Li Xiangyi occasionally put the pillow in her arms, imagining that the pillow was the incarnation of her husband Sun Daoliang.

After doing it once, and so on, I feel very comforting. Without taking medicine or injections, you can solve the problem of frequent insomnia caused by her longing for her husband, and Li Xiangyi naturally often adopts this effective method of managing loneliness!

As the saying goes: what's right for you is the best.

Since that night, sleeping with a pillow has unconsciously become one of the things Li Xiangyi must do before going to bed every night. Now, after a few years, a personal bad habit has formed. She was ashamed to mention it in front of others, because she would not have gossiped about her if she spoke out to her neighbors.

It is said that there are many rights and wrongs in front of the widow's door, and single women at home will also attract everyone's after-dinner discussions, as if it has become a bad habit of rural people. Whenever I think of Sun Daoliang, I either call him on his mobile phone and talk until I fall asleep; Or choose not to disturb and sleep with the pillow until the alarm clock goes off.

More than ten years have passed, and she has maintained the unwritten habit of sleeping with a pillow when Sun Daoliang is not at home.

It wasn't until Sun Daoliang came back that Li Xiangyi was able to come to the scene, holding him Sun Daoliang so much that he loved him to death, and he was fascinated. It is not difficult to imagine that the pillow prepared to replace her husband Sun Daoliang was held by herself as if it had become a kind of spiritual sustenance for her. And such a spiritual sustenance action can't help but be manifested in Li Xiangyi's daily life in the middle of the night.

For example, when standing on the edge of a telephone pole, you will face the telephone pole coldly and lift one leg to hook it.

When sitting, unconsciously put the things in your hands between your hips and wrap your legs. I don't know if all the women whose husbands are in other places are the same as Li Xiangyi. We haven't done this kind of research, because when it comes to human nature, it's a kind of personal privacy. No one is going to do such a boring social survey.

Although there are always people who don't understand some of her Li Xiangyi's strange behaviors, some people even ask in person: Li Xiangyi, why do you like to put everything on your two legs?

She just smiled and threw out a sentence, "What's wrong!" Can't you? If you don't get used to it, don't look at it, hold the child on your lap, hold something that can't be held, put one end on the ground, and hold the other end with your legs, what's wrong? I want me to like the head office! Besides, what do I have to do with you, and what do I do to myself? ”

The questioner was speechless, how could he be embarrassed.

Thinking about it, I blame myself for doing a lot of things, Li Xiangyi can do whatever she likes, and her quick mouth and quick tongue are not welcomed by others, but she is boring for herself. The interrogator is nosy, and it is also self-inflicted to blame for making himself uncomfortable. From now on, people who think that Li Xiangyi's approach is a bit weird, even if they close their eyes and walk away, they will never arch the smoke window to beg for it.

We say that when a habit is done over and over again, the body forms a conditioned reflex, which is also a natural phenomenon. It can only be said that everyone's habits are different, and if you don't do it, don't think that others have done it unreasonable. A choice for each one, despite what you think thinks she doesn't have to do.

You can only say that you don't know what other people have been through, so you can't understand what other people are doing.

Don't force others to work and live like yourself, always thinking that all your ideas are above others.

Life is only a hundred years, and no one has a unified model, from the beginning to the curtain call. Because each of us is a different subject. It doesn't mean that your approval is someone else's nod of approval. Whenever we are not accustomed to someone else's behavior, the best thing to do is to either ignore it or avoid it.

Because when a person's behavior is strange or surprised in the moment you think it is strange, maybe it is you who is wrong.

I have never seen a lonely person, and the frog at the bottom of the well thinks that it is an illusion that others are far ahead. If you are not used to it, it is better not to look at it, but do not accuse and deny others, or slander others. Because he is him, you are you. As long as we are ordinary people in the world, there is no need to trample on each other and tear each other apart.

At the moment when no one can represent anyone, when we evaluate a person's behavior differently according to our own subjective consciousness, at least verify that the reason why he does this must indicate a certain hint from his inner mental activity, or that it is difficult to say in front of others.

Not to mention that the darkness that belongs to the individual's heart is at work. We can collectively refer to this kind of behavior of entertaining oneself as others as air, and does not constitute harm to others, or affecting others, as a kind of conjecture of gain and loss in behavioral consciousness.

Or, because of a certain desire from the heart, when it is not satisfied, the body function naturally forms an unconscious sustenance brought by reverie. And this sustenance often comes from a physiological natural reaction. It often happens especially when it's hard to stay up late. The cause mainly comes from touching the scene and feelings, and there is also a kind of memory when my thoughts change.

For example: Watching a TV series, there are cold scenes of the couple kissing me and lingering. Sweet talk, hugging and kissing...... When Li Xiangyi saw such a scene, the reverie of when she was with Sun Daoliang immediately appeared in her mind.

Sometimes, it is not uncommon to see something and think about people.

