After that, because of the accelerated pace of work, we had less and less time to meet and talk.

Finally had lunch together, and she told me during the meal that she was favored by the director of the station and could host the signature program in the station, and her income was much higher than before.

I smiled and said it was you, but I didn't notice her erratic eyes, tired from working overtime.

But I did feel uneasy, there seemed to be a gap between me and her that I didn't have before, and I didn't have the time and energy to cross it now.

Time went on, and we began to become like strangers, inexplicably polite when we met, even if we were lying in bed together, with our backs to each other, and no one wanted to say a word more.

Obviously, we have never had a quarrel, and even if there is a dispute, one side will always give in quickly, which is a tacit understanding between us.

But this time there was no argument, not even words, and we drifted apart.

"Do you have time to come out and meet today?"

"Well, I don't have any projects today, but don't you still have a job?"

"I'm on leave. ”

"Your leader is actually willing to give you a well-known anchor vacation?

"It won't take much time, shall we meet?"

"Good ......"

It's a transcript of that day's chat, which I still keep, and at that time I already had a feeling that something was going to happen.

Sure enough, I made an appointment with her to meet her in front of a fancy restaurant in the city, and when I arrived, she was already waiting for me.

I jokingly asked her if she had given out the bonus.

She just smiled awkwardly but didn't answer, and then she led me to the reserved seat, where someone was already sitting.

I thought that someone was occupying a position that he shouldn't have, but Ru Yan introduced to me: "He is our director and has always taken care of my seniors." ”

"Haha! This is the virtuous brother, right?"

This man, who looked ten years younger than my father, wore quaint gold-rimmed glasses, and had an elegant and easy-going demeanor on his body, got up with a smile and grabbed my hand.

"What a talent!"

"I am also a great name who has admired my predecessors for a long time, thank you for taking care of Ru Yan over the years. ”

I didn't actually remember this man's name, and I don't think I really had any overt "talent", all of which were just false politeness.

Ru Yan was a little nervous, she said, "The dishes are ready, sit down and eat!"

"Good!"

We agreed, and then sat down together around the rich dishes.

But...... She didn't sit next to me as a matter of course, she sat right next to the man.

"Huh?"

I glared at them, looking at them in disbelief.

"Aren't you eating?" she asked.

"Explain, huh?" I certainly didn't have an appetite, but instead felt a feeling of nausea churning in my stomach.

"It seems that it must be ......"

The man smiled awkwardly and wanted to say something.

"I'll tell you. ”

Ru Yan interrupted him, she looked into my eyes seriously and said:

"Rujo, we ......"

"Let's get a divorce!"

This speech was like a bolt from the blue, and my thoughts became blank.

I silently listened to the open and honest words of the two people on the other side, and listened to them tell the truth of everything, but I didn't remember most of the words.

However, I still wrote down some key points, the director has a monthly income of more than 20,000 yuan, three suites and two cars at home, his wife died very early, and he never remarried, Ru Yan is very similar to his wife when he was young, so he has always cared about her, and many opportunities at work have been given to her as much as possible, so Ru Yan quickly changed from a newcomer to a signboard in Taiwan in just two years.

And he himself is in his forties, but he is still in the prime of life, with good economic conditions, no bad habits, a doctorate, and a good reputation in the workplace.

And Ru Yan originally liked mature and stable people, obviously this married man is indeed very attractive.

Experience, economy, education, the gap between me and this person is naked on paper.

Decades, not a blink of an eye. It's something I can't make up for with all my might.

Lin Ruyan is also tired, I didn't give her happiness, but I can't give this man I can't give, her family problems, with this man, it will be solved soon.

"It's a pity, but I think you should know that you two are under a lot of pressure together. ”

The man remained gentle and humble, and with a smile continued:

"You should also know that you are not suitable. ”

I looked at the man's elegant smile, and suddenly my body moved involuntarily.

"Huh!!"

The pale fist stopped in front of the man's forehead in a cold sweat, and I stopped not because I suddenly regained my senses, but because I ...... Someone stopped me.

