Chapter 331: It is difficult to fulfill the Fengdu covenant in this life
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From this moment on, without hesitation, he took her on the road to Fengdu together.
In the early spring, I have never seen the miscellaneous peanut trees in the south of the Yangtze River flying wildly, I can't chase the jasper to make a tree high, and I can't enjoy the peach blossoms outside the bamboo. Yes, excessive freedom is displacement, and it was he who brought her from the bright money pond to the lonely frontier.
"The sunset is infinitely good, just near dusk. I still remember that once in the gap of the battle, he was outside the camp tent watching the sunset suddenly depressed, inadvertently said this pessimism, she happened to be by his side to accompany him to watch the sky, smiled slightly and used a poem to refute him, ten words "Mo Dao Sangyu night, the light is still full of sky", immediately made his depression solved...... It's really empathetic, it's really thoughtful, and she really has to be. He felt lucky more than once, he had already said in his heart, Yunyan, you and I have lived up to it in this life, and he also found that he Lin Qian has changed, and there is gradually a person higher than one qiē in his heart, which has never been there before, in this world, there is actually her skirt that can tie him to the field.
Reluctant to let go, he can't be cruel to anyone, the only trace of warmth left in his bloody world, if there are ten wishes at the moment, ten of them want to pay for her. The thought of her leaving his side made him panic like never before. If he didn't have her, how could his life continue? Is it okay for him to be selfish once, is it okay for him to abandon him once, is it okay to let him betray once......
Finally, drowning in the middle of the noisy sea of people in Guiyang City, leaving the flames of war, they are too ordinary for no one to recognize, and gradually, they should be able to adapt to the comings and goings of this person.
Originally, he could ruthlessly abandon a qiē, but after all, he couldn't erase everything that happened to Shicai, he couldn't forget it all his life, and at the moment when he turned his back on the alliance so he fought alone but became more and more deadlocked, it was his alliance that helped him in times of crisis, supported him regardless of right or wrong, and didn't care that he owed them, but helped him escape from the troubles. Everyone, every sentence, scene by scene reappears, clear, imprinted in the heart, that is his past, he also thinks that he can go to the end from the beginning, unwavering to the end of the past, why is the ambition unrewarded, the youth is exhausted? why a road no matter how long it is, there will be an end? and why, people always have to go to the turn of the road before looking back to see their own footsteps...... But Yunyan, I don't regret it, I can harden my heart and bear all the infamy, in this life and this life, the most unbearable thing is you......
Between Yunyan's brows, there is no faint sorrow: Shengnan, if we don't have a goal in life, does it mean that we won't live to achieve the goal? However, we have done one thing after another that we had never thought of before, and we have been satisfied from it again and again...... Shengnan, now I am contradictory, but also the happiest, what I am experiencing, is something I never imagined, when the man I love, for me, I have been passed so much courage, to put aside the past, with you, into a new future...... Except to go with you, there is no luxury to ask for......
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"The worldly fire is as beautiful as a fishing fire. In the evening, Le Ma was on the bank of an unknown river on the outskirts of the city, this situation was really like returning to the Three Gorges that night to listen to the fishing boats singing at night, and as if he went to the river rafting in the Runyang area, Qian's eyes revealed the most real and purest yearning, Yunyan was slightly moved, silently looked at his side face, she knew too well, why his ears moved on the night of the Three Gorges, because he had already told her on the trip to Beigu Mountain, he longed for a simple and carefree life, coarse tea and light food, calm, she was determined to give him such a feeling from the day she followed him...... But now, when she saw the yearning in his eyes again, her heart trembled, she understood that she had done it, but Shengnan would never reach it, Yuhuo was just a world parallel to the war. He is Lin Qian, so he can't fit into this kind of life, at most he is just a bystander.
How long is the interval between day and night? Look at the people on the boats anchored on the riverside, listen to the sound of wind and sand wandering on the shore, turn back to a gray haze, and turn around to see the sunset. After a long time, when the sunset hangs over the clouds, it suddenly disappears between the arcs of the distant mountains, and the sky is dark in an instant, which is just the glory of the fishing fire. How far is the distance between the sky and the earth? The colors in the line of sight are so naturally fluctuating, as if the fishing fire is the light of the falling, forcibly left in the world to dye more and more brightly, but in the end, it cannot save the gloom of the sky.
