Lately, I've been a bit sleepy.

Nana said: "Probably because she is pregnant, she is extra thirsty and sleepy, so she doesn't have to worry." ”

Nana is the maidservant who takes care of me, and she is also the only fairy in the entire Xiwu Palace who is willing to smile at me and call me "Niangniang". Most of the other fairies looked down on me. Because Yehua didn't give me any name. It's also because I don't have an immortal background, I'm just a mortal.

Nana seemed to push open the window, and the wind blew in, and someone's footsteps came from outside the window. Nana's voice was a little surprised: "Niangniang, it's His Royal Highness the Crown Prince who has come to see you." ”

I got up from the brocade quilt and leaned against the rail, my mind a little confused, and although I had just woken up, I was still sleepy.

The futon sank a little, and I thought it was Yehua sitting next to me.

I asked him vaguely, "Tonight, are the stars shining well?"

He paused for a moment before replying, "Susu, it's daytime." ”

I habitually want to rub my eyes, but when I met the white silk that bound my eyes, I suddenly remembered that my eyes were gone, and no matter how I rubbed them, I still couldn't tell the time, and I still couldn't see anything.

Yehua was silent for a while, and said, "I will marry you, and I will be your eyes." ”

Susu, I will be your eyes.

I instinctively pushed him away. The nightmare of that night struck me again, and I trembled with fear.

Yehua came to take my hand: "Susu, what's wrong with you?"

I lied with trembling teeth: "Suddenly, suddenly a little sleepy." Go about your business, I want to get some sleep. ”

The person who used to be extremely attached to the arms has now become unbearable, and I am just curious why he agreed to my ridiculous request in the first place when he liked that woman so much.

At the beginning, I really regretted not being at the beginning.

Yehua left. Nana knocked lightly on the door. I lay heavily on the bed, my mind cluttered. One moment is the Junji Mountain of the Eastern Wilderness, one moment is Yehua's face, and the other is the bloody dagger and my eyes that have been gouged out. It hurts, I want to cry, but I can't.

I thought, when I give birth to this child, I will go back to Junji Mountain, and where I start, I should end.

After a long pause, Nana tiptoed in the door and called me softly: "Niangniang, Niangniang, are you awake?"

I coughed in my throat, "What's the matter?"

Nanai paused: "Concubine Su Jintian sent a maidservant girl to send a post and invite you to drink tea together." ”

I lifted the quilt to cover my face in annoyance: "Just say I've rested." ”

I don't know why Su Jin has been making frequent overtures to me lately. Maybe it's because I got my eyes and made me blind, so I'm a little guilty? But it's obviously her, she made Yehua gouge out my eyes.

I'm no longer the little girl I was three years ago, nervous and ridiculously trying to please everyone.

Around the end of the afternoon, Nana woke me up and said that the sunlight was shining obliquely into the yard and asked me to bask in the sun.

She moved a rocking chair and tried to carry me over. I pushed her to serve, and tried to move out step by step by holding on to the wall of the table. These are all necessary, otherwise, when I return to Junjian Mountain in the future, how will I live alone?

After basking in the sun for a while, I was a little drowsy. In a trance, it seems that I still have a dream, and in the dream, I went back to the time when I first saw Yehua on Junji Mountain three years ago. He was armed with a cold sword, and fell in front of my thatched hut covered in blood. I hurriedly dragged him into the house, put medicine to stop the bleeding, and watched in amazement as his wounds healed on their own.

It wasn't that I saved him, but he had to repay, and I spread my hands: "You might as well make a promise." And so they became parents, and they had a child in their womb.

For as long as I can remember, I have lived alone on Junji Mountain, surrounded only by birds, beasts, insects and fish, so I don't have a name. He called me Su Su and said that from now on, this is my name, and I was secretly happy for several days.

Later, he brought me to the Nine Heavens. I realized that my husband turned out to be the grandson of the Heavenly Monarch.

At that time, he had not yet been made a crown prince.

But in these nine heavens, no one recognizes him as my husband. He never mentioned it to the Heavenly Monarch that he married a mortal as a wife in the Eastern Wilderness.

That night, I went to Yehua's dormitory to deliver soup. There was no one around the dormitory, and Concubine Sujin's voice came out poignantly: "You marry a mortal, it's just to retaliate for me betraying you and marrying the Heavenly Monarch, isn't it? But what can I do, what can I do, a woman from all over the world, who can resist the grace of the Heavenly Monarch? Heh, tell me, Yehua, you still love me, right, you call her Susu, but because, it's just because my name has a plain word embedded in it, right?"

The dream, which was in perfect harmony with reality, came to an abrupt end, but I was shocked into a cold sweat for the rest of my life. Carefully stroked the belly that was high and bulging for a while. I've been pregnant for three years, and I think I'm probably going to give birth soon.

