It's hard to say, after all, my sister has been dead for so many years, maybe Gu Shijian has already put her down in his heart.

It's not that Gu Shijian is ruthless, or that he is cold by nature, but that the deceased is gone, and the living still need to be strong, and Baili Changfeng also knows that he was once full of despair about life, not necessarily because of the heinous crimes he committed after he became a demon, including his sister.

Although Baili Changfeng has long hoped that he can see all this one day, he also hopes that he can live a normal life. After all, from the moment her sister Baili Huanglan passed away, the fate between them was over.

But when he thought that Gu Shijian had really let go of all this, he felt a little bad in his heart, and even he didn't know why he had such thoughts. Originally, he should have been happy for Gu Shijian, after all, his life was also full of hardships, and he had tasted all the sourness, bitterness and bitterness in the world, but at this moment he was not happy at all.

"Is it because he slaughtered so many innocent people that he thinks he is hateful?, or is it because if he lets go of his sister at this moment, he will feel that he is not loyal enough to his sister's feelings?"

Baili Changfeng asked himself more than once in his heart, but he never got the answer he wanted, but he was very conflicted in his heart.

This is often the case with people, or in other words, people themselves are a combination of contradictions. When you see the miserable life of the people around you, you will pity them and hope that they can live smoothly, but once you feel that the people around you are living more nourishing than yourself, it is difficult to sincerely bless them, and I don't know if it is because of envy or jealousy.

There is probably envy and jealousy, but it is more likely to be because of inner selfishness, right? No one is perfect, everyone is selfish, but the degree of selfishness is different. Some people are selfish and tactful, while others are selfish to the point of not pulling out a dime.

Gu Shijian was unmoved, as if he had long been accustomed to his extremely ugly appearance, shook his head bitterly, and squeezed out a self-deprecating smile, "I have never hated you, not to mention what qualifications do I have to hate you?"

He glanced up at the dense red candles on the narrow staircase, his eyes suddenly became a little blurred, his expression slowly calmed down, and the whole person instantly became the same as before.

"For the sake of Huang Lan, you did not hesitate to scatter all your family wealth and traveled all over the country to seek medical advice, but I did nothing, just waited like a fool for the day when we fulfilled our vows, what qualifications do I have?

"Even if you did a lot of effort to arrest me, a brutal murderer, and provided a lot of convenience for the major forces in the rivers and lakes, so what? Isn't this what a martial arts person should do? Why should I hate you?"

At this moment, it seems to have seen the days when I snuggled up with Baili Huanglan and admired the moon at night, flickering candlelight, bright like the charming and moving stars in the silent night sky.

They are so bright and bright, they are so intimate.

Baili Changfeng suddenly stagnated, it turned out that he was wrong to blame him, it turned out that his sister had always been in his heart, and he had never forgotten it for a moment, and he had never had any resentment towards himself in his heart.

It can be seen from his words and deeds that what he said was from the bottom of his heart, and there was no moisture mixed in. If a person lies against his will, no matter how well he hides it, there will always be a flaw in his expression.

But Baili Changfeng didn't see anything wrong in Gu Shijian's expression and demeanor, when he said these words, it was so natural, naturally like a person talking to himself. Hundred miles of wind can see that this is the truest thought in Gu Shijian's heart, as a medical master who has been galloping in the medical path for decades, how vicious his vision is, he still has this confidence.

At this moment, he suddenly felt that the unrecognizable old man in front of him was so pitiful. At least he is much more pitiful than himself, and he at least knows what the scenery outside is like, and when he misses his sister, he can run to her lonely grave alone to complain.

And he? He has been in this dark place for decades, his eyes are still bright, but they are nothing, he never sees the scenery outside the window, and he may have forgotten what it was like outside, right?

After a pause, Gu Shijian continued: "If you want to say hate, I have and indeed had, I hated Zuotong's group of hypocrites, hated them for making me an executioner who was spurned by the Jianghu martial arts, hated them for making me a bloodthirsty person who killed innocents indiscriminately." ”

"I also hate myself, I hate myself for not being able to save Huang Lan's life, I hate myself for being so stupid that I was plotted against without knowing it, and I hate myself for letting so many innocent people die in vain. ”

Speaking of this, he suddenly took a deep breath, "But, that was all in the past, and now, I can't hate these anymore." ”

From beginning to end, his tone was calm, with hardly a hint of turbulence except for the last sentence. But his eyes never left the candlelight of the stars climbing the rocks.

Baili Changfeng opened his mouth, but he didn't say a word, he suddenly didn't know how to speak, where to speak.

The old monk stood on the left side of Baili Changfeng, looking at Gu Shijian who was sitting on the colorful lotus platform in front of him with a complicated expression, his eyes were full of tenderness, looking at Gu Shijian who was stunned by the candlelight, and sighed: "The previous thing, since it has passed, let it pass, Shijian, you are so sad, you may have thought, is this what Sister Huanglan wants to see?"

He has no rosary beads in his hand, no Buddha string on his body, some are just a shabby monk's robe, if he is placed in the rivers and lakes, perhaps no one will think that he is a monk, because he is bald, wearing a shabby monk's robe, there is no monk's characteristics on his body, even the most obvious scar on the head of other monks, he has no one.

However, he is indeed a monk, and it was Master Zhiyong of Shaolin who personally shaved his degree, but he was not a monk from Shaolin when he was a child, but a monk who became a monk halfway.

When he was young, he was the best friend of Baili Changfeng and Gu Shijian, commonly known as Yuan Sheng. Since the incident of fighting Baili Huanglan and Gu Shijian, he has also been confused for a long time, originally a few of them had made an appointment to hold the sword together, happy and revenge. However, after the death of Baili Huanglan, Baili Changfeng suddenly became the new mountain master of the Soul Snatcher Mountain, and Gu Shijian also inexplicably destroyed the seven powerful forces in the rivers and lakes, and became the object of hatred and hatred of the entire rivers and lakes.

This series of events hit him very hard, Baili Huanglan was like his own sister to him, her death made Yuan Sheng sad, but what made him sad the most was what Gu Shijian did. Although he didn't know what happened to Gu Shijian at the beginning, his cruel methods that he didn't even let go of the old and weak women and children let him know that Gu Shijian had changed, and he was no longer the Gu Shijian he knew before.

But he always thought that the reason why Gu Shijian would become such a villain who did all kinds of evil was because of the death of Baili Huanglan and the fact that he suffered too much blow.

After being confused for a long time, he resolutely chose a path, a path of redemption, and a path of purity.

Unlike Baili Changfeng and Gu Shijian, his path was his own choice after careful consideration, rather than being forced to choose the path he would take in the future like the two of them.