Chapter 1051: Painful Thoughts (Part II)
"In the past three years, you have only had resentment against Chen Shijin in your heart, and now after knowing the truth, you are desperate, right?" Xiao Tian grabbed Su Jia's shoulder and continued to say solemnly, "That's not the case...... From the first time I met you, Jia'er, you have a chivalrous heart and saved the people of Liusha Town; in the face of the pursuit of the martial arts famous Lu Huan, you are not even afraid of death, and you are still unyielding to your fate in a desperate situation, and you fight desperately to survive until the last moment; Bianliang City is in crisis, and you are alone in fighting the Mengyuan Imperial Court; and you stand up to save Xiaojia Villa, and Yunzhu City seeks Weishan to fight the ghost king and thieves...... In the face of this, you have never succumbed to fate, this is the real you, isn't it?!—but now, because of this setback of fate, you are in a state of collapse...... This is not the Jia'er I know, no......" In the end, Xiao Tian shook his head a little sadly, and his eyes gradually overflowed with sadness. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info
And Su Jia listened to Xiao Tian's "insistence", and she was already crying like rain, perhaps it was Xiao Tian's irritation that woke her up from her "virtual dream".
Finally, Su Jia no longer buried the grief in her heart, and cried bitterly: "You are right, I am obviously sad in my heart, but I still ...... Pretend not to care...... Woohoo......"
Seeing Su Jia crying like rain, Xiao Tian's heart softened suddenly, and his serious expression eased.
"I killed Sister Xiaohong...... I killed Senior Brother Chen...... Whining...... But I still live in my dreams, and I don't dare to face reality...... Woo woo......" Su Jia finally dared to reveal her true thoughts in front of Xiao Tian, and cried, "Why is this happening, I have endured revenge for three years, and in the end it turned out to be like this...... So what is everything I have done in the past three years...... Sister Xiaohong, Chen Shijin, Zheng Yuhua, Mo Tianxing...... Whose fault is it all this......? Whose fault is it...... Woohoo......"
Seeing Su Jia crying silently, Xiao Tian put his heart down - he didn't care too much about which was more important than Chen Shijin in Su Jia's heart, he just didn't want to see Su Jia feel sad in his heart, but he lied in front of him, pretending to be indifferent, and hiding all the pain in his heart, that was the most painful thing for Xiao Tian.
Finally, Su Jia showed her true intentions in front of her, and Xiao Tian regained his calm mood, and comforted him for the first time: "It's good to say it, even if it's pain, don't hold it in your heart...... I don't care if you're still thinking about your senior brother in your heart, I just don't want to look at Jia'er You're obviously sad, but you pretend not to care...... Now you can cry if you want to, after all, after three years of fate tricks, you have suffered too much......"
"Ah Tian...... Woo woo...... "Looking at Xiao Tian's affectionate gaze, at that moment Su Jia realized that in fact, the lover who cared about him had always been by his side, no matter what happened, Xiao Tiancai was the man he relied on for sustenance in his life - he had been in happiness all the time, but he still vented the injustice of fate for no reason, and he was so stupid in front of his lover......
"If you still want to cry, keep crying, after all, this truth is too cruel to you Jia'er, it has killed you for three years...... Xiao Tian continued to comfort, "However, I also hope that Jia'er will remember that what you have experienced in the past three years is not only hatred and pain...... You have me, you have Jingmei and their friends, you know how to cherish the people around you, even if you are tricked by fate, there is not only regret and regret left...... Jia'er, no matter when, you must be strong yourself, after all, although the old man is gone, you still have us, and you ......"
"Woo-" Finally, Su Jia couldn't hold back the grief in her heart anymore, and lay down in Xiao Tian's arms, crying bitterly, "Ah Tian, you're right...... I'm not strong enough, woo...... I'm not strong enough......"
Xiao Tian didn't say anything more, but this time he took the initiative to hold his wife in his arms and comforted him softly, "Unpleasant tears, let it shine...... Let the past pass, and learn to let go of what should be let go......"
"Woo-woo-woo......" Su Jia was speechless, and continued to fall into Xiao Tian's arms and cry bitterly - this is the most painful and longest crying since he met Xiao Tian, it seems that he wants to let the tears take away all the grievances and pains of the past three years, not only his own heart, but also wash away the turbid dust with Xiao Tian's concern.
And Xiao Tian hugged Su Jia like this, and transitioned this "most painful sorrow" with her......
In the end, Su Jia, who was determined to let go of everything, was still "ruthless" to bury Chen Shijin's last memory - the bamboo flute in the grave together, with the nostalgia for the past, Su Jia should now be more uplifting and start again, looking to the future and facing it bravely.