For a moment, Qian suddenly thought, just like that, take her to hide in the fishing fire of the Three Gorges, be a guest on the river, and at this time every day, strive for half a moment of leisure to watch the dusk together...... The color should be different every day, sometimes the sunset will be pure gold, sometimes it will be as sad as tonight, depressed and half red......
"Friends passing by, come to my house to have a drink together!" "Recently on a fishing boat, at night, the atmosphere is lively and joyful, this family must not be small, follow the sound, there are more than ten people around the bow alone, the yellow hair hangs down about four generations in the same house, a few young people who talk about wine, see Shengnan and Yunyan standing on the riverside for a long time, and warmly invite them to the boat as guests. Such an invitation was really unexpected, but it was impossible for him and Yunyan to refuse.
Unconsciously, I have approached this kind of life lightly, happy, lively, although there may be poverty, there may be friction, but what is more worthy of envy in the world than relatives are all here? This life is really precious, at this moment, let the men's talk, the women's urging, the children's playing, the old people's laughter, endlessly, repeatedly...... will never get tired, because, in the next few decades, he will definitely have such a life, and Yunyan will live to the age of gray hair, and enjoy his children and grandchildren with satisfaction......
Escapism, fantasies, it's really too easy.
At this moment, he forgot the hate-drinking knife in his sheath......
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A short dinner is fleeting, and the way for the fishermen to enjoy their families is to compete in the evening. The oldest white-haired old man has exceeded the old age, but he is old and strong, and his temper is competitive, after a few rounds of competition, three generations of children and grandchildren are completely defeated, the old man feels that it is not enough fun, and even outsiders want to compete together, so he turned his head and beckoned to Shengnan: "Young man, come and compete with me to compete with me for fishing skills!"
"I'm really sorry son, my father has been used to it for decades, he doesn't compete with others for a day, and he can't sleep well for a day. The old man's son explained to Katsunan with a little embarrassment. The old man looked happy and proud, and his expression was quite cute: "Yes, yes, I am the famous king of fishing in this area!" Shengnan couldn't help but be stunned, and laughed dumbly, it turned out that every line was a river and lake: "It's really a coincidence that the old man, in fact, like you, also makes a living from fishing." It's just that he has lived in Kuizhou for a long time, and he has only recently returned to Guiyang to visit relatives. "Oh, is it true? That's great! I've never compared to the people in Kuizhou!" the old man's eyes suddenly lit up, and his tone was full of love for wanting to win.
"Childe turned out to be also fishing?" the old man's son was slightly stunned, "I see that Childe is magnificent, and Miss is gentle and demure, I thought it was...... Aristocratic family. "This son was about fifty years old, and he had obviously read countless people, and he thought he could not be mistaken. As soon as he finished speaking, more than one person nodded in agreement.
"Is Childe also a fisherman?" and one of the old man's grandsons asked him curiously, "I thought that Childe was not a chivalrous man but also a general......
"It's just a necessary thing to defend yourself when you're out there, the world is dangerous. He laughed and denied it.
"Oh, that's ......," the young man was slightly disappointed, "Hey, I really envy those chivalrous men who fight and kill, they must be very happy to come and go freely." It's not like life is so monotonous on our fishing boats. As he spoke, he looked at Qian hesitantly, half-convinced.
"Yes, I also envy those people, they are really happy to have martial arts, and they do whatever they want all the time. When Shengnan said this, he suddenly felt a little sad, why is the reality not like this.
"What kind of martial arts are you talking about, it has nothing to do with us, come and come, compete with me!" The old man hurriedly came over and pulled Shengnan over.
