Chapter 1000: Painful Thoughts (Part II)
"The battle in Tongguan is over, our task has been completed, although the ending is sad, but we also have to go back......" Zheng Yuhua, as a senior brother, was still responsible for the affairs of the division, calmed down and said to Su Jia, "Little junior sister, we can't stay with you, and you naturally can't go back with us, how you go next depends on your own ......"
Su Jia, who gradually calmed down, also responded coldly with an expressionless face: "I know, on the way back, you have to be careful yourself...... If we have the chance, I hope we can see each other again, but it will probably be when Mo Tianxing and I settle our grievances......"
"Senior Sister Yi Yao......" Seeing that Chen Shijin's fate was over, Su Jia was still thinking about her grievances with Mo Tianxing, afraid that the same tragedy might happen again, Xu Shuang couldn't help but tremble. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info
"I will take care of the little shuang, little sister, don't worry......" Zheng Yuhua said in agreement.
"And-" Su Jia seemed to emphasize something, and reminded him in particular, "Senior Brother Zheng, the grievances between you and Mo Tianxing are better to let go for the time being...... Tongguan and my entourage fought to the death with you and Senior Brother Chen several times with Senior Brother Zheng, and I think the eyeliner sent by Mo Tianxing to follow should also be clear about our every move - I am afraid that Senior Brother Zheng you are too revealing and may expose your true life experience, if Mo Tianxing knows that you are the orphan of Xiangyang back then, I am afraid it will ......"
"I know, I know this ......in my heart," Zheng Yuhua responded cautiously when it came to Mo Tianxing's matter.
"That's good...... That's good......" Su Jia closed her eyes slightly, deliberately hiding her sad expression, but she hesitated in her heart, which was as embarrassing as chewing wax.
"By the way, what about Brother Xiao?" Walking all the way from Amber Hill here, the sky was already bright, but Xiao Tian was inexplicably missing, and Wu Xian on the side couldn't help asking.
"I didn't see it, we were in a hurry, shouldn't he have not followed......" Xu Shuang said with a little worry, "Or did we insist on leaving in anger, and the people in the army detained him......"
"It shouldn't be that serious, right? Brother Xiao told me that Zhu Yuanzhang respects him very much......" Zheng Yuhua comforted.
"Don't worry, Ah Tian will be fine......" Su Jia just said lightly, but her tone was very sad, and she turned around to look at it, only Chen Shijin's tombstone was in front of her.
"Senior Sister Yiyao, then let's go......" At the moment of parting, Xu Shuang showed a sad but reluctant look.
"Well......" Su Jia also nodded nostalgically - three years of reunion, but it was a few short days, after countless twists and turns, the senior brother and sister love is deep, but it is time to part, to be honest, Su Jia is also very reluctant in her heart, but compared to this, what Su Jia is more worried about at this time is another emotion.
"I hope we will have a chance to ......meet you again in the future, Senior Sister Li," Wu Xian also followed.
"Sister Yiyao, let's go, take care of yourself......" Lu Tao still didn't change his previous innocence, and he was reluctant to say.
"You guys take care of yourself...... Su Jia couldn't help but shed tears again, and these tears were not just nostalgia for her younger brothers and sisters......
After a few other words, Zheng Yuhua took Xu Shuang and the others and left Su Jia, preparing to return to the Wind Chasing Sect. However, just mentioned the grievance with Mo Tianxing, Zheng Yuhua couldn't help but have an extra heart, Chen Shijin's turmoil is over, but it does not mean that the fate of the wind chasing faction is over.
"Little Senior Sister is right, in the battle of Tongguan, Mo Tianxing must have sent his cronies to keep an eye on the movements of our and other disciples of the Wind Chasing Sect...... Maybe Mo Tianxing has already begun to doubt my life experience, if I go back so rashly, I am afraid that Xiaoshuang and them, who have a deep relationship with the little junior sister, will encounter danger......" Zheng Yuhua couldn't help but be cautious, and said secretly in his heart, "Right now, if you can let Xiaoshuang and them live in other places temporarily, it must be safer than returning to the Wind Chasing Sect...... However, in today's troubled times, both war and martial arts are dangerous, and they are not very experienced in the world, and I can't always be by my side, where should I go safely......"
It seems that Zheng Yuhua is worried about the safety of Xu Shuang and the others, and does not want them to return to the Wind Chasing Sect directly, but temporarily considers seclusion in other stable places.
After thinking about it a few times, thinking of the friendship between Xu Shuang and others and Su Jia and Xiao Tian in the past few days, Zheng Yuhua seemed to think of paying attention......
