Duo'er took sleeping pills, a bottle of sleeping pills, and when she was found, she was already in a severe coma and was sent to the hospital for rescue.

I rushed over immediately, and when I got there, Sister Xu was already there, her eyes were swollen from crying, and she was quietly looking at the emergency room.

After Sister Xu saw me, she stared at me for a moment, then turned her face away, and I looked at her blankly.

Do I think Doel committed suicide because of me? Is it because of the pain of falling in love with me? Or because at that time, I spoke quite heavily.

She stripped herself naked, hugged me, kissed me everywhere, and fed me, and I felt like she was a little crazy, out of her body. Then she waited for me and got me into that situation.

After that, she was very pitiful again, with no master, and felt full of self-blame, but in a few days she would be like that again. Of course, some things are hard to describe, and the actual situation is crazier than I described.

At that time, I felt that she couldn't do without me, she was addicted, I was scared, and then I thought why I should tell Sister Xu about this, it was because I felt that Duo'er was a little abnormal, she just wanted to have me, sometimes she looked at me and froze, and said a lot of crazy things.

During that time, my mind was quite messed up, and I felt like that was actually happening with her.

It's just that she's afraid of me exercising vigorously, and it's not really like that, and everything else should be there.

Someone took a suicide note written by Doer, it was given to me, it said: I'm sorry, forgive me for doing this, I was wrong, all the mistakes are my fault, I have no way to bear all this, I am too tired, I feel that it is a very painful thing to live. Of course, all this is not because of you, it is because of me, my pain comes from myself, I want to talk to you a lot, but my mind is messed up now, I am a guilty person, I'm sorry, I choose to be so, I hope you will always be happy, I will always be king!

When I saw these words, I felt guilty and hated myself even more.

I kept praying in my heart for Do'er.

The doctor came out, Sister Xu hurriedly greeted her, and the doctor took off the mask and said, "It's rescued, Mr. Xu, don't worry!" ”

I was so relieved when I heard this, I lowered my head, and there were tears coming out, and I kept thanking the Buddha for his blessing, God for blessing, God for blessing all things!

After Duo'er was pushed out, Sister Xu was busy touching her face, her feelings for Duo'er were too deep, after all, they had lived since childhood for so many years, and the two sisters could be said to be dependent on each other.

I stood there without passing, I couldn't face it.

Dunzi said next to me: "Brother, it's okay, don't blame yourself so much, you are so scary!" ”

I looked back at Dunzi and said, "Dunzi, let me tell you, I seem to have depression, my head is confused, if there are some things I can't judge too accurately, you have to stand up, you know?" ”

"Brother, what's wrong with you? Don't scare me, didn't the doctor say everything was fine? After Dunzi said this, I said to him, "Although there is nothing to do with the examination, I feel that there is something wrong with my nerves, and it stands to reason that I should not tell your sister-in-law, but why should I tell her?" ”

"Yes, I don't understand it either, you don't have to tell your sister-in-law, if you don't say it, your sister-in-law doesn't know, and Duo'er won't say it, you know about it, and no one else knows, brother, but since you said it, you said it, and your sister-in-law will forgive you."

"I can't forgive myself!" After I said that, Dunzi looked at me blankly, and it was difficult to understand me.

Then Dunzi came up and asked me what to do, how to treat it, and now I hurry up to treat it, and I said, "Well, I feel like I need to rest, I'm so tired, I'm tired." ”

Next, she was transferred to my private hospital for treatment.

Sister Xu was guarding Duo'er over there, and I didn't go to see Duo'er at the residence next door, and I felt that I had no way to face her.

One afternoon, Sister Xu walked in, and I was leaning on the sofa and looking out the window in a daze.

"What are you doing?" Sister Xu frowned, looked at me slightly, and said.

When I saw her, I sat up and looked blankly ahead, not knowing what to say.

"Do'er is fine." After she said that, I still didn't speak.

I was scared when something like this happened, and I was a little relieved to hear her say that.

These days, Sister Xu has been staying by Duo'er's side.

"Dudu misses you, it's not easy to get it, he remembers things, always looking for you, what should I do?" After she said that, I hurriedly said, "I'll go back and play with him." ”

"Okay, then you go and play with him, call me, and I'm looking for you on the phone." After Sister Xu said that, she looked back at me, and then walked away.

After I went home, when Dudu saw me, he was stunned, and then turned his face to the side, the little guy was angry, he was a little like Sister Xu when he was angry.

My parents looked at me with helpless eyes, and my mom came up to me and said, "What's the matter?" How could such a thing happen to Doer? Obedient and obedient, how can this be? ”

"Oh, I'm a little depressed, it's okay, it's okay now." When I said that, my mom looked at me worriedly, and probably they knew it might be because of me.

I thought it might be because of me, but I didn't know what it was until later.

Walking in front of Dudu, Dudu frowned and looked ahead, I squatted down and looked at Dudu and said, "Dudu, Dad has come to see you, take you out to play, okay?" ”

"Why are you so long? Didn't you say that? Mom has money, you don't have to go out to work, why did you promise me, it doesn't count? Dudu frowned, he always liked such an expression, and it made me feel very distressed to watch.

Sometimes I feel that life is incredible, time flies so fast, and when I think of the time when I met Sister Xu, it was quite a long way away.

I went with her to have a child, and I was vividly aware of the scene of running around, and God brought us Dudu, and Dudu could talk to me in turn, looking at Dudu, I felt that it was really magical. When I didn't have a father, I didn't have a son, no matter how I thought about it, I couldn't feel how I felt today, and it was hard for me to express that feeling.

Looking at Dudu, I was so distressed, I hugged him, hurt his forehead, Dudu suddenly cried, very aggrieved, I wiped his tears, hurt him and said: "Dudu doesn't cry, Dad loves you, you will always be Daddy's baby." ”

"I was with my mother, we, my mother cried, I still coaxed my mother, my mother still cried......" After Dudu said, I was even more distressed, I coaxed there for a while, Dudu was coaxed by me, looked at me and said: "Then you don't come to see Dudu for a long time in the future, grandparents said you, criticize you!" I smiled and nodded.

Later, I took Dudu out to play, Dudu was very happy, he was rarely taken out, and when he faced those dangers before, he was very happy when he saw children, so he stared at people and wanted to play with them.

Take Dudu to the mall to play on the slide or something, Dudu is happy, there are a lot of my people in the whole mall, I sit by and watch.

Watching my son play there, I feel a lot better, I am a very contradictory person, I think everything is for a reason, the world is the cause and effect law that supports the operation of everything, I was born in a traditional place, and then read out to catch up with the arrival of the Internet age, I seem to be swayed like this. Sometimes it's better to live a relaxed life and not think about anything, but sometimes I keep judging myself.

I think this kind of entanglement, this kind of character is destined for all this.

Everyone has their own life and growth environment, and it also creates different personalities.

But in my heart, I have always longed and longed for everything to be beautiful, just like watching these lovely children play there, what a beautiful picture.

While I was looking at the children and thinking about something, Sister Xu sent me a message.