Is it, Jianghu Wulin, it has nothing to do with you Lin Qian? Whoever you tell it, no one will believe it. Now, not far from my eyes, you are pretending to be a fisherman, in the future, do you really want to retreat to the mountains and forests, or to the countryside...... Yunyan didn't dare to shed tears, she couldn't shed tears, she knew that at this moment he was working hard and resolutely betraying his past, she couldn't object or question, she could only support it, but the male farmer and the female weaver were too far away, and the southern expedition and the northern expedition were real. He Linqian, if he wants a hundred years of bloody rain, he can't lack a moment on the battlefield.
She knows that he is looking forward to the life he is now, but he is destined to only be able to participate in this ordinary at this moment, because with the supreme position, he must have his responsibility, and he must give up the blandness he pursues, so she will accompany him to enjoy the last bland happiness in this life for a moment, she really understands that this man has worked hard for her, but he must not belong to her. His heart could not deceive himself, and his tone betrayed his heart. All her courage was shattered when she saw him resolutely disobedient.
"Awesome, son, grandpa, he has never been chased so closely!" The old man's granddaughter fully believed that Shengnan was a fisherman at the moment, and while speaking in an admiring tone, she took Yunyan's hand and led her forward: "Hurry up and cheer for your father-in-law, let him surpass grandpa, don't let grandpa continue to be proud, no one in his eyes!"
She knew what his smile at her meant when he looked back, and he sued her, this was his first opponent outside the rivers and lakes, although he was just an ordinary old fisherman, but he was suing her, he could do this step for her, the next step, the last step...... She originally wanted to continue to laugh and encourage him, but her tears were involuntarily bitter, and she should indeed encourage him as his wife, but how could she indulge herself to encourage him with the purpose of hurting him...... For the first time, he and her heart did not think to go together. He saw the sadness on her face, and suddenly her face changed, but she immediately stopped it and walked to his side: "I just remembered that when I first met you, I was also on the boat, and it was also raining, which is very familiar...... I sighed for a while......"
"Yunyan, I suddenly want to listen to your flute. He knew that he couldn't wipe away her tears, and he suddenly hated that he and Yunyan could always guess each other's thoughts. Will this road to Fengdu stop here? She will be determined to leave him for his sake, just because she can't take away his future, she has seen his life with her own eyes, so she feels that she can't selfishly occupy his life, pull him away from the rivers and lakes and involve him in another situation. And he, why didn't he want to give her up for her? Just today, every battle between Jiang Zhongzi and Jingkou Wutai is repeatedly emphasizing the danger that he can't escape, and he left with Yunyan but she was injured by accommodating him, his only way is to do Lin Qian for her, but doing so will make her more guilty and blame herself, and she has one more crime......
However, I don't want to debunk each other's wavering thoughts, so let's go as far as we can, until we finally arrive in Fengdu, and no one can turn back......
The rain has a tendency to get bigger, a foggy cold, sprinkled into the distant sky, the jade flute blows, the melody quietly slides out far away, no matter how bad the environment is, I feel warm when I listen to it, in my ears, if it has been so tactful and melodious, elegant and stable, how good it should be, but I don't know when, it will become unprecedented, It should not be high-pitched and passionate, the cold wind blows through her clothes fluttering and her sideburns are messy, but the sound of the flute is endlessly magnificent, this should be the spirit that a man should have, and the bloody nature that the eyebrows should have, is actually shown from such a gentle and delicate and beautiful weak woman, let these outsiders, listen to this excitement can be aroused by the generous war thoughts, almost want to play and sing this tragic and magnificent, there is a battle in the flute, a song, the sword is like a rainbow, the enemy should be self-defeating, return with feathers, and collapse into an army! But her enemy is actually her, a man who controls the world, and he should not have sealed his sword, and he should not have gone against his heart......
Yunyan, Yunyan, it turns out that you are persuading me to return to the battlefield, in your flute, it is actually my soul and my chase, my blood, and I, I no longer hold a knife in my hand at the moment, fishing should be calm and refreshed.
song fishing. Xiao Zhongqing xù belongs to the angler, but the angler is the only blowjobman.
There will never be anyone in the world who is worthy of his cherishing like this, this unique woman by his side, when he is upset and irritable, quietly blows the flute and sings elegantly, when he turns his back on his mission, the more she persuades him not to forget the battlefield, the more he wants to force himself to hold on.