"By the way, Xiaoshuang, Wu Xian and Taotao......" Zheng Yuhua turned to a smiling expression and called his junior brothers and sisters.
"What's the matter, Senior Brother Zheng?" the three of them couldn't help but respond in unison.
"You three, I'll tell you something very important now......" So, Zheng Yuhua told Xu Shuang and the others about what he thought was a safe plan......
And in front of Chen Shijin's grave, Su Jia was still alone, looking at the stone tablet in front of the tomb - until now, Su Jia still blamed herself for killing Chen Shijin with her own hands, and killed her senior brother, just like when she killed Sister Xiaohong, and felt extremely sorry in her heart. She didn't say a word, tears flowed from time to time, the beauty was red, and the pear blossoms brought rain, which couldn't help but make people feel pity.
"Senior Brother Chen, I didn't expect that I killed you in the end...... I killed you......" Finally, Su Jia still couldn't suppress the grief in her heart, and said faintly, "You were so good to me, I have affection for you...... But I didn't expect it...... But I didn't expect the twists and turns of fate to be all because of me...... Whining...... It's all my fault, woo......"
still thinking about the old affection, her emotions almost collapsed, and Su Jia's tears fell in her words, which made people feel very pity.
And in the place between the tombstones, under the only dead wood around the wasteland, there is a person sitting quietly on his back - it is Xiao Tian, who has been "hiding" here since Su Jia and others buried Chen Shijin's body and did not show up.
However, he heard the conversation between the disciples of the Wind Chaser Sect and others just now, as well as every bit of Su Jia pouring out his feelings in front of the tombstone. I don't know why, thinking of Su Jia's "first love" for Chen Shijin, and now facing her in front of the tombstone, Xiao Tian is inexplicably sad in his heart, just like he is in Su Jia's heart, more like a substitute for feelings.
Although I know it's silly to think like this, I feel it this way unconsciously, and this kind of emotional uncontrollable sadness constantly disturbs my mind......
"In Jia'er's heart, what does she think......" Xiao Tian has been thinking silently in his heart, hoping that Su Jia's feelings for him will not change, but looking at her tears in front of Chen Shijin, he also knows in his heart that the reality may be even more unsatisfactory.
But a sober thought in his mind made Xiao Tian suddenly cheer up. He seemed to have decided how to face this "intertwined" emotion, got up and turned around to walk to Su Jia's side......
At this time, Su Jia was still fully immersed in the grief of Chen Shijin's passing. Under the trend of sadness and nostalgia, Su Jia subconsciously took out something from the package - it was a bamboo flute, the one that Chen Shijin gave him, with the word "Jin" engraved on it, although he had been hating him for the past three years, he had always carried this bamboo flute with him.
Looking at the last and only "memory", Su Jia couldn't help but think of what Chen Shijin said to him when he was chasing the wind......
(in recall)......
"Yi Yao, I haven't seen you for many days, but you're good at martial arts...... If you work harder, you will definitely improve even more!"
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"But after I listened to the history of the Wind Chaser, I began to admire the heroes of the Wind Chaser. Like Shangguan Xianjian and Lu Qingfeng, these are the seniors I admire. So, since then, I have also been inspired to become a hero like them, and my greatest wish in life is to become a generation of heroes, with the world in mind and for the benefit of the people. Yi Yao, do you think I can make this wish come true?"
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"Oops, it's not good!" Li Yiyao's voice came from the crowd, "My bamboo flute fell to the ground and broke." It turned out that Li Yiyao had been paying attention to Xiaohong when she was walking, and she didn't pay attention to the bamboo flute that fell out of the package - the bamboo flute fell to the ground and broke.
Xu Shuang listened and said, "Why are you so careless? This is what Senior Brother Chen brought to you when he went to the city last time to do a mission. ”
Chen Shijin saw it, and smiled on the side: "It's okay, Yiyao! If you have time, I'll make another one for you myself!"
"Senior Brother Chen......" Li Yiyao's face flushed slightly......
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"Yi Yao, your ideal...... I also want to become a heroine who thinks about the people of the world?...... It's like one day, all your loved ones are gone...... You are alone, and many people in the world ignore you or even hostile to you, will you still stick to your ideals?"
Li Yiyao thought about it for a while, and suddenly said with a flash of inspiration: "I will!" The voice was extremely firm.
Chen Shijin continued to ask: "Is it true? No matter what happens, will you be firm in your ideals, have the world in mind, and place your heart on the people?"
Li Yiyao replied affirmatively: "I will!" This time her voice was even more firm.
After hearing this, Chen Shijin smiled slightly: "Really, then I will be relieved......