"Stop doing stupid things, there's no point. ”

Ru Yan grabbed my arm, and the person also stood in front of this man, she looked at me with a sad look and said:

"You said you'd always respect my choice, didn't you?"

"We're both tired, it's time to let go......"

I've never seen her so sad, not even on the day of her father's accident.

The showdown between husband and wife has reached this point, and life can no longer go on.

You're right, we're all tired.

Now that she has made her choice, no matter how much I try to keep her, I will only be a clown, and the excesses will only put both parties in an embarrassing situation.

I forcibly suppressed the emotions surging in my heart, and I stared into the man's eyes and said:

"You'll treat her well, won't you?"

My eyes at this time were probably a little terrifying, and the man who looked calm also replied:

"Yes, yes. ”

"Okay, let's get divorced, I'll go back and prepare the formalities and materials now. ”

I glanced at Ru Yan and saw that she had sat back in her place, her head bowed, and she remained silent.

I'd love to slam the man in front of me on the table and beat him up, but doing so would only make things get more out of control.

And no matter what, the Ru Yan who belonged to me can't come back.

Our relationship is over.

“......”

"I wish you happiness!"

After my eyes swept over the two of them, I walked out of the restaurant like a deserter on the battlefield, with screaming bullets behind me chasing after me.

I came by taxi and I chose to squeeze the bus when I went back.

Surrounded by crowds, I became more and more lonely, there was a vacancy in my heart, and I was leaking something.

As soon as I got off the bus, I vomited against the wall before I got home, and I felt as if I was sick.

As soon as I got home, I turned off my phone, blocked everything, and fell asleep.

And on this day, Ru Yan did not go home, and she will never come back in the future.

It was for the divorce that we met a few more times, and at this time we had a tacit understanding as usual, and we all chose to do it privately and coldly.

Don't inform anyone, including each other's parents, until they're ready.

According to the process, after completing the formalities and handing over the materials, she then arranged for the people of the moving company to move the things that belonged to her according to the list that we had negotiated at home, and everything was over.

The house was a lot empty all of a sudden, perhaps because of guilt, she actually moved her wardrobe, her daily necessities, dresser... Wait for something I won't use.

And the house is still mine, and of course the loan is too.

Even so, the room was full of memories, and sometimes I woke up in bed thinking she was still clinging to my arm like a cat, waiting for me to wake her up.

As a result, when I looked back, I realized that it was just a little tight wrapped around the quilt next to me.

Her presence was as natural to me as air or water, and when she was gone, I immediately felt suffocated and thirsty.

I thought about the reason why I lost her, and finally blamed myself for the mistake and my lack of success.

It's that I'm not successful enough, I'm like a chicken coop and a grass nest here, and she's a phoenix and a swan.

The chicken coop can't keep the phoenix, and the grass nest can't keep the swan.

It's as simple as that.

As a husband who had lost his wife, I could only huddle in the toilet and cry.

I truly love her and truly wish her happiness.

Since I only feel tired and tired when I am with me, then even if I am unwilling in every way, I can only choose to let go.

But as a man, I experienced the biggest failure of my life.

I was incompetent and incompetent, weak and humble, unable to do anything but hit the wall and bleed my head.

I didn't have it, I don't care, but I do have her now, and once I lose it, my heart hurts like a knife.

She's really good, too good to be true.

It was because she was my dear that she could hurt me the deepest, stabbing me to the bottom and letting the tip of the knife penetrate my body.

But I'm not going to be crushed yet, I know it... Life still has to go on.

So I started working harder than ever, often working overtime until the last night, and even sleeping directly in the office. And that so-called "home", after losing the person who was supposed to be there, is just an artificial organic thing composed of cold reinforced concrete.

Except for the necessity of going back to wash and change clothes, I don't go back much.

After all, there was no point in going back, it would only make me think more and more clearly about her, and then let my heart suffer as if it had been pierced.

