Chapter 125: Yellow Springs

Feng Xi didn't know how long she had been asleep, and when she woke up again, it was already three poles of the sun.

She opened her eyes and saw that everything in the room was still gray, and there was no light in the whole room except for the dim light that came through the window.

Feng Xi's eyes were stung by the only ray of light, she couldn't help but raise her hand to block it, and finally sighed, then got up and pushed the door open.

It was a day without bright sunshine, the sky was gray, everything around was silent, the birds were not chirping, and even the rushing brook only flowed by the door in a hurry, as if it were doing something boring that I was accustomed to.

Feng Xi's body was covered with dust, and she stood at the door, not moving for a long time.

Eventually, she looked at the gray horizon, and the corners of her mouth finally pulled a comforting smile.

She believed that Shen Yan would come back, so she was here waiting for him to turn back.

After comforting himself first, Feng Xi glanced back at the dark room, and thought, starting with cleaning.

Shen has been doing this before, but now I will try her instead, if Shen Yan comes back and sees such a clean house, he will definitely praise her.

She wants to tell him with her actions that she really wants to start over with him.

Even if you don't be a demon again, even if you don't have a phoenix, you can't recover the phoenix body.

As long as she has him by her side, even if it is a short mortal life, she is willing.

The old couple in the ruined temple told her that the two people who really love each other trust each other. There is no barrier between them, even if they are in different time and space, their hearts are still together.

A person's life is very short, but being with the person you love is meaningful.

On this day, Feng Xi spent a whole day cleaning the house inside and out, and the next day, the weather was still drowsy, but she cleaned everything that should be washed, just like her feelings for Shen Yan, starting anew.

On the third day, I finally had a day of vigorous sun.

Feng Xi got up early in the morning, looking at everything in an orderly manner happily, she glanced at the sky outside the house, thinking if Shen Yan would come back today?

So she sat at the door for a day, like a little daughter-in-law who was obediently waiting for her husband to come home.

But he wanted to see through it, until the sunset fell, and Feng Xi didn't see the familiar shadow at all.

She couldn't help but be a little disappointed, but the expectation in her heart has never changed.

She won't leave here, because maybe, as soon as she leaves, Shen Yan will come back?

Then they will miss it again, and it would be better to have someone waiting in the same place.

On the fourth day, she sneaked back to Guixi Mountain to pay tribute to her old friends.

I don't know if it was specially ordered by Qing Yue, anyway, she went all the way in, unimpeded, and some people obviously saw her, but they immediately turned their heads away, as if they didn't see it.

But Feng Xi didn't care so much, it was Qing Yue's order, or not, in short, she no longer had feelings for that person.

There is no reluctance, and there is no hatred.

It's like two strangers who never know each other, and their friendship is as light as water.

On the fifth day, she looked at the recipe left by Shen Yan and wanted to learn to cook a meal, but not only did she burn her fingers out a few times, but she almost burned the kitchen.

At night, she looked helplessly at the running in her hand, poked it gently, and immediately burst into tears.

She sighed, knowing that she had experienced it herself, she realized that Shen Yan had paid so much for her.

Not to mention that as a woman, she is terrible to learn, Shen Yan is still a man.

She can finally realize now how determined Shen Yan was to practice that good cooking skills in the days when she was in a coma.

On the sixth day, she almost blew up the kitchen again, but she was a little better than the day before, at least she could make a plate of burnt dishes.

Day 7 & Day 8......

She repeated it day and night, thinking stubbornly in her heart that she didn't believe she couldn't do it.

But after repeating it for more than ten days, Feng Xi looked at the dishes in front of him that were still a little scorched and couldn't be swallowed at all, and felt helpless in an instant.

The grievances in her heart seemed to be finally unable to be suppressed anymore, she lowered her head, turned around and walked out of the kitchen, walked briskly back to the room, sat down, and began to wipe her tears silently.

She began to blame herself, why was she so stupid, such a simple thing, she just couldn't do it well.

Thinking about this, I thought of Shen Yan again.

When Shen Yan didn't like her, she desperately squeezed around him, and when Shen Yan wanted to be nice to him, she left him without asking him what he meant.

She is too selfish, and while she wants to let go of herself, she hopes for Shen Yan's love.

She thought, where did Shen Yan go, when would he come back, she missed him, she missed him too much.

But her full of questions was not answered after all.

Crying and crying, Feng Xi fell asleep like this.

In her dreams, she is still Shen Yan, and when she thinks about her current dreams, all of them are Shen Yan.

She was later woken up by hunger, the door was wide open, and as soon as Feng Xi sat up, she saw the night sky full of stars outside.

She rubbed her empty stomach, thinking that it would be another good weather tomorrow, and Shen Yan was finally coming back.

