It's been a few months since the last conversation ended.

Perhaps, as Shu Shouhui said, he can't be sure if he is right. There doesn't seem to be so much right and wrong in the world! Life is just a few years, even if you are unhappy, how long can you be unhappy!

When he fell from the cliff because of collecting medicine, Zi'an's thoughts turned back and forth, flashing through his previous thoughts and thoughts. Looking back like this, his favorite is actually when he was a child, although he is very busy, but You Siqing and Master are really happy. It's not as fake as it is now, happy.

In a trance, he seemed to see a man in a black gilt-trimmed brocade robe, and he picked him up and walked back.

Is this salvation?

When he opened his eyes again, he was in the courtyard that belonged to him in Shushan.

There was a handsome man sitting beside his bed, "It's not so polite to be a newcomer to your place, not to introduce yourself." My name is Candle Dragon, and this is probably the first time you've seen me like this!"

Candle Dragon smiled at him, this person had tried his best to make himself look kinder, but anyway, just looking at this grinning appearance, Zi'an felt cold sweat break out on his back.

"Why are you so pale," the candle dragon looked at him, "Do I look so unsightly? Actually, I think it's pretty good-"

"Senior, you didn't see it. Shu Pingyao, who was wearing a blue robe, walked in from outside, "Are you scared of the Third Highness?"

Hearing this, the candle dragon touched his nose very embarrassedly and muttered in a low voice, "But I don't think I'm so scary! To be honest, my face is quite handsome!"

"Yes, yes, it's very handsome. Shu Pingyao said, his eyes scraping Zi'an like a knife.

Zi'an came back to his senses and kept nodding, "Yes, yes, yes!"

"Senior, I asked Lang Jiu to put your tea in your house, if there is nothing to do, go back and see what is wrong with the tea, if there is something wrong, let Lang Jiu change it for you. ”

"Oh!" Candle Dragon's eyes swirled around Shu Pingyao and Zi'an's bodies, nodded and left.

Shu Pingyao sat down in the seat where the candle dragon had just now, and looked at Zi'an's eyes with a playful look, "Childe, do you now think that your choice that day was right or wrong. ”

"Does it matter if it's right or wrong?" Zi'an rubbed his temples and said, "I'm also a little tired, if—"

Before he finished speaking, he was interrupted by Shu Pingyao, and the banter in the other party's eyes subsided and the curiosity gradually increased; "Don't be so anxious to give an eviction order!"

Shu Pingyao waved his hand, leaning back and being dragged by an invisible force, his feet folded on the side of the bed; "I'm here to choose for you! This time, how will you choose!"

"You say!" Zi'an moved slightly to the inside of the bed and said very unceremoniously.

"Your soul, Fang Leying has become an immortal. You choose!"

"How?" Zi'an asked rhetorically.

"Interesting!" Shu Pingyao snapped his fingers and sat up straight, "You take care of your body first, and I will come over and tell you what to do in a few days!"

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At that time, when Pingyao came over again, he was followed by Shu to benefit.

Shu Shouhui looked at him with a fierce face, and his voice was fierce, "Why are you so stupid! It's really a waste of Lao Tzu's tongue, the young man is as stubborn as a cow." ”

"It's been in vain for the Immortal Master to work hard!" Zi'an apologized and said that he was about to bow down.

Shu was blessed with a golden light flickering, and Zi An suddenly felt a force of gravity rise from the ground, making him plant in the chair.

"Don't waste time!let's get started!" Shu Shouhui said, a dodge appeared in front of him, a talisman was attached to his chest, the stinging pain came from his chest, and then the pain gradually became larger, like a hand pinching the heart in the chest, it was terrible.

I don't know how long it has been, but just when Zi'an felt that he might be dead, the feeling of relief when the sun hit his face followed.

I opened my eyes and took a big breath of air, desperately trying to squeeze out the discomfort in my chest.

When he saw the talisman again, he found that most of the talisman had turned red, and Shu Shouhui seemed to be a little dissatisfied; "After that, I'll come and teach you a set of exercises for your body, you are too weak now, and the time to extract blood is too slow, too little, and too much time is a waste of time." ”

"Okay," Zi'an replied as he gasped.

Then Shu Shou benefited nodded at Shu Pingyao and left.

Shu Pingyao handed a bottle to Zi'an and left.

Not long after that, Si Qing rushed into the door and smashed a table with one palm, and he was so angry that he was going to die, his eyes were red and scary, like a beast that chose people to devour;

When he looked up and saw Zi'an's pale face, his voice gradually softened, "Your Highness, you have to take care of yourself. ”

"Why?" Zi'an asked rhetorically, "I have already lived my life like this, why do you advise me to be kind to myself!"

