"Far Mountain," Leng Yue said clearly and softly, "How can you allow a woman to be so sad for you?"

Yuanshan was stunned for a moment and woke up.

A wave of tears rushed into his eyes, and his eyes moistened. He turned his head and looked into the distance.

"Are you still—okay?"

After a while, his voice trembled and he opened his mouth, and the mask that had been disguised for a long time could no longer be hung up.

"It's hard for you to ...... Think of me!"

There was also a slight tremor in her voice.

"I was thinking just now, you might say, who is Leng Yue, I don't know her. ”

Hearing Leng Yue say this, Yuan Shan's heart trembled violently, he straightened his back and took out the cigarette case from his coat pocket.

He took out a cigarette, took out a lighter, and beat it three times against the wind before lighting it.

He let out a big puff of smoke and said in a low voice, "Let's go for a walk." ”

Leng Yue did not refuse, her eyebrows were lightly locked, and her eyes were misty.

She tilted her head sideways, examined him for a few seconds, and then followed him down the hill.

"You-" she lengthened her voice and glanced at him again, "Like Li Min, have you started smoking?" There was a slight resistance in her tone.

"Hmm. ”

He snorted, and smoke came out of his nostrils.

"Didn't your husband smoke before?" he asked suddenly.

"Don't suck. ”

"It seems that your husband is the same as me now...... You need to use tobacco to anesthetize yourself. ”

He held the cigarette unsteadily, staring at the rising smoke.

"After getting to know you, I often think back to the little bits and pieces we knew. ”

Leng Yue raised her eyes to look at him, her eyes were like water, and her voice was low like a dream.

"Although I don't love my husband Li Min, the conservative concept of the Chinese, the woman from the beginning, is still deeply ingrained in my mind! Although the life is dull and full of quarrels, I never really want to leave him. It wasn't until I met you that I really wanted to leave him. ”

A puff of smoke came out of the distant mountains, and he walked silently, listening to her talk to herself.

"I want to love, but I'm afraid of love, I'm like a lonely swallow, flying for a long time, I can't find the direction, I can't find a warm nest ......"

She sighed in a low voice.

"Until that day I had heat stroke and you saved me, your name, your age, your height, your weight, your humor, your talent, your struggle, your domineering, your aura, your coldness, your chic, how many hairs you have, how many cells you have, everything about you is swirling in front of my eyes, filling my mind......"

She said it in one breath, so fluently, so smoothly.

But this series of sentences, to the ears of Yuanshan, suddenly sounded in his heart like firecrackers, and it shook every nerve in him.

He involuntarily walked behind her, as if trying to hide himself.

But the pain of his heart did not allow him to escape, and he staggered and closed his eyes.

There was a small voice in the depths of my heart, which kept tossing and turning: Cold Moon, Cold Moon, my poor Moon!

"You may not know it, I love you and love it at first sight! But I never expected you! I think if we can find spiritual resonance with each other, it is higher than the excitement of physical desire! It is much more difficult to find someone to talk to than to find someone to sleep with. I longed for you to be my soul mate, but you walked in the rain and mist, whistling, it was too beautiful, too good, too desolate...... The whistle lingered in my ears as well. ”

At this, her voice choked, and a teardrop fell in the wind.

"I'm getting scared more and more, I'm afraid I'm going to get more and more serious......"

He was silent.

She looked up at him with teary eyes.

"Men, the more time passes, the more you get bored. As for women, the more time passes, the more dependent they become. Sometimes I ask myself, is it in your boring life that I'm just a person to talk to......"

A burst of excitement took control of the distant mountain, and he wanted to reach out and hug her, kissing away the tears on her face, he gritted his teeth and suppressed his impulse.

He said in his heart: It was your appearance that made me look forward to the tasteless life, please give me some time and allow me to vent the loss in my heart. But then it occurred to him, I can't say it! I can't let her sink too deep...... I'm going to make her hate me and forget about me!

He extinguished the half-smoked cigarette and said in a rough voice, "Don't keep saying these inexplicable things. ”

"Oh?"

Leng Yue was stunned.

"Are you annoyed by my words?" she asked.

Yuan Shan bit his lip, and his voice was unconsciously hoarse:

"Yes!"

He said frankly.

"Why?"

"Because this scenic area is also a public place, there are people coming and going on this mountain road, and there are so many people who know us well, we are together in this way, regardless of the impact......" He stared at her and shook his head, "It's completely crazy!" he said.

"Crazy?"

Leng Yue was stunned.