Some people say that this situation is likely to happen often to people who do not do their jobs properly and do not abide by women's morals. In fact, otherwise, people are not plants and trees, how can they be ruthless and insensitive. Seven emotions and six desires, human nature. That man doesn't love it, and that woman doesn't have a spring? Is there anything wrong with setting some ambiguous scenes occasionally encountered in life as some kind of plot of oneself in one's life, placing yourself in it, and entertaining yourself?

It belongs to the conditioned reflex of a normal person under some external stimulus outside the body, reflecting the physiological natural response, which is the difference between humans and animals. There is no moral kidnapping, misconduct, irresponsibility to the family, or infidelity to the husband or wife. Men misbehave, women don't abide by women's morals, etc., all kinds of rhetoric are self-proclaimed.

The people who say these words are representative figures who place themselves above the category of moral exemplars of saints and gentlemen. Rest assured, there are not so many unattainable noble sages in this world! Even if there is, it is a fictitious avatar. Or it is a kind of expectation of the saint depicted in people's minds.

"We have a world, this world is not a world, and the world is a world......"

What is the World?

The world is composed of three elements: atheism, philosophical theory, and scientific creation. There are too few things that human beings can see through the naked eye, and with the help of external forces, we humans can discover things ranging from atoms, molecules, particles, nucleons, and now dark matter that can only be indestructible in our ideological field and has penetrating power to any matter.

We humans are so small in comparison. As long as you are a human being, you are not a sage. Be a normal person and allow normal people to make mistakes, but they can be corrected in time. Someone cheats on their behavior, someone cheats mentally, no matter who you are, you always have a moment to cheat. Don't tell me you don't, ask yourself, in the adult world, who hasn't envied the time when they are beautiful and handsome.

Looking back a few more times, it happens to pedestrians all the time, including you and me, and everyone, and we can't get rid of it. Otherworldly, that's a joke. If it's an animal instinct, why bother with moral kidnapping? A big hat buckles a small head, and it's not necessary. See through but don't say through, see through but don't say through.

Don't be in a hurry to do something, use your brain to think about it first; When you ask others to do what you think you do, can you do it yourself? Why bother forcing others to do things that you can't do yourself? "Do not do unto others as you would have them do unto you." Like Li Xiangyi, when her husband comes back, be a kind and virtuous little woman, let him enjoy full of male and female love, what's wrong with the love of children and daughters.

In a limited time, it radiates infinite tenderness and thoughtfulness. Consider everything from the position of a man who has left his homeland, and you will never lose in front of him. Can penetrate every corner of my husband's heart like an X-ray, can he be willing to abandon a two of you?

He's gone, and you're going back to the half of your life that makes you happy, what's wrong! Empathy, what you can accept, he can accept.

But if you can't accept it, he will naturally not accept it. It is said that the prime minister can hold the boat in his belly, but we are all ordinary people, flesh and blood, and emotions. Please believe that in the world we live in, there are not so many prime ministers, Bao Qingtian, Confucian saints, Lao Tzu, Mozi, Han Feizi and so on.

Who is right and who is wrong, we cannot see the essence through phenomena. Overnight, sometimes he is a paradox.

Instead of suffering, why not give the other party a step.

Untie the shackles of mental bondage, give each other a blue sky, and leave yourself room for spiritual comfort, just like playing family games when you were a child, what's wrong with living happily? Cherish the moment and be kind to those around you. In the past, choose to let go; Future, walk on the road, look for it slowly.

When God closes a door for you, He also opens a window for you.

Li Xiangyi also wanted to break through the spiritual shackles of being unfaithful to her husband, but she didn't have the courage.

I remember that day, in order to get a job as a dormitory manager, she was alone, carrying a black horse clip bag, in which there were two soft Chinese and two bottles of Dream Blue. It was the first time in his life that he had given a gift to someone who had nothing to do with him.

When she hesitated, she thought of her husband who was far away in Shenzhen, and she did not hesitate.

Walked to the door of the principal's office, took three steps and took two steps back, trembling and cringinge.

Thinking that his son is studying at school, he has a little daughter under his knees to take care of himself. She needs this job. As long as her son, daughter and husband appear in her mind, Li Xiangyi is full of courage. Wouldn't a woman get ahead without a man at home? The moment I asked myself in my heart, a warm current surged through my body.

Without hesitation, he raised his right hand and gently knocked on the door of the principal's office.

"Knock knock" The moment she heard her hand knock on the big wooden door, Li Xiangyi, who was pounding in her heart, suddenly had a premonition that something was going to happen today. She wanted to leave the night, but it was too late, because the headmaster had already opened the door from the inside. Since you can't hide, let's rise to the challenge! I saw the principal stick out his head and look at both sides of the door first, and then look at Li Xiangyi.

I saw that it was a beautiful woman like a flower, carrying a heavy black horse clip bag in her hand.

