Life is like a dream, ethereal, endless, when one day suddenly look back, will you still remember where you came from, do you still remember, once made but never kept?

It seems to remember ...

But I also forgot.

In this dream, you can't stop fate, and you can't see the future. Your role in the dream is nothing more than that of a lonely traveler, walking in the middle of an endless wasteland. Maybe one day, you will climb over that unreachable mountain, but what will be the scene at that end of the mountain?

I suddenly felt so tired that I didn't even have the strength to breathe. I just want to sleep quietly and never wake up, but no matter how much I pray, the sun will still rise early the next day, and the joys and sorrows of the world will be taken clearly.

I've been thinking that I may really not deserve love now, don't look at how beautiful the world describes love, but in my eyes, it is undoubtedly a flower made of ice, which will melt from time to time when I hold it in my hand, and finally when I spread out my palm, I found that I couldn't keep anything, and all I could leave was that kind of biting coldness.

In these endless years, I have asked myself more than once, maybe I was wrong from the beginning, the fault was that I should not be a teacher, let alone know her. In that case, it wouldn't be where it is today. People like me are originally contradictory existences, as a descendant of the Nangong family, I have been destined by the way of heaven since the day I was born, and guarding the burial dragon pit is my true value, and I must not allow the slightest disobedience, otherwise I will be punished by heaven, so that life is worse than death, in order to verify the majesty of heaven, it is absolutely impossible for people to violate.

I have always had a fluke mentality, I just want to be an ordinary ordinary person, I don't want to die at all The glory of the family and the mission of guarding the burial dragon pit, but it backfired, I was born with a Buddha seal, and became the only descendant of the Nangong family who can inherit the "Ancient Buddhist Book", but the price is that I have been an orphan since I was a child.

I don't know if I should thank Grandpa or blame Grandpa...

Thanks to my grandfather for giving me 18 years to be the same time as a normal child, happy and carefree, it was not until I was 18 years old that I was really introduced to the Tao and passed on my "Taikoo Buddhist Book".

It is precisely because my grandfather gave me eighteen years of carefree that I was deeply trapped in it and couldn't extricate myself, and I didn't realize that my fate had been doomed, and I could only dedicate myself to Taoism in this life, and there was no room for anything.

If my grandfather had put everything on my shoulders since the day I was born, maybe I wouldn't have indulged in that already empty emotion, let alone fallen into it and sunk into the sea of misery...

The last words she left me were "hate me for the rest of my life", yes, she should hate me for the rest of her life, if it weren't for me, she wouldn't have suffered from it, and if it wasn't for me, she wouldn't have lost the love of her parents. The root cause is that I have no self-knowledge, I want to fight against fate, and I don't even know whether I want to have a love of my own, which is simply a big joke, so that in the end, I hurt others and hurt myself, covered with three thousand waters, and my liver and intestines were broken.

How many years later, when I met Lao Qidu again with a new identity, he once asked me, "Nangong, did you regret it at that time?"

I said that I have never regretted it, I have never resented the fate of being born in the Daomen, but I only hated that my cultivation was too low and I couldn't achieve great success as soon as possible, and I was called a natural genius in vain, and I couldn't stop her from risking my life for me, and I couldn't stop that disgusting conspiracy.

After listening to it, Lao Yu laughed suddenly, and didn't say more...

In that half-month of living like a year, I didn't do anything, my brain was blank, and I didn't know that there was an extra strand of silver on my sideburns. During the day, I hid in the dementor tower, sat alone on the second floor of the pagoda, looked at the Buddha statue of the twenty-four sons of heaven in a daze, and lay on the roof of the main hall of Huilongguan at night to look at the starry sky.

Lao Zhi passed by several times and wanted to persuade a few words, but the words came to his mouth and he swallowed them back.

He knew that at this moment, all I needed most was silence. Then he lay half-asleep in front of the temple gate and guarded me, for fear that I would go crazy and do stupid things for no reason.

A few times Xiao Jingyu came to see me, followed by Jing Dong with a cold face, every time at this time, Lao Yu would take the initiative to find fault, but Jing Dong was like he couldn't see him, just stared at me indifferently, and the angry old man was like thunder, but I couldn't hear him scolding anything.

When dawn comes, I will return to the Dementor Tower, and Lao Yu will practice in the warehouse where he temporarily lives, and when it is dusk, he will wander around in the Huilongguan, waiting for an opportunity to seek revenge on Jingdong. After several provocations to no avail, Lao Zhi lost patience, and seeing that he and Jingyu often came to see me, the resentment in his heart also faded a lot, so he stopped looking for Jingdong's awkwardness.

But Lao Yu is not a person who can be idle, Jing Yan ordered, if anyone dares to talk to me and Lao Gai, he will be expelled directly from Huilongguan, and he will no longer be a disciple of the Laoshan faction. As soon as these words came out, except for Jingdong Jingyu as usual, the rest of the Huilongguan Taoist priests were like seeing me and Lao Yu, as if they had seen a plague god, so they were afraid to avoid it, and some even took a detour. I don't care, but I always have to find something to do, so I often patronize the canteen of Huilongguan, and the cooks in the Taoist temple are often lacking in the east and west, and there are a few times when the old man pierces the water pipe in the kitchen, and hundreds of disciples in Huilongguan are hungry.

This made Jing Yan very angry, we were not happy to see it, and Lao Zhi often made trouble, so he came several times to drive us away from Huilongguan, but because I and Lao Jia are the descendants of the Nangong family and the Hu family, we can't be hard, we can only use language to insult and abuse, but in the end, we were scolded back by Lao Zhi.

After a few times, Jing Yan found that the key to deciding whether we should stay was me and not Lao Giv, Lao Giv was a natural stinky scoundrel, soft and hard had no effect at all, and in the end, he couldn't beat the fox and provoked a commotion, and the gains outweighed the losses.

But he couldn't find me during the day, and later found that I would sit on the roof at night, so while the old man was away, Jing Yan took a group of Taoist priests to block me at night. Seeing that I was just lying on the roof of the main hall in a daze, I was deaf to his words, and for a moment I was angry and thunderous, and I was so angry that I was scolded and scolded, and finally I was so angry that I was hit with a stone!

The stone hit my face, not only did I not feel the slightest pain, but my heart would be unusually happy, and I couldn't help but ask again and again: "Who are you marrying is not good, but you are married to one of your relatives, how can this teach me to bless you?"

A group of little Taoist priests didn't react at all when they saw me being beaten, and they relied on the support of Jing Yan, an apprentice in the prison, to be even more unscrupulous, no matter what they were holding in their hands, they threw me wildly, I didn't use the slightest bit of vitality in my body, I just blindly endured it, maybe this will make me feel comfortable.

Since then, I have become a fool in the mouth of Taoist priests, who don't know how to dodge or cry out in pain.

A few times, the old man saw that I was bruised all over my body, and there were a lot of blood stains on my face, and I thought that I had fallen from the main hall, but when I inquired about Xiao Jingyu, I knew that I was beaten by Jingyan and them.

Lao Yu went to Jing Yan in a rage to take revenge, and for a while, the whole Huilongguan was a chicken, a dog, and all the Laoshan disciples were noisy, and Lao Yu scolded a group of Taoist priests alone, and the scene was extremely spectacular.

But helplessly, Jingyan and they are outnumbered, although Lao Yu is experienced in a hundred battles, but in front of dozens of big mouths, he can only admit it, and he can't get cheap at all, so he can only hide back in the warehouse again in anger, and when he comes back again, I have already entered the Dementor Tower, and continue to look at the twenty-four heavens in a daze.