My pupils shrank, my teeth trembled, and my hoarse voice had a cry of fear, "Shen Ci'an, let's talk well, I'm afraid of you like this." ”

He couldn't hear my whimpering anymore, and bit the corner of my lip, the smell of blood spreading across the tips of their tongues, and he gasped for breath, the corners of his eyes reddened.

"Shen Ci'an!" I shouted angrily, tugging at the clothes he had torn, tears and sweat sticking on my face, and Shen Ci'an tore away the hand that was protecting my chest.

"At the beginning of the year, we got married, and you are now my wife, are you guarding Zhou Linyan like a jade now?" He asked, sneering.

I hurriedly reassured, "I didn't, Shen Ci'an, you calm down, it's okay to calm down." ”

There is no anger just now, only grievance and fear.

At the beginning, I went to Zhou Linyan's company to be his assistant because he asked me to go, and I couldn't escape, and I couldn't change it.

I have just confirmed the news that Zhou Linyan suddenly suffered from a terminal illness, and I think very clearly, Zhou Linyan's illness has nothing to do with me, and I don't need to blame myself for his illness.

Who knew that Shen Ci'an suddenly broke out again, but it confused her, and now she is humiliated by this rod for no reason.

"Shen Ci'an, marital rape is also rape." This is already my last cruel word.

Shen Ci'an was stunned, fell on top of me and cried, his voice choked, "Chuchu, I'm sorry, I'm just afraid, I'm afraid that you will be soft-hearted for a while, for the sake of Zhou Linyan's illness, forgive him for what he did three years ago, and return to his arms." ”

talked about his grievances, but reminded me over and over again of the harm that Zhou Linyan did to me three years ago.

I felt the anger on his body gradually disappear, and raised my hand to stroke his head, "Shen Ci'an, why worry about something you don't have?" No matter how you think about it, Zhou Linyan and I are absolutely impossible. ”

"I'm not a person who forgets the pain of his scars, Zhou Linyan indirectly killed my father, although the bad guys have been ambushed now, but they can't change the disasters caused by him back then."

"His illness has nothing to do with me, and I will not change my attitude towards him because of his illness and be with him through my father's life. You should understand that I will never speak to someone who hurts me and my family, even if he dies in front of me. ”

I whispered softly, reassuring my thoughts, and the head buried in my neck slowly lifted up to meet his deep eyes.

"Even if there is a grievance, will you never forgive?" He asked.

I thought he was talking about Zhou Linyan, and replied very firmly, "Absolutely not." ”

"Even if that person were me, would I never forgive?" He muttered softly, but his eyes were fixed on my dodgy eyes.

I tilted my head, "So have you done anything to hurt me?" ”

He was stunned for a moment, then leaned down and kissed me on the lips, "No." ”

The voice was so light that it was almost inaudible, I didn't have the heart to think about it, and patted him on the back, "No, that's right, I promised you, I will be with you for the rest of my life, and I will keep my promise unless you don't want me, I won't leave you." ”

Shen Ci'an's expression gradually recovered, "Okay, Chuchu, remember the current words, don't leave me for the rest of your life." ”

We gradually adjusted our emotions and washed away the sticky sweat and dampness on our bodies, and the two of us were still not as natural as usual because of what happened just now.

Lying on the bed, Shen Ci'an took me into his arms again in the dark night, and the warm breath spread on the back of my neck.

My whole body stiffened, and I shook my body slightly to break free from the uncomfortable hug.

Obviously, I used to sleep like this hug, why do I always want to escape from this embrace recently, I am always irritable in my heart, and I feel that this embrace is suffocating.

Especially after nightmares at night, I resist his arms even more, and sometimes I will sleep with him separately, otherwise I can't sleep.

After every nightmare, Shen Ci'an always hung his head and reluctantly changed rooms to sleep, and the next day I would find the ashtray in the living room full of cigarette butts, knowing that he hadn't slept all night.

I also persuaded him that he would sleep and I would sleep in another place, but he disagreed, saying that even if I slept in another room, he would not be able to sleep.

Every time, I promised not to smoke, and I still found a lot of cigarette butts the next day.

Especially recently, the frequency of that nightmare has become more frequent.

"At the beginning, don't move, I can't guarantee that I can do anything if I move again." Shen Ci'an warned softly, the magnetic lazy voice, the chaotic heartbeat, and the increasingly high temperature inside the quilt.

"I'm uncomfortable." I took his hand, "Shen Ci'an, can you let me go first." ”

I can't sleep tonight, it should be because we quarreled, and my body mechanism has not accepted our current state of reconciliation, so I will resist.

Psychologically, it is said that my body has not yet received my emotions now.

"Chuchu, don't move!" Shen Ci'an breathed slightly, and his voice trembled slightly.

I suddenly felt a hard object on my lower back, and I felt uncomfortable, "Shen Ci'an, what are you loading?" I feel uncomfortable at the top. ”

As soon as I said that, I suddenly realized that something was wrong, Shen Ci'an clasped my hand, clasped his fingers tightly, and hugged me tightly in his arms.

"Don't be afraid, I don't move you, I just want to hug you, just hug you." He held me with more force, eager to sink my body into his arms.

In addition to the obstructive hard object, there was also a suffocating embrace, and I could clearly feel his breathing and panting.

Suddenly, my ears were wet, and my hairs lifted in an instant, and I exhaled softly, "Shen Ci'an!" ”

Shen Ci'an came back to his senses, let go of his embrace, turned over and sat up, "You go to sleep first, I'll take a bath." ”

Afraid of disturbing my sleep, he went to the guest bedroom to wash, I waited for a long time and didn't see him come back, my brain fell asleep in a daze, I felt the cool air next to me in a daze, and guessed that he should be back.

That nightmare went back to sleep again.

I happily prepared for my wedding with Shen Ci'an, fantasizing about everything after we got married, just when we were about to get married, Zhou Linyan and Su Qingke appeared.

They accuse her of not deserving of happiness, Xiao San should be plunged into the abyss, and I am not worthy of Shen Ci'an.

Everyone around me, my mother, Jiang Shuyue, and Shen Ci'an, looked at the photo of me being maliciously slandered and scolded me for being shameless, saying that I was ashamed.

My explanations over and over again seemed to be weak, and they left me one by one, saying that they were ashamed of me, that their deaths were all because of me, and that I was a broom star, and as soon as I got close to people, disasters continued.

I still care about being calculated and framed three years ago, or I still hope that someone will believe in me, and I hope that someone can always stand firmly by my side.