Xia Chu waited for a while, but still didn't see Huo Xiyao come back, and his heart became even more anxious.

So I decided to go to him.

But because he got up too violently, he didn't pay attention to knocking over the water glass in his hand, and the water immediately flowed down the gap in the old-fashioned table and into the drawer of the table belt.

"Rub Rub ......"

After a short period of frustration, Xia Chu hurriedly pulled the toilet paper, opened the drawer again, and hurriedly remedied.

These pieces of furniture are old, but they all have their significance, and they can't be damaged anymore.

When the water was almost wiped away, she hurriedly flipped through a few yellowed books in a drawer.

Fortunately, it is not too wet, and after a while, you should be able to dry it by blowing it dry.

Xia Chu's hand suddenly froze.

The dilapidated homework book just now seems to have the word 'Xiaoxiao' written on it? Could it be Huo Xiyao's previous homework book?

But those books just now don't seem to be the books he read when he was in school...... And isn't this house changing hands halfway?

At the beginning of the summer, he subconsciously took the homework book closer.

Only then did I see that the word 'Xiaoxiao' was indeed written.

However, 'Xiao Xiao' is not the subject, the subject is someone else, 'Xiao Xiao will laugh today...... I'm really happy, and I think it's worth it no matter how hard I work...... Mom was also very happy, I could tell, although she still kept a straight face. ’

'Xiao Xiao, it's not that grandma doesn't like you, she's angry with her mother. After a while, she will definitely be able to forgive her mother, and you will grow up with peace of mind, and it is enough to grow up carefree, okay? ’

Like an initiation, Xia Chu suddenly reacted to what this was.

Isn't this the diary that her mother-in-law left back then, and Huo Xiyao once said?

It's no wonder that the book is incomplete at first glance, and the paper is yellow and broken, the handwriting is long, and many places are blurred, so you can only guess it.

Xia Chu hesitated for a moment, and then flipped down again.

She is not an outsider now, she should be able to look through her mother-in-law's relics, right?

The second page is still full of Xiao Xiao, 'Xiao Xiao is really well-behaved, he doesn't cry when he is hungry, and he never stains his clothes and bed. Fortunately, I insisted on giving birth to him at the beginning, otherwise such a well-behaved child would not even have a chance to come to this world to take a look, and my sin would be great. I'm definitely going to regret it for the rest of my life, no, I'll regret it for the rest of my life......

After that, Xiao Xiao will call his mother today, although his mother said that it was not called me at all, he just refused to be idle, and the unconscious sound he made, in fact, he didn't know what it meant. But I just feel like he's calling me, and my son is really going to call mom! ’

'Xiao Xiao didn't have a fever or drool anymore this time...... But it also made me hurt even more, or I still listened to my mother and broke it off for him, right? He couldn't eat enough anyway...... But it's really expensive to buy milk powder, just eggs and rice paste, I'm afraid he won't be able to keep up with the nutrition......

Journals are not available every day.

Basically, it takes a while, and there is no pattern to speak of.

It's not all about a relaxed and pleasant tone, either.

On the contrary, it became heavier and heavier, 'Mom's illness, the only little savings left in the family have bottomed out, and the small shop business can't continue, so it seems that it can only be closed.' What can I do in the future? It's all my fault, if I wasn't ignorant, my mother wouldn't be sick like this...... I must pull myself together and find a way to make money as soon as possible. ’

'Second uncle, they are really too much, it is obviously our family's land, and they will not return it to us. The village cadres also helped him, saying that I was a daughter, and I didn't have my share, and I also ruined the reputation of the Chen family, and I was not allowed to return to Chenjia Village in the future...... I have to hide it from my mother, I have to hold up this family......

'I feel so tired, I'm so tired that I can't hold on...... I've always had a fever these nights, I'm not going to die, am I? No, I can't die, I still have my mother and son to take care of, what will they do if I die......

With each new page, it gets worse, 'Damn's illness is getting worse and worse, the doctors say...... There is no need for cure. I really don't have the money to treat her anymore, and I don't want anyone who sells blood...... I'm really unfilial, I know she's all sick heart...... If I had listened to her before, I would have given Xiao Xiao away...... No, I can't do it, Xiao Xiao is my baby, I'd rather die than give him away! ’

'My mother has passed away, and I am now a fatherless and motherless orphan...... I'm really unfilial, my mother worked hard to raise me, and I haven't had a good day, why was I so confused in the first place...... Why can't we turn back time and let me go back to the beginning? I must have avoided him, I wouldn't have gotten to know him at all...... But in this way, there will be no Xiao Xiao, I am reluctant to ......'

'I'm so tired...... How exactly can I make money...... Why is it so difficult, what did I do wrong, I treated me like that, and I didn't even give our mother and son a way to live......

After that, it must have been a long, long time, so long that the handwriting was rusty, and it didn't look like the same person.

Then there was the next article, 'Xiao Xiao asked me about my father again today, and asked me why everyone scolded him for being a 'wild seed', my heart was really broken...... I'm sorry for him, I gave birth to him but couldn't give him a good life, and I made him born without a father...... The next time he asks me, what should I do? ’

Xiao Xiao is so sick, but I don't have the money to send him to the hospital in the county and city, so I can only rely on him to support himself...... I knew that I shouldn't have fought for that breath in the first place, let them go, and should have accepted the money...... In the face of survival, what is dignity? Besides, it was all because I had no eyes at the beginning, so no one wondered ...... But they're so humiliating......

Xiao Xiao fought with his classmates again today, several beat him one by one, he was beaten all over the body, my heart was really cut like a knife...... He is innocent, even if there is a fault, it is all my fault, why do this to him? Why can't we accommodate our mother and son, we just want to live......

There are also some page numbers that are missing,'...... There really isn't anything left to do, the family has no money...... You don't even want me for a string of beads...... I don't have to starve to death myself, I can't let Xiao Xiao starve to death too......

'It's time for Xiao Xiao to pay tuition again...... There is also a tuition fee, a school uniform fee...... I'm sorry enough for him, I can't let him even have these basics anymore......"

Xiao Xiao hasn't spoken to me for many days, and he doesn't even look at me...... I knew he was saying it, for my ...... Willing to fall and get angry. But I really can't help it, I have to support myself and him, and I have to provide for him to go to high school and college. I can't take him away myself, I can only hope that he will have that ability in the future......

Xiao Xiao stopped talking to me again, and the parent-teacher association didn't tell me at all...... I know he hates me, and if it weren't for me, an irresponsible mother, who had to bring him into this world, he wouldn't have suffered all this...... Xiao Xiao, it's really not that my mother is willing to practice herself...... But it's true that mom is sorry for you, it's all mom's fault......