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(In reality)......
In her mind, Su Jia thought of these pictures countless times, took out the bamboo flute, and wanted to bury it under the grave together, but I don't know why, her right hand trembled and couldn't let go, it seemed that she couldn't let go of this memory in difficulty, and she couldn't bear to bury it together.
"Woo...... Forehead ......" And Su Jia herself is also more and more emotional, tears blurred her eyes, I don't know how she feels in front of her, she wants to let go ruthlessly but can't do it......
"If you can't let it go, don't put it down-" Suddenly, a voice sounded behind him--it was Xiao Tian, seeing Su Jia's move, Xiao Tian stood behind him, and said expressionlessly, "What's more, embarrass yourself......?
Seeing Xiao Tian coming and hearing the slightly sad words, Su Jia suddenly felt her "selfishness" at that moment...... Finally, as if deciding something, Su Jiaqiang held back her tears, stood up and turned around, and smiled at Xiao Tian and said, "It's okay, Ah Tian, I can let it go-"
Su Jia actually smiled, she had a sad face just now, turned in front of Xiao Tian, but suddenly laughed.
On the surface, Xiao Tian was not happy-he could see clearly that this was not what Su Jia really looked like.
"What happened three years ago, I really let go of my ......" Su Jia smiled with tears, took the initiative to take Xiao Tian's hand, and said with affection in her eyes, "I know, Ah Tian, you see that I can't forget Senior Brother Chen, and you don't feel comfortable in your heart...... Don't worry, Senior Brother Chen is dead, I can't be nostalgic for him anymore - I will only pin my heart on you in this life, no matter what happens, my affection for you is the most genuine ......"
Saying that, Su Jia even took the initiative to step forward, slowly hugged Xiao Tian, and leaned her head in her arms, and the beauty poured out her affection.
If it was Xiao Tian on weekdays, he would definitely blush and be excited, but today, Xiao Tian is very calm......
"Ah Tian, now that we are husband and wife, I will only treat you with my heart, and you don't have to think about it too much......" Su Jia continued to say warmly, and even made a delicate tone.
But Xiao Tian was not moved at all today, even if Su Jia fell into his arms, he was not emotional at all - he was very calm, in his opinion, this was Su Jia deliberately running away from himself and his fate......
Finally, Xiao Tian grabbed Su Jia's shoulders and pushed her out of his arms with all his might...... "Don't lie to yourself!-" At the moment of standing upright, Xiao Tian suddenly shouted to Su Jia, his expression was very serious and serious, and even a little frightening.
Su Jia looked into Xiao Tian's eyes, his expression was even more stunned, he didn't expect Xiao Tian to say such a radical remark to himself, and he had never seen Xiao Tian's "terrifying" expression.
"You say I...... Lying ......" Finally, Su Jia, who gradually woke up from the "unreal", asked in a daze.
"What do you say no longer worry about senior brother, and place your affection on me alone......" Xiao Tian retracted his shocked face and said solemnly, "Why...... Why are you still like this, Jia'er, deliberately avoiding yourself?-"
"Escape...... ...... herself" Su Jia was in a mood disorder and said a little speechlessly.
"What the hell is wrong with you, Jia'er, you weren't like this...... Xiao Tian said, his eyes turned red, "What if you have been deceived for three years, what if you kill your first love with your own hands, just because of such and such frustrations, you can't even recognize who you are? Just because of this little torture of fate, you just gave up on yourself like this, right?"
Su Jia didn't speak, but the corners of her eyes moistened again - she was not afraid of Xiao Tian, but gradually felt guilty about her current self.
"In the past three years, you have only had resentment against Chen Shijin in your heart, and now after knowing the truth, you are desperate, right?" Xiao Tian grabbed Su Jia's shoulder and continued to say solemnly, "That's not the case...... From the first time I met you, Jia'er, you have a chivalrous heart and saved the people of Liusha Town; in the face of the pursuit of the martial arts famous Lu Huan, you are not even afraid of death, and you are still unyielding to your fate in a desperate situation, and you fight desperately to survive until the last moment; Bianliang City is in crisis, and you are alone in fighting the Mengyuan Imperial Court; and you stand up to save Xiaojia Villa, and Yunzhu City seeks Weishan to fight the ghost king and thieves...... In the face of this, you have never succumbed to fate, this is the real you, isn't it?!—but now, because of this setback of fate, you are in a state of collapse...... This is not the Jia'er I know, no......" In the end, Xiao Tian shook his head a little sadly, and his eyes gradually overflowed with sadness.
And after Su Jia listened to Xiao Tian's "insistence", she was already crying like rain......