After nightfall, Nana didn't come to serve me for a long time. I still can't fetch water and wash alone, so I have to ask her. Nana came over to help me tuck the flower carpet covering my lap, and replied, "Niangniang, wait a little longer, maybe Your Highness will come over tonight?"

I laughed dumbly. After that incident, Yehua never came to rest again. I know it won't.

At that time, on Junjian Mountain in the Eastern Wilderness, if Yehua told me that he already had someone on the tip of his heart, I would not let him marry me.

At that time, I hadn't fallen in love with him yet, I was just lonely alone.

But he didn't say anything, he married me and brought me to the Nine Heavens.

I'm naturally good at whitewashing the peace, so I can treat all kinds of entanglements between him and Concubine Su Jin as not knowing.

I thought, no matter what, he married me, we swore to worship heaven and earth in the Eastern Wilderness, I still have his child, I love him so much, one day he will be touched by me.

And he did gradually become gentle with me.

I even glad to think that even if he didn't love me, didn't he?

Loving this kind of thing, sometimes, can make people very humble.

But that happened. So I woke up from a dream at the cost of losing my eyes and losing my light.

On that day, Concubine Su Jintian invited me to Yao Chi to enjoy the flowers. I thought it was a small banquet for the ladies and sisters, so I stupidly accepted the post. When I arrived at Yaochi, I realized that it was only the two of us.

After retiring from Gong'e, she pulled me all the way to Zhuxiantai.

She stood on the Zhuxian platform and smiled at me coldly: "Do you know? ”

I never understood the rules and tricks of these immortals, I just felt a surge of blood in my chest and abdomen, and I didn't know whether it was anger or confusion.

She still smiled reservedly: "I am in love with Yehua, this Nine Heavens is not a place where mortals should stay, give birth to a child, you can jump off this Zhuxian Terrace and go back to the place where you should return." ”

I don't know if I can really go back to Junji Mountain by jumping off Zhuxiantai, and I never thought about leaving at that time. I asked her in a daze, "Did Yehua ask me to go back?" I am his wife, and it is natural that I should follow him. ”

Now that I think about it, those words are really self-inflicted.

But at that time, I always thought that Yehua at least liked me a little, as long as he liked me a little bit, then I also wanted to stay by his side.

Su Jin sighed a little amusedly, suddenly grabbed my hand and led me towards the edge of the Seendae.

I thought she was going to push me off the platform, but it was she who turned off the high platform, and before I could react, a black shadow had already passed by me, and I followed it.

Yehua stood in front of me with Su Jin in her arms, looking at me coldly, and a monstrous anger was brewing in those black eyes.

Su Jin said weakly in her arms: "Don't blame Su Su, I think she didn't mean to push me, but she just listened to it, and heard the news that the Heavenly Monarch was going to give me to you, and she was a little impulsive." ”

Unbelievable, I'm acting, I'm doing nothing.

"It's not me, it's not me, I didn't push her, Yehua, you believe me, you believe me......" I tried to explain to him over and over again, frightened, unorganized, like a clown jumping off the beam.

He waved his hand and whispered, "That's enough." I only believe what I see. ”

He didn't want to listen to my explanation, he didn't believe me, he hugged Su Jin, his eyebrows were burning, and he hurriedly stepped down from Zhuxiantai.

That night, he stood in front of me with a gloomy expression: "Su Jin's eyes were burned by the qi of the sword soldiers under the Zhuxian Terrace, Su Jin, karma reincarnation, owes others debts, and must be repaid." Susu, don't be afraid, I will marry you, and from now on, I will be your eyes. ”

Before, he had never mentioned that he wanted to marry me in this ninefold heaven. My heart was cold for a moment, and anger and fear surged up together.

I thought, I had never been so out of shape before, I grabbed his hand and said hysterically: "Why do you want my eyes, she jumped down by herself, she jumped by herself, and it has nothing to do with me, why don't you believe me?"

His eyes were sad, and then he sneered: "Zhu Xiantai is angry, she jumped down by herself? Don't want to live anymore? Su Su, you are really becoming more and more unreasonable." ”

In this ninefold heaven, he is the only one for me. I have been thinking about it, thinking that after the child is born, I will hold the child's hand with him, and watch the sea of clouds churning for ten miles. He didn't know how much light meant to me.

I had my eyes gouged out. Nana took care of me for three days, and after three days, Su Jin stood in front of me and said, "I use your eyes very well. ”

It dawned on me.

Have you ever loved someone.

Have you ever hated someone.

In fact, it was a love-hate relationship between the two of them, and I was just a passerby, vaguely involved recently, and it was a fateful catastrophe.