(Thanks to the reward of "maybe goodbye", Qingshan has tried to collect and write the last chapter, but someone still reported it, and I had to make some words abridged, helpless.) ）

The sound of the door closing, Cheng Mo, who was standing side by side with Shen Dao behind the hanger, finally breathed a sigh of relief, to be honest, he was already on pins and needles, and the power of desire in his brain and the power of reason formed after tomorrow formed a whirlpool in his mind.

For the first time, Cheng Mo felt how thrilling the power of desire was under the stimulation of powerful temptation, whether this power was righteous or evil, the physical and chemical joy brought by skin kissing, nerve palpitations, and capillary distension was difficult to resist.

Cheng Mo also felt once again, as Li Jiting said, the experience of other things obtained from books, audio, and video is extremely limited, and if you want to know the taste, you have to contact the truth.

Just like when he is watching various erotic movies, he can maintain a mentality of learning and research, that is because he is watching coldly through a screen, and he can naturally do it with his heart, but watching a real performance in reality, and there is a top stunner by his side who keeps challenging your bottom line, the feeling is completely different.

This is Cheng Mo's most intuitive observation of "sex" at close range, and the temptation of perceiving "sex".

Originally, he had defaulted to something like "sex", which was just the most primitive and lowest-level sensory stimulation, but at this moment he had to change his opinion. When his heart really faces the original side of this, peeling off the scrutinizing eye, he will find that "sex" is not just a simple instinct, it will generate new, more delicate, more complex, and more dangerous stimuli in various situations.

The excitement of this stimulation can be addictive......

Cheng Mo's mind turned back and forth a thousand times, forgetting to speak, and Shen Daoyi didn't seem to know how to speak, and the instrument room suddenly fell silent, falling into a subtle, awkward silence.

Seeing that Cheng Mo's expression was completely different from his usual calm and indifference, Shen Daoyi recalled the moment he held his hand just now, and his flushed face was a little bit of unknowing, a little bit of pretending to be calm, and a little bit of anticipation and longing.....

Shen Daoyi actually had some unexplained joy, and she didn't know where this emotion came from. Shen Daoyi guessed that it should come from Shen Youyi's suppressed feeling in his heart, such a conclusion made Shen Daoyi a little uncomfortable, after a while, Shen Daoyi finally couldn't help it, opened her mouth first, she sneered: "Are you still reminiscing about the good scene just now?" It turns out that men, no matter how old they are, are not pure, they are lustful people.....

Cheng Mo turned his head and glanced at Shen Daoyi, Mr. Shen's skin is really good, smooth and delicate like a boiled egg with a shell, it will even reflect in the sun, and her body is also filled with fragrance, which makes people can't help but have a desire, probably this is the purest charm of women.

This made Cheng Mo feel an unspeakable confusion in his heart, assuming that another teacher was equally good to him, would he also have this kind of admiration for the other party's good for him?

Cheng Mo didn't know, he didn't think it should be, so he said softly: "I just remembered a Japanese movie called "Sensory World", I was very surprised at how it is possible for men and women to have this most primitive sexual attraction and the most crazy sexual release between men and women, this emotion seems to me to be almost distorted and perverted - of course, the reference system of this 'distortion' and 'perversion' is the 'integrity' and 'normality' of the so-called 'civilized society'. At that time, I thought that the essence of love may be the reproductive impulse generated in a closed and monotonous environment, natural and simple, and everything else is just attached to beauty. ”

"Huh, watching a Spring Palace will produce such deep thoughts, you are really a sage!" Shen Dao said sarcastically, she thought that Cheng Mo was forcibly deepening to hide his embarrassment of lust for his teacher.

Cheng Mo was about to speak, but he heard Shen Daoyi add in a cold tone: "But to be honest, I still appreciate Abe's decision, the scene of strangling Ishida Yoshizo in the end is really happy, and the theme of the whole movie is completely sublimated, which shows that if you want to really take possession of a man, from physical to spiritual, and even the whole life, the only way to kill him with your own hands is at the peak of his happiest..... Only death ....."

Cheng Mo knew that Shen Daoyi's personality was completely different from Teacher Shen's, and even a little extreme, but he didn't expect that Shen Daoyi would advocate the power of destruction. This sentence is expressed in the two-dimensional statement: he didn't expect Shen Daoyi to be a "sick girl".

Thinking that Ishida Yoshizo was cut off by Abe Ding's spongy body in the end, Cheng Mo couldn't help but shudder, glad that Mr. Shen hadn't found a boyfriend at this time, if he did, Cheng Mo had no doubt that Shen Daoyi could do something unbelievable like Abe. For the sake of Teacher Shen's happiness and safety, he must let Shen Daoyi "disappear" no matter what......

