Chapter 78: It's Hard to Quit
After listening to my words, Feifei looked hurt. No more openings.
We all stopped until we came to a secluded place.
"That's it. So you're avoiding me these days. Even if I send you a message, you won't reply to me, and you won't even come to school. Really?" Feifei looked at me, trying for me to give him an answer.
"No, I'm not hiding from you, I haven't looked at my phone these days because I have something going on. I explained frankly.
"Areyoukiddingme? It's suffocating, you tell me, in the classics of the century, how many college students can honestly say that they don't play on their mobile phones for a week. Feifei looked at me and said, with anger, incomprehension, and distrust in his tone.
Obviously, Feifei was not satisfied with the explanation I gave her.
"Because, I've been hospitalized during this time. I looked at Feifei and continued.
Whether Feifei or not, believe it or not, this is my explanation.
Because, from the beginning to the end, I never thought of lying to her.
After hearing my explanation, Feifei seemed a little similar.
"Hospitalized, what's wrong with you?" asked Feifei nervously, grabbing me and turning around to see what injuries I had.
"Alcoholism, stomach bleeding. I said calmly, the clarity in my eyes was so clear that I couldn't even find the information that Feifei wanted to find out in my eyes that I was lying.
In the end, Feifei went crazy.
"Are you a fucking idiot? Are you a child? Didn't you know your own body before? You actually drank until you got alcohol poisoning and went to the hospital, except for you Wang Haoyu, there is no fucking sui!" Feifei scolded and scolded, the concern in his tone was not hidden at all, the more she cared about me, the more ugly she said.
With that, Feifei turned around and angrily kicked the small stone on the side of the road.
"Don't be angry with other people's stones, the stones say they hurt. I looked at such a childish Feifei and said with a smile.
Seeing that I smiled at her for the first time after rejecting her, Feifei was stunned and didn't come back to his senses.
Stupid, don't know how to react.
"Perhaps, I just liked your sunny smile in the first place!" Feifei said indifferently, looking at me, not afraid of my rejection again.
Sometimes, Feifei, this girl, is really, simply distressing, stubborn and helpless.
Seeing that she cared so much about herself, she felt a little guilty in her heart and a little unhappy.
Looking at such a stupid person, Feifei, I couldn't help but reach out and touch her head.
"Feifei, since I met you, you are a very interesting girl, and I have always regarded you as a friend and a sister, so after I heard you confess to me, I will be very indifferent to you, because I don't want to waste my thoughts, time and feelings on me, and finally let the two of us lose all the goodwill. I looked at Feifei and said with a look of pity, and my hand touched and rubbed her head.
"But what can I do? I didn't expect that I would like you, I have never been a person who believes in love at first sight, but I really fall in love with you at first sight, goodbye. Feifei looked at me and said, tears streaming down her eyes involuntarily.
In Feifei like this, I couldn't help but think of myself.
In fact, he and Feifei are not the same people.
I humbly like Ouyang Zhijun, and Feifei humbly likes me.
Both of us are now in the same state of being unable to ask for anything.
Therefore, I naturally know how to fly, and the sadness and helplessness at this moment.
I looked at Feifei, and my eyes seemed to be looking at myself through Feifei.
"Feifei, I understand everything you said, because everything you are experiencing now is what I am experiencing, there is nothing that cannot be overcome, and no one will be able to live again because of the lack of another person, just like the earth, without me, it will still turn, believe me, time will heal everything. I looked at Feifei and said in a serious voice.
"I told you before, I love a girl very much, I have my own girlfriend, however, last week, she died and died. I said bitterly.
I don't know why, in front of Feifei, I didn't hesitate to uncover my scars, and once again let my wounds be bloody in front of Feifei.
Hearing what I said, Feifei looked serious, covered his mouth with his hands, and looked at me, not knowing what to say.
I could only silently stretch out my hand and put it in my palm.
Suddenly, there was a warm softness in my cold palm, and I knew it was Feifei's hand.
"So, let me take her place, and I will protect you silently, okay?" Feifei said as she looked at me, her tone full of humility.
"It's not good, it's not fair to you at all, I don't want to treat you as Ouyang Zhijun, you are you, I want you to be someone's stand-in. I looked at Feifei and said with a firm expression.
"Ouyang Zhijun, her name is so good, I guess she is also a very good-looking girl, she should be very gentle, that's why you like her so much. Feifei looked at me and whispered, holding my face with both hands, with a slight fascination in his eyes.
"Yes, she is a very good-looking girl, but she is not gentle, she has been a very violent girl since she was a child, but, in my heart, she is my goddess. I said slowly, and the figure of Ouyang Zhijun repeatedly appeared in my mind.
"She's the only being in my heart, and I can't use anyone else as a stand-in for her. I looked at Feifei and said, there was no room for anything.
"All of this is voluntary because I like you, I don't care, as long as I can stay by your side, I don't want to see you suffer. Feifei looked at me and said, the firmness in his tone was no less than mine.
"Once, I always thought that I was a very attentive person, until I met you, Wang Haoyu, I didn't know what it was like to like someone. So I'm not going to give up easily. Feifei continued, wrapping my hands tightly in between.
"I know that liking someone is like being addicted to them, taking drugs from them, and it's hard to quit. I will always believe that time is the best medicine. You will definitely forget about me until you really meet, that one, the right person for you. I looked at Feifei and said, hand, pulling it out of her hand.
Feifei looked at me with a pained expression.
"So, would you rather guard someone who is already dead than try to accept me and let me stay by your side?" Feifei said in pain, clasping his hands on his chest.
"I always believe that it's hard to quit, but it's not that you can't quit, is it?" Feifei said, immersed in his own world, and couldn't listen to just a few words anymore.
"Wang Haoyu, even if you are a piece of ice. I'm going to warm you up for me, too. Like you said, you like Ouyang Zhijun, it's hard to quit, but. Time. It is the best medicine, I will always be by your side until you completely take Ouyang Zhijun. Give it to forget. Feifei looked at me and said, the vow he made for me will follow it for the rest of his life. Never live up to it.
The beautiful woman is by the side, if it was me before. There will be no hesitation. Take her into your arms, ravage her, and love her.
However. I'm not the same person I used to be.
Ouyang Zhijun planted a seed of infatuation in my body.
I looked at Feifei and shook my head, not wanting to talk to her about it anymore, so I turned around and left.
Seeing that I was about to turn away, Feifei hurriedly ran up and hugged me tightly from behind.
Feeling the sudden softness of my back, I was suddenly stunned on the spot.
I didn't expect Feifei's reaction to be so big, and he would run up and hug me all at once.
I took a deep breath and raised my hand, covering my cold hand over Feifei's warm little hand.
Those hands were so small, so soft, as if I would crush them if I tried hard.
"Feifei, do you feel the temperature of my hand? cold and piercing cold, this is my heart now, the frozen heart, this heart is full of another woman, so it can no longer accommodate other people, and this heart, with the departure of that woman, is completely frozen. I said indifferently, passing my temperature to Feifei, wanting to use my coldness to force Feifei out.