Although it is not clear from the outside what is in the horse clip bag, it is nothing more than a gift, or a daily necessities brought to the student by the student's parents. This big fat man who is 1.82 meters tall and weighs more than 200 pounds has a big belly, and all the fat on his body is displayed.

Li Xiangyi was disappointed, the principal she imagined must be a scholarly and handsome young man. Unexpectedly, when he saw the principal himself, he was so frightened that he retreated again and again. I was so disappointed that it was really superfluous to even look at it. Fortunately, from the moment the principal faced her, he could see that he had a smiling face.

Seeing that someone was coming to him, he hurriedly straightened his trouser buckles, shook his head back of his head, stepped forward, and asked Li Xiangyi enthusiastically: "May I ask this parent, who are you looking for?" Is there anything you want to do with them? It's Sunday! ”

Oh my god! Seeing that the principal of his son's school was tall and big, with a round waist and a straight belly, and the small and delicate Li Xiangyi standing beside him, like a little dwarf, Li Xiangyi in this place really regretted coming to the principal alone. But she soon decided that her actions were extremely impolite to people.

He immediately stood firm and bowed to the headmaster. Pretending to smile, at first glance, it is squeezed out of the corners of the mouth, not from the bottom of the heart. Niu Niu Gaga, with a shy reply, "Oh, you're the principal, aren't you!" I got to know you the day I had the parent-teacher conference. ”

"Oh, it's an honor, it's a great honor, you won't be looking for me, will you? This is the principal's office! The principal pointed to the sign outside his office, which was prominently engraved with the words "Principal's Office", and it was impossible for Li Xiangyi not to recognize it. But the principal thought that Li Xiangyi was coming to find him, because, most of the people who came to the office to receive him in person made an appointment in advance.

The young lady was on the wrong side, so he had to remind Li Xiangyi.

"Oh, I saw it! Headmaster, I'll tell you the truth, I'm here for you. Didn't bother you, if, if it's not convenient for you, I'll come back later. After Li Xiangyi finished speaking, she put the things in her hand into the threshold of the principal's office and pulled away to leave. It can be seen that Li Xiangyi's face is already flushed.

She was nervous, and it was the first time she gave a gift to a stranger, and the kind of indescribable embarrassment made her very uncomfortable. Coupled with her inner plan to find a job as a dormitory manager, it can be said that her motivation for giving gifts to the principal is not as simple as her son's academic performance, but to make it easier for her to take care of her son and find a job of her own in the school.

Wait for work with ease, and take a two-pronged approach.

It is not only good for his son to go to school, but also smug for the family to fight for a share of income.

However, the job that comes through the back door is afraid of being laughed at. Therefore, Li Xiangyi was extremely ashamed and obscene in her heart.

"Oh, don't, don't, since you're here for me, there's something you need me to help with, right? Then please come in and say, it's Sunday, and you're here by coincidence. You don't usually find me in the office. Lucky for you, it just so happens that I'm on duty today. "When the principal heard that he was looking for him, he was a little surprised! He warmly invited Li Xiangyi to his office.

When she sat down, the headmaster turned around and closed the door, as if he was afraid of being discovered.

When Li Xiangyi heard it, today was Sunday, and it just so happened that no one saw it. Otherwise, if she enters the principal's office in broad daylight with something in her hands, it will inevitably cause inconvenience to the principal, and she will feel uneasy about her inconsiderate behavior. Now, it seems, there is no need for such fears.

So, she picked up the black horse clip bag that had just been placed at the door of the principal's office, took out the soft Chinese from it, and put it on the principal's desk. "Headmaster, I'm a man, I'm not at home, I'm alone inside and outside the house with two children. The big one, in the third year of junior high school, next year's high school entrance examination.

The youngest one is only 5 years old and is placed in a nursery. It turned out that I worked in a supermarket, and RT-Mart was too far away from the school. Also, our family lives less than two kilometers from your school. So, I would like to ask you to find a job in the school. As long as I can take care of the children and take care of the family, I am willing to do anything. 、

As for the cigarettes, his father brought them back from Shenzhen. This bar was given by a relative, and no one in our family drank it. A small gift, not a tribute, I hope you don't dislike it. As for things at work, you don't have a mental burden if you don't succeed, it's all a matter of the way, it's not important, it's really not important, hehe! It stands to reason that our men should come and ask you for help.

No, he only comes back once a year. Anyway, there was an opportunity, and when I came back at the end of the year, I asked him to invite the principal to our house. Hey, I mean, you, if you enjoy the light! I know you're busy, and besides, people like us don't necessarily have to invite you, Principal, right? Hey hey ......"

Li Xiangyi tried her best to keep herself calm as a mature woman, what water meter account opening, electricity meter installation, gas meter recharge, she ran around alone, and never delayed other people's errands because her man was not at home.

The son held a parent-teacher conference, and the nursery did parent-child interaction, and Li Xiangyi never fell behind. Alas, it's embarrassing for her! ......。