"Don't blow it like that...... The fish are scared away!" except for the childlike old man, everyone on the boat was already immersed in the sound of the flute.
"Yunyan, don't feel guilty, don't care about others, leave overnight today. After all, he didn't want to stay here, ignore more distractions, and make decisions for her in a categorical way. Make up your mind and leave now.
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It's a pity that the hero is unparalleled, how can he be melancholy against this red face.
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It was a lonely late night, and it was stormy outside the inn. I rushed to this point overnight, because I knew that her mind had been shaken, so I held her tightly all the way and refused to let go. At this time, people must be asleep, and the so-called dreams always appear in the darkest time......
When she was preoccupied, looking at the steep starry sky and the sneaky rain from the railing, he knew that she was crying, he pressed her shoulder and whispered to her, he really wanted to take her on the walk, break these shoes, and walk through the night, but he would be with him without parting!
"Katsunam...... Shengnan, no matter what, I'm always sorry......" She turned around and burst into tears, he was still here, people and hearts were here, smiling, taking her into his arms, the firmness she lacked, he really gave it all to her: "Yunyan, I'm sorry these three words, I can say it to anyone, but definitely not to you." Not once. Every agreement must not be violated. Answering the question that Shen Yan asked him on a summer night a year ago, when he fell in love with Yunyan, it would have been unfair to anyone for a long time.
"No, in fact, you know the decision in my heart, just as I also know that you are ...... against your heart" She was in her arms, choking and trembling at the same time, but she did not break free from his embrace, pressed against his chest and said sorry countless times: "Shengnan, I am sorry for Shengnan in this life, I gave Shengnan an agreement in Fengdu, but I can't accompany Shengnan...... I just want Shengnan to hold me tight tonight, regard this place as Fengdu, and treat today as a lifetime. After tomorrow, forget about today......"
At that moment, he finally knew that he had lost her. Even though he could hold her in his arms, he couldn't keep her. He didn't say a word of comfort to her again, this was Yunyan's decision, and it was her best choice. Originally, he could have reversed her mind, and now that she is so vulnerable, he can completely reverse her's mind, but so what? He forcibly left her, but he hurt her family with her, he was happy, but she had to be sad, that's it, he would rather be separated from her and hurt by love.
Hold her tightly tonight, fade the rivers and lakes, forget the hatred, and let the beauty stay in the recruitment, the heart of the water shakes the heart of the stone, the moth eyebrows seal the sword eyebrows, and the orchid sells the king's spirit.
After tonight, hiding his memories to face tomorrow, he told himself that no matter what turned the world around him, all his task now was to soothe her brow when she was unhappy.
Memories are so far away, life is like a dream, they are as calm, life is like mustard, they are all drifting, life is like a play, they will continue to act......
Time cannot be precipitated, time is like waves, they rise and fall with the world, time is like sand, they are buried with the public, time is like smoke, they are scattered with heaven and earth......
The night faded away in the cold.
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Can the sky let time stop here forever, and can the sky realize how many tears it takes to leave a person?
When I opened my eyes, the next day came so quickly, hugging her tightly, ignoring the morning light outside the window, this is the beginning, not the end. Just stupid this time, thinking that if you close your eyes, the sky won't dawn.
He lied to himself, but fortunately, Yunyan is still by his side now. That will not be lost, will never be lost...... If they don't have a tomorrow together, then he's willing not to have a tomorrow......
But he knew better, and no one could stop the parting. Parting, the person who left must be more painful than the one who sent him off, so he really hoped that when she left, she would not look back. However, when he got up and went on the road again, he and Yunyan rode the horse for thousands of miles, and there was no moment like parting, his heart had never been so worried as it was today, worried about whether she would suddenly speak, worried that she would say to him so clearly, Shengnan, let's separate here, worried that she would tearfully state to him, she didn't want to leave at all. Worried, but there is still a fluke in her heart, today it is better to pass as much as possible, she forgot her decision...... Why is his heart so empty? Is it true that every smile he loves the most will never be seen again in the future......
