Even if I had a different solution, I wouldn't have been the same as I am now.

Looking at my father's face with a little vicissitudes of life, I also sighed in my heart

As a daughter, I always thought that I should be filial to them.

However, today's social concept and family situation really make me a little unbearable.

I've even asked myself countless times, what the hell have you been thinking about after all these years?

Many people may think that only after they have money can they be filial to their parents and take their parents to see the most beautiful scenery in the world.

But from my point of view, I have never thought about it that way, there is a good saying, filial piety in time is more important than anything else.

But I understand the meaning of this sentence, but I have never honored them according to such a will.

I used to think that if I wanted to start a family in the future, I would have to be by their side.

So when I was looking for a boyfriend, I found a place close to home.

But for so many years, I have lived with them in this kind of life of less gathering and more separation.

Today, it was also because I drank a little wine with my father that I recalled that scene again.

Whenever I think about this, I feel that God should be the fairest to everyone.

It's just that it makes me a little different from others.

There was even a moment when I wondered if if I had been braver at that time, would my life have changed dramatically today?

But some things are irretrievable now that they are in the past.

Father, when he saw my expression, he knew that I was also very wronged at this moment.

"Child, I also know what kind of thoughts you have now, your father has changed from a young guy to an old man now"

But I have never diminished this debt to you.

"When the doctor asked me if I wanted to have a cesarean section, I really didn't know what to do, such a decision"

You also know that in such an era, not everyone can do a particularly perfect operation like the following major surgery.

"If something really goes wrong, I only have one idea at the time, and I will definitely lose both money and money."

Whenever I tell you such a paragraph, in fact, I have an indescribable guilt in my heart for you.

"As a father, I really didn't give you a good body, otherwise you would have already soared by now"

But that's all that, everything that went wrong was wrong.

"Seeing your current situation, in fact, I have always wanted to say sorry to you"

Whenever I heard my father say something like this to me, I always felt that I didn't need to say that to me at all.

Shouldn't everyone go through some tests when they come into this world?

Although life is a little unsatisfactory now, as long as it is through my own efforts in the future, I will achieve all my goals sooner or later.

For my father, I actually admired him very much from the beginning.

Although I was fostered by my parents at my grandmother's house when I was very young, this family relationship that is thicker than water will never be severed.

In my heart, my father was like a hero.

Although he didn't live a rich life before, and now he is not much better, this man has spent his whole life interpreting what a real man is.

As his daughter, even I felt a hint of pride.

Whenever he told me a story like this, I always felt that God was fair to me.

Although it closed a door for me, it also opened a window for me.

Even though it's a little difficult to move now, I'm at least able to support myself.

For my parents' previous misunderstanding, they have already run away.

When I was married to my husband, I didn't realize what it means to be a real woman.

Ever since I had a baby, I feel that my mom has done so much for me.

If this woman hadn't insisted like this at that time, maybe there would never be a person like me in this world.

But to this day I would also like to ask my father a question.

"Dad, you always tell me such a story, of course, I am also extremely sad to listen to it"

But I've never held a grudge against any of you, and maybe that's what happened to me.

"I'm not doing well now, and my sons are so old, I believe that this person will bring a lot of fun to my life when he grows up."

"Say the most heartfelt words, I have long wanted to ask you a very extreme question"

When the doctor asked you if you wanted to protect the adults or the children, didn't you think about how I felt?

"In my inner world, I think you have always been a great father"

Even when we were very young, we didn't live together, but since I started a family, I realized that it is not easy to be a man.

"The life you have given me over the years, I think I am the happiest child in this world"

Even though I didn't live as rich as I do now, I never thought I would be missing anything.

"I still remember when I was a child, no matter what I wanted, you never flinched, even if you had no money in your pocket, you would give me some gifts according to my will"

I am such a good person, how can I say such words at such a critical juncture?

"Of course, I'm definitely not complaining about you in this question, I think if this were someone else, maybe I would definitely choose a child."

My father suddenly became serious at this moment, maybe in his inner world, whenever he encountered this kind of problem, his heart was particularly painful.

If it weren't for such a thing, this man would never have made such a decision in his life.

Today, it was also because I drank some wine, and there is a very good saying, called wine strengthens bear gall, so I asked such a question.

Looking at my father's face that slowly disappeared from his smile, I knew that this man must have made unimaginable efforts when making such a decision.

"Kid, every time I hear your question, I suddenly go back to the way I was thirty years ago."

I never thought you would be able to think about it at this point in time.

"Now that I'm a mother of a child, you should know that I was going to have a kind of pain like a knife in my heart at that time, right?"

The reason why I made that decision at the time was because I thought that even if I kept you, if your mother was not in this world, what would I do to support you?

"But I want you to promise that if the doctor told me that adults and children could be saved, I could just kneel for him, it doesn't matter."

When I heard my father's answer, I burst into tears.

For so long, I have been entangled in this question in my heart, and now I finally have such an answer.

As far as I'm concerned, I don't really want to know what my father was thinking at the time.

Because I never blamed him for his choice.