After really mourning Chen Shijin, Xiao Tian and Su Jia left the "dustless land" of Tongguan together, returned to Shiye and left south......
At the foot of Huqiu Mountain, the camp of the Ming army......
Tang Zhan was packing up his things in the camp alone, but he didn't know why, but Lu Jing let him do it. The departure of Xiao Tian and Su Jia, to be honest, now that I think about it, Tang Zhan also has an inexplicable sadness in his heart, and he can't say why, once upon a time, he also spontaneously developed a fear of the future......
"Have you cleaned up?" Suddenly, Lu Jing arrived and asked at the door of the tent.
"It's already already...... Tang Zhan just replied softly, but looking at Lu Jing's slightly anxious face, he secretly noticed that something was wrong - whether it was his behavior or his expression, Lu Jing was too abnormal today, and his intuition told him that there must be something wrong here.
"Let's go when you're ready, the emperor is still waiting for us......" Lu Jing's appearance became more and more impatient, and she wanted to turn around and leave the camp before she finished speaking.
"Wait-" Finally, Tang Zhan couldn't help but ask with the doubts in his heart, "Why do you want to bring your luggage when you go to the main business to discuss the war?"
"Alas, why do you care so much, just go-" Lu Jing's answer was even more anxious, which made Tang Zhan more and more relieved.
But in order not to delay time, Tang Zhan still agreed to Lu Jing, took his luggage and walked out with Lu Jing......
However, after leaving the pioneer camp, Lu Jing did not take Tang Zhan to the main camp, but walked towards the mountain road and canyon in the opposite direction, and deliberately avoided the eyes and ears of the soldiers along the way, as if he didn't want people to notice.
Finally, when he reached the deserted fork in the road, Tang Zhan couldn't help but stop......
"What's the matter, stupid, let's go-" Seeing Tang Zhan standing still, Lu Jing said anxiously on the side.
"This is not the way to the main camp-" Tang Zhan's expression was serious, and he said bluntly, "Jing'er, tell me honestly, what's going on?" As he spoke, Tang Zhan raised the luggage in his hand.
"Okay, I'll admit it, the place we're going to isn't the main camp......" Lu Jing eased her mood a little, calmed down and turned around.
"Where are you going?" Tang Zhan and Lu Jing asked in a cold voice as they stood facing each other at the fork in the road.
Tang Zhan felt that today's Lu Jing was very strange, and similarly, Lu Jing felt that today's Tang Zhan was very indifferent......
"Get out of here—" Lu Jing stared at her eyes and said Zhenzhen.
"Leave?-" Tang Zhan thought he had heard it wrong, and asked repeatedly.
"That's right, it's leaving, just like Sister Su and Brother Xiao—" Lu Jing also responded expressionlessly.
"Where are you going?" Tang Zhan asked with a serious expression.
"It's okay, the farther away from Zhu Yuanzhang the better......" Lu Jing said very seriously, "Go to Bianliang, go back to my house, let's get married and enjoy our family, and never ask about the war again......"
After hearing this, Tang Zhan was stunned for a while, saying that he was "getting married", but he was not happy at all, but he was uneasy and continued to ask, "Why do you want to go?"
Seeing that he couldn't "move" Tang Zhan like this, Lu Jing seemed to hold his breath and did not answer.
"I asked why you left?-" Perhaps also "stimulated" by the departure of Xiao Su and the others, today's Tang Zhan was too indifferent, as if he was interrogating a prisoner, and he had a cold tone towards Lu Jing.
Finally, Lu Jing couldn't hold back any longer...... "I just want to take you away, how can there be so many ?!!!why-" Suddenly he screamed, as if he had broken out the bitter grievances that had been hidden in his heart for a long time, and Lu Jing's exclamation really made Tang Zhan jump.
But Tang Zhan's reaction was quite calm, he didn't speak, just quietly looked at the emotional Lu Jing in front of him.
Lu Jing had never been so angry in front of Tang Zhan, this was the first time, after relieving for a while, Lu Jing's expression was sad, and she continued: "Don't you know yet?!--Brother Zichuan, Brother Murong of Nangong, Brother Qin, Sister Ying...... He Yifan, Chen Shijin...... In the final analysis, they were all killed by Zhu Yuanzhang, isn't it enough that so many people have been innocently sacrificed?!-"
Listening to Lu Jing's anger from the bottom of his heart, Tang Zhan didn't say anything and continued to look at Lu Jing calmly.