"Shengnan, let's go separately and try to see if we can cross the mountain on both roads. At last, she stopped at the fork in the road and spoke to him softly.
"Obviously, you can go over the mountain. He was stunned for a moment, smiled and suppressed his reluctance, "I'll wait for you at the top of the mountain." ”
"Okay, I'll try not to keep Katsunan waiting too long. She turned around and smiled at him, exactly the same smile he saw when Huang Tiandang woke up.
That smile, Sheng Nan will never forget for the rest of his life, it is the happiest and happiest smile he has ever seen in his life, only quiet, no burden, no melancholy, no sorrow, stubbornness, and beauty.
At that moment, I saw her go up the mountain and turn around, and she also kicked the horse and hurried up. If you can meet at the top of the mountain, you can really take her away from the hustle and bustle of this world, wander the rivers and lakes, walk hand in hand between the world and the world, fish and shrimp and friends elk, put the white deer in the green cliff, ride to visit the famous mountain if you need to go, love and hate all abandoned, regardless of the world's insults or spit, regret or forget!
But he didn't know that he and she would not meet at the top of the mountain......
Still so stupid, still so stubborn, knowing that they would not meet at the top of the mountain, he still stayed at the top of the mountain, waiting from early morning to dusk of this day, waiting until nightfall, finally believing that she would never appear again. But he still has to deceive himself, maybe when he goes back, he will find that she is already waiting for him in the alliance, waiting for him by building bricks and houses, cooking rice and making needlework waiting for him, and waiting for him restlessly...... However, she said that she would not let him wait too long, wasn't she telling him that there was no need to wait for her, she still thought about him like that, so when she left, she pretended to leave him with such a smile, and from then on his memory will never have tears, never pain, thinking of her, the clearest thing must be this smile......
Returning to the alliance along the old road, he had nothing at all at this moment, when the loneliness of losing her was overwhelming, he suddenly remembered that he and Yin'er had once sent Yunyan back to Guiyang, Yin'er was reluctant to her, saying that she would not be able to eat without her, she obviously wanted to stay, but she sensibly asked for his opinion. He smiled and shook his head and said, "Let's go back, she shouldn't have come in the first place." When I recalled this sentence, I realized that it was difficult to fulfill the Fengdu covenant in this life. She shouldn't have come, so he loved her and should let her go. This story, which was supposed to accompany him to the end, was brought back to Lin'an by her at the middle point.
I woke up in the middle of the night, knowing that I could only meet the top of the mountain in my dream, and continued to walk down: Yunyan, without you, I will never enter Fengdu for half a step.
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In the middle of the night last night, I had a clear dream on my pillow.
Talking a lot. It is still a peach blossom face, and the willow leaf eyebrows are low.
Half ashamed and half happy, I want to go and cling.
Consciousness is a dream, and it is sad.
――I would like to sacrifice Lin Yun with Wei Zhuang's "Female Crown".
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"Yin'er, your little brother is right, if you love someone, you must envision her future for her, you can't be unscrupulous, listen to your own thoughts, but count her mood together, you can't make her smile reluctantly, and you can't let her be empty and sad when she is happy. ”
In the first few days of losing Yunyan's sister, he missed too much and couldn't sleep at night, whenever he heard the sound, he would feel that Yunyan was back, he would rush out very excitedly, but immediately stopped and returned with a gloomy expression, he didn't know what he was thinking at all, why did he think like this, the battle of Qianxi must also be dealt with by him, and it is still up to him to decide where the alliance will go, and the battle for the reincarnation sword is imminent, because he is here, so everyone has the chance to win. They all felt that Qian's endurance was really strong, and Qian's was as calm as ever in front of people. But Yin'er didn't dare to ask him deeply, why Sister Yunyan could leave him ruthlessly, she could only see Qian's alone standing in the cold wind and watching the sky and moon in the middle of the night every night, at that time, the haggard look on Qian's face exposed the endless regret and pain in Qian's heart, looking at Qian's deliberate concealment of the powerlessness when she was grief-stricken, at that moment Yin'er still felt that this was their mighty alliance king.
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