café is the place where the children in the village come and go the most, and it is also a gathering place for bullies. The more often you come, the more you will get deflated. I just finished breakfast early in the morning, I couldn't bear the loneliness, and after the discussion was unanimous, I rushed to the Internet café; Soon fell silent in the thrill of killing enemies in the game. Unexpectedly, someone suddenly tapped me on the shoulder and called my name, and I was at a critical moment in the game. Impatiently took off the headphones and looked up, and the feeling of uneasiness hit me instantly. I secretly said in my heart: Isn't this the bully who bought a pen for three yuan and wanted to bribe? I haven't seen him for more than half a year, how can he still remember me? Out of politeness, I greeted him with a smile anyway; Then it was easy for him to make small talk. Actually, I don't want to waste words with him at all, but I have to give him face. After watching it later, maybe it's because we just played lol; There are many operations that are extremely clumsy, and some bullies can't stand it; Ask me to get Jian Jian up and do it for him. But even the Internet fee is paid by Jianjian, what qualifications do I have to ask for Jianjian? Seeing that it was good to say nothing, the bully changed his gentle tone and threatened: "How many times have I said it?" My patience is limited, don't push me to do it. "Faced with the dilemma of extreme danger, my mind was completely unable to think of other options, and timidity immediately took over my heart, and weakness once again made me compromise. In order to protect himself, he had to persuade Jian Jian to get up first and let him play for a while. Jian Jian listened to my incompetent attitude and did not lose his temper and reprimand, but dropped the mouse in disappointment and threw down two words: "Remember!" Then he left angrily. In fact, the bully didn't really want to play at all, and was called away after playing for a while. And his pleasure is to embarrass me, to let Jian Jian know how cowardly I am; I wonder if I'm just as weak as I have been for most of the year. Because weakness would rather offend some people who are really good to me than have the courage to stand up to those bullies who play with you, which is the intention of weakness. When I returned home with a guilty heart, I sincerely apologized in embarrassment and promised that if the bully came again, he would take the initiative to give up his place; Jian Jian still forgave me. But if the bully comes to find another reason to make things difficult for us; What can I do? But only the same weak compromise and concession are just a given.

To this day, the image of that time comes back to my mind, and I always want to face the same situation at this moment; If everyone has a weak phase, I hope all my cowardice will be used in the past; In order not to hurt the important people around you, all that remains is perseverance.