Afraid of being mentioned, I blocked all my relatives and friends except my parents in my address book, and then continued to transfer money home every month, and continued to bear the cost of the monthly mortgage, as usual, except that I never saw her again.

I got into the rhythm of a frenzied work, with heavy lifting that left me no time to think, my eyes only flickering screens, jumping code, and pitch-black keyboards, and I didn't want to look at or think about anything.

Of course, the salary still has to be discussed, and although I am working more overtime than before, the salary and bonus have not increased, so I went to the boss's office to talk to him about it under the pretext that I was going to transfer to a new project.

I went to the boss's office with simple and elegant decoration, and saw the boss sitting under a plaque with the words "honesty and trustworthiness" looking at the stock market on his mobile phone.

Seeing me come in with a folder, the boss immediately put away his phone and sat on the leather seat with his hands crossed.

The rich-looking and balding old man in front of me is my boss. Of course, although I call him the boss, in fact, he is only the head of the technical department of the subsidiary of the head office, and he must abide by the company's regulations, at least the surface work must be done well.

After completing the debriefing and stamping, I asked my boss:

"Boss, about my overtime pay ......"

"Haha, I heard about Xiao Lu's work performance. ”

The boss smiled and nodded at me, as if he was happy with me.

"So my salary?"

"Ugh..."

Faced with my question, the boss suddenly sighed.

"The company's capital turnover has been a little difficult recently, you young people have to work harder, do more performance, of course, the salary will grow. ”

"Of course, Xiao Lu, you are hard-working, I am very optimistic about you. What are the young people like nowadays? I can't stand it, and if I don't fight hard when I'm young, aren't they all salted fish?"

"Well, you're right, then my salary ......"

"The leader of your group is going to withdraw from another unit, and this position...... Haha!"

"Oh?"

I'd like to remind him that the position of the next team leader has been announced, and the best candidate seems to be his nephew.

But I knew that even if I reminded him, he would choose another reason to continue perfunctory, after all, it was not the first time he had used this trick.

Anyway, it is impossible to raise a salary, that is, perfunctory, doing tai chi to maintain the appearance of life.

So I'd better stop being bored.

"Boss, do you seem to have bought a new car?

I wanted to change the subject, and I noticed a brand new car key that he had on top of a pile of papers on his desk, with the logo on it that happened to be someone I recognized.

"Haha! It's the new Mercedes AMG C**, and I can't help but buy it. ”

The boss smirked, suddenly realizing that I was looking at him, and added a little nervously:

"Of course, if you work hard, you'll be able to drive this car sooner or later." ”

"Boss. ”

I said plainly:

"I don't know how to drive. ”

"No, you can learn if you don't know how to drive!"

The boss may have been a little choked by my speech, and was stunned for a while before continuing to say cordially:

"You young people have the time, energy, and skills to learn, and you may be able to use them. ”

"Sorry, I didn't. ”

I retreated to the door, nodded slightly to the boss with a stiff face, and slowly closed the door.

"Farewell. ”

Since my overtime hours day and night are not recognized, the company can not give me overtime pay, so that my overtime work is actually day work.

This made me suddenly realize that I don't have to work so hard, and I am also very happy to touch the fish.

Just complete my tasks on time, take the initiative to do work outside of my salary, and I'm just working for the boss.

I've been working so hard that maybe one day my boss will drive a Lamborghini, and of course it's more likely that I'll be in the hospital before.

So I slowed down my work efficiency and work pace, and bought a small cactus potted plant online and put it on my desk, so that I could also look green.

When I don't have a boss to supervise and I don't have a nervous job, I read interesting news and even have a coffee break.

That's when I noticed that there seemed to be an intern in our department.

Actually, they had already said hello to me, but I didn't pay much attention at that time, and I didn't even look at the other party's name.

It was a girl in her early twenties, which was certainly rare in our department of male hormones.

Interns are a special kind of cheap labor. And people are begging to come, usually some high-quality college students who are willing to endure hardships, and when they encounter a slightly older regular worker, they directly go to the ground.