Suddenly, she felt that she was standing in a strange place, completely talking to a stranger, and everything was meaningless.

"Do you know what a real madman is?"

Her pale face, her hurt look, her fiery eyes all pierced Yuanshan's heart. He shook his head bitterly, and then confessed, "I really don't know yet!"

"Haven't you seen a foreign movie called 'One Flew Over the Asylum'?"

"Nope!"

He only said one word.

"Okay, since you said you haven't seen it, then I'll tell you about it for free. ”

She lifted her lips lightly, her face looking deep and unpredictable under the dark sky.

"This film left a strong impression on us. The protagonist of the movie just arrives at the insane asylum and sees the patient, thinks that he is absolutely different from them, and completely ignores and ridicules him. Moviegoers are no exception, thinking that we are not like them, that they are crazy, that we are normal. However, as time goes on and the plot develops, they start to get confused. ”

She paused, her eyelashes flashed, and she looked at him intently and continued:

"These audiences are weird, very gloomy. Strange people who are not the same as madmen find madmen cute, painful, and pathetic. The mentally ill people they used to point at, once they understand their pain and happiness, they will especially feel their pain, and the psychiatrists are all patients, like a cold, mental illness can be at any time. Therefore, the investigation said that the madmen in the world have repeatedly failed and lost their faith and dignity before they go crazy. ”

She paused, then smiled.

"Mayor Yuan! You have succeeded in your life, but you probably never know what it is like to fail, because no one has ever dared to attack your self-confidence! No one has dared to destroy your dignity!"

She glared at him, cold stars twinkling in her eyes!

"I myself am an example, if I don't think about it at the moment, this is my fate, I am destined to come to this world to perform a tragedy! I am destined to be the object of play! I think I will also become a madman!"

"You're a mental threat!" he glanced at her, "and you seem to be accusing me, criticizing me!"

"Don't dare!"

"Don't dare? You already dare! But you don't dare?" he frowned slightly, "You're almost condemning me, as if I was a person who has been in chaos for a long time!"

"Aren't you?"

Leng Yue suppressed the tears that burst out of her eyes, and she forced a smile to look at him.

That smile is subtle and slightly melancholy, it is difficult to draw and touching.

"Are you a man of flesh and blood, affection and righteousness?" she asked in a low and powerful voice, "Or, are you accustomed to acting on the spot? Are you a senior master of the love scene?" Or, after Sunday and holidays, are you going to withdraw the army?"

"What!?"

Yuanshan raised his eyebrows, his eyes flashed behind his sunglasses, he was a little gloomy, a little angry.

He has been at the top all his life, and he has never heard such sarcastic and ugly words.

If it had been before, if someone dared to challenge his personality and dignity, he might have taken the case! But now, it was Leng Yue who spoke, and in addition to being stabbed by her sharp words, he was still terrified under her angry eyes.

He wished he could have her, to give her happiness and joy, but he couldn't afford it.

He couldn't bear to watch her struggle in pain, but he could only watch her heart break to powder.

Her fiery love, watery affection shook him, and her silky and tenacious feelings wrapped him tightly.

He stared at her, stared at her who was excited in his heart, he knew the pain in her heart, knew her love and sorrow, because at this moment, he was also enduring all this, and he was more desolate than her.

He wanted to tell her, tell her as it was, tell her that parting was just around the corner, but he didn't dare!

"My poor moon. He said to himself, "I really can't explain it to you!"

He looked at her apologetically, and said in a very calm tone:

"Leng Yue, I don't know what to say, how to say it......"

He hesitated for a moment, and many of the past events with her swirled before his eyes like windmills.

He sighed and shook his head again.

"Man cannot live in this world without this society. He said quietly: "People can't just live by love, they need a lot of things." You won't be happy when the whole world is against you, will you? We're all family people, aren't you afraid that people who know you will know what negative effects will there be? Aren't you afraid that the spitting stars will drown you?"

Hearing such a long set of theories from Yuan Shan, Leng Yue glanced sideways at him, and suddenly laughed again.

"What are you laughing at?"

Yuanshan asked in confusion.

"I laugh at myself for not being able to do anything about myself!" Leng Yue said hoarsely: "Laugh at myself for not knowing current affairs, and I want to go to the theory of 'iron mouth and steel teeth' that is recognized by the people of the whole city! I also laugh at myself, I have known you for so long before I heard your wonderful class! But don't you think this class is a bit late? If you have a family and a mouth, you shouldn't have flesh and blood and feelings!? Should it be a stone? If not, you're a bad guy! You should be drowned by a spitting star?"