She didn't know what her name was, and for as long as she could remember, there were only two people around her, one was an older grandmother, but she was very serious, she hardly spoke, and every day she would bring some soup and water for her to drink, which tasted bitter and astringent;

No one spoke to her, so she didn't talk to anyone else, and she listened quietly to the roosters and birds, looked at the mountains and forests one after another, and sometimes looked at the men who were secretly looking inside the courtyard. But she didn't like those disgusting eyes, and every time that the grandmother would go out, and I don't know what she did, and those who resolutely refused to leave would eventually fly out and dare not come again.

Until that day, when she saw a person who was better looking than everyone she had ever seen, he would smile at himself, talk to himself, hug her and tell her what the thing in front of her was called, and call her "Qiu'er". Although I don't know how to write this character, I like autumn, and people who think he is so beautiful will like it, so she has been called "Qiu'er" since then.

Qiu'er could remember a lot of things after listening to them, but she still didn't plan to speak, because she found that as long as she didn't say anything with an expressionless face, he would hold her in his arms and whisper it over and over again, and this feeling of being cared for and loved was sinking.

From his mouth she knew everything, and although she didn't understand it, she could remember it.

Later, Mama was sent by him to another place, and the three of them made their way north to the desert, which was desolate and dry, completely different from where they had lived before. But it didn't matter where she was, as long as she was with him. On the contrary, this place is better than the place where he used to live, because since he could see the yellow sand, he let himself call him "Daddy", this title Qiu'er likes very much, there is a warm and intimate feeling, like owning the whole world.

But Qiu'er was happy and worried at the same time, because her father had never stood up since he came here, and sometimes he would look at her and her so-called mother with a complicated and painful look. She didn't understand, but every time she saw this expression, her heart hurt. She knew her father's health was not good, but she didn't know what to do.

This village is where her father chose to settle down, and from the moment he held her hand and said, "From now on, this is our home", Qiu'er regarded this place as her home. "Home", she also has her own home.

Qiu'er can't help her father, so she can only minimize his worries and let him worry less. I wonder why the children in the village always laugh at her, she just doesn't like to talk, and she doesn't get in the way of others. But in the face of the provocation of those little babies with snot and dust, Qiu'er didn't care, let them go. It was only later that they were no longer limited to verbal prestige, and began to throw earth and stones at her, pushing and stumbling, and not stopping when they saw blood.

She had never been beaten in all these years, not even before she met her father. At first she was in pain and wondered when she was thrown stones, but before she could say anything, the children ran away, and the matter was over. Later, when they fought again, Qiu'er resisted because of the pain, and as a result, more stones and clods were thrown over, and even on her face and neck, there were red, swollen and bloody marks.

When he got home, his father saw it, his eyes were distressed, guilty and self-blamed, he carefully cleaned the wound, and took out the ointment to wipe it one by one, the movement was very light and slow. In fact, the place where she was beaten was painful and numb, and she felt a little burned, but looking at her father's eyes, Qiu'er didn't dare to cry out for pain or cry, she was afraid that her father would show a more painful look, in that case, she would rather be thrown a few more stones.

Later, she found that every time she was bullied, as long as she didn't cry, make trouble, or hide, those children would leave after they thought the "wooden man" was boring, and she just had to clean herself up before her father found out. She remembered the location and taste of the ointment, and she would secretly rub some medicine on the seriously injured area, so as not to be discovered by her father if she was too slow to get better.

I don't feel that much pain when I get used to it.

In addition to her father, there is also a person named Buye in the whole village, which makes Qiu'er feel pleasing to the eye. That time, she saw him sitting curled up alone, with a kind of anger in his eyes that wanted to destroy people, but tears flowed on his face, which made her feel that this person was very contradictory and smart. He was trying his best to restrain himself, just like her, every time she saw her father looking at them with complicated eyes, she would desperately restrain herself, pretending not to see or understand the meaning contained in it.

When she realized it, she realized that she was actually wiping his tears, watching him stare at her in amazement, and she could only pretend to be slapping him in the face as if nothing happened. I know that everyone laughs at her dementia, and I'm happy to do it, but I don't know how other stupid people behave, and it will be considered a stupid action to slap other people's faces mechanically.

It's been a few years since she came to the desert, her father's body is getting weaker and weaker, and her time is getting less and less, Qiu'er is panicking all day long, and she can't imagine what she will do if her father leaves one day. The world is big and there are many people, but she only has her father.

Looking at her father, who was asleep again on the recliner, Qiu'er cried for the first time. She is really selfish, in order to covet this little warmth, but let her father bear all the pain alone for so many years, struggling on the verge of death. When she first arrived in the desert, she had already realized that her father might die soon, and every time he looked at them, he seemed to be worried that they would not survive after he went, and felt guilty and anxious that he could not shelter them from the wind and rain. She also knew that the village chief was not simple, and her father was not a good strategy here, and her father knew better, but every time he hid all his troubles under his smile in front of them, he kept all his troubles out of the house.

It's not enough for him to be suffering from the virus now, he also has to worry about their future livelihoods, obviously she could have shared it for her father a few years ago, and it was her own selfishness that made her father even more haggard.

Suddenly felt a pair of warm hands on her head gently caressing, Qiu'er looked up, and saw her father's unchanged warm smile, and tears rained down, "Daddy".

Daddy suddenly sat up straight and looked at her stunned, Qiu'er nodded, Daddy laughed and hugged her on his lap, shouting "Qiu'er, Qiu'er", but nothing else was said, but both of them understood. Seeing his happy appearance, she also smiled, and smiled happily.

Since then, her father will tell her a lot of things whenever he has time, telling her how to survive in the desert, how to get along with people, how to save her life, how to kill and hurt people, as if he wants to tell her all the things that have saved his life in the past few decades. And Qiu'er also seriously remembered to study hard, just because her father's mood was obviously much lighter, and the more she remembered, the happier her father became.

Later, Daddy had less time to be sober, and the "mother" became more and more silent. Qiu'er had a bad impression of that person, just like she did to herself, just a stranger living under one roof. It's just that my father explained that I must treat her well, take care of her, and not make her unhappy. Although he is noncommittal, he will always listen to his father's words.

Later, Daddy still went, looking at his smiling and closed eyes, Qiu'er didn't cry, but was very happy, because she could let Daddy go with peace of mind, and she didn't have to worry about them after death. This is the only thing I can do for my father.

The funeral was organized by the villagers, and seeing that the village chief was obviously happy because of her father's death but had to pretend to be sad, she only felt ridiculous, so she didn't want to watch it.

After Daddy went, the "mother" also lost the will to live, she knew that the person was living for Daddy's life, like the walking dead without emotion, and now that Daddy died, the only reason for that person to live was gone. But Qiu'er promised her father to treat her well and take care of her, how could she not keep her word?

It's a pity that no one can stop the person who wants to die forever, and less than a year after Daddy left, that person also went. Looking at the empty house, you will be left alone from now on, and that's fine. She had promised her father that she couldn't make that person unhappy, since she had been forced to stay for more than half a year, now that she is gone, she can not only be relieved, but also go to accompany her father.