Of course, there should be an intern who thought he was an uncle, but at least I haven't seen it yet.

Most of the people in the department will leave work at the end of the day, and only a few will stay and work overtime, and I certainly belong to that minority.

Usually I work overtime until the end, and I am basically left alone, I will be responsible for turning off the lights and locking the door, and then just go back or simply sleep here.

In order to cope with the overnight stay in the office, I even prepared a blanket, toothbrush, toothpaste, mug, towel, nightcap, small pillow and other overnight sets.

A colleague who didn't know the reason also asked me if I had a quarrel with my wife.

"Ha, of course not. ”

How can we quarrel? We've never argued.

On my way home, I always fantasized that she would sneak back home, and once when I opened the door and found that the water was running in the bathroom and the light was still on, I immediately dropped my briefcase and ran over with a leather shoe on my foot, only to find out that I had forgotten to turn off the faucet and light when I took a shower last night.

Hawkers, it's time to get back to the topic.

I found that I had a companion in my nightlife of working overtime alone, and that was the intern girl, which is referred to here as the intern girl.

She is usually thrown into a mess of the work content thrown at her, and we veterans have to do two or three hours of work to barely finish it, and because it's programming, this thing depends on talent and experience, both of which are indispensable, but I know a little bit of C language in this line and I'm just a fledgling with no hair.

Therefore, a master who is responsible for leading in the door is necessary, and the guide who is responsible for taking her is our team leader who has just taken office, and the nephew of the boss.

He was very patient at the beginning, and the intern girl kept asking questions softly and following his instructions to operate smoothly, but once he didn't care, this little girl always had frequent bugs when she did it herself.

Well, it's all normal.

Many things are difficult to get started, and only when you get on the right path can you go with the flow.

Watching the intern girl constantly tapping on the keyboard and the gradually irritable expression of the team leader next to me, I leaned on the backrest and drank hand-ground coffee leisurely after finishing the work at hand.

Ahh

"You learn to do these tutorials slowly, and these projects for you are very basic. ”

"Uh, senior, but, but, ......"

"Alas, come on, I want to stay in this company, don't rely on my predecessors for everything. ”

The team leader gave up, and translated his words as 'you are self-reliant, and labor and management don't care', and then he looked at the table and patted his ass until the end of work.

Interns have to have a certain performance during the internship period to be able to become regular, the company's technical department of the treatment and environment is indeed good, but the company's project is the simplest and also requires a certain amount of experience to deal with it calmly.

Looking at the performance of this intern girl, it seems that it is quite enough to survive the internship period.

But for the intern girl who stared at the screen in a daze with a frustrated face, I didn't have any ideas, other people's things are other people's things, and my own affairs are all messed up, of course, I don't have time and I don't need to care.

So I continued to bury my head in my work as usual, and in addition to completing the work at hand, I would find something else to do the rest of the time, such as picking up extra money, or reading novels, comics... In short, you can come as you want.

Anyway, I thought about it: life! You don't need to achieve anything, you just need to be happy.

When I yawned and came back to my senses from my own world, I found that my intern was still sitting in her seat looking at the screen, and through the reflection on her lenses, I realized that she was watching those instructional videos, and then she was still taking notes in a notebook with a pen with a pink pendant.

I looked at my watch, looked up again, and saw that she and I were the only ones left in the huge office.

Is it so spelled?

Is it really a bit of a boldness?

My impression of the intern girl has changed, I thought she would know nothing but begging, but now it seems that she is still a little motivated.

And programming is hard work, and the person who wants to come to the technical department to enjoy the blessings must have been kicked in the brain by a donkey, I'm afraid she also wants to come here for some reason, right?

But seeing that this girl is so serious, she should soon solve the problem at hand, right?

I'm not going to be nosy either, and continue to turn my gaze to my own computer screen.

But when I came out of the world of the novel, I found that she was still in her place, tapping on the keyboard very slowly.

Uh, no... What kind of work did she have? Why was she so busy so late?