As demons, they can actually go without eating or drinking for a long time. But if you don't eat or drink for a long time, you will feel weak in the end.

The current Feng Xi is like a cat that was raised in the past, except for Shen Yan, he can't eat anything else.

She walked into the kitchen, and there was still a shit-like dish she made on the stove, but if you compare it with what she made a few days ago, you will find that this is actually the most successful dish under Feng Xi's men.

Feng Xi looked at it and pursed her lips, and just at this moment, the stomach "grunted-" sounded at the right time.

She hesitated between "eating" and "not eating" for a long time, and finally took out a pair of bamboo chopsticks, closed her eyes, and ate them casually.

After eating the whole dish like chewing wax, Feng Xi didn't feel full yet, but his physical strength had almost recovered.

She thought that only by eating could she wait for Shen Yan at the end and have the strength to fly to his side as soon as possible.

This night, Feng Xi finally had a strange dream, in the dream, she no longer looked at Shen Yan who was far away in the sky, but stood beside him in a good manner, but looked at the beautiful woman beside him, eyebrows and sweet words.

No matter how many times she called in front of him, he walked past her without squinting, as if he hadn't seen it.

......

Feng Xi sat up in shock, her forehead was still sweating the size of a bean, she gasped, patted her heart in fear, and kept telling herself that this was a dream, it was just a dream, and Shen Yan would definitely not do this......

But she couldn't even raise the courage to comfort her.

That's what she's most afraid of.

She was afraid that she would turn back, but found that Shen Yan was not in place. The good girl next to him grabbed a handful, and she was afraid that he would finally figure it out and no longer be attached to her.

So she had to worry a little, what would she do if that dream was true?

Sleepless nights.

When the sky was just slightly bright, Feng Xi got up and packed his baggage.

She was still worried in her heart, she was going to ask Shen Yan for clarification, she didn't want to wait for Shen Yan to look back endlessly.

Before leaving, she looked at the mountain hut in the hazy morning dawn for the last time, and she thought she would not return.

When she finds Shen Yan, whether he accepts or rejects her wishes, she will carry her burden and travel around the mountains and rivers from now on, and be a prodigal son in the world who is at peace with what she encounters.

She looked at it, and there was some reluctance in her heart, like an old friend, after waving goodbye, Feng Xi turned around and took out the jade bracelet in her arms again.

In the night, it still shimmered like the day.

Only then she had taken it off, and now, she has put it back on.

Then let it all start here, and wait until the day of reunion in the near future, as if she hadn't gone, when he hadn't left.

She has always believed that she will definitely reunite with Shen Yan.

Feng Xi still remembers that what she left in the letter that day was-

Don't read, don't disturb, don't seek.

The world is really ridiculous, she was obviously sure that Shen Yan would look for her everywhere, but she still left a letter like that, she obviously asked him not to look for her, but she broke this rule first.

Feng Xi looked down at the jade bracelet in his hand, thought thoughtfully, and finally laughed slowly.

If it's broken, it's broken, anyway, what she said, there is no time to fulfill it.

She came to the fork in the road again, on one side of what she had walked before, and on the other side of what she had never been before.

Feng Xi thought about it, she and Shen Yan were always so easy to miss, maybe he went to the other side?

So this time, Feng Xi is no longer running away, but looking for it.

She has collapsed again on a new path, a road full of unknowns.

In fact, she is gambling with herself, and she is also fighting with the sky, she just believes that on the road of restart, they will definitely meet again.

has missed so many times a long time, she can't sit still anymore, she has to turn the tide and change this embarrassing trajectory.

Feng Xi walked very carefully this time, she walked through the streets and alleys, every corner would not be let go, whether it was a rainy day or a windy day, she would persistently knock on the door of every closed house, and asked them angrily, had they ever seen a man like a fairy passing by.

Some people will inevitably want to tease her when they see that she is a thin woman, so they say that they have seen her.

So she followed the direction they pointed, and either encountered a ferocious beast or a cliff......

Feng Xi sometimes knew in her heart that they were deliberately deceiving her, but she just wanted to gamble, what if Shen Yan happened to be there?

So even if she was full of suspicion, she still went in the end.

has been deceived many times, and Feng Xi sometimes feels as if she is no longer herself.

She was looking for Shen Yan in this yellow spring, she didn't seem to know the warmth and coldness anymore, and she was so happy when she heard even a trace of news about Shen Yan.

But never, some are just deceived again and again.

But as soon as she looked up at the endless sky, she was physically and mentally exhausted and instantly regained her strength.

On this road, she has always believed that Shen Yan must be somewhere under this firmament.

She just hasn't arrived yet.