"Sister Nan, your opinion is too selfish and selfish, I don't think love is what you understand. ”

Shen Dao smiled and turned his head to look at Cheng Mo, "Do you think that love is not selfish? Don't talk to me about love is dedication, who really wants to be a spare tire?"

Cheng Mo pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, "Let me tell you my opinion, some people think that love and sex are two sides of the same coin, or they are inseparable and mutually exclusive, the former is the spirit, and the latter is the body, but I think the role of 'love' is probably to clarify these chaotic and complex stimuli, raise "sex" to consciousness, purify it, and thus endow it with humanity and even divinity. Sex is the multiplication of sensual life, and love suppresses and coordinates sensual life, leading it to a higher level.

I believe that true love is a process of restraining one's desires.

Restrain your appetite and leave the delicious food to the other party, restrain your desire to buy and leave the expenses to the other party, restrain your desire to go out and play and leave the time to the other party, restrain your impulse to interact with other people of the opposite sex, and leave sincerity to the other party......

This kind of giving, regardless of return, is the battle of 'love' against one's own instinct all the time.

It's just that our 'love' sometimes loses to instinct....."

After a pause, Cheng Mo continued: "Of course, this kind of reward for sincere dedication and sincere response is also extremely rich, and this reward is probably what is called 'happiness'....."

Cheng Mo's words made Shen Daoyi silent for a moment, she fell into a long exam, completely forgetting that she and Cheng Mo were still standing behind the hanger, and after a minute or two, Shen Daoyi said with a sigh: "Happiness?" Then she turned her head to look at Cheng Mo, "What is that happiness?"

Cheng Mo felt that he hadn't experienced what "happiness" was yet, maybe he had a little realization at the moment when Xie Minyun kissed him, but with Xie Minyun's departure, his heart became desolate again.

If Cheng Mo is asked to make up some words, he is not unspeakably beautiful, such as being able to eat a good meal when he is hungry, such as having a warm cabin on a snowy night, such as suddenly winning a jackpot that can pay off debts while he is in debt......

But Cheng Mo didn't say this, he just shook his head, "I don't know what happiness feels like." ”

"Haha! You don't know, you're still preaching to me?Cheng Mo, you're so funny......" Shen Daoyi held Cheng Mo's arm and laughed and trembled.

Cheng Mo didn't show a different expression because of Shen Daoyi's sarcastic smile, he still said seriously: "Probably I, like you, are pursuing this kind of happiness that is easy for ordinary people to touch.....

Cheng Mo sighed, turned his head to look at Shen Daoyi with a strange smile, and said lightly: "Sister Nan, although I don't know where my happiness is, I guess for you, happiness is revenge success!"

Hearing the word "revenge", Shen Daoyi's smile stopped abruptly, "Revenge? ”

Cheng Mo took out his mobile phone and shook it, "Your next purpose, is it to ask me to post this video on the Internet after winning me?"

Shen Daoyi snorted coldly, and walked out from the right side of the hanger, when he walked out of the hanger, Shen Daoyi stopped, she didn't look back at Cheng Mo, but said coldly: "Yes, it's revenge, you also heard Huang Ren'an's bastard just say that something unpleasant happened between our family and him, and I definitely have a legitimate reason to retaliate against him...."

"Sister Nan, I know why, I am also willing to help you post this video on the Internet, so that Huang Ren'an will be ruined, I know your purpose, you not only want Huang Ren'an to pay the price, you also want Changya to be discredited....."

"Let Changya's reputation be discredited, I'm afraid you're thinking too much!" Shen Daoyi sneered as he leaned on the drum rack.

The mockery in Shen Dao's tone made Cheng Mo more sure of his judgment, and he also walked out of the long hanger with a dazzling array of clothes, " Teacher Shen, I know that you are still haunted by what happened eight years ago, your good friend Luo Jiayi was deceived by your father's protégé Huang Ren'an in the name of love and had a relationship, but after the incident, it was said that the other party tempted him, at that time your father was still the vice principal of Changya, he chose to shield Huang Ren'an for the reputation of the school, and expelled Luo Jiayi, causing Luo Jiayi to suffer from depression, and finally committed suicide by jumping off the building, and your father also wrote a book called "The Secret Tunnel" , vaguely exonerating himself, the principal Sheng Yi in the book only listened to Wang An's words, which led to this tragedy......"

"But you know very well in your heart that your father is actually very aware of the truth of the matter, but he chose to believe in the one that is good for him..... But Sister Xi is innocent, don't hurt her, don't punish yourself, okay? You didn't do anything wrong with that incident back then, you can't do anything about it.....

"It's not you who is wrong, it's this society that is ..... wrong"