"Your Highness!" Si Qing shouted, "If you give up on your own, where will the people who care about you have a chance to redeem you!"

"No, I'm tired! Si Qing—do you know what the most unpleasant word is right now? It's salvation! I ran away that day—I saw a little Taoist priest, and he said that everything was his own choice. At the time, I thought I had been saved, but in the end I realized that it was nothing more than a dream I had drawn for myself.

The closer I get to Fang Leying, the more I feel that the gap between us is not ordinarily big, and we have never had the same topics and experiences from the beginning. I wasn't happy, he was always a key that was very far away for me, and I could only pursue it.

I had thought that Fang Leying was my salvation and freed me from the grand cage, but then I realized that it was just me. I'm making excuses for my choice, giving myself a high-sounding justification for my cowardly behavior. ”

"Why do you want to talk about yourself like that!" Si Qing looked at him with some shock, and then looked at him with a disappointed expression, "It's enough to make a temperament once, why keep immersing yourself in the shadows of the past! You break down for the same thing once or twice, and constantly anger others or hurt yourself to make others worry about you, don't you think this is all childish behavior?"

"Yes, I'm just naïve!" Zi'an said, "I've always been such a naïve person, have you been disappointed? I've never been the radiant highness in your eyes, I've always been such a naïve and willful coward." Look at me with that disappointed expression!

"You are really unreasonable!" Si Qing finished speaking, brushed his sleeves and left.

Looking at Si Qing's back, Zi'an fell into deep thought, when did it become like this!

He may have always thought that he was a mature person who could fight everything by himself, but it was never him who was willful and angry, he regarded the national teacher as a child's play, and he hurt himself in order to get angry. It's all about being able to look at them with the eyes of someone who is an assertive person.

Si Qing's anger and expectations finally became the last straw that broke the camel's back, and Zi'an collapsed again. This time it was different from the last time, Zi'an grew up, and he began to learn to adapt to his current life. When he looked at the present, he suddenly realized that he was too happy if he looked at the present.

An Ning, who kept sending letters to Shushan, and Si Qing, who had been secretly writing letters with Taifu behind his back, as well as fresh vegetables and fruits that kept being transported from the imperial city, and Si Qing, who had been by his side.

Zi'an suddenly felt that he was already too happy, maybe only contentment is the greatest happiness in this life!

But he knew that it was too late to give feedback, time passed quietly, fate seemed to be used to joking with others, and some frequent blood draws recently seemed to drain his vitality.

When Si Qing heard the news, he rushed to see Zi'an, who was pale, and Shu Shouhui, who was guarding the bed with a straight face, was beating in his heart.

"Your Highness, are you alright?" asked Si Qing cautiously.

Zi'an looked at him with crooked eyebrows, "It's okay—it's weird!"

"When are you still in the mood to joke with me!" Si Qing's heart that had just been put down followed the words he said after panting, and said with some complaints.

Zi'an shook his head, "This is a happy thing! Si Qing, why should you be worried! You cultivators rely on hard work to go to that place, and I will go to that place as soon as I close my eyes and open them. Why be sad about such a happy thing!"

"Your Highness!" Si Qing shouted, "This is not a funny joke!"

"Why, you're still so boring!" he said, tapping Si Qing's head lightly, "Forget it, I can't joke with you anymore because of the urgency of time." I have so much more to say! Now, don't open your mouth, just respect me as a sinner, okay?"

Si Qing nodded.

"When I die, the tombstone will engrave this sentence on my tombstone: I am home!"

"In just 30 years, I have come to understand a truth. Sometimes identity and responsibility are equally important, I can't choose my background, I can choose just how to take that responsibility well. Too many things before to look back and see that they were all bastards, if I didn't have such a willful thing, I'm afraid I can turn back with Shushan a moment ago!"

"If I didn't have so many obsessions in Anyang, I might have a good life. ”

"Forget it, the most deceitful person in life may be, if!"

"Si Qing - after I leave, you have to live well and cherish the present. I gave him everything I had, and now I regret it a little, so can you help me supervise him and let him live well!"

"The letters from Anyang in the capital have all helped my subordinates, telling my grandfather and the emperor that their grandchildren and sons are cultivating in Shushan - there is also a very funny, very funny name called Shu Shou, as for other things--you don't have to-"

Si Qing opened his eyes and looked at the slowly closed eyes and lowered hands for a long time, and suddenly the mournful cry of the beast jumped out of his throat. His beloved nobleman of golden branches and jade leaves is gone, and at this very moment—with peace and relief—

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