Chapter 40: I'm willing to be a stepping stone under your feet
I patted him on the back soothingly, telling him over and over again, "Don't be afraid, I'm always there." ”
Shen Ci'an hugged me tightly, his body trembling uncontrollably, "Chuchu, don't jump, I was wrong, I'm sorry, don't leave me." ”
He was a little incoherent now, and I could only use the utmost patience to reassure him and respond to him whatever he said.
Without delving into his inexplicable words, the Ferris wheel had landed, Shen Ci'an was still trembling, and I gently stroked his shoulder, "Don't be afraid, we're already below." ”
"I'm sorry, I didn't know you were afraid of heights." I bought him a bottle of water and was a little depressed.
I don't seem to know Shen Ci'an at all, from our way of getting along, I always enjoy the love he gives me with peace of mind, and almost all my difficulties depend on him.
And the love and affection I give him is extremely low.
But how do you love him?
I haven't seriously enjoyed a relationship, and all my love experiences are learned from TV series and novels.
They have always preached that the man is unconditionally giving to the woman, but they don't tell me how to respond.
Love is not a TV series and a novel, our story is written by our own hands.
Shen Ci calmed down for a long time, and finally came back to his senses, raised his hand to wipe away the tears that flashed out of the corners of my eyes, and his gentle voice trembled a little, "Chuchu, don't blame yourself, I thought my fear of heights had been cured." ”
I hugged him, my voice mixed with a nasal voice, "Shen Ci'an, I really love you, but I don't know how to express it." ”
My love is only words, I can't do actual actions to cooperate with him, there seems to be no problem between us, no money pressure, no wandering of a third party but his love is too full, so I have an illusion that there is no love between us, I just rely on all of him unilaterally.
Shen Ci'an sighed, "Chu Chu, I understand your love, and I also understand the entanglement in your heart, but Chu Chu, don't take me too seriously, don't look down on yourself too much." ”
"Love is to overcome all difficulties, still firmly hold each other's hands, I am willing to be a stepping stone on your way forward, everything you are now, you are coming out step by step, I have never helped you."
"If I want your support, I can remove all the difficulties and put you in an environment that I have planned for you to grow up." Shen Ci settled down for a moment, "But at the beginning, I can't do this, you will always be you, and your ability, dignity, etc. can't be denied because of our feelings." ”
"At the beginning, you are free, not to wear heavy shackles because of our feelings, how I love you is my business, you don't need to respond equally."
I hugged his waist tightly, my head drooping on his shoulder, "Shen Ci'an, your shell is too heavy, I can't see the real you." ”
My insecurity came from a sense of unfamiliarity with him.
He was very careful with our affection, and he did it too perfectly, so perfect that I didn't think he was worthy of his love.
A proud son of heaven like him should not stay for such a dilapidated and useless person.
He told me not to be presumptuous, but I didn't really see any sparkle in me.
Shen Ci patted my back comfortingly, "Get up, isn't it a date?" Why do you always cry and cry. ”
Because of the fear of heights, the emotions of the two people were affected, I went to the bathroom to tidy up firmly, and as soon as I went out, I ran into Xue Hongsheng, who seemed to be waiting for someone.
I didn't want to go up and talk, partly because his first impression was a bit shadowy, and partly because I had already left the studio and didn't want to have too much contact.
"Senior Sister Song, what a coincidence." Xue Hongsheng spotted me first and walked towards me with a smile to say hello.
I tugged at the corners of my mouth and nodded slightly, as if I agreed, "It's really a coincidence, are you also accompanying your girlfriend?" ”
Xue Hongsheng paused, and quickly nodded with a smile, "Taking advantage of the fact that there are few people in the amusement park now, and both of them have time, come over to relax and relax." ”
"How's the new job? In fact, you can enjoy a few more years of college, and there is no need to make yourself so tired. He advised, "Listen to the teacher, the studio still has your place, and it is okay to settle down for a few more years and come back." ”
I shook my head, "There are some things that I can't decide, thank you, brother, you and your sister-in-law had a good time, I'm leaving, otherwise my boyfriend will be in a hurry." ”
"Are you still with Shen Ci'an?"
His question was inexplicable, and I straightened up and said very seriously, "He's my boyfriend, and so is the future." ”
Xue Hongsheng gave me a serious expression and explained, "I'm sorry, I thought ......, forget it, kindly remind you, it's better to stay away from him as soon as possible, otherwise the final price will be no less than three years ago." ”
I narrowed my eyes and looked at him, "Who the hell are you?" Know what? ”
"Chuchu, what are you talking about with Xue Gongzi? So long. Shen Ci'an suddenly walked from behind, subconsciously took my hand, and swept over Xue Hongsheng with murderous intent in his smiling expression.
"Do you know Shi?" I blinked, and my mind was a little confused again.
I tapped my head, silently thinking in my heart, I can't be affected by Xue Hongsheng's headless words. The sense of security that Shen Ci'an gave me was very sufficient, and I couldn't think nonsense.
"Xue Gongzi is Zhou Linyan's cousin, and there is a bit of intersection in the business field, which can be regarded as acquaintance." Shen Ci'an explained lightly, shaking out Xue Hongsheng's identity that he had been hiding.
Unexpectedly, there is not only Lin Qingxuan as an eldest lady in the studio, but also a rich second generation, sure enough, they are experiencing life, and she is the biggest joke.
Joining the studio was to fall into the trap of Zhou Linyan, and she was thankful at the time, thinking that she, a thousand-mile horse, had finally met Bole, who appreciated her.
Xue Hongsheng glanced at Shen Ci'an deeply, and looked at me with a little apology, "I didn't want to deliberately hide it......"
"Are you hiding that my girlfriend doesn't care, if Xue Gongzi is fine, we will leave first."
After finishing speaking, he pulled me to turn around and leave, and vaguely heard Xue Hongsheng say softly, "Cinderella's fairy tale can't be reflected in reality, you should think about what you said just now, and stop the loss in time, it's not too late." ”
I pursed my lips and shook Shen Ci'an's warm big hand vigorously, giving a firm thought to my messy and retreating heart.
I believe that Shen Ci'an will never disturb his mind because of a few words from the enemy.
After walking for a long time, Shen Ci'an stopped, "He told you again that we are not suitable?" ”
I nodded and said truthfully, "He said that you approached me for another purpose, telling me to stop the loss in time and leave you as soon as possible." I could clearly see the panic in Shen Ci'an's eyes.
As soon as the words changed, I said word by word in a firm tone, "But Shen Ci'an, I believe in you, I believe in your love, and I believe in your personality." ”