In the past two days, I have stopped reversing day and night, and have learned to catch clues and discern the hours by ear.

After lunch, Nana stumbled into the courtyard, out of breath: "Niangniang, Niangniang, the Heavenly Monarch has just issued an edict to give, to give Concubine Sujin Tianfei to His Royal Highness the Prince." ”

I smiled, Yehua has been crowned the crown prince for a while, and it is only a matter of time. But Su Jin still can't be Yehua's wife after all. I recently heard that the Heavenly Monarch had an agreement with Emperor Bai Zhi of the Qingqiu Kingdom that he would marry his daughter Bai Qian as the successor to the Heavenly Monarch.

Suddenly, my stomach began to ache sharply.

Nana shouted one after another: "Niangniang, what's wrong with you?"

I looked up and smiled in her direction, "I'm probably going to give birth." ”

During the delivery, I fainted and woke up in pain. When Su Jin changed her eyes, Yehua watched her for a day and a night, and at that time, I only had Nana by my side. I restrained myself from calling Yehua's name.

It's tragic enough, so it can't be more miserable.

Nana cried and said, "Niangniang, you let go of my hand, I will go to His Royal Highness the Prince, I will go to His Royal Highness the Prince." ”

I was so painful that I couldn't speak, so I had to lip-sync with her over and over again: "Nana, you stay with me for a while, just for a while." ”

She cried even harder.

It's a boy.

I don't know when Yehua came over, but when he woke up, he held my hand, and his hands were cold.

He took the child over and said, "You can touch his face, he looks like you." ”

I didn't move. I like this kid, but I can't take him to live in Junjishan, I have to abandon him.

In this case, it is better not to touch him, not to hug him, not to let yourself develop deeper feelings for him.

Yehua sat beside me for a long time and didn't speak.

After Yehua left, I called Nana to me and told him that I had given the child a nickname Ah Li, and that I must take good care of him in the future.

Yehua comes to see me every day, he is not a man of many words. I used to talk a lot, but lately I'm really not interested in saying anything, so most of the time, the two of us are silent together.

He didn't tell me about his marriage to Sojin, and neither did Nana.

After 3 months, I was in good health. He brought me a lot of fabrics and asked me which one I liked and wanted to make me a wedding dress.

He said: "Susu, I said a long time ago that I want to marry you. ”

Of course I knew, he just pitied me. I feel that I am a mortal and have no eyes, although I am self-inflicted, but at the same time hateful, I am also very pitiful.

I think I must go, there is no longer any reason for anyone to stay in this ninefold heaven.

Nana accompanied me for a walk, and we repeated the route from Seokoo Palace to Jusendai again and again. Nana was very strange, and I told her that I liked to smell the fragrance of Fuqu flowers along the way.

Half a month has passed, and I have been able to travel between Xiwu Palace and Zhuxiantai unhindered by my own feelings.

It's easy to fool Nana. Standing on Zhuxiantai, I feel that my heart is as light as the wind. Ah Li has Nana to take care of, and I am very relieved.

But all of a sudden, I really wanted to tell Yehua again, I didn't push Su Jin, whether he believed it or not.

On Junjian Mountain, Yehua once gave me a beautiful bronze mirror. At that time, he was going to a very important task far away, and I was alone, so he took out of his sleeve pocket such a precious thing, and told me that wherever he was, if I called his name in the mirror, he could hear him, and if he was not busy, he would talk to me.

I don't know why I came to this Nine Heavens, but I still have to take this mirror with me, probably because it's the only thing Yehua has given me.

I took the mirror out. I haven't called his name for a long time, and it's already a little jerky. I said, "Yehua." ”

After a long pause, his voice came from his ear: "Susu?"

I forgot that he wasn't with me, so I nodded slowly, and said again with great difficulty, "I'm going back to Junji Mountain, so you don't have to look for me everywhere." I'll be fine on my own. Help me take care of Ah Li. I used to dream that one day I could hold his hand and accompany him while watching the stars, the moon, the sea of clouds, and the sunshine, and tell him the story of our Junjian Mountain, but now I am afraid that I can't. After thinking about it, he added: "Don't tell him that his mother is just a mortal, and the gods in the sky don't look down on mortals very much." ”

It was obviously a very ordinary goodbye word, but for a moment I suddenly wanted to cry, I quickly raised my head to look at the sky, but suddenly remembered that I had no eyes for a long time, where did the tears come from?

Yehua's voice seemed to be a little depressed: "You, where are you?"

"Zhu Xiantai," I said, "Concubine Su Jin told me that if I jumped off Zhu Xiantai, I would be able to return to Junjian Mountain." I'm used to seeing things now, Junjishan is my hometown, and the surroundings are very familiar, so it won't be inconvenient for me to live alone. ”

He interrupted me hurriedly: "Susu, you stand there and don't move, I'll come over immediately." ”

After all, I still didn't have the courage to defend myself to him again, I didn't push Su Jin down at that time, he couldn't trust me after all, and I couldn't bear his disappointment and distrust again.

I said, "Yehua, I let you go, and you let me go, and we don't owe each other from now on." ”

The bronze mirror fell from his hand, and with a loud sound, Yehua's almost violent roar was hidden: "You stand there for me, don't jump ......"

I rolled over and jumped off the platform. Yehua, I don't have any more requirements for you, it's good.

At that time, I didn't know that Zhu Xiantai Zhu Xian was just the practice of Zhu Immortals. And the mortals jumped off the Zhuxiantai, but they were wiped out.

At that time, I didn't know that I wasn't really a mortal.

The anger under the Zhuxian Terrace hurt me completely, but it was precisely because of the anger that was invincible to thousands of peerless divine soldiers that the seal between my forehead was split. I never expected that the cinnabar mole on my forehead was actually two hundred years ago, when the Ghost Monarch Qingcang broke out of the Eastern Emperor Bell, in order to lock him back up, and fought with him in a big battle with the seal planted by him. It took away the memory of my appearance and the immortal aura around me, and turned me into a mortal.

The past came one after another, and I secretly told myself: "Bai Qian, you were born with an immortal fetus, and you don't need to practice to be a goddess." But how can there be such a cheap thing in the world, how can you fly to the gods without going through this catastrophe. ”

Therefore, this love-hate grudge that has lasted for decades is nothing but a catastrophe.

I fainted in the ten-mile peach blossom forest in the east of the East China Sea, and he woke me up with a sigh: "Your father and aunt and several brothers are looking for you like crazy, and I am also so anxious that I haven't slept soundly for more than 200 years, what is going on with your eyes, your scars?"

What's going on?

I smiled and said to Zheyan, "I remember that you have a medicine here, and you can forget all the things you want to forget after taking it?"

Zhen Yan raised his eyebrows: "It seems that you have been very sad in the past few decades." ”

The smell of the steaming decoction in front of me was extremely misty.

There is no more Su Su on Junjian Mountain in this world. It was just a dream made by Bai Qianshen, the daughter of Emperor Bai Zhi of the country of Qingqiu, with endless pain and a slight peach color.

When I wake up from a dream, I forget what happened in my dream.