"Now Sister Su and Brother Xiao are also gone," Lu Jing said, tears gradually oozing from the corners ......of her eyes, and she said sadly, "From the Northern Expedition to Shandong all the way to the present, we are just chess pieces used by Zhu Yuanzhang - conquering Tongguan, the world is established, and our use value is over...... The next one to fall victim to is our ......"
"You mean, Zhu Yuanzhang will kill us......" Tang Zhan was still calm and asked lightly.
"Those who want to achieve great things can kill their relatives, not to mention that we are ...... of the wild soldiers in the rivers and lakes" Lu Jing's mood became more and more sad, and she said slowly, "Zhu Yuanzhang is an ambitious person, we are a threat and obstacle to the unification and hegemony for him, if the world is determined, he will definitely not let us go......"
When Tang Zhan heard this, he was silent and calm for a long time, and his heart was inexplicably touched, and there was a trace of sadness and pain. But another voice in my heart is choosing not to allow myself to do this......
"So, come with me, stupid......" Lu Jing began to cry slightly, "I don't want to watch you follow in Zhao Zichuan's footsteps...... You and I will go back, we will live happily for the rest of our lives after we get married, I beg you-" Under the urging of emotion, two tears passed across Lu Jing's cheeks.
Tang Zhan always looked at Lu Jing with one expression, and after a period of silence, he finally spoke...... "I'm sorry Jing'er, I can't leave ......" A desperate answer, cold and frustrating.
Lu Jing's eyes widened, the tears had not yet been wiped away, and she couldn't help but ask softly, "Why ......?"
"Because this is not only my ideal, but also my mission, now that victory is approaching, I can't give up halfway...... Tang Zhan gradually said calmly, "Maybe Jing'er, you are right, Zhu Yuanzhang used us, and even after the victory of the war, he did not hesitate to get rid of us...... But even so, I can't be discouraged -- I swore in front of Uncle Xiaofeng that as a descendant of the Tang family, no matter how difficult or dangerous it is, I will take it as my responsibility to save the common people in the world, expel Meng Yuan, and save the people! This is my mission as a descendant of the Tang family, and it is also to atone for my father's sins......"
"In order to complete this mission, you don't even want your life, don't you......" Lu Jing heard this, although she had a little feeling, but the decision in her heart remained the same, she was bound to take Tang Zhan out of here, and when she heard Tang Zhan's answer, she couldn't help but be disappointed.
"Since I am the widow of the Tang family, I have to carry the family mission......" Tang Zhan's eyes were very firm, as if he couldn't change his mind no matter what, and continued to say solemnly, "Moreover, the army has taken Tongguan and is about to approach the capital of Mengyuan, and the oath with him three years ago can be fulfilled......"
Lu Jing listened to it, knew what Tang Zhan was thinking, lowered his eyes, and couldn't help but say silently: "The young master who came to the dart game...... Sun Yun ......"
"That's right—the agreement I made with Brother Sun Yun three years ago, I still remember it......," Tang Zhan untied the ornament around his waist—it was the half of the dragon-patterned jade pendant that Sun Yun gave him three years ago—Zhen Zhen said, "Now my wish is about to come true, the army will arrive in Dadu, and I can't leave here no matter what!"
"Friends and missions, for these reasons, you don't even want your life......" Lu Jingdu said with cold tears and despair.
"My life is in my own hands, no matter how many hardships I encounter...... But the family mission and the brother's agreement, I will not let go of it no matter what!" Tang Zhan said firmly.
"I don't expect you to be a hero, and I don't expect you to really save the world...... Lu Jing's tears became more and more unstoppable, and she choked up, "I just like you, I don't want you to die...... Even if you can't become a hero, even if you can't complete your family mission, I don't care about that...... I just want you to live well, that's my simplest wish......"
When Tang Zhan saw Lu Jing's tears, he couldn't help but feel a touch in his heart......
For Tang Zhan, he is a descendant of the Tang family, inheriting the mission of the family, not only shouldering the heavy responsibility of atoning for his father's sins, but also determined to expel the tyranny and save the common people, and at the same time not forgetting the oath and agreement with his brothers;
However, now these two feelings are like the fork in the road where the two of them are standing now, life can only determine one direction, and Tang Zhan must make a choice......
Tang Zhan thought for a long time and continued: "I'm sorry Jing'er, the family's mission is heavy, and I have to carry it, even if it is risking my life, I will not hesitate to ...... So, Jing'er ......"
"So you mean to leave me, don't you...... At the last moment, you only think about your own ambitions after all, are you willing to give up on me......" Lu Jing's expression was desperate......